Swallowing my anger

Should I be grateful
that you hurt me? 
Carved me back and forth, 
left me in tatters
like Sunday’s roast
untidy on the plate.
Am I supposed 
to clap my hands? 
say I forgive you? 
give me more
swallowing my anger
eating pain
like dessert
behind the beating
of your words? 
Oh! And what about
my fragile heart? 
No one but I, 
without an ounce
of poetic nature, 
no sense of colour 
or design, no poise
no rhyme or rhythm, 
just I, this mound
of self professed
ability with
such a fragile heart, 
would take offence 
when a random stranger
proclaims me dumb
and self deluded.
Not once but twice
as though you know me, 
can judge me from 
a picture
and words you say
you cannot understand.Apology not accepted !!

Why Does Loneliness Weep In Wisdomful Silence

When the sun shows off its yellow teeth
In my eyes full of sleep
I laugh
And tie up all my sufferings in a knot
To put them in my heart's almirah.
When darkness and silence together
Knock on my window
I laugh
And birds resting on my lips
Fly away.
When for the sake of a handful of water
Empty and hypocrite hands
Fill up with prayers
I laugh
And in the rain of my laughter
Dry lakes quench their thirst.
But when in my wisdom filled silence
She does not acknowledge my existence
I laugh
And laughing, Now my heart start crying......! 

Your passion for me

زيديني عِشقاً.. زيديني

Increase your passion for me.

يا أحلى نوباتِ جُنوني

My most beautiful fit of madness.

زيديني غرقاً يا سيِّدتي

Make me drown, oh my lady,

إن البحرَ يناديني

For the sea calls me.

زيديني موتاً..

Make me more dead.

علَّ الموت، إذا يقتلني، يحييني..

Perhaps as death kills me, I can truly live.

و يا أحلى امرأة بين نساء الكون... أحبيني,

And, oh most beautiful woman in the universe, love me!

و يا من أحببتك حتى احترق الحب... أحبيني

I am the one who loved you till the fire burned me, love me!

أن كنت تريدي السكنى أسكنتك في ضوء عيوني

If you allow me, I would love for you to live within my eyes

حُبُّكِ خارطتي.. ما عادت خارطةُ العالمِ تعنيني

Your love is my map, the world's map no longer matters.

أنا أقدمُ عاصمةٍ للحزن

I am the oldest city of sorrow,

وجُرحي نقشٌ فرعوني

And my wounds are as deep as hieroglyphics.

من بغداد.. إلىالصِّينِ وجعي.. يمتدُّ كبقعةِ زيتٍ

My pain has spread, like a flock of doves from Baghdad to China.

عصفورةَ قلبي، نيساني

Oh bird of my heart,

يا رَمل البحرِ،

Oh sand of the beach,

وروح الروحand oh my soul,

ويا غاباتِ الزيتون

Oh forest of olives,

يا طعمَ الثلج، وطعمَ النار..

Oh taste of ice and taste of fire.

ونكهةَ شكي،ويقيني

My doubt, and belief.

أشعُرُ بالخوف من المجهولِ.. فقويني

I tremble from the unknown, so strengthen me.

أشعرُبالخوفِ من الظلماء.. فضُميني

I tremble from the darkness, so hold me.

أشعرُ بالبردِ.. فغطيني

I tremble from the cold, so cover me.

وظلّي قربي... غني لي..

And sit next to me and sing to me.

فأنا من بدءِ التكوينِ

For, since the beginning of creation,

أبحثُ عن وطنٍ لجبيني..

I have searched for a home for my forehead.

عن حُبِّ امرأةيأخذني لحدودِ الشمسِ و يرميني

And a woman's love that takes me to the edge of the sun, and throws me in

نوَّارةَ عُمري، مَروحتي قنديلي، فوح بساتيني

Brightness of my life, my lantern, representation of my vineyard.

مُدّي لي جسراً من رائحةِ الليمونِ..

Make me a bridge with the scent of oranges.

