honored promise.

When the sun will set over our crowns of ego, there will be few seconds left no time for regrets... Thousand of memories will struggling silently to pictured itself in the apple of our fading colors, 
until horizon will hold that priceless last Ray, until the light will dimming in that deep blue infinity carring countless unfinished hopes into the land of oblivion, 
at this very moment.. I give you my honored promise... I'll only recall your name.

To you.. who sow wisdom

To you who sow wisdom will reap plenty of intelligence and adorn them on your mind like gracious morning sunbeam.
wits for it will not vanish from the dusk to dawn and blessings from heaven with an angels sing the daybreak tune.
To you who plow thousand fields of honor and integrity, who count pearls in the oceans and dive into the deepest sea with minimal understands how life goes in a simple way, and how humans secrets keep.
whichever... there's no place to escape away from reality, nor escape from reveal.
To you who can't say a word, your silence always in my mind screams, hidden a thousand answers with a tenderly dream.
To you who have the reason to deem, judge not thy who... who writes impossible dream, let him reap the result of thy tilling, and fill his baskets with hope, to the journey he is simply failed to aim.

A day before I giving birth.

When fear puts you in dismay
It may be hard to find your way
When this is so, stand up and say
That the fear just cannot stay
And then the fear will go away.
Though I lack the courage
To heed my own words
I urge you to listen
To what you have heard
Stand up to your fears whatever they are
And show them that they can't stop you from being a star

أ.. ب .. سياسه

سئل  طفل والده : ما معنى الفساد السياسي
فأجابه : لن أخبرك يا بني لانه صعب عليك في هذا السن،لكن دعني أقرب لك الموضوع
انا اصرف على البيت لذلك فلنطلق علي اسم الرأسمالية...
و امك تنظم شؤون البيت لذلك سنطلق عليها اسم الحكومة...
و انت تحت تصرفها لذلك فسنطلق عليك اسم الشعب...
و اخوك الصغير هو املنا فسنطلق عليه اسم المستقبل...
اما الخادمة التي عندنا فهي تعيش من ورائنا فسنطلق عليها اسم القوى الكادحة
اذهب يا بني وفكر عساك تصل الى نتيجة.....
و في الليل لم يستطع الطفل ان ينام .. فنهض من نومه قلقآ و سمع صوت أخيه الصغير يبكي فذهب اليه فوجده بل حفاضته.
ذهب ليخبر امه فوجدها غارقة في نوم عميق ولم تستيقظ ،
و تعجب أن والده ليس نائما بجوارها..
فذهب باحثآ عن أبيه
فنظر من ثقب الباب الى غرفة الخادمة فوجد أبوه معها بوضع منافي للاخلاق ...
و في اليوم التالي
قال الولد لابيه! : لقد عرفت يا أبي معنى الفساد السياسي .
فقال الوالد: وماذا عرفت ..
قال الولد :
عندما تلهو الرأسمالية بالقوى الكادحة وتكون الحكومة نائمة في سبات عميق فيصبح الشعب قلقا تائها مهملاً تماماً و يصبح المستقبل غارقا في القذارة...

Moon day dust giving, birth to Sunday kissing

Ashes to ashes, dust to dust... The shattered remains of my broken trust,
Which has never been repaired
Because all this time I've been wounded and scared.
But if it ever could be done... I know that I'd be you.. the one.
To show me people aren't all bad.. and not everybody makes me sad.
You've made me weak and helped me grow, You've shown me things I've never known.
But the one thing I realized I was never knew, Is now I can't picture a life without you.

I started to love myself along ago... not ego.

When you look in the mirror what do you see?
is the person whose looking back the person you want to be?
Maybe you wish you were a bit taller
maybe you wish your ears were smaller
perhaps you would like to change your nose
have better feet and nicer toes
Maybe you wish you had a more attractive face
wider hips and a thinner waist
maybe you would like a broader chest
a flatter tummy and bigger breast
Many things about your body
you could complain about
you are unhappy with they way., you turned out
The way you look to others ... might cause you to feel rejected
all you want is to fit in, be loved and accepted
If that's they way you were made then what can you do?
First you have to start loving yourself and then, others will start loving you.

