Goodbye

I've been loving you for so long
I've been dreaming of you all night long
I keep telling myself some other time
Maybe you will be mine
I keep asking myself why
Just because of this damn love I cry
And now I have to let you fly
Even if it means I'm going to die
I love you that's true
I want to be with you yes I do
I want to feel being loved by you
But that's just a dream that wont come true
Now my love it's time to say goodbye
I promise you will never see me cry
But before I let you go
I just want to say I love you so..

Time To say Goodbye

Between Love and friendship

Between love and friendship

I'm waving like a lost ship

Between black and white

Grey takes away my sight

Between doubt and certitude

How can I have such an attitude?

I no more bear the confusion

Tell me is it truth or illusion?

I was dreaming when there came

A strange feeling I can not name

Since long you've been my only mate

My soul only you can penetrate

Inside me only you can see

Like sugar in a cup of tea

Like the door knows the key

Like the flower waits the bee

Today it is clearly seen

In between I should never have been

To a strong feeling you were blind

Something your eyes no longer hide

To your best friend love you can fake

Not knowing my heart you can break

Almost .. Friend

As the cold wind of summer touches my face

Thoughts of you lingers on my head

When the times I kept myself inside a cage

I held myself back, and it's you I almost had

I almost have you every time I'm feeling down

You're almost here when I need you around

I hear your voice every time I hear a sound

Now an almost broken ME is what I found

From the day you tap my shoulders

Every star glows brighter

And in those glows I want to stay forever

Even if that means that I'll always be a dreamer

It happened so fast

I hope these good things last

You easily accepts me as your friend

I wish you'll stay that way ‘til the end

Again, I'm not asking for more

All I want is to keep you ‘til forevermore

‘because you're the only one that I adore

With you my soul seems to soar

You're like a star on a midnight sky

And like a wind that I cannot tie

Like a water that I cannot hold

In short, you're like a dream that I cannot mold

I know I have you

But like the earth, I cannot own you

because God made you similar to what I have to

So in my dreams is where I could only keep you

Though I can't always have what I wanted

With what you are giving, I am contented

Just constantly remember

That I'll always be by your side forever

From the moment that I loved you

I know chances are fewer than few

Consequences I must know

And my feelings must not show

But this secret is just so hard to hide

My heart is shouting from the inside

Once and for all, somehow I gotta to let you know

That my insane heart just can't let you go

Accept me or reject me

At least, at the very least I've made you see

Somebody's here who's better than he could be

Yet not given a chance to breathe free

Years from now whenever I will pause

While walking along the coast

I'll laugh and remember when I got hurt the most

By somebody that I had…almost!!

God, take me there !!!

As I search for your Saving grace,
I know one day I'll see your face.
Waiting is the hardest thing for me,
I know with you I will be so free.
You take me up and lay me back down,
I know with you I am and will be found.
I seek you each day and seek your name,
I am nothing without you or your Fame.
Waking with you, you give me power,
To make it another day and another hour.
Learning your word is oh so smart,
I love you God with all my heart.
You gave up for me all your life,
We could not stop all the strife.
Everyday I will always say,
I long to return to you one day.
Love me God and keep me strong,
Without you I can never get alone.
So hear my prayers as bring me peace,
My sins Oh God will slowly cease.
My heart is heavy and I am weak,
You love is strong as you speak.
Keep me safe at comforts arms,
Give me grace without any harm.
Give me eternity and take me home,

that day I will never be alone

Old friend

two years too early or two too late. 
two hours before or two after. 
The looks you gave would still hold the same meaning. 
The touches you gave would still give the same tremble. 
The safety you gave would still hold the greatest of temptations. 
Shorter or taller
Thinner or fatter
The words you spoke would still make me feel the same.
The words you type would still fill me with anticipation.
The words you didn’t say would still be there between us. 
Never enough, but too much
Special, but not special enough.
The words I heard were clear, this was to be avoided.
The actions you made were clear, we were just fun until you met someone special. 
The hurt I felt was my own, I had met and meant special.
Not needing more, but needing something. 
Not needing forever, but needing what we had. 
Friends are forever the greatest of compliment. 
Goodbye kisses, and the pulse at your neck. 
Goodbye stroking your cheek, and face.
Goodbye chest with your strong heartbeat.
Hello to your new love and potential, to your someone special, to your gaining everything. 
Hello to my old position, to your special friend, to my loosing everything...
Because all I am, and all I will be, is an old friend.

What is truth !!

 This morning I read an article in the daily newspaper that was supposedly the “real” truth about an incident that happened recently. Was it? Or was it another opinion?

Some people lie outright or tell only some of the facts. Some withhold information and give a false impression. Sometimes, people remain silent when they know the truth. Is there anyone we can believe any more?

And, we have to admit, at one time or another, we all have been guilty of telling lies. Some times because we are unaware of the facts.

Phillip Keller, in his book, What is the Father Like? 

wrote that what God says is absolutely true because He is the embodiment of all truth, and all truth through all time has its source in God.

He reminded me in his book, that truth is constant and unchanging. God’s truth remains the same from age to age, generation to generation, no matter how things change. God’s truth will set us free 

if we act upon it. If we ignore it, our life can be wrecked - broken hearts, hopes, homes and even countries.

When Heart Controls Mind

My knees start to shake
when your in sight,
my minds filled with wonder
my heart with fright.
when will this feeling stop, 
when did it start 
how can I listen to my mind
without breaking my heart.
I am so confused, 
what should I do? 
I can't think of anything 
except of you.
Should I ignore you 
or just give it time
I can't think straight 
my heart controls my mind.

