Why I Ask ..!!!

I will always love you, this much is true
How to do this, I haven't a clue,
So here it goes, the only way I know how
To put an end to our love, right here, right now, 
We could have been so good together
I thought this love would last forever, 
We laughed, we cried, we played
I wished this time could have always stayed, 
The fun we had, the stories we shared
I thought that you would have always cared, 
I fought, I cried, to keep us alive
To keep you from wanting to run and hide, 
Alas, our love was not meant to be
Because all I have now are my thoughts and me, 
You made it clear, it's not me you want
A Cowboy Trucker would be your haunt, 
So goodbye My Love, goodbye my soul
My heart is now just as black as coal, 
So I let you go, I say goodbye
I say I love you with a tear in my eye, 
I hope that someday you will wake up and see
There is nothing better than you and me,
Until that time, I will always be near,
Wishing and waiting for your love to be here,
At this point, I've done all I can do
To win your heart so that you love me too.

Tell me Goodbye

The memories of you
Are engraved within my heart
Nothing in this world
Could ever tear us apart
Because you’re not here
Some think that you’re gone
But I tell them better
Let’s say you just moved on
I try to stay positive
To keep you watching over me
Some think it’s crazy
But I know you’ve got to be
We were pretty close
I hope I can say
You were so pretty
I’ll never forget those days
You were such a fun person
And your personality was great
All the guys loved you
Most girls had to hate
I know how you were
And how you were so shy
But I wish you told me one thing
I wish you would have said goodbye…

Your future was great
You had so much in store
When I’m forced to think of it
It rots me to the core
I spend most of my time
Thinking of you
And reminiscing of the things
We said we’d do 
What I wouldn’t give 
To be in your place
I’d give the whole world
Just to see your face
Some say I’m going crazy
Or maybe insane
But they don’t understand 
This heartbreaking pain
You were my drug
My source to get high
But I really do wish
You would have said goodbye…

I've been thinking of the days
When we used to sit together
I now cherish those moments
I also hope you remember
You’re always in my head
And I can’t get you out
I get so mad at times 
That I just want to shout
I feel as if pieces are missing
Like a book with no end
Too late to tell you how I feel
Now and forever, only a friend
My old memories of you
Fly by me fast
And everything I remember of you
Is now in the past
All the sweet thoughts of you
Brings a tear to my eye
I miss you so much
I wish you’d say goodbye…

I hope heavens good to you
And I hope you get your Wings
An maybe when I get there
You can show me all the beautiful things
I really don’t want to say it
But please wait for me
Knowing your up there
I really can’t wait to be
That day when angels came down
Was a sad day of grief
When I first found out
I stood in disbelief
Although you’re gone
You still feel so close
Maybe it’s the thought
Of missing you the most
I wish this was a joke
A foolish student’s lie
But you have no idea
Please … tell me goodbye

It's you .. i miss

I say I miss the sky 

I say I miss peace 

I say I miss happiness

I say I miss the sun 

but its you I miss 

I wanted your love 

I couldn't have your love

I wanted your lips 

I couldn't have your lips

I wanted your hands 

I couldn't have your hands

I loved you little did I know you loved me too 

ironic, isn't it, that two souls make one heart 

you asked me out 

it's then that I got everything I ever wanted 

from beginning to end 

I'll always have 

for all eternity 

I will have love.

if i'm not the one ..!!!

Past the time 
Sit and strain
Waiting for your return
Ignoring the pain
Open wounds 
Never to heal
I’m trying to explain
Just how I feel
But it's hard you know?
Living this life
Knowing your happy 
While I'm in strife
I give it my all 
To this very day
You ask me my feelings
What do I say?
I love you forever
It will never end
If you heart breaks, I’ll fix it 
For its still mine to mend
But I'm just waiting
Waiting on time
Until you return
And once again become mine

I miss my friends

I miss how we used to be,
I miss us, you and me.
the days out and nights in just want you to know in my heart is were I keep you friend.
you were there for me when I was scared, I was there for you,
think about all the memories we have shared. 
When you smiled, I smiled, 
when you cried I cried. 
Now our friendship we have to hide.
when I saw you, you brightened up my day, 
you brought a smile to my face. 
I want us to carry on being friends, 
always. forever. 
me and you friends to the end.

