Wednesday, December 14, 2011

You


Would you care if we quit talking
Would you care if I went walking
I need to know how you feel
So I know how to deal
I like it when your by my side
I hate it when you try to hide
All the cheating and the lies
Brings me one step closer to saying goodbye
I know the cheating is a fact
because I've caught you in the act
I wish I had more trust in you
but it's kinda hard when I busted you
Seems to me you wouldn't care
even if I wasn't there
I always wonder who your with
hoping it's not another chick
I'm not saying I don't believe you
it's just too many people have told me to leave you
But you are everything to me
which is why I want you me to always be
Believing you may be a mistake
but it's a risk I'm willing to take
I really love you, always know I do
and remember there will always be a me and you

Miles away

I'm getting insane
Of the distance we have
How can we be together
Is there any way
For us to get closer
No calls nor letters
Just sadness and tears
When this all be end
This sorrow and pain
Time always keep us away
So hard to think this everyday
Wish I could dream of you
Every night when I'm asleep
For this is the only way
Only way for us to meet

The missing pieces of my heart


one thing I know for sure 

is that words could never take the place 
the place of how I feel 
I keep saying I'll never love again 
but every time I see you 
I see your smile, and feel your warm touch
I fall so deep for you 
you say you love him and not me 
I let you go but you keep coming back to my mind 
leaving my heart shredded
every time you walk away 
holding on till the day 
when you come back 
with the missing pieces of my heart

Not Here, Not Now

You come to me and go away like waves
You change moods like seasons change weather
Sometimes you act hard like a rock
Sometimes as light, soft, and nice as a feather 
With you it's on and off like light 
While I stay strong with great defense and might 
But I don't think I'll win the fight
My inconsolable heart can't take anymore
You're putting me down
All the way to the floor 
Just like the ocean will never run out of water 
Just like the sky won't ever change to another color 
I don't want to run out of your love 
Like peanut butter and jelly, I want us to be together 
You and me
Me and you
Always and forever...
I said hello 
But I don't want to say goodbye 
Not here, not now, not today
Not for a senseless reason
Not this way

Tuesday, December 13, 2011

Heal from broken heart

as I lay here staring out the window
our memories flowing through my mind
holding back as a tear hits the pillow
scared of thoughts I might find.
telling myself I'll be stronger tomorrow
if you would just come back until then
but instead it's constant sorrow
now I have nothing for he was my sin.
as time should heal all things
it feels as if it's going so slow
crying, careless what life brings
but I do not dare to let it show.
for he was my love 
now that is gone
telling myself I'll be happier another day
until then 
wondering what went wrong
thinking why didn't he stay.
I rather just cry now and not hurt later
and ask myself why this happened to me
telling myself it'll soon get better
I really hope 
I believe

i Saw your Face

While walking today as I normally do 
I turned around and your face came into view.
My heart beating fast just took my breath away
totally speechless with nothing to say.
I remembered things that were spoken the day we said goodbye
and how bad I felt when I saw you cry.
Just then someone took you by the hand 
it seemed that you were happy and life has treated you grand.
So with one more glance at your beautiful face 
I knew that someone else had taken my place.
So memories of you will in my heart forever stay 
and I am so thankful I saw you again today.

Communication


Communication takes practice,
it's never perfect,
sometimes not patient,
sometimes not kind,
but you have to say what's on
your mind.
Lend an ear,
listen not just hear,
to the ones you love so dear.
Communication is not a one way street,
it takes two,
to concur this feat.
Communication is hard you see,
but in the end,
it is key,
to that great relationship,
we all want and need.
Open your heart,
say what's on your mind,
When you are partners 
for life there's nothing to hide.

