Hard life lesson

You've taught me how to really love someone.
For that,
I am forever grateful.
I intend on paying that debt by being yours.
We've had our good times and our bad,
Our ups and downs.
But all the moments we've had/will have,
I will cherish forever.
I try to stay away from you,
Sometimes when I think I'm falling too hard.
But something keeps drawing me back to you.
I would like to know what that something is someday.
But,
Who knows?
It kills me so much that we aren't together YET
I second guess myself when it comes to you
Did I say the right thing?
Did I sound stupid?
Did I write a good poem? (you get get it)
You give me something to care for,
Something to have faith in.
Something to hope for.
Something to pray for.
Something to be thankful for.
Something to wish for.
Something to dream about.
Something to think about.
Something to write about.
Something to talk about.
Something to cry for.
Something to be happy for.
Something to protect.
Something to love with all my heart and soul.
Through the good times and the bad,
I know through all of it.
We will never have bad feelings for each other.
And I know that whenever we are together,
We will always have fun.
From the moment we first started talking,
I knew that we'll be friends (and maybe even more)
And I was right out everything.
And now look how far we've come
Compared to where we began.
I'd do anything for you.
If I had two wishes,
I'd wish for:
Peace,
And you.
Your everything to me.
From the stars in sky
To my world.
From the sun,
To my dreams.
I can't stop loving you,
No matter what I do.
I used to think I would be loved by no one.
But you gave me hope.
Hope that everything would get better.
And I cannot thank you enough.
I hope you never forget me,
Because I know I'll never forget you.

House

Where the house filled with living
The house continuously giving 
Where the house filled with nature 
The house filled with adventure 
Anything can survive
With the nature it provides
Where the house filled with grass
The house filled with hedges, bushes and plants
Canopy trees be it rain or shine 
Will be there for you at any time
Where the green house filled with fresh air 
Will shelter you in the heavy rain
O the house of beauty
O the house of sound
So much variety is yet to be found

Pain .. dreams

Sometimes I imagine that I’ve strode away from my dreams too soon
At night I can’t sleep
Evoking the memory defeated dreams of you and me
My heart and all I am inside wants to give again
Another chance to you and I and then memories begin
Suddenly I hear a thunder loud enough to raise the dead
All I want is to erase you forever, from my head
The rain begins but my logic is clear
Ignore the little demon chanting in my ear
But I can’t ignore part of all I am
The pain is more than I can withstand
Now paindrops are falling to my knees, from my eyes
Agony crawling, above a sea as I sigh
All you’ve done feels vicious and cruel
So how can I imagine sailing back to you
If I suggest another stab at my plans and dreams
You’ll take it literally and you won’t kill me gently
Begin the slow turning of your knife in my side
I already feel it burning jagged edges, as you pry
Your smiles of the past felonious to all I need
I must finish this at last but tomorrow we’ll see

Too deep that it sits untouched

Too deep that it sits untouched! 
Just inches below the surface...
If an itch was scratched! 
And under their feet.
But leap years away, 
From those caught up...
In divisions.
And visions growing within them dim...
When the slightest 'light' enclosed inside, 
Is trapped! 
To allow an ignorance flourished to set in! 
Beginning a diminishing, 
Swiftly! 
Blowing a blind dust to addict and attract, 
Until a rusting holds them back! 
And that which is considered too deep to touch...
Fades, 
Into familiar charading masquerades.
Paraded and chased...
By those barely thriving, 
Without lack of insight! 
Once glowing bright with promise.
To assist a few who dared to acknowledge...
Just steps away lay the keys, 
To unlock their minds from confinement! 
Too deep that it sits untouched! 
'Underwhelmed' with a persistent stubbornness that insist...
Those gifts within their reach, 
Can not be so near.
Unthinkable it is! 
And to accept thoughtlessness.
Too deep that it sits untouched.
A treasure chest of 'jewels'
Unearthed.
Unrecognized! 
As much as they perceive themselves.
Floating above the surface to mingle unashamed, 
Without a purpose... 
To rightfully claim what belongs to them to proclaim! 

