I have lived, i have loved

I have lived and I have loved;
I have waked and I have slept;
I have sung and I have danced;
I have smiled and I have wept;
I have won and wasted treasure;

I have had my fill of pleasure;
And all these things were weariness,
And some of them were dreariness;--
And all these things, but two things,
Were emptiness and pain:
And Love--it was the best of them;
And Sleep--worth all the rest of them,
Worth everything but Love to my spirit and my brain.
But still my friend, Ow
Till my days complete their number,
For Love shall never, never return to me again!
And i'm thankful, grateful to my God cuz
I have lived
I have loved.

Ego

At night something awakens

Some dark, bizarre form of me
A flower deep-rooted in death
Whom daylight never sees
A shower of sharp and deadly thoughts
Pulverize and pierce me in my sleep
They awaken me and speak to me
They dig just a little bit too deep
When the sun submits to the moon
And the stars arise in the sky
A part of me rises from the grave
And in an abyss of words I fly
I am the psyche; I’m the human mind
I’m in a world inside my head
I’m alone in here, and I’m alone out there
But my words are never dead

I let my ego free.

But what did that get me?
It brought a world of pain and despair.
I may sound emo,
but it's true.
Don't let your ego get to you.

70444*****

No more angry static to be heard
From the mobile phones we used.
No more of your voice
to identify you: even as imaginary.
We stop knowing each other
When we slowly seal our lips in silence.
I end the signals that connect
You and I in this vast existence.
And then we leave the spaces
Where we were suppose to be.
Slowly time fills cracks...gaps
Until the crack is almost invisible
didn't you see that i cant call you back

Betray

Have you ever felt betrayed ?
by those you thought you loved ?
it really hurts even more so,
because they didn't give a stuff,
not for your feelings,

and not for you,
they just long,
to do the dirty on you!
then turn it around,
to make out it's your fault,
that you forced them,
into the arms of another woman,
because they don't want the blame,
they cant handle the shame,
so why do we put up with it?
when thier's so much hurt to hide,
in this lonely heart of yours,
you feel like part of you has died
they play with your life like a game,
but how would they feel,
if we did the same,
turn to another man,
when time gets hard,
then tell them it's thier fault,
for giving you the red card,
why do we take them back,
when they hurt us so much?
is it because we long for their touch?
is it because they think they will change,
will it get better if we turn the page,
the answer is 'NO' and will always be,
he really doesn't care,
and everyone can see,
who's looking in from the outside,
but we cant because we are too proud,
to admit that we are broken inside,
to admit that they have won !
So,
To say one cares for another,
To conveniently use to make excuses...
With a hiding behind to abuse one's trust,
Will eventually find its way out in the open.
And there are just too many people like that,
To have one believe that their approach...
To throwing someone 'cared for' under the bus,
Has a different touch.

:

Now repeat after me, 
I fall, I rise, I make mistakes, I live, I learn, I've been hurt, but 
I'm alive, I'm human 
I'm not perfect but i'm thankful.

Continuum

A heart that beats knows no limits until its time
And then it beats in the hearts of those, left behind
A soul that loves
shall never want
shall never thirst
shall never die
For it too lives on in the souls it nurtured and loved
Our bodies be only flesh Containers… A finite time
But our souls that beat, 
beat with love; we are… the continuum

How i can meet you !!

When bodies naked in the night
entwine beneath the candled light
love flows gently as kisses bite
and touches light, explore delight.
Desire and sweat, love’s perfumes spring
to fuel the fire of lust to speed
and rhythms sway as mattress sings, 
while sounds emanate from deep to plead.
And those legs spread so far apart
grab and strangle, beseeching more.
For you care not the world’s a part
what awakes you, makes your world soar.
For love that’s true through candled night
is also true but show me please
How i can meet you in day’s light !!

Being a Family Again

we used to protect eachother
we used to defend one another
we used to stand together like brother

we used to be a family a family that would always care
we used to be a family with more happiness than despair
we used to be a family that never hogged food or air
we used to be a family that told eachother we were there
we used to be a family a family that sat down toghether and ate
we used to be a family full of our own ideas that we create
we used to be a family that got along without debate
we used to be a family with more love than hate
So,
Why can't family be family again
and remember why those times were so good
why can't family be family again
and treat each other the way we should
why can't family be family again and throw the hate away
why can't family be family again and invite the love to stay

 