Friends Forever


I couldn't find the right words

Nothing seemed to rhyme
To write something for you all
I think it will take time
Because when you have friends
That are very hard to find
There's so much to say
Because you make everything alright
So I will tell you right now
exactly what I need to say
To show you how much I appreciate
You being there everyday
You're worth more than anyone
even a million pounds
Because you always know what to say
When I am feeling down
You make me smile big smiles
And my days so very bright
And when I lose my way
You find me in the night
I sometimes wish I could explain
How much you mean to me
But its just not possible
To list a billion things
So I just wanted to say
I love you so so much
And I hope you never leave me
Promise to stay in touch

Happy birthday


Today must be your birthday because the sun is shinning bright 

The clouds that are usually hiding it are now nowhere in sight

The birds are singing joyfully as they go happily on their way
It's as if Mother Nature herself knew this was a very special day

The day before was gloomy and the weather was pretty bad
But on this day it all went away and now I don’t feel so sad
My sadness was replaced with happiness that wasn't there before
Your birthday does this every year so I hope you'll have many more
Every year it's has been this way since the day of your sweet birth
And it's this day that makes me appreciate my time down here on earth
My friendship with you grows each year and I feel a special bond
And when this day no longer shines I will know that you are gone

Monday, December 12, 2011

Dreams


The day seems good until you wake up.
The world seems welcoming until you enter it.
When the morning comes nothing seems good
the moment my eyes open and until they are shut
I feel like death would be better, safer, and more peaceful.
But the moment my eyes are closed dreams come and take me.
The dream of peace and happiness, the warmth and love.
It may only last a moment but it gives me strength
Strength for the day to come
No matter what it be, a nightmare or a fantasy
It seems better then life.
Friends in my dreams never leave or change
Time never passes to fast or to slow
You are never forgotten or hated
Nothing seems better and you start to feel happy.
Then the sun comes up and your brought back,
back to the truth of the world.
The pain and sadness,
The hate and fear of life washes over you
and you wish you wouldn't have open your eyes.
You want to fall back into your welcoming sleep
Where nothing goes wrong and you are always loved

Sunday, December 11, 2011

From The Bottom of my Heart

Don't talk anymore my love
Just look at me
and you will understand
how I feel.
Look deep in my eyes
and you'll see your name,
my soul's broken mirror.
I love you more than you believe,
like you are my life,
my other half,
my subconscious guardian angel.
Look around you,
has anyone loved you more than I do?
Never cry my love
cause you'll make me bleed.
Always be happy
cause your smile is a source of life for me.
I breathe when you breathe.
But forgive me
for what I say.
I know you feel nothing.
For you I'm just a silly game
that you played with once
and now you hate
even to look at.
I'm sorry for my feelings
I know they drown you,
they don't set you free.
Come and tell me you hate me
that there's no other chance,
no fake hope.
Don't show me, but tell me.
And then I will leave
I swear I will leave you, 
my endless pain.
It's not your fault,
I can't blame you
it's me who loves you.
Tell me your truth
and you'll never see your name in my eyes again,
cause I'll keep our past and my love
in the bottom of my heart
and I'll be gone..

How i feel !!

I want to run, I want to hide.
From all the pain she caused inside.
I want to scream, I want to cry.
Why can't I tell her Goodbye?
I want to move on, I just can't let go.
I love her more than she will ever know.
I want to start over, I want to feel free!
But this pain will never leave me be.
She hurt me bad, the pain is deep.
From all the promises she couldn't keep.
All the lies, I heard her say.
Are in my head and just won't fade.
How can I forget her, leave the her behind.
Erase the memories from my mind.
She doesn't love me, and she never will.
She will never care, how I feel.

Saturday, December 10, 2011

Rainbow Bridge

I look to the day when the Lord calls upon thee,
My time had come for my one final journey.
To begin searching, looking for my little boy,
With love and compassion and such a great joy.

My heart is racing with thoughts of what is to come,
No more pain, no more sorrow and nothing to run from.
With anticipation no words could seem to compare,
Was longing for love everlasting, an answer to prayer.

I looked to the meadows with tears in my eyes,
The memories were flowing with such a surprise.
Knowing soon I’d be united with my furry friend,
Being so happy knowing this time they’d never end.

I call out his name with the hopes he will hear me,
With a voice of an Angel, a wind whispering a plea.
Excitement in the thought of never again being alone,
Together with my little Patches on our way home.

On this Day at Rainbow Bridge, I again was alive
The time was at hand for my dreams to arrive.
With the fruits of the spirit, God’s gift from above,
Then I saw Jesus with my little Baby, so full of love.

I looked upon the Lord as I embraced my Little One,
He smiled and said to me “It Is My Will Be Done”
The journey has ended; a love that will last forever,
And then side-by-side we crossed over together.