Til i believe

Sometimes I believe that this world is not for me.

And sometimes I believe that I'm done waiting for someone for me.

And then sometimes I believe that life is no longer worth living for someone like me.

But then sometimes I think it can all be taken away with just a blink.

So I hold on, 

hold out for now til I believe that you no longer need me. 

Timeless

Walking slowly into the dark
I feel so good within the black, 
The coolness of an June night, 
Vanishing shapes, bottomless sky.
For witness of this late wandering
So far away, the weak starlight.
Silence around, a darken pond.
My steps amazingly so loud
That they made stop the frogs' song.
For some moment, the time slowed down,
Bringing an interlude in life:
Through what was left of the landscape,
All blurred into sullen disguises,
I was also left to my mind,
As a sunflower in the night,
Turning back to its inside.
Within this moment, out of time,
I surely felt the starting life.
This invisible air from outside,
Was so serene and was so quiet,
That it nurtured my deep inside.
Back to myself, I had found Life,
Deeply sparkling through each disguise,
The tree's, the bird's and also mine,
Revealed, though covered, by Human at Night.
:
Delicate scent of a timeless place!
Promise of the bliss, to breathe!

The wings of tenderness

The tenderness has wings
on which hope is striving to build
A home made of eternal links.
When tenderness has gone,
When hope in pieces is torn,
The wind preys on it close.
It carries it through its blow.
Anxious questions then from this flow:
Where does hope fly? Where does it go?
How can it dawn? Can it slow down?
Hustled in the air, here and there,
By cold or hot downpours drenched,
Swung into storms, dived into clouds,
Is there a hope for hope to fall
Within some eyes, some mind, some soul?
A way to bring back a life's glow
In hollow man, in a shadow?
A sweet heart in some corner,
Some lovely words told in whispers,
Have a power that some do know:
They make the wind slow down and bow
To let hope flee and find a way
Out of all trouble.
The wind can blow, the rain can fall,
When tenderness is back again,
all wings unfurled, kissing the air,
Hope can breast and it can brave
All frightening storms, bitter despair. 

You’re watching over me.

Death was something I never wished upon you
I still feel like there was something we could do
to bring you back, erase the past
and make all the memories we had last
You were stronger than any man I knew
and the accident you had, ended you 
now a piece of my heart is missing
and the only thing i do, is keep reminiscing 
I’m weaker now; everyone can tell 
that ever since you left, my life’s been a living hell
crying myself to sleep at night
nothing makes sense anymore, nothing’s right
It’s been a year .. eight years, feels like forever
and each night I pray, that things will get better
I have to accept that you’re gone, let it be
as long as I know, you’re watching over me. 

Willows leaves

I sit alone beneath a weeping willow tree 
To ponder thoughts I keep in memory; 
The sky above is a delicate gentle blue 
As were your eyes, alight with love so true. 
I never asked that we be here forever 
Only that we stroll through this life together; 
It didn't seem too much to ask for then 
Had I to do it over I would ask the same again. 
You deserved much better than you got from life 
You knew only hardship and bitter strife; 
I pray that it wasn't altogether all my fault 
That it may ease my conscience in my thought. 
I will always hope to meet you by and by 
Amidst peace and happiness somewhere in the sky; 
If it be the will of God above 
We may dwell always in the light of love. 
As a little child cries into its pillow soft 
I hear a faint weeping coming from aloft; 
Might it be only the sound of a vagrant breeze 
Flowing sadly through the weeping willows leaves?

