what they accepted and what I always denied

Covering truths with clever lies was what they accepted and what I always denied, fed upon...  towards a large door intently placed half mast, Which knocked me to the ground leaving me to see how I'm not blessed...
The solar system swirling all around and up above my head.. And yet I in my mind continued to wander amidst confusion and denial... That love could such a cruel thing intently do.!
Until reality made me see the dream,
Until waking to the reality of what a fool I'd been,