Loving You So Much

The moment I think about you

I go to another world
A world where you love me too
And where I can never be hurt

The truth is I don’t know what to say
My mind goes completely blank
I have never in my life lost my way
But my heart with your love simply sank

If letting go was a choice
Then I definitely would
But I can't control the strong voice
That's telling me I never should

I have no clue
On how I should let you go
What is it that you do?
That's making me love you so…

Maybe loving you isn’t a mistake
Maybe I can close my eyes and smile
Maybe in your presence my heart wouldn’t break
Maybe I can just dream for a while…

I sometimes wonder if you feel the same
I wonder if you think of me
I sometimes wonder if you silently call my name
I wonder if you'll ever see…

In the beginning I thought it was fake
I didn't think I'd go this far
I thought it was just a mistake
Now I can't stop wondering where you are

The question is do you care?
Do you even know?
Will you always be there?
Will you ever let me go?

If for any reason I cried
Would you take all the pain away?
If for any reason you lied
Would I still want you to stay?

My love for you is way too strong
For me to simply forget
Some people might think it's wrong
But your love is the one thing I shan't regret.

Your Day Is Someday

Simple gifts of joy

Are life’s special memories
So many forgotten daily treasures
Is like someone who won’t read a book
The cover is opened and closed without thought
As you see every blue sky
And cloudless day,
Warm rain, on a sunny summer day
You walk by as you self-consciously stray
And so many joyful memories are forgotten
Just like that they go rotten 
And as the hours go by
And life goes on
So many wonders to see
And you just run by carefree
As you listen to life’s chime 
You stand aside waiting for your time
But your time is when you realize
Just what you forgot
And how you walked into a big ole knot
And that as you stand aside 
Your future flies by
Like it will not see you 
And then you hate how it took so long for you to see
That life’s joy was every rotten memory 

inside of me

inside of me 
there's a boy you do not see
he's nice, friendly, and talented
but he'll never be me
he can "walk the walk"
and "talk the talk"
but he's not really me
trapped, and alone
he will not be freed
he's not me and never will be
trapped inside .. he will hide
like an bird that can't fly 
he's trapped forever
never to be released ........... by me.

Are We Meant To Be?

We started off as strangers

then soon became friends
you told me you loved me
though I didn't feel the same
soon after you said it started as a game
but soon became the truth
but I don't know what made me love you too

you're the first one I think of when I wake up
and last one I think of before I go to sleep
I love you so much I wish you never had to leave

EVERYTHING, our late night talks, dumb jokes
awkward moments and all the laughter
just makes me fall in love with you more....
you give me butterflies when you say the sweetest things.
but when you act like the one I didn't fall in love with...
it makes me wonder if we were really meant to be

What Friends Do

Friends are there when you're feeling blue

And you're feeling down
Their there to make you smile
And to turn your frown around

They'll be there for your first date
And they'll be there for you to tell
And when that boy breaks your heart
She'll tell you its just as well

She's there for you
Throughout the years 
To share the laughs
And to share the tears

She fights with you sometimes
But you always make it through
You can't stay mad at her
She means too much to you

So when you have a good friend
Remember to keep her nearby
Because the best thing you can have
Is a good friend by your side

The Whispering Winds

Like the wind whispering through the trees, Your spirit lifts me, Teaching me valuable lessons.
I wait patiently to grow in the light of your eyes, Seeking approval, knowing
There's comfort in your silent embrace,
And I listen carefully to what it offers. I feel the joy in your laughter and trusting eyes
And learn to give of myself, for no judgment is passed.
When sadness fills my heart with disappointment, And I need protection from the storm, It is only then I realize the depth of friendship, Sewn together with unbreakable thread.
I understand that the fabric only gets better with age, That it should be handled with care. And sometimes it has to rain. I have discovered my own knowledge by lessons learned while discovering yours. Like a beautiful sky after the storm
Your courage to break free of the clouds, Still amazes me.
I close my eyes to feel the warmth of the sun, Such a precious gift you've given
Appreciating the gentleness and I sigh with thankfulness. Recognizing my fortune.
A sisterly bond that knows only. .. . Love that is unconditional. Nurturing with grace and acceptance
How lucky i am to share a piece of my life with a soul that so perfectly fits mine.
A puzzle with missing pieces. Yet complete with your friendship
How sad for those who are still searching. My blessings are abundant
And I thank God for the whispering winds, For they remind me everyday. To celebrate the gift of our friendship and to hold it close, To never let it go.

