Tuesday, May 01, 2001

To My Blue Rose only

My heart feels such pain,
tell me how to stop my tears.
What can I do to ease the pain?
Why, has life always been so hard,
showering me with such heavy burdens?
 
The tears keep falling as I lay down to sleep. My eyes wide open, flashes of my past,
Of things I lost in my life. As the tears fall, memories
floating around in my mind, going back in time.
Remembering all the good times When I had it all.

The tears are falling like a summer rain,
wishing I could turn back time.
Never thinking one day, there would
be no you here beside me
With tears falling down my face,
Knowing there is nothing left
but my memories of times past,
When you were there beside me
Keeping me safe.
Making all the problems seem small
As you are standing so tall.
No tears of sorrow,
only Love, hope and happiness, Never thinking of tomorrow.
Now as my tears are falling
there is no one here to wipe them away.
Just my hands of loneliness Praying, what to do.
I stare at nothing,trying to decide where do I go from here,
Which way do I turn?
The tears are falling, remembering all the things I took for granted, now that all is lost and gone.
As I wipe the tears falling down my face I look up to the sky and pray.
"Please God, help to show me the way.
Lead me down the right path, give me the strength to carry on.
It's so lonely here by myself with so many things to do.
I need you to give me the faith to see me through."
The tears have stopped falling.
With God's help I'll figure out what I need to do.
It may not be the best, But it's the best that I can do,
Living my life by myself, without you.

Wednesday, July 14, 1999

it's so hard to forget pain, but it's even harder to remember

it's so hard to forget pain, but it's even harder to remember ...

Sometimes wound make me in the best case. Sometimes tears put me in calm way. 
Why i suffer from anything if everything should pass through
people come and go while life never stand. 
it means i should treatment wound by itself and who in life is not hurted by something
i had been many people in my life and today, who is located beside me
Separation is a humanbeen habit and i must make my heart used to it. 
Half of my life pass through and I do not remember when I come happy. i wish to know what is my life wants from me

in this life if i niked as i'm a life as if i don't have a lover, i'll never die while i'm still a life and separated between human is a rule to life
what i'll lose in my life and what i'll regret.
 like me ...!!!!
there are 1000 person live with people as a stranger.

Sunday, April 27, 1997

just rest under a tree

Once there was a man who hated his own shadow. When he walked and found that his shadow was close behind him, he began to walk faster and faster. But the faster he moved, the closer his shadow came.
So he ran like a madman.. and in the end, he dropped dead. Those who do not understand the Dao are just like the man who hated his shadow. It is actually very easy to be rid of one’s shadow — just rest under a tree.

Monday, April 18, 1994

just walk away


If you looking forward to know why i choose this name to my Blog ... its hard to say but if you understand my words meaning So, you should know that you are in the right place, for when one door closes, often another will opens; but we often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door that we do not see the one which has opened for us.. 
There are things in this life that we don't want to happen butbut it happened and you have to accept, 
things we don't want to know or search for the reasons behind yet you have to learn from it, and people we can't live without even to a second but have to let go, to set them free for if they meant to be with us will always find the way back.. And If you think missing me is hard, you should try to missing you.