I can See

I can see my heart stopping and beating once again, blood coated in a torrent of my broken-dreams.
I can see the mask I put on again and again, only to show those exactly who they didn’t know.
I can see the tear singly falling in the deep currents of pain that controlled it. Driving it to be lost in the vastness of endless tear-dropped sea currents.
I can see my lungs pumping fast and hard, then stopping with the hope that they’ll never have to start again, and then crying with the pain of starting once again.
I can see my feet running forever. Never stopping. Always looking back.
I can see my eyes bleeding, forever the witness to pain and suffering.
I can see my hands cutting, trying to understand what true pain felt like.
I can see my mouth twisting, forever tormented to be stuck in a smile chosen to be pleasing.
I can see my ears screaming, trying to drown out the noise of anguish and pain.
I can see my skin burning, always never warm enough to help.
I can see my soul screaming, and I’m free falling in my soul of darkness.

Never Never Give up

The silence masseurs my sound barrier
Breaking all that I am left inside, insanity
Letting go of the ones I care about
It’s become an art form, graceful
It seems it’s the only thing I’m good for
Holding on till there is nothing left for me to hold
It slips between my fingers, in vain
I’m nothing more then a lonely memory
Left to die in my own fabrication of this life
I feel like my existence is falling to pieces
And I can’t help but deem this is my sentence
Lost to comfort, all kinds of words unexpressed
It’s my own silence that I’ve been condemned
Lost to advice, that’s never followed
It’s my decisions that founded my seclusion
Lost to those who really care
Or maybe more to the ones that really don’t
All these people are locked inside
Until the day I free them from my mind
Lost within the darkness
Lost beneath the light
I’ve run out of road to pursue
I’ve got nowhere left to hide
Step out into the sun
Sleep outside beneath the stars
I must burn down this barricade
Before it drowns out all strength
I will succeed and I will get lost
And with any luck, once the two collide
I will blossom in my dream, my dream
Maybe its then when being lost
Will my sense of failure simply just, vanish 

Human !

Why some of things remain as ever? 
Beautiful and liked by others forever
Rose doesn't give up its fervor
So is the pride and honor
We as human beings remain and suffer
To see people, their behavior and simple offer
Their warring path and eagerness for peace
Yet goal same to remain and live at ease 
Good people always remain calm and quiet 
Let the luck be cruel or with uncertain fate 
They know for sure that it is all by destiny 
Decided and given to us by almighty 
Why to leave goodness then for paltry gain? 
Cause bitterness and make others to suffer with pain
It is good to have sufferings for confidence 
Rather than passing it to others at once 
Dark clouds disappear with passing of time
Nothing remains permanent any time 
Think of good and deliver the best 
This is the crucial time and good test 
As days don't change and nights remain? 
Why at all we throw goodness in drain? 
Wealth, property and kingdoms may vanish 
Good name and fame may remain and will not finish 
Human life is as such beautiful and lively 
We can add sorrow, pain joy and laughter readily
It needs broadness at heart and will power
Clouds are there to watch and happily shower 

Treasure

Forever in my heart.
Radiantly shining in my eyes.
I love you beyond measure.
Every time I think of you, I smile.
Nicer than others you have been to me.
Digging deep, I shall find no treasure worth more than you.

The Nile

Even though you're not here, you're here.
You are the smile on my face.
Even though you're far away, you are oh, so near.
I'm surrounded by reflections of your grace.
You fill every space of my heart, 
It keeps beat to your melodious tune.
Your picture in my mind is a great piece of art.
Each time I view it all I can do is swoon.
Your touch makes me shiver and shake
Even though on its mem'ry I depend.
The breeze on my bod makes me do a double take, 
For it reminds me of the touch of my friend.
My eyes jumped for joy when you appeared.
My jaw ached from my enormous smile.
With bolts of love my heart was speared, 
Its contents more voluminous than the Nile.

They say dreams never do come true

They say dreams never do come true..
But they are wrong, I say they do 
I dream of violence, I dream of hurt
I dream of children, they live in dirt
I dream of you, I dream of me
I dream of how this was never meant to be
I dream of my feelings, I dream of my thoughts
I dream of these things, I dream of them lots
I dream of my loved ones, I dream of the dead
I dream of these thoughts, exploding my head
I dream of you yelling, I dream of you crying 
I dream of you hiding, I dream of you lying
I dream of you hurting, I dream of you shutting me out of your life
I dream of the of the only one I can trust, I dream of my knife.
They say dreams never do come true, 
But they are wrong, I say they do. 

