There always ego within oneself.

Loyalty is being honest to a person..
Honesty is being loyal to yourself.. 
Stay faithfully for only you satisfying my ego..

Rejection .. Channel.1

The worst pain you will ever feel is begin rejected
You can have all the friends in the world but you will still feel alone with your rejection
Nobody understand you or
You don't even understand yourself
You feel trapped in a box with no way out or nobody to help you out
You feel like a ghost walking around, wishing one day you will be found
You feel like an outcast..
Do you want to cry, but no tears come out
Do you want to scream, but no sound come out
Do you think everything that happen is always your fault even
Do you wish you can crawl into your grave and just die
Do you wish you can fast forward time to the moment you arrive to your final destination... You have nobody to talk to, rely on
to feel your pain
Sometimes life is fair
Sometimes life is cruel .. Are you live a life like a shadow
Do you feel unreal
Do you feel fake
Do you feel like a nobody
Do you feel the pain of being sad and alone
I feel your pain
Sometimes I feel the same way
Sometimes I wish somebody will end it all.. Or just open the box
My life is just like a shadow, stuck in a box
May be I go crawl in a hole and lay down and even die
Maybe when I'm gone
I will not feel the pain of being rejected.. But you know, I also hide my pain with a smile on my face for nobody understand that people go thru pain..
The worst is you forget that you designed to success, you designed to acclimate to any conditions.. No matter what..
I feel your pain but..
I never give up hope, for miracles do happen.. Go watch the darkness of the starsless night how it gives birth to the new dawn. 

Good morning..

May the rain in my heart great a rainbow in yours .. 
May the darkness in my night gives birth to your sunrise.. 
May the kisses good night full your morn delight 

You..Ask me not, for I ask you more.!

Why do children nowdays play with knifes ?
Why do we now built on ending lives ?
Why do we all hold on grudge ?
Are we sisters and brothers all one ?
Why can’t we continue living in peace ?
Why has the number of youth in mosques, and churches become
Decreased ?
Down like there is ongoing tomorrow.!! Like all are in power, like a gliding crow.
Why aren’t we seeing the light above ?
Why cant we all share love ?
Is the sky, so blue gathering clouds of sorry ?
Is the moon now starting to dim ?
Are the stars lowering in height ?
Why are these flowers always crying ?
In rivers, of greedy eyes.!!!!
Is there no truth behind these harsh flimsy lies ?
Is there any color between our now blurred sights ?
Why do we tear for wealth ?
Why do we tear for wealth ?
Why are we now harming our health with, Smoke, drugs, and loosing strength ?
The path we walk on now is surrounded in dust.
Why are we tearing out earths crust ?
Are we weak, or just cowardly ?
Are we now Somehow, trying to run from this worldly rout ?
Are we just ignoring facts.. Tampering with figures that don’t match.. Coldly, wading our way off struggled life.
Why are we piercing clean souls to fight ?
Night upon, night.. Believing that tomorrow maybe a new beginning..
Why are we reading life without thought ?
Our future that were sinking in so deep .. Skiing down mountains, and slopes so high wanting to reach infinite heights.
Why are we not dreaming of life after we die ?
Why are we crawling in skin so thin .. Empty, in a broken shell ?
Our pale, completion now turning blue... Clueless that we can’t seem to figure out exactly what to do... We are in our comfort zone set in a confused maze
“A, web so stiff .. The One we love to create” TV, media and videos games..  to whom we merely relate.. So little, time yet so many traits of madness.
Powerless minds hiding in the dark... Descending, further in the fire so spark.
Why are we not seeing pictures, that are beautiful ?
Nature so perfect... But.. Instead, we see untidy images:
We see a painful razor in our sleep
We lay in coma so steep in heat
We are too blind to see ripe fruits and his radiant seeds.
We don’t see colorful flowers and birds humming in praise of “god” nor do we see the heavenly gardens so neatly at ease slumbered in peace... Oh God.
Why don’t we vision the pure grains on land ?
We only see hell flames burn on each sin!.
Why are we fading our race ?
Brothers sister its time for a change.. It’s “love” we now need to embrace... Our aim is “Heaven in which with hope we lay sweetly in our state... Showered in purity and bathed in simplicity... We sit in shade... Glowing, now that we are chaste.
We chose right not wrong, For wrong was history.
We all know tomorrow is one mystery.. But I believe it's a new beginning if we share true love.
Why don’t we all now stand and pray.
Together let it be sunshine and ray.
We weep together for forgiveness
I preach with you in mind
“Brothers, Sisters forever remain safe... A rise blossomed humankind