Good morning

Upon waking this morning, before I can get out of bed,
I among others, another day I sorely dread.
My first thought even surprised me you see,
for not only for myself, but for you also I would plead.
I pray that God will not only grant me blessings from above,
but that he will also grant them for those that I love.
So humbly and softly I begin to pray,
not really sure just what to say,
But for all those that I love and adore,
I must cry out, before my feet even touch the floor.
Lord I ask that you will bless us this day,
please bless all in a great and mighty way.
Lord I ask that all of those of whom I know and love,
be filled this day with blessings from above.
Let sadness be turned into gladness,
let the poor become rich, let clothes be mended with only a stitch.
Let the heavy hearted begin to sing for joy,
just as a child when he opens a new toy.
Dear Lord let the tears be turned into laughter,
let mothers read to children the happily ever afters.
Let empty cupboards be filled, let the sick be healed,
please Lord answer my prayer, for on my knees I have knee led.
Let the sinner receive forgiveness, let the lost be found,
let bondage's and strongholds begin to break down.
May the joy of the Lord reign in our lives,
and may those who are blind, now open their eyes.
Let the children safely run, jump, and play,
and may the adults in unity begin to pray.
Let the birds begin to sing, as they watch the works of the king,
Lord pour out your blessings today upon everything.
Upon every step taken, upon every word spoken,
upon every cake baking, upon every heart that's broken.
And let the testimonies of today brighten,
and to the lost may they enlighten.
and last but not at all in the least,
this final request I make of you please,
to lay your protective hand upon each shoulder,
and allow the old to become even older.
With the world as it is we could all use a break,
so this morning Lord, this approach I humbly take.
Bless us Lord I humbly pray,
bless us all with the most beautiful day.

Ocean Love

Will you run into my arms the first time you see me,
Just as you whispered across the Ocean or Caribbean Sea,
When my eyes, red from the sleepless night, anxious to see you in reality Hides its beauty?
Will you embrace me so it feels like forever,
Though the smell of your perfume diffuses all over,
And my clothes worn, having refused to be adorned
By whom I'm scorned?
Will you love me tomorrow as you do today,
When I’m lost for words, with nothing to say, 
Overwhelmed at the thought that you chose me
From the many hunters, all armed in their beauty?
Will you still love me when I have loved you so much,
That all I do is stand in wait to satisfy your desires in a rush, 
And my olive-brown skin no longer glows, but wrinkles
From life’s blows?

Hurricane force winds

Should you find yourself at the captain's helm, as everyone around you is jumping ship.
Do not lose your stride.
Do not miss a step.
Because I will be right beside you, braving the storm.
As the cruel dark clouds loom just above the bow, and the torrential rains begin to fall.
Your nerves may get the best of you, but that is perfectly natural.
All you must do is reach out and take my hand.
I will calm those panicked thoughts causing your mind to spin.
I will stand at your side through hurricane force winds,
and together we'll be able to keep our footing.
Life may attempt to send us to the ocean depths,
but together we will survive this hellish night
to see the sun again.

Just close your eyes

Did I Ever Ever Hold You - Say I Miss You Every Night?
And I Cannot Find My Sleep Girl - If I Cannot Hold You Tight
Did I Tell You When You Left Me - There's No Sun Up In The Sky
And I Cried So Many Times Girl - Oh, Like A Broken Toy
Oh, I Cannot Stand The Pain Girl - It Was Over I Can See
And You Told Me Lady - There's A Chance For You And Me
Just Close Your Eye's And Stay With Me
There Is A Place - Where I Wanna Be With You
Just Close Your Eye's And Take Me In Your Heart
I Will Love You Pretty Baby - If You Try A Start
Did I Ever Ever Tell You - That I Dreamt Of You Last Night
Is There Anything I Can Do - 'Cause I Wanna Hold You Tight
Did I Tell You I Was Dying - As You Turned The Day To Night
Take Away My Sweet Sweet Heaven - So I Just Can't See The Light
Oh, I Cannot Stand The Pain Girl - It Was Over Now I See
And Now You Hold Me Baby - A Second Chance For You And Me

Just Close Your Eye's And Stay With Me
There Is A Place - Where I Wanna Be With You
Just Close Your Eye's And Take Me In Your Heart
I Will Love You Pretty Baby - If You Try A Start
 

Until it affects someone we love,
We don’t even know it’s there.
It’s really not our problem,
So why should we care.
The statistics are quite shocking,
One in four they say
Will suffer from depression
In their lives one day.
There’s not much stigma anymore
For this serious mental flaw.
But no one knows where it will strike,
It’s just the luck of the draw.
No one would choose to live with it,
And some don’t even try.
I see my daughter suffering
And all she can do is cry.
Most people turn the other cheek,
They’ve been doing it for years.
But I must face the pain I see,
In my daughter’s hidden tears.

Ashes in my eyes

When the sun starts to fade
No I won't give in, cause your 
face still remains
and your soul is in beneath my skins.
i wished your body is next to mine,
yet your heart was
never mine, it still belong to someone 
so you will remain ashes in my eyes.
No your hands could never be mine, but
my heart is all yours all the time, how could you 
be mine, when your
not meant to be mine.
oh I wish I was the one
who's always with you all
the time, never I mind the 
imperfections between you and 
I, but you will still remain ashes in my eyes.