وضعيني مشطاً عاجياً في عُتمةِ شعركِ.. وانسيني

And place me like an ivory comb, in the darkness of your hair, and forget me

من أجلكِ أعتقتُ نسائي

For your sake I freed my women

وتركتُ التاريخَ ورائي

And I left the history behind me

وشطبت شهادة ميلادي

And I canceled my birth Certificate

وقطعت جميع شراييني

And I Cut off all my arteries

Nobody Can Love you Like I

 الصِّبَا وَالجَـمَالُ مُـلْكُ يَدَيْـكِ
أيُّ تَـاجٍ أعَـزُّ مِـنْ تَاجَيْـكِ
Youth and Beauty, met in one,
Are thy kingdom, thine alone;
And was ever crown more fair
Than the crown which thou dost wear?
نَصَبَ الحُسْـنُ عَرْشَـهُ فَسَـألنَا
مَنْ تُـرَاهَا لـَهُ فَـدَلَّ عَلَيْـكِ
Loveliness upon a time
Lifted up a throne sublime:
“Who shall sit thereon?” asked we,
And he pointed, love, to thee.
فَاسْـكُبِي روحَكِ الحَنـونَ عَلَيْهِ
كَانْسِـكَابِ السَمَاءِ فِي عَيْنَيْـكِ
Let thy gentle spirit now
O’er thy kingdom softly flow,
As the cerulean skies
Flow serenely in thine eyes.
كُلَّمَا نَافَـسَ الصِّـبَا بِجَـمَالٍ
عَبْقَـريِّ السَّـنَا نَمَّـاهُ إلَيْـكِ
Whensoever Youth displays
Beauty all in glory’s blaze,
Vaunting wondrous brilliancy,
Youth attributes all to thee
مَـا تَغَنّـى الـهزارُ إلاّ لِيُلْقِـي
زَفـرَاتِ الغَـرَامِ فِـي أُذُنَيْـكِ
Never plangent nightingale
Sang sad music in the dale
But he poured his passionate sighs
In thy ear, to sympathize
سَكِـرَ الرَّوضُ سَكْـرَةً صَرَعَتْهُ
عِنْدَ مَجْرَى العَبِيـر مِنْ نَهـْدَيْكِ
Through the fragrant afternoons
Lo, the prostate garden swoons
With the frankincense expressed
From thy soft and tender breast
قَتَلَ الوَرْدُ نَفْسَـهُ حَسَداً مِنْـكِ
وَألْقَـى دِمَـاهُ فِـي وَجْنَتَيْـكِ
And the rose, that sought in vain
Thy rare beauty to attain,
Slays herself in jealous mood
To suffuse thy cheeks with blood
وَالفَرَاشَـاتُ مَلَّـتِ الـزَّهرُ لَمَّا
حَدَّثَتْـهَا الأنْسَامُ عَنْ شَـفَتَيْكِ
And the amorous butterflies
Now their favourite flowers despise,
Since the warm breeze of the south
Whispered to them of thy mouth
رَفَعُـوا مِنْـكِ للجَمَـالِ إلَـهاً
وَانْحَنَوْا سُجَّـداً عَلَى قَدَمَيْـكِ
Men have raised thy image there
To embody Beauty fair,
And in reverence complete
Fall adoring at thy feet.

Broken caves

Fighting the tears that fight back
Cracking whips of mighty waves
Flashing from drained pipes 
Into Heart broken caves
Fishing the ocean
Catches of the day.... Who knows? 
Memories blooms like White Paint
Should I stay back or take to go
Timidity in my Voice 
Flow from Focal points in my surroundings
She knows it, but who's too say ? 
That she beholds this in clarity
And gives the time of day
That i'm different

I’m in love

When i think of you
A tear wells up through my heart
All those promises
We made to each other
Have just been forgotten
On the journey of forgotten souls
Floating in the sea towards the island of ... forbidden lovers
With my forbidden love
Forbidden to touch, But I can see.
She makes me try so hard, try to show the real me.
I am trying harder, can't you even tell ? 
My vision has become broader, I have risen so high from where I fell.
Your words do help, even if they don't show.
This is the best I've felt, if I sink again I'll let you know.
You bring me up, can you tell? 
I'm staring down, so far up from where I fell. When i think of youA tear wells, wells up through my heart

look back or look ahead

From five months, I turned forty
So I look back or look ahead
Back to what I was or ahead to what I'll be
But not too far because then I'd be dead
I decided to look back then travel ahead
Exploring my most pivotal years
Remembering things people had said
Examining my deepest fears
if my memory still exist 
Childhood, years of innocence and wonder
Everything to a child's eyes is new
Til one day, innocence is torn asunder
As surely as the sky will be blue
Teenage years, a sense of immortality
At such an age death is not even imagined
Doing everything with such youthful vitality
Not knowing the end is already predestined
Twenties and Thirties maturity is reached
And things just seem to fall into place
Is remembered in the look on a child's face
In your Forties attaining middle age
Deciding that maturity looks good on you
Graying hair, against which you don't rage