A Sad Ending

I was walking all alone,

on a road of rocks and stone,
never did I know where it would lead,
sometimes I wondered, "was it because of my deeds?"

Then came along a sweet little breeze,
seemed to me, my whole world would freeze,
for a little while I thought,
that the road I chose was the best one I got.

The breeze took away all my pain,
as if a barren after years had a rain,
this seemed to lead me to a meadow,
where in the sun, only gave me shadow.

The feeling was great,
but it came at some rate,
I felt like being on top of the world,
"come down to mother earth "somebody called.

It was a beautiful dream,
which I had,
the heat was taking it's toll on me,
and it never made me glad.

Then came the storm,
that shattered my dreams,
it crushed all my norms,
and it went all down the stream.

I had no place to hide,
as if I was sinking in high tide,
slowly and slowly my body gave up,
soul left my body,
helplessly forever, I shut up.

Change Is All

No one will ever know how I feel. 

For I cannot even explain it all.
Nobody to love. 
Nobody to blame. 
Everyone always the same.
Nothing to care about. 
No reason to lie. 
For I am me, myself, and I.
No ones sees what I see. 
Nobody left to care for me.
It's kind of sad knowing what's true, cause then you know who's there for you.
Most of them just put on that act. 
A lot of them talk bad about me behind my back.
Thanks for making me feel this way, there's nothing more I should have to say.
All the times I was alone, makes me feel weird when someone's home.

No family for support, no friends to care. 
People wonder why I don't go anywhere.
Every night crying myself to sleep, sometimes I wish someone loved me.
No hope, no love, no life, no friends the pain never ends.
Sometimes I ask what did I do to deserve this. 
But nobody answers.
A voice in my head tells me to forget the bad and remember good.
But then I answer to myself saying there is no good to remember. 
I always yell at myself asking why me? why? 
Sitting in a empty spare room.
No one to talk to about how I feel. 
No one to ask me what I feel.
Is anyone out there in this harsh world we live in? 
Sometimes I begin to wonder.
Sometimes I'm harsh on myself. 
Morn comes and I wake up wishing I was never born. 
Please help others, because today's lives our being taken out of this world just as easy as they are coming in. 
You can change someone's life. 
Make a change. 
It's a tough world.

And You Wonder Why

I gave you my heart and you threw it away.
But she wanted it from the start.
I treated you like God and you treated me like dirt.
But she has always looked at me as if I were an angel.
I called for you and you didn't answer.
But she came running.
I needed you and you ignored me.
But she was always there
I gave you my lifetime, you gave me a day.
But he gave me forever
I loved you, you liked me.
But he'll love me as if I was the most beautiful thing on earth.
I was hurt and you didn't stitch up my wounds.
But she used a golden needle and silver thread.
I cried and you didn't hold me.
But she never let go.
I said "I love you" and you didn't say it back.
But she's been saying it to my face for years.
I was bleeding and you left me for dead.
But she would have given up her life if it meant that I would live.
I fell down and you didn't pick me up again.
But she has carried me the whole way.
And even though I haven't noticed until now, she has always thought I was the one.
And the day I realized that I loved him too, it was the best day of her life.
And when it came the time for me to fall, whose arms did I fall into?
Her.
And you wonder why.

