I'm Sad

Can't help myself from feeling sad, the feelings I had from you is something I never had.
Trying to move on and let all of it go, realizing time without you goes by slow.
It's hard not to ask the question why, I still like you, there is no reason for me to lie, While i got your first lie.
Knowing that it won't be easy to move on. time spent without you feels like you're already gone.
Wondering if there could ever be another chance, Me being around you I can't help but glance.
Hard not knowing where we went wrong. Trying not to let it get to me, I'm trying to stand strong.
Knowing something so good got away; trying to figure out if there is something .. I could .... say.

Careful to never break.

Together we may struggle
but without you all I feel is pain.
Sometimes I may seem confused
but there is one thing that will never change.
The feelings I have for you don't fade or go away.
They continue to grow stronger each day.
Life without you is something I can't imagine.
From within my soul, it's you I'd miss.

I understand this world more then you may know.
I could believe in fate and put up a fight.
But you and I are not written.
Although there is a truth I'd like to write.
We both have scars,
with memories that can not be erased,
but together we are stronger.
In your hands my heart has been placed.

This is a choice I have made.
I understand the risk I take.
Please hold my heart dear to you.
Careful to never break.
If you do stumble or fall,
please don't forget to gather all the pieces.
It's your choice of what to do with them.

Silent Love

We must not be silent, but speak the truth in love.
because, this is what God's truth is made up of.
Yes, we must always call sin by it's rightful name.
Sin is sin, it's wrong, & not just a laughable game.


If you see a person drowning, what do you then do?
You throw a life preserver; because once, it was you.
If a person is dying in their happy go lucky sin.
Speak the truth & help them out of the mess they're in.


But always speak it in love, never-never any other way.
For the Spirit from above will teach you just what to say.
It's not right to be silent when you know where it leads.
Call sin a sin, help them get rid of all sin's filthy seeds.


Reveal Christ as He truly is, a God of love & forgiveness.
For He transforms lives & His name they will then confess.
You should call sin, sin, for many souls you may help save.
They need to know the truth, speak it in love, & be brave.

Tears Of Sorrow

Trying to let go of these memories of sorrows
which are trapped inside of me,
where I feel alone, no one sees me crying.
I close my eyes and I see my dreams,
Dreams of tomorrow, the way I want things to be.
Angel, keep watch over me.
The memories keep control of me,
The bad storms and cold weather rain
which fall from the heavens.
Angel, wash away these memories which are inside me.
I want to cry, I want to cry,
Tears from heaven falling from my eyes,
Wash away the pain which keeps control of me.
Angel, sing, sing the song
which will bring the dreams of tomorrow,
Of sunshine, not of rain,
Letting go of the memories
Which trap my sorrows inside of me.

A night in Sorrow

I watch as the blood tickle down my arm
I close my eyes and hope for you to come.
I never knew what it was like to be alone
All I want for you to do is come back home.
I feel the pain, the burning and the pleasure
I feel so confused and so full of pressure
I sit in this dark room with no one around
All I want from you is love and care
I notice that I won't get my wish
But now I wait for the sun to rise.
To fill this room with light. 
As I watch I see how many scares I have
Bleeding for desire and pain
I look in the mirror of my room and look
I watch as these tears flow endlessly and
What I realize what I was waiting for
was for me to return to normal.

For You .. MY VALENTINE

I've never imagined that there can be this day.

A day that true feelings will find its way.

Out of my heart and into your soul.

These feelings I have are beyond my control.

All my life I have waited patiently.

For a goddess like you, so beautiful, so lovely.

Words can't express the way I feel.

These feelings towards you are all for real.

You are the reason why I'll go on.

Eternity can't separate this special bond.

This heart of mine is reserved for you.

Forever it is yours, this love is true.

Maybe i'm your first ,your second but you'll be my last.

My world, my everything, till my time has past.

I will always care about you until the end of time.

MY SWEETHEART, MY VALENTINE!

My Valentine...

