Christmas Wish

I wanted for Christmas you to be mine

I wrote this before it was that time

I hoped that there had been sufficient time passed

for you to take me back and start again at long last

I gave you time and now I can see

the best I can give you is freedom from me

I make this decision because I feel I must

it appears I'll never gain back that trust

I want you to know that no matter what

there wont come a time you don't drive me nuts

not the kind that gets people admitted

the better one, being forever and always committed

I must give that up and cancel my mission

I guess our love will never meet fruition

a terrible mistake cost me my dreams

inside I'm dying, filled with screams

it is this day Christmas 08

I knowingly choose to change my fate

no longer will I bother you

with idle threats of love so true

I will cease to be in your life

just as you've chosen not to be my wife

I don't like it, it shatters my dreams

but I have no thread left holding my seams

rather than staying the rug on the floor

I stand, a man, and walk out the door

I wanted to fill a box with a ring

but you've made it clear that's not the right thing

I'm sorry I wasted so much of your time

with my problems unending and these silly rhymes

instead all I have is this here note

the tears are pouring, they'd fill a moat

I wipe them away and stand once more

over broken dreams I walk to the door

as I walk I glance back

so uncertain of what I lack

matter it doesn't because this here door

WILL BE CLOSED. WILL BE LOCKED. WILL BE OPEN NO MORE