Past is Past For A Reason

The past is the past for a reason

That is where it is supposed to stay

But some cannot let it go

In their head it eats away

Until all their focus becomes

The person that they used to be

The mistakes they made in their life

Oh if only they could see

That you cannot change what happened

No matter how hard you try

No matter how much you think about it

No matter how much you cry

What happens in your lifetime

Happens for reasons unknown

So you have to let the cards unfold

Let your story be shown

Don't get wrapped up in the negative

Be happy with what you have been given

Live for today not tomorrow

Get up, get out and start living

Cos the past is the past for a reason

It's been and now it is gone

So stop trying to think of ways to fix it

It's done, it's unchangeable, move on

Gone, Forever

I miss the times when you were here
telling me to have no fear
To hold my head up high and strong
add happy notes to my sad song

I miss the way you look at me
As if I were too blind to see
The path I’m on might hurt and scathe
But all goes well if you just have faith

I miss the sound of your sweet voice
Through bitter times a saving noise
That told me what was right and wrong
But rang in my ears for far too long

A caring person, you were such
That helped and hurt me, oh so much
You’d guide and mislead me through the day
You left me lonely when I’d rather you stay

Over things like that you had no control
A rock set in motion will continue to roll
No matter how hard you tug and heave
You were always pushed and forced to leave

Then one day you never returned
My tears so hot they almost burned
Aware now about what I lack
But crying and mourning wont bring you back

For me to let out what I need to say
I can’t do much more than pray
No longer am I weak, my hearts quite strong
From adding a happy chorus to a sad, sad song

My Babe

Together we may struggle
but without you all I feel is pain.
Sometimes I may seem confused
but there is one thing that will never change.

The feelings I have for you don't fade or go away.
They continue to grow stronger each day with every kiss.
Life without you is something I can't imagine.
From within my soul, it's you I'd miss.

I understand this world more then you may know.
I could believe in fate and put up a fight.
But you and I are not written.
Although there is a truth I'd like to write.

We both have scars,
with memories that can not be erased,
but together we are stronger.
In your hands my heart has been placed.

This is a choice I have made.
I understand the risk I take.
Please hold my heart dear to you.
Careful to never break.

If you do stumble or fall,
please don't forget to gather all the pieces.
It's your choice of what to do with them.
My love for you never ceases.

Confused

My knees start to shake

when your in sight,
my minds filled with wonder
my heart with fright.

when will this feeling stop, 
when did it start 
how can I listen to my mind
without breaking my heart.

I am so confused, 
what should I do? 
I can't think of anything 
except of you.

Should I ignore you 
or just give it time
I can't think straight 
my heart controls my mind.

Walking Away

I'm tired of dreaming.

I'm through with trying.
Tired of living, yet scared of dying.
Maybe things are good for you,
but look at all that I've been through.
Look at all the pain I've won.
I bet you think that it's been fun.
You never thought I'd turn away.
You never believed you'd see this day.
Look again cuz here I go
leaving behind all I know.
Changing it all as I must do.
Not daring to stop and think things through.
Wanting to run as fast as I can,
not stopping until I understand.
Like why did I let things get this way?
Why didn't I leave yesterday?
How are things going to be,
since there is no more you and me.

Truth Hurts More Than Your Lie

The truth you tell me hurts more than your lie

Once I learned it I started to cry
Every time I thought of you
I remembered what I thought was true
I try to cover it as I mend my heart
It's no use I'm broken apart
Into a million pieces I've been shattered 
Not that you cared not that it mattered
The truth hurts more than I thought
Reality showing what I forgot
My smile returns to a fake
There's nothing else for you to take
You took my heart when I learned the lie
Inside I'm dying as I try
To mend myself as best as I can
Hoping that this won't happen again
I'll try to leave this behind
As I start to find
Myself looking at you during the day
And try to find something to say
That won't bring back this painful memory
what won't remind me what couldn't be
As I start to learn it's still true
I still find myself loving you