لا تسألني.. يا حبيبي.

لا تسالني يا حبيبي.. كيف هذا الحب جاء
لا تسالني يا حبيبي.. أين كان البدءُ... أين كان الإنتهاء
  لست ادري يا حبيبي... كل ما ادري أني لست أدري.. غير أن اليوم كان الأربعاء
والتقينا في رحاب الليل... عشنا وانتشينا.. ونسينا النوم والدنيا... وحتى الأصدقاء
وتكلمنا وطفنا الكون بالحب... نغرد كطائرين عاشقين .. من الغروب حتى المساء
ربما اللحظات طالت في الجفون ... ربما ضاع الوقت في عمق السكون ... ربما غبنا عن الارض وعدنا
يا حبيبي...  يا حبيبي لمسار الروح في عمق العيون
هذه اللحظات فاتت... فاتت... غير ان كلما مرت... يزيد بي الحنين
هذه اللحظات افديها بعمري... قد يهون العمر لكن لا تهون... ثم تسأل ما الذي قلنا .. وقلنا
يا حبيبي ... جن قلبي بصمتك  وما احلي الجنون
سمني ما شئت... لكن لا تسألني فكل ما قلناه... يعلو فوق ظني
كل ما توارى بين صمتك وصمتي .. يا حبيبي .. اصبح الان ترتيلي ولحني
همس الصمت من وحي الهوا... ليس منك يا حبيبي ليس مني
كنت صوت الحب ...  وانا كنت الصدي
أسأل...  أسأل الحب ولكن لا تسالني... سوف ياتيك الصدي بلحن التمني
فالاجلك... لأجلك اصبح الصمت يغني

Life can only be understood backwards

The best way to find what matters the most is to lose something precious to you. and It's nice to look back in your past when you see it as a lesson, not as something to regret. You know when life gets stressful, never forget the things you should remember, and remember the things you should forget. Life can only be understood backwards; but it must be lived forwards. Today I will. Pray more, worry less, laugh more, stress less, hug more and hurry less.
O,.. dear God, I woke up, I am healthy, I am alive, thank you. I apologize for all my complaining. I'm truly grateful for all you've done.

My angel.

You are my shadow, you are my rain, your are my lonely left only pain, you are my tears, you are my fears.. I'm restless even in my dreams.

Being slave to love.. is my free will.

Do we know what freedom is ..!
We are always see what we allow to see
We are always limited by bounds
We are always tied to something
We are always attracted to something
All of us should to die at the end; that's why we all are always limited by our lifetime, yet to be free .. completely free we need to never become a slaves to our own thinking and our own self. Understand that we are continuously changing, But...., in which way we will change is our free will.

I'm exactly where God wants me to be.

Things happen for a reason basically means that everything happens for good. All the things that happen to us in our lives are somewhere down the line, destined to happen.
Failures, turns and twists and adversities might break us down and lessen or morale completely. But even we should learn to take them in our stride and learn from every bad experience too. Tracey Gold had once remarked, “I don't believe things happen in vain. I believe they happen for a reason.” Everything that happens to us in our lives happens for good and teaches us a lesson. Perhaps one should learn from every kind of experience whether good or bad. People who keep their chin up even in the most testing circumstances can always end up making a lot out of their lives.
Believe me ... in our life Nothing happens by accident; you are exactly where God wants you to be.

lost hope

In the last month... I have suffered from burns in my body of the third degree. I fought my pain patiently by faith. And in the strongest times of my weakness I stood like anold lighthouse which wrestling those high waves of pain alone and bravery. But in moments of consciousness and perception... I was sure that the pain of losing one's last hope ... Will always remains more powerful in the smashing of my fading determination.

wounds.. never mend.

Somewhere far away, 
A star glows and hides behind the moon
The moon smiles and hides behind the clouds. Even the sun shines and hides behind a mountain.
Somewhere far far away.
Someone's heart whispers among voiceless opening seas, Tears flow down in streams of silent waters... When.. Memories rise beyond this helpless skies... And a true heart whispers cryingly in reply ... You he who still dreaming.. You gotta awake up, .. gotta .. awake up.

