It doesn't meant to be,

In this world we go threw test, not to see who is the one, or who is the best. Life isn't some game we play on a chess board or hit hint when we don't know its meant to be designed to challenge our soul to become this what we are and what we know. 
I need to tell you that there is a saying after death is eternal it means sacrifice all that we have and work hard and do good unto others and so then when death comes it come with our internal life of everlasting.

Hard night

The moon accompanies me every night, Witnessing along hours of struggling
To get some sleep and shut my mind losing delight, convincing myself that I'll always be forgetting.
If disappointment was my destiny or it's for my best why my mind never got rest
So I lay in bed least expecting to sleep, A mind so confused I was never at ease
What is it that I'm trying to achieve, an impossible dreams or a new life i shall believe.
a million words fight, through all the night... maybe I'm waiting the dawn at that first light.

understanding

Life Begins from no total understanding... to a full stupidity 
In life there is so many twists and turns, we never know whats going to happen next, So we keep our head up and keep trying in a stupid race called living
yet in this world few can make it, but a lot of us always fail to understand how to make they dreams come true or even how it works at first place,
So we work hard to achieve our goals, we set them high, and waiting in the cloud to watch them vanish with the wind.