Dreams

The day seems good until you wake up.

The world seems welcoming until you enter it.

When the morning comes nothing seems good

the moment my eyes open and until they are shut

I feel like death would be better, safer, and more peaceful.

But the moment my eyes are closed dreams come and take me.

The dream of peace and happiness, the warmth and love.

It may only last a moment but it gives me strength

Strength for the day to come

No matter what it be, a nightmare or a fantasy

It seems better then life.

Friends in my dreams never leave or change

Time never passes to fast or to slow

You are never forgotten or hated

Nothing seems better and you start to feel happy.

Then the sun comes up and your brought back,

back to the truth of the world.

The pain and sadness,

The hate and fear of life washes over you

and you wish you wouldn't have open your eyes.

You want to fall back into your welcoming sleep

Where nothing goes wrong and you are always loved

From The Bottom of my Heart

Don't talk anymore my love
Just look at me
and you will understand
how I feel.
Look deep in my eyes
and you'll see your name,
my soul's broken mirror.
I love you more than you believe,
like you are my life,
my other half,
my subconscious guardian angel.
Look around you,
has anyone loved you more than I do?
Never cry my love
cause you'll make me bleed.
Always be happy
cause your smile is a source of life for me.
I breathe when you breathe.
But forgive me
for what I say.
I know you feel nothing.
For you I'm just a silly game
that you played with once
and now you hate
even to look at.
I'm sorry for my feelings
I know they drown you,
they don't set you free.
Come and tell me you hate me
that there's no other chance,
no fake hope.
Don't show me, but tell me.
And then I will leave
I swear I will leave you, 
my endless pain.
It's not your fault,
I can't blame you
it's me who loves you.
Tell me your truth
and you'll never see your name in my eyes again,
cause I'll keep our past and my love
in the bottom of my heart
and I'll be gone..

How i feel !!

I want to run, I want to hide.
From all the pain she caused inside.
I want to scream, I want to cry.
Why can't I tell her Goodbye?
I want to move on, I just can't let go.
I love her more than she will ever know.
I want to start over, I want to feel free!
But this pain will never leave me be.
She hurt me bad, the pain is deep.
From all the promises she couldn't keep.
All the lies, I heard her say.
Are in my head and just won't fade.
How can I forget her, leave the her behind.
Erase the memories from my mind.
She doesn't love me, and she never will.
She will never care, how I feel.

Rainbow Bridge

I look to the day when the Lord calls upon thee,
My time had come for my one final journey.
To begin searching, looking for my little boy,
With love and compassion and such a great joy.
My heart is racing with thoughts of what is to come,
No more pain, no more sorrow and nothing to run from.
With anticipation no words could seem to compare,
Was longing for love everlasting, an answer to prayer.
I looked to the meadows with tears in my eyes,
The memories were flowing with such a surprise.
Knowing soon I’d be united with my furry friend,
Being so happy knowing this time they’d never end.
I call out his name with the hopes he will hear me,
With a voice of an Angel, a wind whispering a plea.
Excitement in the thought of never again being alone,
Together with my little Patches on our way home.
On this Day at Rainbow Bridge, I again was alive
The time was at hand for my dreams to arrive.
With the fruits of the spirit, God’s gift from above,
Then I saw Jesus with my little Baby, so full of love.
I looked upon the Lord as I embraced my Little One,
He smiled and said to me “It Is My Will Be Done”
The journey has ended; a love that will last forever,
And then side-by-side we crossed over together.

Little Dog

Today we had to let you go,
It broke our hearts in two,
We had to leave you at that place,
Alone and feeling blue,
The only thing that we could do,
Was drive back home and cry,
For we just couldn't keep you,
No matter how we tried,
You'll never be forgotten,
As long as we two live,
You gave us all the love,
A little dog could give,
We'll think about you often,
And wonder where you are,
And in our hearts we'll hear your bell,
Tinkling from afar.

Victims Of Society

Dawn breaks on yet another day
but the light is nowhere to be found
on this sky murky and gray
hope seems lost on this battle ground
Many young men have died here, sacrifices were made
but was it worth it, did it bring any change
why did we not stop these men who were betrayed
from their very own leaders who themselves were afraid
The young men believed in adventure
but little did they know 
that of this deadly game they were the lure
their bravery and courage to this day is still aglow
With their first step onto the battlefield
they found out the truth
their hope was lost and their fate sealed
that they would be taken from this world still in their youth
These men victims of society and eager to please
we all pray that they rest in peace
they leave with a lesson that we all should learn and use
that life is a gift too precious to lose

Last Resort

A plethora of predicaments race in my mind at best, 
which one can I fathom to ponder about next. 
Shall I even think of acting upon what my mind stirs about, 
or cry my soul asleep by this never ending drought. 
What will my career be, 
the words last resort come screaming at me with no one to yell halt. 
The quick years will pass then they will hit me and it's my own fault. 
All of my solutions come bearing a bag of infinite errors, 
my late night thoughts give me shrieking terrors. 
At what point in time does this maze come to a close. 
On the inside I am slowly weeping but on the outside I pose. 
I look around my room and it does not express myself. 
Question creeps in my eyes at the princess sign of the shelf. 
I am feeling confusion, don't worry not despair. 
All I really want in this life is to be without a care.