Freedom

Freedom from hunger and freedom from pain
freedom from loss and so freedom from gain.
Freedom to give and freedom to share
freedom from want and that of despair.
Freedom to think and freedom to know
freedom to achieve and freedom to grow.
Freedom from bondage and freedom of liberation
freedom from ignorance and any unknown situation.
Freedom to come and freedom to leave
freedom to stay and freedom to conceive.
Freedom from struggle and freedom of ease
freedom to enjoy and the capacity to please.
Freedom from failure and freedom of success
freedom from denial and freedom of access.
Freedom from illusion and freedom of reality
freedom to become what we are in actuality.
Freedom to live and freedom to die
freedom to laugh and freedom to cry.
Freedom to speak and freedom to listen
freedom to act based on a wise decision.
Freedom from hate and freedom of love
freedom of below and freedom of above.
Freedom of the past and freedom of the present
freedom of the future and what it can represent.
Freedom from war and freedom of peace
freedom to begin and freedom to cease.
Freedom from sickness and freedom of health
freedom from poverty and mishandled wealth.
Freedom from wrong and freedom being right
freedom of the day and freedom of the night.
Freedom to choose and freedom to reject
freedom to imagine what there is to expect.
Freedom from lust and freedom from greed
freedom from anger and freedom from breed.
Freedom from jealousy and freedom from pride
freedom from within and freedom from outside.
Freedom of always not having anything to hide.
Freedom from space and also freedom from time
freedom from attachment and freedom from crime 
Freedom to work and freedom to play
freedom to believe and freedom to pray.
Freedom to experience a rebirth someday.
Freedom from the body and freedom from the mind
freedom from the ego and freedom from being blind.
Freedom of transcendence being of the spiritual kind.
Universal freedom is eternal and infinite bliss
we should all therefore be able to realise this.

Why does the songbird's

Gentle sound
Make our hearts sing? 
Spread harmony around
Why, with the sight of the eagle
Do we suddenly feel weak? 
In comparison to its glory
We can all but muter or speak
What are you? 
Sympathetic canary
To peal my eye from them
Not strong, not beautiful
With wit that’s all but dim
So why then dear canary
Do they say you great bird
When you are not blessed? 
Do you deserve the word? 
But my head has turned
For the canary speaks
His wisdom words to me
“Oh, foolish human
Can you not see? 
There is no difference here
Between them and me
It is all in your head
They seem majestic, so great
But that is to you
For we are all sealed to the same fate

THE WORLD PEACE

In quest of world peace
I am knocking door to door
taking my bag of alms
seeking alms of world peace
I am knocking door to door
No one is my own in this world
but every one seems to be my own
Thus, I pray thee Lord
to give love, peace and prosperity
to every one.
I pray thee Lord
to give his kind vision
to the people of this world
for a peaceful and prosperous life
I pray thee Lord
to bless the people of this world
to lead them a joyful life
free from disease, pains and poverty
May the people of this world
lead a cheerful life
I pray thee Almighty
to enlighten the people of this world
I am knocking door to door
collecting alms of peace
from door to door and
disbursing to the people of this world

My beautiful world

My Beautiful World is kind
My Beautiful World is sweet
My Beautiful World is nice
My Beautiful World is generous
My Beautiful World is selfless
My Beautiful World has given me everything i need, and then some
I love My Beautiful World, and My Beautiful World loves me
I am the only one on My Beautiful World
But i am not lonely, not in the least bit
My Beautiful World and I have each other
But...there is a problem
My Beautiful World is tired
My Beautiful World is sore
My Beautiful world has wounds and scars
Some will never heal
I do everything i can to help
My Beautiful World wants to explode
and the thing is...
I'm still on My Beautiful World
So if she explodes, I explode with her
It would be an honor to go like that...
But that is not how i want it to end
I want to be on My Beautiful World forever
If you haven't figured it out yet
My Beautiful world isn't a world at all
She is a very special person...
who happens to mean the world to me.