Depression

Depression is being tired, when you're never able to sleep
Depression is pity, when you hate other's sympathy
Depression is longing for more, when you never acknowlede what's already there
Depression is the feeling of self-hatred, when the arrogance is concurrently overwhelming
Depression is the repugnance of emotional discomfort, when a sanctuary for physical affliction exists
Depression is loathing at your own success, when the ones around you prosper
Depression is perfectionism, when you could care less about anything else
Depression is the rock that you choose to constantly trip over, when all you have to do is move around it...
Depression is the ultimate cost of denial, when the truth is too much to handle 

How beautiful

How beautiful are the Creatures, when we belief in the Creator
How beautiful is the Belief, when we belief in the God
How beautiful is the Motherhood, when we belief in the Sacrifices 
How beautiful is the Fatherhood, when we belief in the Battles
How beautiful is the Childhood, when we belief in the Innocence 
How beautiful is the Dream, when we belief in the Ambition
How beautiful is the Contentment, when we belief in the Simplicity
How beautiful is the Life, when we belief in the dead
How beautiful is the Love, when we belief in the Care
How beautiful is the Happiness, when we belief in the Sadness
How beautiful is the Relationships, when we belief in the Tender
How beautiful is the Fruit, when we belief in the Farming
How beautiful is the Confidence, when we belief in Our self
How beautiful is the Beauty, when we belief in Our eyes
How beautiful is the World, when we belief in Peace
How beautiful is the Friendship, when we belief in Brotherhood
How beautiful is the Marriage, when we belief in Sharing
How beautiful is the World, when we belief in the Peace

Another life

Life is a road with ups and downs
Life is a travel that never ends
Life is so long for a dream to come true
Life is so short for a love to be remembered
We never know
If we changed the life or it changed us
Some just go on
To look for what he wants to see
Life is happy with tears
Life is sunny with darkness
Life is holding tightly but get nothing
Life is looking back but no way to go back

Life is you life is me

Life is how we sit our souls free.

Can color Claim

Can color claim to read between the lines
And paint fey portrait of each secret smile?
Nuances noting, can it reconcile
Chance extrapolations, sundry signs
Of the mind's ambitions, the designs
Link-locked within a bandwidth Waves confines,
Open doors, which, hidden seem to guide
Unexpected steps to answers bona fide.
Response and recognition each defines
Coded motives which tastes rainbow's shines
Laser beams of truth which will abide:
An insight into what occurs inside.
If from truth's spectrum some thing's infra re(a)d,
Much ultra may be drawn for years ahead.

Natural .. lover

Nature must be love
It is made by god above
Nature is in place
Nature is always with grace
The nature is green
It is colorful when seen
Nature is serene
It is peaceful ever seen
But people is bad
They make mother nature mad
When nature gets mad
It feels like the wrath of god
Disaster of nature
Is enough of your torture
Nature is flower
It gives love like a lover 

Believe

Believe in Love,
Believe in Faith,
Believe in Truth
Believe that no matter what happens, you have the power to prevail
Believe in Strength,
Believe in Courage,
Believe in Honor
Believe that everyone has the power to be good at heart
Believe in Song, Believe in Dance, Believe in Culture
Believe that no matter who you are or where you’re from- everyone is unique
Believe in things you never would
Believe in doing things you never could
Believe in achievement
Believe that if you think you can, you can- but if you think you can’t, you won’t.
Believe in the damned
Believe in the degenerate
Believe in the corrupted
Believe that evil does exist in many forms, but all can be overcome
Believe in spiritual
Believe in holy
Believe in sacred
Believe that your personal values can never be taken from you
Believe in mad
Believe in depressed
Believe in suicidal
Believe that one smile can save a life
Believe in hope
Believe in dreams
Believe that the unbelievable happens everyday
Believe in time
Believe in you
Believe that as long as you believe in yourself anything is possible 

Happiness with or without

Happiness Is a Choice:
Happiness is a choice that you make
From within…it is something you create
It doesn't come from a prescribed pill
Dare I say, it comes from feeling fulfilled
There is a joy that rockets when generosity
appears… it happens automatically
Giving of your time and ability to care
Deciding to be the kind of person who shares
Self-respect builds a strong foundation
It gives a surge when gaining conformation
Happiness brings a smile erasing imperfections
The mood of the day is improved by affection

Happiness Isn’t Guaranteed:
A notion of love being guaranteed is false.
Did you understand what you were told?
'You can not depend on someone else
For your happiness.' These words are cold.
Sometimes the person you rely on is unable.
Affection may wobble and spin away one day.
Happiness isn’t always long lasting and stable.
Accepting reality and moving on is the best way
As painful as it may have seemed at the time…
There was an awakening that was instructive.
Not every coupling ends with a perfect rhyme.
Good-byes with regrets are counterproductive. 