Sacrifice

What difference would it make to the oceans round the
world; if they sacrificed a million droplets of their
water? 
But the same could infact; create a river for people
starving below the disastrous poverty line; prove as
life bestowing fluid for impoverished life in the
deserts; crawling towards the tenterhooks of
extinction…
What difference would it make to meadows all across
the globe; if they sacrificed just a whisker of their
stupendously unfathomable carpet of grass? 
But the same could infact; evolve a marvelous mattress
for all those orphaned slithering on cold blooded
ground; transit them into a blissful slumber; 
relishing the mysticism of the ravishing night…
What difference would it make to gigantic buildings
protruding from varied territories of the globe; if
they sacrificed just an inconspicuous little brick; 
from their majestically towering structure? 
But the same could infact; construct a magnificently
luxurious dwelling; for innocently naked trembling
uncontrollably on the dusty streets; deluging their
uncouthly aggrieved lives with beams of optimistic
happiness…
What difference would it make to the tumultuously
augmenting storm; to sacrifice only a single of its
royally whistling winds? 
But the same could infact; entirely metamorphose the
persona of the morbidly stinking dungeons; into one
replete with spiffy vivaciousness and exuberance worth
a lifetime….
What difference would it make to the fires roaring
unrelentingly towards the cosmos; to sacrifice a
diminutive flame of theirs; from the handsomely
untamed inferno that penetrated charismatically into
the clouds? 
But the same could infact; become the ultimate candle
of happiness for those existing in inexplicably
treacherous darkness; mitigating them towards the
corridors of a cheerful beginning….
What difference would it make to the most learned man
on this Universe; to sacrifice just a trifle of his
benevolent philosophies; out of the infinite ideals he
harbored? 
But the same could infact; prove as an invincible
platform for the illiterate; impregnate a distinct
glint of hope in their despairing eyes; to rise as the
noble stalwarts of tomorrow…
What difference would it make to immortal lovers
across the fathomless earth; to sacrifice just an
infinitesimal iota of their love; diffuse just a
fraction from their boundless repertoire of sharing
and understanding? 
But the same could infact; work miracles for all those
blind; maimed; deaf and horrendously mutilated; 
profusely rejuvenate in them the Omnipotent spirit to
be alive….
What difference would it make to all those robustly
alive and happy; to sacrifice a minute each day to
water the soil; spare a few moments to assist the
ailing; cross the boisterously bustling lanes? 
But the same could infact; transform this world into a
mesmerizing green heaven; profoundly appease the God’s
to bless all with bountiful endowment…
And what difference would it make to all those
unfathomably rich; to sacrifice just a penny from
their overwhelmingly bulging pockets; part with a
ludicrous fragment of their affluence; out of the gold
literally reaching the skies? 
But the same could infact; relinquish all traces of
deplorable poverty from all quarters of the planet; 
engender the ordinary to embrace the extraordinary; in
a wave of united bliss; in a wave of perpetual
happiness

You don't Care.!!

It's dark, dank and dreary
The Wind is cold and uncomforting
But I am just another Raindrop
That lands on your Leaves, 
You stand rooted to the ground
Not even the Wind moves you
And the Rain touches you.
As I land on your Leaf, 
Trying to retain, to remain there
Just for a second, to be a part of you; 
The Wind blows me away 'whoosh'
And I am gone.
But you don't look back, 
The Roots tell you 'no' as the
Wind continues to blow...
Lying on the ground, looking
Back up at what could have been
You stand there, alone, the 
Wind howling, the Rain falling, 
And you don't care, 
You can't care. Is it the
Wind or the Rain? Or are you just too vain? 
Strangely, stupidly, sadly; I
Give you another chance, I try
To talk to you, but you let the
Wind shake your Leaves, the
Rain fall on you, you watch
those Raindrops slide off you
Each and every one falls to the earth
Then it's true,Sometimes , we have to give up on people.Not because we don't care but because they don't.

I was a dark angel

I was a dark angel sent from bellow, 
I was the dark angel waiting to grow, 
I was a dark angel pondering were to go, 
I was a dark angel looking for a pathway to follow, 
I was a dark angel looking for truth, 
A reason for living, 
Searching for who, 
I am nothing but a human following my pathway, 
I am nothing but a human searching everyday, 
I am nothing but a human with a reason to live, 
I am nothing but a human with a gift to for fill, 
I am nothing but a human with meaning, 
I am nothing but a human with a passion, a passion to thrill. 

Your Encouragement

Words of encouragement
Travel further than we’ll ever know.
They help the heart to soar on high
They help the spirit to grow.
We’ve all had those times, haven’t we? 
Where we were down as down could be. 
When someone came to encourage you
Give you a hug and help you from your knees.
Sharing a word of encouragement
With someone will not only benefit them.
It will bring your life such joy and peace
Of which giving encouragement can send.

I was designed to succeed and nothing can stop me even you.

Let me tell you a true words once i said to my friend
:
This live was never designed for the coward
From the moment I set my eyes on you
I knew for sure you’re a champion
Though down but not out, get up and complete the task.
You’ve a race to win
You’ve a tape to breast
And a jackpot to claim
So don’t give up.
The darkness is just an indication that you’ve not put on your light
Put on your light and chase away this darkness
You’ve what it takes; 
All you need to do is stand.
Say to yourself, with confidence and zeal
“I was designed to succeed and nothing can stop me
The trial is just for a while, I’m gonna come out better
After every trial comes the trophy.
I’ve got my eyes on the trophy 
My hands will claim the lord
And all will stand in awe 
Cos I’ve defeated my fears”
And all will stand to their feet
With their hands lost in appreciation
And the lips left wide apart
Cos against all odds, I’ve breast the tape