Cry

I’m sitting on the porch

Wind blowing through my hair

The ducks are frolicking in the pond

But I just can’t seem to care

Life goes on around me

I don’t participate

I go through all the motions

But what I really do is wait

I dream about the day

That you’ll come home to me

Nothing else is important

Why can’t people see?

I don’t want to go out

I don’t want to have fun

I don’t want to do a thing

Until all is said and done

They took you in the summer

Now fall is almost finished

Winter will be here very soon

And then the year will have diminished

You have no idea how much I cry

I never let you know

It’s so hard out here without you 

But I’m not allowed to let it show

I must pretend all is fine

Everyone thinks all’s okay

But what I never ever tell them

Is that I cry for you every day

Destiny (Arabic. P.)

كـن لــي عــزيــزا كـمــا شــاء الــقــدر
 ولا تــتــركــنــي وحــيــدا كاللــيــل بــلا قــمــر  
فــكــيــف لــي بــدونــك أن أحــيــا بــيـن الــبــشــر  
فــهــل للـــزرع أن يــنــبــت دون أن يــســقــط عــلــيــه الــمــطــر

I have to Pay

I’m sorry you can’t trust me

And won’t ever let me in

I’m sorry you don’t believe in me

And that I could not win

I’m sorry for not being perfect

And being able to break your fears

I’m sorry for messing up

And causing all your tears

I’m sorry I can’t fix it

And make you want to stay

I’m sorry I wasn't good enough

And now I have to pay

I’m sorry I ever doubted it

And made you second guess

I’m sorry I was so stupid

You haven’t seen my best

Lost A Part Of Me

I lay next to you watching you lay
why couldn't I have done everything to make you stay.
I look back at all our smiles and frowns.
wondering how we made it through all the up's and down's.
I gently brush your hair behind your ear.
Loosing you was my one and only fear.
why do all things great come to an end.
you were my baby, my wife, even my friend.
how could I not see you slowly fading away.
 I made myself believe everything was OK. but I was too blind to see. you were slowly slipping away from me. now your gone you went away.
I am sorry for leading you astray. but I must move forward and learn from my mistake.
I must learn to live with my heart ache.
thank you for letting be a part of your life.
I am glade to have had you for my wife.
always and forever baby you'll always be mine.
I'll always love you even past the end of time

Sorry

I love you so very much, Even thou at times I do things that hurt, I try so hard to hope that you always see, How much you being in my life means to me,
I am sorry yet again for causing you pain,  that is the last thing I ever wanted to do, Even when I am trying to look out for you  and do the right thing 
I mess up, I am sorry for that too.
I hope that you still know how much I love and cherish you,
Like nothing else in my life gives me the trill of being loved by you. So I hope that you listen and see it in my eyes, 
this sincere apology that comes with tears from deep inside.

Where To Go Asking For Help !!!

Where do I go?
When I'm feeling so lost and I don't want to be found.
When I'm looking and listening for that peace in my heart.
But I know I'll never hear that sound.
Where do I go?
Where do I go when I'm trying to laugh but all I can do I cry?
I'm trying to keep on living because I'm not ready to die.
Where do I go because the sun never seems to shine?
Can you give me my life back it's not yours it's mine?
How do I keep going, how do I fight this fight?
I'm tired of feeling beat down, but I'm trying with all my might!
Where do I go when my head hangs so low?
Please give me an answer because I just don't know!
Where do I go?
Does it take very long?
For me to find that peace and a place where I belong.
I need you My God to help me, help me to take a stand.
I'm scared to do it by myself, will you please take my hand?
Where do I go? Where do I go? Where do I go?
Do you Still Want to know?

Moods Of Women and men

Moods Of A Woman ..

She's Afraid Of A Wasp, She'll Scream At A Mouse; But Will Tackle A Stranger Alone In House. 

Sour As Vinegar, Sweet As A Rose; She'll Kiss You One Minute, Then Turn Up Her Nose. 

She'll Win You In Rage, Enchant You In Silk; She'll Be Stronger Than Brandy, Milder Than Milk. 

At Times She'll Be Vengeful, Merry And Sad; She'll Hate You Like Poison And Love you Like Mad.
Moods Of A Man ..

Hungry, 

Angry, 

Sleepy!

Separated

Miles that separate

Friends that discriminate

Circumstances that kept us apart

And those people who broke our hearts

The feelings that I was scared to show

The ones that you always made known

The good times and the bad,

The happy and the sad

You never gave up even when I would

You never let go even though I said you should

You said you love me and I believe its true

And now I just need to say,

Baby I love you too

As the days went by I began to find

That this feeling inside was one I could no longer deny

You amaze me in every way

You continuously take my breath away

You know me better then I know myself

It's as if I'm a book,

That you have read inside and out

You know when I'm happy, and when I'm sad

You even know when the little things make me mad

You've one my heart, proved yourself true

Babe I don't know how you did it,

But you made me fall head over heals for you