Happy life

Happy people may not have the best of everything
but they make the most of what they already possess
If their house is small and cramped they call it cozy
Some may think they are poor… but they feel blessed
Their lives may not be a beautiful fairy tale come true
Days may be filled with problems of great magnitude
In the night...it is faith that gives them strength to continue
People who make ends meet share thankful gratitude
For those with commitment… there is hope for tomorrow
Little by little their situation improves…while maintaining
tiny steps forward… they advance towards success…
A happy life is one that is absent of constant complaining

Breeze

Breeze a great gift of nature
Embraces every one in its course
Cares not one's position or status
Treats all as equal sure of course! 
God's grace showered on all
Cares not one is short or tall
Animate or inanimate
To one and all He is intimate! 
Nature never discriminates
Nor its laws ever remonstrates
Ugly mind of the cruel man
Alone knows the art of scan
To inflict injuries on the innocent
And shower benefits to those with influence! 
Cruel it is the honest suffers
Unfair it is the opposite prospers
How to end this nasty goings
And bring peace and poise in all the beings? 

Tired but not expired

Right on the day we enter
Know well that we will quit the center
With the bonus of extended forty
Well served with grace and plenty
Why then the fear and feeling
Of depression and desolation right to the ceiling! 
Retirement is not the end of life
Sure it's blossom of a lovely life
That makes a gentle gesture
Yielding place to the youthful texture! 
God's gift of hundred years
To be lived in peace with or without tears
In serenity and dignity all the way
Relax, reflect, recapture in a sweet sway! 
Nature offers mirth and joy
Young or old can sure enjoy
Sick in person not a bar
Sick in mind sure to abhor! 
Love the world, love its mold
Love thy work, love thy life
Love thy neighbor, love thy labor
Love the sky, love the stars
Love the Nature, love its rapture
Love is reciprocal, sip its bliss!

Growing Up

A small tree began to grow
Many impressions were pressed
Into the sapling’s brow and soul
Some gladden…others distressed
Its roots deepen and limbs strengthen
Innocently growing in the shadows
Hearing whispers from grown trees
Seeking an ideal model to follow 
Wondering how it would be 
To learn without a slanted view
Witnessing life freely with honesty 
Deciding for it’s self what to do
Stretching high…reaching the sky
The warming sunlight embraces 
Encouraging nest building and song
Robust branches tower over dark places

Tears

tears we cry to release our pain when love has gone far away.
tears we cry when a friend hurts us inside with the words they dont realise.
tears we cry on a wedding day to see the joy on this very special day.
tears we cry when a child is born full of hope that part of us lives on.
tears we cry when a life has gone for the loved one that has passed on.
tears we cry to sometimes get our way thats not right i have to say.
tears we cry all through our lives for joy and pain that never goes away.
tears we cry men can do as well as not in hiding but in front of there woman too.
tears we cry all through our lives for the joy and pain we have inside. 

Kind old soul

when love comes alone it sometimes takes you by surprise.
when you are not looking it hits you between the eyes.
when you think you are to old that kind and gentle guy
comes into to your life and takes you on that magic ride.
when he arrives with a smile, and a kiss thats just for you what is better to make your dreams come true.
when he holds your hand and walks you along the path of life your dreams do come true and you don't feel blue.
when it is raining and cold outside a hug from him makes you warm inside.
when people make you think you are to old just tell them about this kind old soul.

When love fade

I’ve watched love fade
Like a setting sun
I remember the day
It had all begun
It wasn’t that long ago
When my heart felt the twitch
You really got to me
You made my insides itch
I haven’t felt like this
For many many years
In all of my life I’ve never 
Cried this many tears
I’ve watched love fade
Like a setting sun
I was a fool to think
That you were the one

Don't Cry

Don't cry, don't sigh, 
Sorry, left in a hurry, Could not say good bye
Don't sob, don't sigh
Look around, you will find me 
In the golden dew drops on the grass
Or in the wind of willow tree
Or in the silver lining by the Eagle flying free
Love never dies you leave it behind
Close your eyes, I am in your heart, in your mind
I will come running when you call my name 
In your mind nothing has changed, all is same
Look at the stars, the Moon or the pretty rainbow in the sky
I am there, every where, touch me, I am in your mind's eye
Walk on the beach, walk with me, let the wind play with your hair
I am in the wind, humming with the waves layer after layer
This is my resting place, I will be here forever
Don't cry, don't sigh, I will be with you ever and ever,

Little Bird

A little bird is flying by
It lands here straight in front of my
So many questions in its eye
My soul is listening or at least would try
“Why the humans, be be grateful to God, 
Still want to be so cruel to us, birds
Don’t they appreciate what they got? 
My brother Cheated me, my sister too, can you explain in words? ”
I try to talk about capitalism and human greed
About loss of morals, unsatisfiable need 
But the bird seems not to understand what I say
It gets soon scared and flies away. 

