You Pushed Me To The Edge

You made me doubt myself
my appearance
my ways
you pointed every single flaw that i had out to me
you made me hate myself
i woke up everyday hoping i wasn't myself
i stayed up at night hoping i wouldn't wake up 2 more of your painful words
I believed i was a screw up
a mistake
a freak of a kid
that i was unwanted
i wanted to just die
you pushed me to the edge
You ruined our family
you made all three of you daughters hate you
you cause mom to go into depression
you caused me to go into depression
you made me believe i was crazy
that i belonged in a mental institution
you made me feel unloved and unwanted
i stopped believing in trust
in love
in a family
you pushed me to the edge
and for that i hate you!

Do i knew You !!

How could you do this? I should have known something was amiss. You abused my trust With one thrust Of a dagger sharpened by lies I want to know why. I trusted you Did I ever really know you? Who are you to do this? I now see what all was amiss. You are not a true friend. I am bringing this to an end. I hope you see how I feel For now the betrayal is forever sealed

Curiosity

A hundred years hence your a dusted relic in a photo album Seeing the light of day when recalled on a cold machine As some byte grown out of some fond curiosity By a future relative looking up your family tree. When you lived you lived a life full of wonder and joy. You accomplished it all: the kids, the house, the gold. You walked on the grandest yellow brick road But now your a dusted relic in a photo album. They read you, your accomplishments, your dreams The places you got your kicks, your habits, your hangouts, Nights at the opera, even your checkered past; But now you see the light of day when recalled on a cold machine. Your in remembrance now, stuck in some overgrown musty grave, With an inscription: He came, He went, He gave How they sneered at you under the dusty desert sky; Now your just a computer byte brought out for their fond curiosity. They looked back, dug up their roots, even left you alone for years. Yet here you are on some tree chart, with a grand old smile and a bib around your neck; You look silly, but what do you know? they know it all! Your just a relic to a future relative looking up their family tree. Do not despair, old soul that once called earth home, No, do not despair! You found your resting place beyond this grave. If only you knew how they envy you now, for they never rest of their despair, They hold all your old fears, a hundred years hence They too are a dusted relic brought out by some fond curiosity.

Th Woman Of My Dreams

I know that she has told me lies, but I still think of her when I close my eyes. 
I know I'm not the best she'll do, I still don't care my love is true. 
I want to give her all I can, I want to have her, to hold her hand. 
I see her in my dreams at night, to live without her is a constant fight. 
I see her live without a care while I sit dying it isn't fair. 
I fear that I will never move on, while this girl my eyes remain fixed upon. 
I love her completely and without exception,
for her I would die, a deadly transaction. 
My heart is hers whether she wants it or not, 
while I'm without her my soul will rot. 
I'll die alone or so it seems, I'll never be happy without the woman of my dreams.

What love is !!!!

Love is a burning candle
It's not always easy to handle
It burns, but it's still beautiful
And it makes celebrations oh so meaningful
It's a sunset
Burning with romance
A song...
That makes you want to dance...

She will never know !!

When did my feelings get so deep
Why did they take that big long leap
Going from friend to crush 
What a rush
And I don't think she knows
Since when did her smile make me go weak
Since when did her tears make mine start to leak
Why does this happen when I'm always so strong
When people called me Superman I guess they were wrong
And I don't think she knows
When she talks I cant help but watch her lips
To notice their shape and curves when they dip
Wait, why am I looking? I don't even know
And I cant help but wonder if she even knows
Her beautiful eyes are nothing like ours
They're so deep and bright you'd believe they were stars
They pour forth emotions in raging rivers
They could make even me believe that Santa always delivers
And still she has no idea
Her body is perfection though she denies it
It makes my head spin with every glance I give
She could put any man under her spell
But she doesn't know how I feel and I don't think I'll tell
I love how she looks and who she is
And how she makes me feel like this
I love how she's beautiful and smart with a heart so strong
And how she lives every day like nothing could go wrong
Still she hasn't got a clue
Now school is at an end on the 11th at noon
I wonder if she cares that I'm moving soon
We're parting that day after schools many months
I just wish I could have kissed her just once
Now that I've said it with my poetic skill 
I don't think she knew, and now she never will

Is there life after love !!!