I could watch the sunrise, I could watch the sunset,
I could walk in the rain without getting wet,
I could witness their beauty as the flowers bloom,
I could I could listen to bird songs as the new day dawns,
I could feel the sunshine through the darkest clouds,
I could hear a sweet whisper through the roar of a crowd,
I could walk on water without soaking my feet,
I could travel the world in less than a week,
I could ponder the knowledge passed down by the wise,
I could dwell in a castle built in the sky,
I could paint a portrait and bring it to life,
I could sleep without pain, on the edge of a knife,
I could play a sweet melody to soften the mood,
I could take all the bad and turn it to good,
I could float on the breeze, I could fly on the wind,
I could soar high in the sky leaving the world behind,
I could travel the cosmos and watch it unfold,
I could witness it's power, so wonderful to behold,
But of all the wonderful things I could do,
There's nothing in the universe that compares to you,
I'll hold you in my heart for the rest of my life,
You're my living miracle, my sweet valentine.

I will find you once again

Love me tomorrow for it is a new day
Love me again like you did the first day
Love me always for my heart beats for yours
Kiss me sweetly and gently upon tomorrow morning
Hold me tightly for I'm afraid to fall 
Don't forget your promises for I had too many broken
Hold my hand to guide the way
Hold my heart to keep it safe
Tell me tomorrow that today wasn't a dream
Tell me sweet nothings as I begin to sleep
And Ill always remind you that I am yours alone
Truly and forever until were reborn
Then I will find you once again
To tell you I love you all over again

Another try

I never really knew you 
you were just another friend 
But when I got to know you 
I let my heart unbend 
I couldn't help past memories 
That would only make me cry 
I had to forget my first love 
And give another try 
So I've fallen in love with you 
And I'll never let you go 
I love you more than anyone 
I just had to let you know 
My feelings for you will never change 
Just know my feelings are true 
Just remember this one thing 
I will always love you 

How To Create The Perfect Family

You will need:
1 large house
3-6 people, depending on how long you want to wait for it to be done
3 cups of pets
2 cups of patience
3 ounces of anger/frustration
3 quarts of laughter
4 teaspoons of trust
And last but definitely not least,
Lots and lots of love

First, open the house, and make sure that it will be the right size for your family. Mix the desired amount of people with the pets, carefully so you don’t damage them. In a separate bowl, stir the love and laughter together. Set aside. Taking each person separately, evenly distribute the patience and trust, making sure that each one gets an equal amount (Failure to distribute evenly may lead to different recipe! See recipe for “My impatient family” for details…). Carefully open the bottle of anger/frustration. Using a Q-tip, dab small portions of the anger/frustration onto each person. Lastly, take the love and laughter and sprinkle it all over the house, pets, and people. Let sit until all parts of the recipe are thoroughly combined, and voila! Your Perfect Family is complete.

Being Lost

I look at the smooth and slow flowing water. I wonder what it would be like to move forward and never look back. Or never stay or be in the same place twice.
I can stand there for hours just to watch the water and to hear the water.
I see my reflection.
As I watch my reflection in the water I see my sad expression and wonder if the water can see me.
I run my fingers through the water. 
I see many ripples appear as if the water is flinching from the pain I'm causing it.
I wonder if the water can feel me.........feel my pain.
I wish I could float on the water and let it carry me anywhere and everywhere it goes.
I step into the water. I feel the coolness of the water and I start to shiver.
I feel my body relaxing,
I feel my heart go from racing to freefalling.
I concentrate on the sunny and blue sky.
I start to float.
I feel the water pass by me
I realize that nothing in the world can take away this feeling..........The feeling of being lost.

Forget about me

This depicts the feeling of being completely lost inside yourself, Emptiness is overwhelming, Crying out for help,
My mind is running circles, Trapped inside myself,
Rage fills my eyes, Heart no longer beating, Sadness is my cries, Head is foggy. Body is numb.
Forget about me, its too late.
I am too far gone, Dead inside.
Reaper is getting closer, I will take this walk alone,
Dead inside.
I am already gone.

In our hearts

We thought of you with love today,
But that is nothing new.
We thought about you yesterday.
And days before that too.
We think of you in silence.
We often speak your name.
Now all we have is memories.
And your picture in a frame.
Your memory is our keepsake.
With which we’ll never part.
God has you in his keeping.
We have you in our heart.