When Pain, melting in the scene

Sometimes,
Everything seems to go wrong
Everything seems so depressing
It can go on for quite long,
Until we stop to count our blessings
I had fractured my shoulder
the pain was sharp
My mood got quite deep, quite down,
But then just outside my garden...
I was sitting there quietly
Looking at the South China Sea
The sun made it look bright
Bright brown in front,
'cause of sand thrown up by the waves
Hues of bright green to blue behind
With spots that were really dark,
The shadows of a few scanty clouds
All this seen through a frame of white sand below,
A blue sky above and in perspective,
fresh green branches of trees at the sides
How could I be sad for much longer
With such images in front of me?
One of the clouds moved in front of the sun
And a slight breeze came along
To give a refreshing cool to my cheeks
And blow away the moist that had formed on my forehead.
While the ever-changing shadows of the clouds
Continued to colour the sea in ever changing patterns
Two small birds started to argue with their lovely voices
And were flying through and fro.
The breeze got a bit stronger
and made the coconut leaves do their typical dance
The music of the waves was enriched
by the sound of the rustling leaves
I removed a few dry casuarinas leaves
that just had fallen on my cahier
From the parent tree
swaying softly in the wind
The amazing beauty of the scene had me dreamy, when...
My beautiful wife brought me two of my favourite doughnuts
With a cup of steaming hot coffee.
The pain of the fracture seemed to have become so small ..

Words to your soul,

Words point at the Truth
Just as you can point
With your finger to the moon
But just as your finger 
IS not the moon
Words are not the Truth
And just as we can see the moon
Without your finger
It is possible to see the Truth
Without your words
It's good to be guided by the words
To find the Truth
But without silence,
Without reflection,
Without connection to your soul
Any word will be in vain.
The words are there for us, 
Let me see them through you
Let us see them with our souls.

When your heart seems hopelessly broken

Deceived, a heart full of hurt
Bitter and hard, Hatred burning
A flood of tears
Will the tide ever be turning?
Even though your heart, he has been destroying
Life seems so nice to him, he is still enjoying.
You are alone, all alone with a heart full of hurt
You shout it out loud, but remain unheard.
Through all the hatred you find in your heart
the suffering and pain becomes worse
You want peace, but where do you start,
All you are is bitter, hateful. You curse
When we pray for help and support from above
For the one who had lost all love,
the idea of forgiving seems to grow stronger.
We do not want to hate for much longer
Once we can forgive in our heart
grief starts to fall apart.
Tears may come back on and off
But we become able to live, love and laugh
When we decide that we want to keep hatred so strong
We will continue to hurt and be bitter all along.

Dream

With blood and sweat I will wield
the fruits of joy I will yield
I will work till I reach my goal
then I will live as a joyous soul.
With the phoenix song and flowers for all
I will wait to light a fire by fall
and gain the things not displayed at a stall
with a life so simple, I will walk tall
Maybe it's not the perfect dream at all,
but in forty there is nothing more

Freedom, is ... is never

FREEDOM IS:

F-ighting for a just and noble cause
R-especting others rights and dignity
E-xchanging of views without fear
E-mpowring others to be free from tyrany.
D-oing morally rightful and lawful things
O-ffering others opportunity to live descent life
M-utual sharing as brothers and sisters.

for FREEDOM IS NEVER

F-ighting to deprive others rights
R-aping the right and dignity of anyone
E-xploiting the ignorance and weakness of others
E-xperimenting others life for an immoral cause
D-irect assault of one's private life in disguise of freedom
O-utliving others with the power of guns and goons
M-utual sharing at the expense of the weak and many.

 

Just like yesterday

Give a peace of mind
Before time is blind
Never let it die
Though times are low and high
You have said so much
Something's out of touch
Spinning and imagine
Every thought's abjection
Countries coming down
In every small town
Living isn’t so easy
With it's sky so breezy
And our peace so lonely
Working for us only
Just few footsteps away
Each our envisioning plays
Countries coming down
In every small town
Right and wrong so queasy
Slogans coming cheesy
Give a peace of mind
Before time is blind
Find now your truest call
Take a stand or just fall
Right or wrong most is
And some points it'll miss
But trust your inner notion
It has its potential implosion
Those words are just carried on
With them nothing's ever done
Today is just like yesterday
Caring its pointless weigh