Because of you

Because of you, I can now see
You’ve given me your energy
Because of you, I am now free
Free from the hurt and misery
Because of you love came to me
A love that’s bound by honesty
Because of you, I came to be
Being with you is destiny
Because of you, I have no past
You’ve given me a love to last
Because of you, I’m no outcast
My love for you is unsurpassed
Because of you, Life’s not a strain
You took away most of my pain
Because of you, I feel again
Feel love for you I can’t contain
Because of you, I now feel strong
Stronger to know our love’s not wrong
Because of you I now belong
Fate brought me to you all along

The mystery of a woman’s heart

The mystery of a woman’s heart is ever changing and complicated
In the moment you think she’ll walk away – you’ll find she’s waited
Surviving in a world of worry and fear of your confession
Confident your relationship will spiral into a state or regression
The depths of her heart will surprise you with a smile of forgiveness
Guilt will burden you and relief will hold you helpless
Yet, when you cut her a look, know that it is her heart that will bleed
As it is through you that she lives, eats and breathes
Her temper deeply embedded and subdued; but only for you
Please don’t break her trust because to forget is difficult for her to do
She’ll put her heart into everything she does because there’s no other way
And all that’s expected in return is gratitude and appreciation without delay
The mystery of a woman’s heart runs deeper than the character you hold
Higher than the feelings of love in a relationship before it grows old
Your embrace will suffice her for eternity and your kiss, she will forever taste
Through good and bad, she’s a living rock of loyalty without hesitation or waste
Her existence is only relevant to her because of those she loves
To have her heart broken is a devastation that no living man could judge
With a heart so warm and unrestrained, it lights up her very soul
And yet the love that floods within it can turn her into someone you don’t know
So, the next time you see the woman who has hold of your heart
Remember, you don’t quite know her yet but you’ve got a good start
Five years from now, you’ll have an idea of the depth of her and the love she has
And then she will evolve once again, into a new revelation with a heart built to last
Never will he understand the centricities of her heart or the grace of her love
As she, herself, is often shocked by the flower that blooms from her bud.

Life And Love

I am not one with seasons past
Not even one with yesterday
My memories are not freshly cast
Thrust deeply in my mind today…
I remember a Summer when
Our family was together as one
But this is now and that was then
It certainly is completely undone.
I still reflect with fond recall
The summers spent with you
But like the leaves that die in fall
The season passed again adieu
The Winter was my discontent
Must wait for Spring to rise, but then
That time came to represent
A cause abandoned once again
Another year passed to Spring
When we would once again begin
Undoing past mistakes and bring
To surface, my love for you within 
So yes, my dear, I'm often asked
Of remembrances found
And ours is the simplest, task
Just turn the past around…
And seek the joy of that which may
Be ours, as we have defined
Both our hearts embraced today
For love knows no state of mind

A Secret Love

Sometimes we keep our love a secret 
never giving it a chance to bloom 
viewing it from afar 
in case too close it may hurt. 
Sometimes we lose it 
having never tasted the nectar 
that we might have had within our grasp 
if we had not kept it secret 
of the yearning that we had. 
Our secret love then becomes a memory, 
the impossible dream of no reality 
a distant ache in our heart 
that never goes away.

RESPECT

Respect is a lesson that everyone should learn
Respect must be given before an expected return
Respect is something that’s given for free
Respect is about us and never about me
Respect is the basis on which relationships are founded
Respect is the anchor that keeps a person well grounded
Respect builds the character and defines who we are
Respect sets the standard and raises the bar
Respect is magnanimous and helps to fulfil
Respect is the partner that sits with good will
Respect is like honey so sweet it’s perceived
Respect a taste to savour for when it’s received