Nobody cares

Nobody cares..!
if I die, or You die
if i cry, or your cry
if you move out or i stay
if your hurt or I'm hurt
If i fail, win or gain any form of victory
if your job-less and i be skint, and out of pocket
if your being abused, I'm being abused behind closed doors
if there is justice for me and injustice for you
if my child is known or be unknown
if there are wars in my country, wars in your country
nobody cares.! no..body dare to put a 'STOP' or keep the 'DOTE' 

A God locked from outside.. Channel..1

Behind every closed door of every human conscience .. silent whispers ... whispers..  silently, prompting the good over evil.
There is behind every closed door whispers of tolerance heard in silence.
There is behind every closed door.. 
A man make decisions unknown;
people sit around the round tables discussing events of the worldly tales.
A devil wait in patience to pounce the meek, 
A lust gripping the soul in tight clutch.
A fear for war and fear for humanity lies darkened with soot hanging.
There is an opportunity to unravel the bliss.
A shadow play going on, move on and a body hold on.
A streams of blood flowing.
An evil pushing it to reveal and a god locked from outside.

Closed doors

Do you know what happens behind closed doors ? 
I do...!!
A lot of shit happens to the innocent, guilty, young and old behind the doors that have been closed. I don't think you really comprehend what happens behind closed doors.
Behind closed doors you get molested, attacked and abused. Molested by your own family, the people you are supposed to trust. Attacked by people you thought cared about you. Abused by the people who you thought would never hurt you, people who you thought loved you and would do anything for you.
Behind closed doors you get hurt, used and mistreated. Secrets are kept and lies are told to hide what really takes place behind closed doors.
Behind closed doors you plan to commit suicide, to end the pain right now. Behind closed doors you cry, laugh, morn, suffer, rejoice, pray, sing, dance and wished to be saved.
Behind closed doors...you silently die.

Cowardice kiss

Kiss me and you will see how important I am... Kiss the edge of fantasy, lick your lips and dwell in the shine. Enter the room of pink filled fabric. Drape yourself in loves comforting magic. 
Dip those eager fingers into the pool of velvet blush and taste the erotica of loves fruit crush... Take your extended minds and plunge into a passion filled ocean. Listen to the sighs of loves rising tide. Feel the waves that tingle inside. Release your bottled pleasures, that electricity you're feeling. Splash into the flavour of new passion and scream.. 

Channel ..1 needs

To give your heart away is never easy to do.
You sometimes hold it close. Never knowing if another heart is the right one for you. Sometimes, our hearts run away and become lost with the words others say.
When we look into our own hearts, and I mean by us looking deep.
It holds all the answers and a key to which we keep. To understand what a heart feels. It's the way others treat it that tell us if it was ever real. Sometimes our hearts get broken.
Only because love can be so cruel sometimes.
But, it's then
that the heart comes to realise
that it wasn't love it had all that time.
Maybe.... Just maybe.
We'll find a heart that's true, one that will never try to hurt you but how will we ever know in what direction our hearts will go?
If we never use the key to set it free .. To find the love it so desperately .. needs.

Letting go..!!!

And sooner or later there comes a timewhen we must let go.
And Let our mind takes control, let our heart speak even let the tears flow.
It's never easy for anybody to do but sometimes it's the only way of healing you.
We will doubt completely dout .. whether it's right or wrong but it's the first step that we've taken in so long.
How things will turn out, we'll know in the end but, if it's happiness what we seek... So, It's better to find it rather than just pretend that everything is going to be alright 

Happy mother's day

How a man spread his love into four woman, while he can't satisfy only one..

Heart breaker

Let it pain till the end
Through the memories beneath the wind
Sad truth, happy lies or the heart was blind,
Feelings flow, hearts blow and the truth we can't find,
Let it pain till the end
What i did to suffer.!
When it will be better.!
Why all I got was heart breaker.!
I'm sad here from ego.. Seeking pride, no one bow
I'm done here, let's go.. Take this soul with the flow

Melody of death

Hearts beat into one melody, like music...
A song that blends sweetly with one's soul;
Honesty feed it .. Much more when shared to one, you adore..
Cheating is a choice.. Through everything sorrow hunting us, our minds devour.
I seek meaning to the maze of this life because aging adds wrinkles to all that body.. Maybe not sooner to the soul that always smile.. The Melody, the harmony, the honestly no more. O, I hate this soul and where it come but as others you knew.. It's the only one... Take it, I no longer need it.. For that weakness body start to .. You know.. You are the only one know.
Please be merciful to your slave.. For I listen to that endless melody of a desperate act, of a dispirited man.. to end pain in death.