Fading strength,

The worst feeling in the world is knowing you did the best you could and it still wasn't good enough, Sometimes we all need someone who believes in us just a little bit more than we do ourselves in order for us to become stronger but, as much as we grave in this life or another What we allow, is what will continue. You know..! Sometimes I miss The old, Happy Me but i believe that; from pain something will grow from all i'm going through. And it will be me..

Unforgettable

Never forget that three types of people in your life.. Who helped you, who left you and who put you in your difficult time
Never forget that being good to people is like being a Goal Keeper, no matter how many goals you save, people .. will only remember the ones you Missed..!

trust in god.. "118672"

We forgive seeking for getting comfort from bile,
We forget hoping for new innocent clear smile,
We keep silent because there is no benefit in the argument to find,
We ignoring for there is nothing that will hold back reproach can find,
We are patient because our trust in the Creator has no limits,
We all knew that ...
The self always covetous yet the reasons are always failing.
The self is lost between despair and growling,
Do not be sad whenever the world shrinking around you while it grows wider for others,
And look at the moon and this darkness skies how they became more magnificence together,

Wounds

Wounds are a city of pain... You screams with the last breath of your fading determination.... And only the echo of your tears replying.

Every human being living on this earth hope for something
Poor people hope that one day money will come their way
The rich folks hope to multiply their assets before long
Several men hope for a wife who is as caring as their mother
Many women hope for husbands who is as loving as their father
Children always hope for parents who will give them everything
Bankers hope that everybody will pay their mortgages in time
Thieves and robbers hope the police should stop harassing them
While the police hope that every person will be law-abiding
Priests and clerics hope that everyone will live a sacred life
Experienced nurses hope the doctors will treat them with respect
Medical doctors hope their patients will recuperate faster
Careful drivers hope that other drivers will drive like them
Teachers hope all students will do their home-work regularly
While the students hope the teachers will give them easy exams,
Farmers always hope for good and abundant harvest
Lawyers hope more and more people will need their services
Fishermen hope that more and more fishes run into their nets
All politicians hope to get elected and re-elected
Employers hope their workers will volunteer for overtime
Even the mechanics always hope more people will buy used-vehicles
The point is .. Do you honestly can Distinguish the malignant and the good in your hopes...!
What are your personal hopes on this earth..! Is it still personal hopes..!
So... What are your hopes for your family ?
What are your hopes for your country ?
 What are your hopes for your environment.. Do you knew lately you will realize that the day we humans stop hoping on this earth..... Will be the day we cease to be members of this beautiful planet,

Through the sky.

Your love... Is love without ending as vast as the sea, mercy divine I'm sure forever it will be. infinite grace it has no end, eternal redemption the heavens you'll rend.
And all these flow down from a mountain so high, That it reaches the heavens.. Yes to heaven and bursts through the sky.
When I survey.. Into the heavens above, I'm awed by the vastness... I'm awed by only your love.
In this earth or another one day i'll stand on eternities shore,
How vast is your love...! I'm sure there is no more.
Only then ... I'll know how vast is the sea,
Only then ... I'll know that I Loved you eternally.

pain

I can't measure the pain fill my sight and that's the things I fear at night
Every time I try to lie on this strange bed, only pain I dare do dread
To stay safe, I hide under this sheet.. For I don't want pain to get more of my feet
Scary shadows are cast on my wall, by the nightlight in this unknown hall
Starting to sweat from the mind into the heat, I can't feel my hand, my leg even the heart sometimes it refuses begin to beat.
So scared and alone I want to cry, but if I make a noise I also might die
I feel like I have been hiding for a week and they will not find what they seek.
Waiting and hiding, is there nothing at all?
What are these things against my wall?
Peaking out with just one eye, Doctor and ...a nurse I still do spy
Maybe they aren't bad and not mean, o .. That is what it's starting to seem
Getting out of the covers and feeling cold, I dear for something I can hold
Starting to weep and wondering if only…Do I'll die... lonely ?
I hold those ideas tightly against my bleeding head, then I got back to This cold bed.