Heal from broken heart

as I lay here staring out the window
our memories flowing through my mind
holding back as a tear hits the pillow
scared of thoughts I might find.
telling myself I'll be stronger tomorrow
if you would just come back until then
but instead it's constant sorrow
now I have nothing for he was my sin.
as time should heal all things
it feels as if it's going so slow
crying, careless what life brings
but I do not dare to let it show.
for he was my love 
now that is gone
telling myself I'll be happier another day
until then 
wondering what went wrong
thinking why didn't he stay.
I rather just cry now and not hurt later
and ask myself why this happened to me
telling myself it'll soon get better
I really hope 
I believe