East Sunrise

And.. As the sun rises in the east, rays glitter with light of hopless hope..  Sun's beam dances in color unison through the glooming sky while it stands regal shows beauty and magic into humans blind eyes.
Suffer out from the shame, cry out all the pains that linger, darkness will soon die as the sun will shine to brighten every wandring souls, soothes the ached heart in life, just only when the Sun .. rises .. bright

Sleepless..!

As I restraint myself to sleep today, I found myself so worry about you, I don't know why you insisted to hide your thoughts from me.
As in restraint myself to sleep today I felt insecurities lining up at my old door, digging deep about you into my core.. Putting the monster of worry inside my head, not letting me go peacefully to bed..
Sleepless pain hunt me like a hopless dove brought from life to died... 
As I restraint myself to sleep today, I kept wonders.!!from 
Why I see a dove, if I can't fly..!
Why I see a shore, if I haven't a boat..!
Why I see a train .. Oh I'm going to be insaine 
 ..!!

Dear God ..

Dear God..
I've been sent her out of my will, you craeted  me in the most shape I hate, take of all my power and left me suffer from human weaknesses, in a ground empty from your bounties and graces, with no prove to be what you designed me to be.. And I accept all what done, obey all what happened with bowing to your will, I have only a wish.. And I know you are the only one can make it come true..
Dear God.. For your sake.. Calm her life, and make her happy for she is the Apple of my heart in this madness world.
Please God.. Spread your calmness, forgiveness upon her life from now and until she will be yours..

Never wake up the reality.. "Water fall".

When love start to writing our stories, it will start from nowhere ending with satisfying our souls desires not our minds or our bodies, because he who search for perfection will always end disappointed with the lake between what he need, what he got and what he deserves.. 
When love start to writing our stories, it will start from nowhere carrying us into the land of forgiveness, the land of reality where responsibility and commitment are the reasons behind building homes.
When love start to writing our stories, it will start from nowhere, reminds us when one of us lost his dignity in the door of love temple, just to pray.. Forgetting self needs, self can do, longing to what God arrangements could be.
Being human with that dark skin or unrecognized shape wasn't ever my choice, but dealing with people with an open heart and mind full of humanity was, is and will always be my choice.
So, when love start to writing our stories.. Never walk up the reality.. For it's beyond what our mind can understand.

Yesterday wishes

Considering all possibilities in this temporary life,
knowing that one day we live, one day we die, without
any warning whatsoever.
Once in a while having some symptoms, warning us of
what is to come, but the moment is never really ever
known to us.
So reluctant we are to leave this world filled with
turmoil, loss and suffering, because of the few moments of joy and happiness with our beloved one, family and friends.
These moments are so intense, so rare, filling us with beauty of the life we are living as a humans, especially the ones spent with our beloved one.
Indeed nothing can ever take the place of those fantastic and happy moments in our lives, so we rejoice while we can, hopefully that yesterday wishes will always see the light into today sunrise..

But not forever

he’ll give you time, but not forever.
he can wait, he’s patient.
he is quiet and complacent, but still, you must not forget him.
he doesn’t make demands this way.
he chokes and chuckles, bends and buckles, but him ends, they still do fray.
he is content with hidden hands.
Holy palming, secret longing.
Two sets of footprints, distant in the sands.
he breathes in quiet winds. Stolen glances, believe in second chances,
But quiet is not silent, silence is not golden, words not a token, but you do not relent.
he’ll give you time, but not forever.
he can wait, he’s patient.. 
he is quiet and complacent, but you, you must not forget him..

كلمات في الحب

ما اكثر الغزاه الذين مرو واحرقو الاخضر واليابس ... وما اشجع الجنود الذين ماتو وهم يسدون ثغرات المدائن.

وما أكثر الحالمين .. وما اقل عمرهم.

وما اجمل النساء .. وما اسرع تقلباتها.

وما اشد ارتفاع الطيور .. وما اوهن اجسادها.

وما اثقل السحب وان شح على الناس امطارها.

وما اعتى حكام الزمان وان وهن مع الزمان بنيانهم

وما اكثر كلمات الحب.. وان ندر في القلب عشاقها.