I Hate you

I hate the way you are 
I hate the way you laugh
I hate the way you smile
I hate the way you walk
I hate the way you talk
I hate the you call me
I hate the way you ask how was your day?
I hate you
I hate you
I hate you
But most of all I hate how much
 I LOVE YOU

Raindrops

The raindrop vaporised and fell for years and years, it's journey never stopping. Along the way, it fell on a field and got soaked up by one of the grain. 
After years of work and care, the grain became a scotch which was bottled by a whiskey company, making millions of dollars selling a ticket to nowhere for lonely fools.
As chance will it, the raindrop who beheld a young student 30 years ago, became part of the last drink this particular student raised to greed his lips.
He never learned to fight the agonising pain, which origin he couldn't explain. 
He kept starring at the rain and the night. He stared at the young lovers and the lonely souls. 
He stared into the eyes of people he met, but he never met someone who could reach beyond his.
He flunked his life, of course. The idiot was a poet more than a student (And he wasn't much of a poet neither). Over time he learned that some people just aren't meant to be happy. Hell, some people aren't even meant to be content.
His life became a story of bottles and he would be remembered for years as: 
"The intelligent, creative man who threw it all away without reason"

How Am I !!! don't you miss me !!!

i sit and cry on my bed at home
missing you it hurts 
why did you have to go 
go so far away don't you miss me
i wonder if your looking at the same star i am 
and wishing we could be together
i will never hold a hand of another guy
why did you have to go 
you knew i loved you i though you loved me too
i told you that all the time
i am small and the world big
surrounded by many things
ya we may have fought but i did not no that it hurt you so much 
we may look different but inside we are one
I'm giving up on every thing 
i was the one who was wrong
i miss you i miss you so bad 
i won't forget you 
i hope you can hear me
our relationship got worse every day i should of saw it coming 
i didn't get around to kiss you
i feel so bad
i wish i could see you again
but that has nothing to do with it 
just the sound of your voice will make me smile 
people have seen a change in me 
I've been very quiet lately 
always thinking about you thinking us
yes that's how i pictured it 
i don't know about you and just saying this 
if your reading this 
i love you

Light A Candle .. Just for you ..

light a candle,
see it glow,
watch it dance,
when you feel low,
think of me,
think of light,
I'll always be here,
day or night,
a candle flickers,
out of sight,
but in your heart,
I still burn bright,
think not of sadness,
that I'm not near,
think of gladness,
and joyous cheer,
I have not left,
I am not gone,
I'm here to stay
my little one,
so when you light a candle
and you see it glow
and you watch it dance
in your heart you'll know
that I would never leave you
even when you feel so blue
I'm sitting up here with the Lord
and now watching over you

Girl Tears Of Guilt

nobody really knows how much she blames herself 
she wipes a tear from her face,
and stares at the picture on the shelf.
she shouldn't have screamed and yelled that night on the phone.
maybe if she'd changed her tone Mama would have come home.
instead her Mama disappeared with out a trace 
she never said goodbye to her
now tears roll down her face.
she misses mom more than anyone could see,
its just too bad the little girl is me.
my Mama left me lonely and sad.
I miss the few good times we had
maybe if I had held my tongue that day...
mama would be here to stay.
now I shed a tear every day because I miss my mom
it's really hard to deal with, knowing she's really gone.

What you mean to me !!

You are the sun in the sky,

You are the light shining by,

You are the breeze in my hair,

You’re the life I want to share.

You are what makes my days go by,

You are the ones I’ll tell no lies

You are the ones who make me smile,

I’ll stay by you a long while.

Your smiles light up my day,

They make the darkness go away,

You’re the reason I am alive,

One day you'll be someone wise

You are very special woman,

You are apart of this special world,

I know I can't hold you right now,

Thinking of you makes me smile.

You will be in my arms .. Not soon,

When you miss me look at the moon,

Because when I miss you I’ll do the same,

And you won't feel any pain.

Because we know we will be together again,

To laugh, run a smile again,

I want you not to fear,

I’ll whip away ever tear.

Just remember deep in your hearts,

I’m not the reason we had to apart,

And that I love you more than life,

You are the angels of my life.

One more thing before you go,

Always remember my sweet girls,

I love you and need you so ...

The One I Used To Know

what happened to the person, the one I used to know

the one who never let me down, and never told me no
what happened to the person, who used to laugh and playthere's nothing left of her, but what you are today
what happened to the person, who never let me down
she's gone now, and she left me with a frown
what happened to the person, who left me in such pain
I know now that from her, there's nothing left to gain
what happened to the person, who used to have such pride
I don't know anymore, cuz she was always pushing me aside
what happened to the person, the one who never used to cry
I wish I could have told her, I love her and goodbye