My heart has been broken by someone I love, 
how to forget is a gift from above. 
You did what you did for reasons unknown 
and all the while I was cut to the bone. 
The wound is now healing but the scars will remain, 
how do I continue and still feel the same.. 
Being true to oneself is all that it takes 
to realize where we have made mistakes, 
Should I go or should I stay 
as Ill always wonder what happened that day. 
Is there life after love, 
does anyone know 
or just memories of feelings that have been torn away. 
How do I close my eyes to the fact that you will throw me away on the strength of a shag!

Find love again !!

I gave you my heart

And you gave it back

When we split apart

My heart was a whole of black.

I said I Love You

I meant it with all I had

You didn't think it was true

Which left me so mad.

September was the end of us

I couldn't let you go,

I still meant to impress

Hoping it would let you know

That I still need you,

And wanted to be happy.

But you knew

That we both would just end up unhappy.

I didn't talk to you

For the longest time.

I was so blue

To give a dime.

To me you are someone else I knew

Than other people saw.

I didn't go with the flow

Ending in me hating you.

How things have occurred

To where there is no good between us.

Which has become absurd

And much stress.

I just want to forgive and forget

Start over like we never knew one another.

Act like we just met

And one day be close like any other!

The One Who Got Away

My heart literally hurts
My chest is in pain
Life without you
Will never be the same
I can’t blame you
Because I did you wrong too
But now that it’s officially over
I don’t know what to do
We started out as friends
As I denied my feelings
You came to me
You wanted more, with more meaning
I did but I was scared
When you tried to be there, I left
I thought you were better than me
The best man I ever met
As time went on
I regretted my actions
Got caught up in my insecurities
They stopped me from acting
I couldn’t believe you chose me
When I knew you deserve better
So I carried on,
As if I never met you
I finally got the nerve
To look you in the eye
Such a beautiful man you are
It shook me inside
I tried to mend what I tore
But the damage was done
I came back too late
You found someone
I’ll never forget your smile
I’ll never forget your kiss
But your presence in my life
Will forever be missed

Shattered Heart

Some say a broken heart is like a shattered vase

Fragile pieces scattered all over the place.

The shattered pieces of broken glass seem to go everywhere

Unlike the pieces of a broken heart that seem to pierce your soul.

With faith and hope you try to mend the broken heart

Unlike the vase it cannot be so easily replaced.

It takes a while to mend it and then you lock it up

You hide the key and wait to see if someone can be found

A special person who will use the key to unlock the heart

A unique person who will handle the heart with gentle hands,

Who can be honest, truthful and handle it with care.

My heart and I wonder is there really that kind of person out there.

Christmas Wish

I wanted for Christmas you to be mine

I wrote this before it was that time

I hoped that there had been sufficient time passed

for you to take me back and start again at long last

I gave you time and now I can see

the best I can give you is freedom from me

I make this decision because I feel I must

it appears I'll never gain back that trust

I want you to know that no matter what

there wont come a time you don't drive me nuts

not the kind that gets people admitted

the better one, being forever and always committed

I must give that up and cancel my mission

I guess our love will never meet fruition

a terrible mistake cost me my dreams

inside I'm dying, filled with screams

it is this day Christmas 08

I knowingly choose to change my fate

no longer will I bother you

with idle threats of love so true

I will cease to be in your life

just as you've chosen not to be my wife

I don't like it, it shatters my dreams

but I have no thread left holding my seams

rather than staying the rug on the floor

I stand, a man, and walk out the door

I wanted to fill a box with a ring

but you've made it clear that's not the right thing

I'm sorry I wasted so much of your time

with my problems unending and these silly rhymes

instead all I have is this here note

the tears are pouring, they'd fill a moat

I wipe them away and stand once more

over broken dreams I walk to the door

as I walk I glance back

so uncertain of what I lack

matter it doesn't because this here door

WILL BE CLOSED. WILL BE LOCKED. WILL BE OPEN NO MORE

True Joy

I'll be happy once I've done this certain thing.