By shadow changes

When the world have peace
It shall not be hatred or dislike
Which dislike cause the pain? 
Hatred be come shadow murder
When war be and end
To become loving and caring end
Feed the poor and love the rest
But not grant for profits an end
The human blood is warm
Goodness in heart and soul
We feel can all the pain
Could be long and hurtful
Just like any human being
Go straight for peace is to love one another being
Race culture religion is not a different being
Join hand in hand don’t let the chain 
Be broken by shadow changes
Love the world praise the world 

Do you still remember

I have come to know this day
That was lost into the new
With its trees in summer's play
And the love I had for you
There was something in its feel
Holding still on to our dream
Like fairytales quite unreal
In its own unrealistic ream
Where we both once there
With a dream that felt so true
When there was sun everywhere
And no occasion to be blue
There’s something in my heart
Still wondering about those days
Where we had our role and part
With all our thoughts and says
Tell me do you still remember
How truly we both then meant
In long time gone September
Before leaves to yellow went

For mankind to move

Love takes place by Nature between persons; 
Natural love strengthens bond between lovers; 
No force on Earth can separate bonded lovers; 
Literature and history have evidences for that.
Love develops based on the natures of persons; 
Language, religion, race, nation are no barriers
For the development of love among persons
Prospering humankind towards divinity strong! 
Love is beyond all barriers and relations on Earth; 
Unity of humankind based on love does miracles
Benefiting whole of human race in peace and joy
That subsides differences and embraces all as one! 
Romantic or platonic love gives confidence and hope
For mankind to move towards creation of one world!

but you

Tonight I shall sail away
to a world of darkness,
so bid me farewell and 
watch me disappear to
the point of no return.
The taunted screams
that escaped to follow 
my footsteps were never 
vehement enough for me 
to turn around; to trace 
back the path I once took.
I cannot erase whats 
written, nor can I rewrite
the unknown -
My heart was once your 
canvas, your strokes 
poetized a new life in its
albescent walls. And your 
only diary I always were,
so remember to write me 
in your tomorrows.
So into the night I'll sail,
to seal my last goodbye.
I shall remain unread,
forgotten,
departed,
to everyone but you.

Lifetrain

The train sits at the station, 
waiting for a passenger, 
looking for a destination, 
and will do so with the patience of any saint... 
... until there is a reason.What constitutes a reason? 
Is it something to believe in? 
Is it the fact that there is nothing ever proven? Then those wheels start their rolling... 
and with each new revolution, 
may come another revelation, 
and it gets just a little closer to where it's headed.The problem seems to be that no matter
where you lay the track... 
it always has a tendency to bring you right on back
to the place where you began! 

Relaxation with ...

Let the lights dim in the distance.
Free your mind from existence.
Watch the candle flicker and dance.
Fill your heart with sweet romance.
Concentrate on the sound of my voice.
Allow your senses for once to rejoice.
The flame begins to fill the room.
Slowly taking over the inner gloom.
Feel your pain melt over that fire.
Letting your heart dissolve desire.
Now dim your eyes and clear your mind.
Candle and mind become intertwined.
Come with me to a beautiful place.
Where life moves at a rhythmic pace.
Look at the clear lake in the distance.
Feel the wind blowing gently with insistence.
Now go ahead, walk slowly to the lake.
Forget everything at stake.
You see the dock waiting for you.
Gently swaying in a water so blue.
Walk on over with your bare feet.
Slowly bend down and take a seat.
Let your toes free and enjoy the air.
Dip them in the water for a joyful affair.
Take a deep breath and enjoy the feeling.
Look around as nature starts appearing.
The pine trees sway with the wind in a gentle motion.
The reflections rippling with great devotion.
The glare of the sun bounces off the water with a gentle shimmer.
Flickering, shining then slowly going dimmer.
The air smells of fresh weed and fish.
A lungful here makes all stress perish.
Breathe it all in and feel the freedom of your soul.
Bring it all together and make yourself whole.
Watch the water slowly turn red.
Let peace through your body spread.

Who i'm.!!

Not for what you do
But for who you are
Not for the beauty of your face and body
But for the beauty within
Not for the words you speak

But for the wisdom in their meaning
Not for the work you do
But for the example you set
Not for the things you desire
But for the things you give
Not for what you hope to gain
But for the difference you hope to make
Not because I have to
But because I want to
Being a good Man once was in your life's

Just friend

Adrift in a sea
of loneliness
and lost dreams.Feeling jealous
and scorning
those who love. You want to find someone who will care,
because no one has ever seemed to be there.[Hurt] by the anger that bleed's in your soul.
Angel's surround you but you do not know.Find yourself in the mirror and see what lies beyond;
You never want to hold their hands.
[Those who understand]
Grasp life's horn's with a pull and a tug:
Listen to the harps that play; they'll show you love.Harmonize with happiness you'll find
what you crave in the end.!Salvage your heart because there are those who just need a friend.