You feel it's distinguished, how very true

Walk away

Sometimes with the sunrise
My heart cries out your name
Your leaving took me by surprise
Don't think I'll ever be the same
You loved me once you can't deny
And you know how I felt about you
Now I can only sit here and cry
My heart shrouded in the color blue
Your love sent shivers up my spine
That feeling will surely be missed
But now our love has reached it's end
Whisper your name as you walk away
Promise you will still be my friend
Here in my life I want you to stay 

Bloom No more

Shall I compare thee to a summer's day?
Thou art more lovely and more temperate
Rough winds do shake the darling buds of May
And summer's lease hath all too short a date
Sometimes too hot the eye of heaven shines. And often is his gold complexion dimmed ;
And every fair from fair sometimes declines
By chance or nature's changing course untrimmed.
But thy eternal summer shall not fade
Nor lose possession of that fair thou owest;
Nor shall death brag thou wanderest in his shade
when in eternal lines to time thou growest.
So long as men can breathe, or eyes can see,
So long lives this. and this gives life to thee

ألا تشبهين صفاء المصيف ... بل أنت أحلى وأصفى سماء
ففى الصيف تعصف ريح الذبول ... وتعبث فى برعمات الربيع
ولا يلبث الصيف حتى يزول ... وفى الصيف تسطع عين السماء
ويحتدم القيظ مثل الأتون ... وفى الصيف يحجب عنا السحاب
ضيا السما وجمال ذكاء ... وما من جميل يظل جميلا
فشيمة كل البرايا الفناء ... ولكن صيفك ذا لن يغيب
ولن تفتقدى فيه نور الجمال ... ولن يتباهى الفناء الرهيب
بأنك تمشين بين الظلال ... اذا صغت منك قصيد الأبد
فمادام فى الأرض ناس تعيش ... ومادام فيها عيون ترى
فسوف يردد شعرى الزمان ... وفيه تعيشين بين الورى

Water

Water washes over my hand
Water slips away like sand
Water trickles down a river
Water slides just like a slither
Water is patient and knows when to wait
Water doesn't mind if it shows up late
Water falls from the sky in tears
Water wipes away wasted years
Water can die and live again
Water can squash and pry and bend
Water has been here in the beginning, 
and water will be here until the end

Promises..

You'd say i'll keep a promise
but only if to satisfy their minds
but i'd say .. A promise is a promise to be kept
promises of the past, present, future
each one adds like a burden
but be happy to carry it like a silver box of memories
interlocking these memories of all times, the sands of time
times of gold, silver, copper, gray
even the world revolves around the sun by a promise
a job to be kept
but even a promise can be broken
if you choose that path
promises usually to someone so special to you or soon to become
because what if they were to go away
and even without goodbye
you'd have this promise of theirs to you as a lifelong gift
because you said you kept
Sometimes it is confusing
because too many promises is like pouring too much water in a bowl until it overflows
not too little, not too much but just right
because the heart of mine to yours from a longtime 
this is what the world means to mean
if you were to break your promise there may be a stirke of thunder or not
but you'd live to regret it. because its a lifelong dream, gift no matter time it is
it just might be their last gift from them so until the end i'd say
here keep your promise and i'd keep my promise to yours 
forever 
and ever, 
til this road will finally end, 
well maybe even more

"That was only to you my queen"

My woman

A good talk is so up lifting
Taking one away from drifting
While thinking of the ring
Just a good talk
One that make you want to walk but not stalk
One that take you back in years
Remembering your young tears and fears.
The laughter of childhood...
A good talk is so good.
Filling your heart with warmth
Putting dreams out of place
Adding to your world lace
And not haste.
A good talk and the world stands still what a thrill
taking away ones ills
Forgetting about ones pills
what a good talk will do for you.
Opening up things within
That you re-live again
That good talk is with a woman.
A woman you enjoy
A good talk taking from toy of being a boy.
The things a good woman is capable of without making love.
So I thank the good God above, For speech and what a good woman can teach.
All in a good talk ..
A conversation without a face but on the over side woman.
A woman with grace. 