Sogno

Va ti aspetterò
Il fiore nel giardino segna il tempo
Qui disegnerò il giorno poi del tuo ritorno
Sei così sicura del mio amore
Da portarlo via con te
Chiuso nelle mani
Che ti porti al viso
Ripensando ancora a me
E se ti servirà  lo mostri al mondo
Che non sa che vita c'è
Nel cuore che distratto sembra assente
Non sa che vita c'è
In quello che soltanto il cuore sente
Non sa.

Qui ti aspetterò
E ruberò I baci al tempo
Tempo che non basta a cancellare
Coi ricordi il desiderio che
Resta chiuso nelle mani
Che ti porti al viso
Ripensando a me
E ti accompagnerò  passando le città  da me
Da me che sono ancora qui
E sogno cose che non so di te
Dove sarà  che strada farà  il tuo ritorno
Sogno

Qui ti aspetterò
E ruberò I baci al tempo
Sogno
Un rumore il vento che mi sveglia
E sei già  qua.

Madness World

Society seems in a mess
Mothers cry, while Fathers stress
to be polite is a disgrace
as children mock you to your face
every day the papers show
that crime and rape did upward go
the things done in laboratories
are stashed away in lavatories
drugs and sex aren't hard to find
it seems as if the worlds gone blind
for what the people fail to see
is messing up society
as Dads no longer head their home
and kids all sit, and chat by phone
what once to all has been a home
is looking like a war torn zone
no longer do you find that kids
are playing in the park
for it's become a hideout place
for gangsters after dark
what once was right now seems so wrong
no more joy and no more song
as what this all was meant to be
lies buried in a cemetery
by telling you these things my aim
is not to make you mad
it's just to tell another truth
which soon will make you glad
a midst the chaos of this world
of hurt, despair and pain
and hate along with treachery
all done for selfish gain
there's this one thing I know of
believe with all my heart
that when I bend my knees to pray
my God will make a way

Absent

In a sea of salt waters
Endevours are enclosed
As insobriety washes away
My lifes secrets are exposed
Loss all around me is fully evident
As my soul begins to scream
Not knowing where I am headed
But definitely knowing where I have been
Hurt keeps rolling in not knowing what is in store
Bandaging the broken pieces
That slowly washes upon shore
The water no longer blue 
But instead a sea of red
Thinking about forever closing my eyes
And floating away on this drifting bed
To remember would be to much
To surrender leaves me no possibilities
Because the water is my life that is slowly drowning me

No Way

Love a sense of belonging,
A common feeling of caring.
Heartbreak severe loneliness,
A common feeling of emptiness.
Bipolar is a common explanation,
But there is no real vaccination.
There's no way to escape it,
There's no way to take it.
It's in your blood,
It's part of you,
It's what you feel
It's what you do
Don't start trying to run,
It'll hunt you down.
It brings you down at the point of a gun,
Shuts you up with the slightest sound.
Say your prayer and close your eyes,
Heartbreak is here to stay for the night.

Tears No More

I told you how I felt
but you turned the other cheek
I was basically rejected
I feel so small, so very weak
I found the reason why I always keep to myself
I hate this feeling of pain
Of being rejected like I'm not good enough
This will happen never again
I'm tired of letting people in
I'm tired of being alone
I'm tired of being rejected and hurt
This is it that feelings gone
I'm not gonna let you in
I'm not gonna let you see my tears fall
I'm not gonna let you see me hurt
I'm not gonna let you bring me down most of all
I told you how I felt
Because I wanted you to know
But apparently you would never feel the same
So I guess its time for me to go

When life call you must answer

It calls once in a while
Asking you to go an extra mile
If you answer you know what to expect
The challenge that has to be met
Why answer the call??
It won’t make a difference at all
That is an askew thought 
You know the call can’t be fought
You know you have to
This you can’t argue
Its going to be hard
Your mind is now unbarred
You say hello 
There's that friendly fellow
LIFE!!!

Love Making

The image blaring so loud,
The carelessness of emotions,
Directed to the ocean’s tide.
Upon the lips of the shore,
It violated the property of humanity.
As the creature craved for more,
Overwhelmed by the desires of calamity
The sea declared it’s war,
A bondness overshadows ,
While a violent breeze blow ,
The earth was now in the gallows,
While a rhythmic gust showed,
Devouring everything for its keep,
Rough, but gentle, the creature enjoyed,
The ride she just deployed.