heart to heart

I've found sorrow and I've found joy 
Both are as fresh as the water I drink 
One was of taste the other a decoy 
Which one is either you must now think 
I've had pleasures I've had trouble 
None did I seek though both did I gain 
Value they gave and each they redouble 
Some felt like sun the other pouring rain 
Both are of life in fullest of content 
Bringing yearnings and all shorts of needs 
Contrasting ways some making relent 
Others with joy and heart to heart greets 

the journey

I’m on a journey from within
like a shooting star in between,
could not make no catch though it had all began,
on my way towards a place so clean
sick and tired of the conditions ‘am living in,
swindling my mind
to find
the essence of the blind
side of the story; one of a kind.
in its remoteness but closeness
i could feel it within the heart beat of my wilderness
fulfilling the emptiness
and the loneliness,
animatedly gripping my attention towards
and nearer…
i could now feel the tiredness
through my veins
from the membrane under my skin
furrowing through my sensory nerves to the brain
as if i was electrified, journeying to some sort, so plain
gulling proudly in me, couldn’t feel no pain
for i am to blame
for the fame
of my main aim
to claim the chain
abruptly, back to my mind to think of the same blame
that i’ve been so possessed with.
the osmosis of such thoughts nearly battered me off
but somebody from within me,
whispered through my ear flap not to back off
but to strive for a better me….
like a movie script,
all that trailed were so conversant of the other
that i now see thyself as a true reflection of the shadow
that follows me,
whenever there is radiation from somewhere
and disappears in the dark like a night hawk
but that shadow is really me, and ‘am the shadow,
on the journey though the road too narrow
over reels and gullies,
and over hills and valleys
to see tomorrow
for i’m hopeful to reach there,
and survive through the bow and arrow.
but still, i got to free
my psyche from the mental dungeon
pleading with the i not to be a chained spirit,
hence i must be on a journey from within
like a shooting star in between
striving for a better me to pop-in
and those that been on a thinking spree
like me.
the journey,
continues, though i did not pocket any penny
and won’t be like many
of those that give up on a journey.
in its remoteness but closeness
i could feel its footsteps as if it were in the wilderness,
straight from my toe
to the foe
to explore
my mental galore
this, i call the journey from the core
to the deep end of the sore,
in my mental stream line
towards the baseline
of the rain-bowed sky line
and could now move towards the horizon
despite the radiating rays of the orion
to reach the finishing line of the truncheon
and the journey seemed endless but carry on
as reflected by the journey
on the journey! 

Melodrama

poverty drives him away
as she stays in the faraway village
her hands cold her heart so empty
he works so hard in the city
the promises of love makes him endure
the pain and sorrow
she waits for those long years
she keeps herself pure all for him
he comes back bringing his fortune
now wanting to ask her hand in marriage
her parents force her to marry
the son of the rich merchant in the city
disappointed she kills herself
she is found hanging on the ceiling of the mansion
he leaves the place wanting to forget
he writes love poems that end in tragedy
always in his dreams she is with him
the following morning he meets his happy death 

Tomorrow ... Back Home

Even when you think you don’t belong
That you haven’t related in so long
Your life is the most important thing
Whether you are an orphan or a king
They love you more than you know
You will see it through the affection they show
Some people still think that they are alone
That it isn’t affection that they have been shown
You will always find the person who loves you
And you will also find that you love them too
So even if you run away from you house
Looking like a small frightened mouse
In your heart you will know if it was right or wrong
Or whether it was home in that house you’ve stayed so long
Because your house isn’t necessarily your home
It may be a while that you stay alone
However whether or not you have a phone
You will always find your way back home 

Do you still remember

I have come to know this day
That was lost into the new
With its trees in summer's play
And the love I had for you
There was something in its feel
Holding still on to our dream
Like fairytales quite unreal
In its own unrealistic ream
Where we both once there
With a dream that felt so true
When there was sun everywhere
And no occasion to be blue
There’s something in my heart
Still wondering about those days
Where we had our role and part
With all our thoughts and says
Tell me do you still remember
How truly we both then meant
In long time gone September
Before leaves to yellow went 

Tears to Tears

Tears to tears draw the line
Love is never forgotten
Years to years in its sunshine
Leaves of life rotten
Dream kingdoms never come
Only the heart reappears
Where it was and where its plum
Sometime sometimes not clears
Through time's dark
Each mood and affection
Golden visions not to spark
Into the heart's connection
Hours onward to end die
Affliction of dark to see
There once were tears to cry
From under its love plea
What shall last a little while? 
Into roads going through
Hours futile is like the mile
Only walked when needn't to
Tears to tears my roots have dried
Reappearing grayish dim
Into its much heartbreak tide
Hostage in a mime whimsy whim