We all say this often not realizing what it brings.

We look only to the future for our happiness.

Letting life slip through our fingers in its fullness.

Will we really feel complete when the task is done, 

or look back and see how we missed so much fun?

Self consumed so we can't see anything else, 

hurting those we love as well as ourselves.

So many things around us to be grateful for, 

when seeking for an answer willingly open the door.

So often, others see what's in front of our face, 

but we're too blind to look as we're snared in the race.

What is this life supposed to be about?

Is it money, fortune, fame, or a big house?

When speaking to a man on his dying bed, 

none of these answers are what he said.

Family, love, laughter are what we should seek.

These are the precious things right outside your door.

Keep On Smiling

If at times you feel you want to cry.

And life seems such a trial.

Above the clouds there’s a bright blue sky 

So make your tears a smile. 

As you travel on life’s way 

With its many ups and downs 

Remember it’s quite true to say 

One smile is worth a dozen frowns. 

Among the worlds expensive things 

A smile is very cheap 

And when you give a smile away, 

You get one back to keep. 

Happiness comes at times to all 

But sadness comes unbidden 

And sometimes a few tears must fall 

Among the laughter hidden. 

So when friends have sadness on their face 

And troubles round them piled 

The world will seem a better place 

And all because you smiled. 

You

Would you care if we quit talking

Would you care if I went walking

I need to know how you feel

So I know how to deal

I like it when your by my side

I hate it when you try to hide

All the cheating and the lies

Brings me one step closer to saying goodbye

I know the cheating is a fact

because I've caught you in the act

I wish I had more trust in you

but it's kinda hard when I busted you

Seems to me you wouldn't care

even if I wasn't there

I always wonder who your with

hoping it's not another chick

I'm not saying I don't believe you

it's just too many people have told me to leave you

But you are everything to me

which is why I want you me to always be

Believing you may be a mistake

but it's a risk I'm willing to take

I really love you, always know I do

and remember there will always be a me and you

Miles away

I'm getting insane
Of the distance we have
How can we be together
Is there any way
For us to get closer
No calls nor letters
Just sadness and tears
When this all be end
This sorrow and pain
Time always keep us away
So hard to think this everyday
Wish I could dream of you
Every night when I'm asleep
For this is the only way
Only way for us to meet

The missing pieces of my heart

one thing I know for sure 

is that words could never take the place 

the place of how I feel 

I keep saying I'll never love again 

but every time I see you 

I see your smile, and feel your warm touch

I fall so deep for you 

you say you love him and not me 

I let you go but you keep coming back to my mind 

leaving my heart shredded

every time you walk away 

holding on till the day 

when you come back 

with the missing pieces of my heart

Not Here, Not Now

You come to me and go away like waves
You change moods like seasons change weather
Sometimes you act hard like a rock
Sometimes as light, soft, and nice as a feather 
With you it's on and off like light 
While I stay strong with great defense and might 
But I don't think I'll win the fight
My inconsolable heart can't take anymore
You're putting me down
All the way to the floor 
Just like the ocean will never run out of water 
Just like the sky won't ever change to another color 
I don't want to run out of your love 
Like peanut butter and jelly, I want us to be together 
You and me
Me and you
Always and forever...
I said hello 
But I don't want to say goodbye 
Not here, not now, not today
Not for a senseless reason
Not this way

Heal from broken heart

as I lay here staring out the window
our memories flowing through my mind
holding back as a tear hits the pillow
scared of thoughts I might find.
telling myself I'll be stronger tomorrow
if you would just come back until then
but instead it's constant sorrow
now I have nothing for he was my sin.
as time should heal all things
it feels as if it's going so slow
crying, careless what life brings
but I do not dare to let it show.
for he was my love 
now that is gone
telling myself I'll be happier another day
until then 
wondering what went wrong
thinking why didn't he stay.
I rather just cry now and not hurt later
and ask myself why this happened to me
telling myself it'll soon get better
I really hope 
I believe