Suicide

tis no reason to live
i am living for people
that curse me under their breath
i am living for things
that hate me all the time
i am living for relationships
that have never been there
what am i living for then?
and if you say god i will explode,
my eyes burst with sadness
with a smile to cover up the hurt
apathetic is me
ignorance is bliss
and i don't have it
neither ignorance
nor bliss,
take me now god take me now
i want to cease to exist.
my eyes are opened to the reasons of suicide.
my ears are open to their cries
my nose smells the sickness they face
of a world that hates them
of a world that is apathetic
about
them