What is hope

What hope means
Hope is bright shining light which keeps darkness at the bay
Hope is gentle cold breeze on a hot summer day
Hope is to remain positive when going gets tough
hope is seeking more when others think you had enough
What hope means
Hope is dreaming of tommorow
Hope is simmering under sorrow
Hope is sparkles when tears in our eyes
Hope is a beautiful thing and amp; beutiful things never dies
What hope means
Hope is as light as a feather
Hope keeps all of us together
Hope is ubiquitous and free of cost
hope is the last thing I ever lost

Hope

This world is a mess,
You see much sadness,
As you walk through the streets,
And see the fate that we keep,
People going hungry,
Children are crying,
Strangers are fighting,
Pain and despair,
Breath in the now polluted air,
And only one thing,
Keeps us going ahead,
The spark of life,
The kindeling flame,
The one thing that,
Will never fade,
For as long as it is,
In one persons heart,
It will grow,
Like a wildfire,
We look up and pray,
For a better day,
The one thing that we need,
To cope with the insanity,
The thing that makes us,
Go up that steep slope,
Our kindeling flame,
Our much beloved hope. 

Never Give up

The silence masseurs my sound barrier
Breaking all that I am left inside, insanity
Letting go of the ones I care about
It’s become an art form, graceful
It seems it’s the only thing I’m good for
Holding on till there is nothing left for me to hold
It slips between my fingers, in vain
I’m nothing more then a lonely memory
Left to die in my own fabrication of this life
I feel like my existence is falling to pieces
And I can’t help but deem this is my sentence
Lost to comfort, all kinds of words unexpressed
It’s my own silence that I’ve been condemned
Lost to advice, that’s never followed
It’s my decisions that founded my seclusion
Lost to those who really care
Or maybe more to the ones that really don’t
All these people are locked inside
Until the day I free them from my mind
Lost within the darkness
Lost beneath the light
I’ve run out of road to pursue
I’ve got nowhere left to hide
Step out into the sun
Sleep outside beneath the stars
I must burn down this barricade
Before it drowns out all strength
I will succeed and I will get lost
And with any luck, once the two collide
I will blossom in my dream, my dream
Maybe its then when being lost
Will my sense of failure simply just, vanish

Maybe i'm lost in your wisdom but ... i never give up

And sooner or later your heart will ... surrender up

Giving up, has no definitions in my life dictionary 

Regret

Do you regrete leaving ? 
Do you regrete the tears that corrupted my soul ?
And made me see woman as she is? 
Not how she could be !!!
Do you regrete every soul kiss ? 
Every touch taste? 
Every time I yielded to you by my all senses ? 
Do you regret loving me ? 
I regrete loving you ..
My heart keeping ask me, where She is ?

Now i can answer him..!!

She sails you .. without regret..!!
I never knew, I never had a doubt.
My woman I couldn't live without.
I never knew, I never realized
just how much I was stupid.
The guilt is killing me, 
the guilt is killing my love for you.
The paranoia is drowning me a new shape
in all of my truth, regrets, and good byes.
Regretted romances, 
and romancing regrets.Can't you see me falling ?

In the Horizon, I set you free

Lift me up above this endless line
Separated away in different dimensions
Our fated life refracted in slightly illusions
That lead us to be lost in hopeless mazes
So we're living through different phases
You're in a wide and opened sky, 
A canopy of stars, Sun and Moon
While I lay in deep waters of the Sea
Hiding mysteries without a real boon
But destiny did write us a script for glory
The moment in right time for a new life story
For me nothing will cease our chance to unite
In this horizon where we'll meet, days and nights
Waiting rising Sun, the lamp of life for a new dawn
And No, no one can tread us to mourn
As we touch the skyline to greet, 
An infinite hope for fixing our feet
Like the Moon-glades that kissing
On the waves of sea and caressing
Those incessant waves in harmony
In the horizon meet me as a crony
Rise up from sleep as you live in the dark
Open your throat to sing like a skylark
Devotion in a song tears us like a rain from heavens
For blessings come pour our love from her heavens
So here, In this Infinite line we shared the pain
Endless touch, togetherness each other, 
and stay remain.

Love, was; is; will be ..

Love was.....
When 'if' lay between you and I
And 'never' seemed forever
I fell to earth in surrender
And you became the centre of my eye
Love is.....
When I pass by you accidentally
I grab a sense of your smile
When between us is distance measured by the mile
I grab a sense of our love immeasurably
Love will be.....
When I can no longer see to see
When I can no longer hear to hear
I know you will be near
Simply just you and me
Love eternally.....
When God granted us our wish finally
He put in us a throbbing heart
When it stops from this earth we will depart
But our Love will live eternally