The One Who Got Away

My heart literally hurts
My chest is in pain
Life without you
Will never be the same
I can’t blame you
Because I did you wrong too
But now that it’s officially over
I don’t know what to do
We started out as friends
As I denied my feelings
You came to me
You wanted more, with more meaning
I did but I was scared
When you tried to be there, I left
I thought you were better than me
The best man I ever met
As time went on
I regretted my actions
Got caught up in my insecurities
They stopped me from acting
I couldn’t believe you chose me
When I knew you deserve better
So I carried on,
As if I never met you
I finally got the nerve
To look you in the eye
Such a beautiful man you are
It shook me inside
I tried to mend what I tore
But the damage was done
I came back too late
You found someone
I’ll never forget your smile
I’ll never forget your kiss
But your presence in my life
Will forever be missed

Shattered Heart

Some say a broken heart is like a shattered vase

Fragile pieces scattered all over the place.

The shattered pieces of broken glass seem to go everywhere

Unlike the pieces of a broken heart that seem to pierce your soul.

With faith and hope you try to mend the broken heart

Unlike the vase it cannot be so easily replaced.

It takes a while to mend it and then you lock it up

You hide the key and wait to see if someone can be found

A special person who will use the key to unlock the heart

A unique person who will handle the heart with gentle hands,

Who can be honest, truthful and handle it with care.

My heart and I wonder is there really that kind of person out there.

Christmas Wish

I wanted for Christmas you to be mine

I wrote this before it was that time

I hoped that there had been sufficient time passed

for you to take me back and start again at long last

I gave you time and now I can see

the best I can give you is freedom from me

I make this decision because I feel I must

it appears I'll never gain back that trust

I want you to know that no matter what

there wont come a time you don't drive me nuts

not the kind that gets people admitted

the better one, being forever and always committed

I must give that up and cancel my mission

I guess our love will never meet fruition

a terrible mistake cost me my dreams

inside I'm dying, filled with screams

it is this day Christmas 08

I knowingly choose to change my fate

no longer will I bother you

with idle threats of love so true

I will cease to be in your life

just as you've chosen not to be my wife

I don't like it, it shatters my dreams

but I have no thread left holding my seams

rather than staying the rug on the floor

I stand, a man, and walk out the door

I wanted to fill a box with a ring

but you've made it clear that's not the right thing

I'm sorry I wasted so much of your time

with my problems unending and these silly rhymes

instead all I have is this here note

the tears are pouring, they'd fill a moat

I wipe them away and stand once more

over broken dreams I walk to the door

as I walk I glance back

so uncertain of what I lack

matter it doesn't because this here door

WILL BE CLOSED. WILL BE LOCKED. WILL BE OPEN NO MORE

True Joy

I'll be happy once I've done this certain thing.

We all say this often not realizing what it brings.

We look only to the future for our happiness.

Letting life slip through our fingers in its fullness.

Will we really feel complete when the task is done, 

or look back and see how we missed so much fun?

Self consumed so we can't see anything else, 

hurting those we love as well as ourselves.

So many things around us to be grateful for, 

when seeking for an answer willingly open the door.

So often, others see what's in front of our face, 

but we're too blind to look as we're snared in the race.

What is this life supposed to be about?

Is it money, fortune, fame, or a big house?

When speaking to a man on his dying bed, 

none of these answers are what he said.

Family, love, laughter are what we should seek.

These are the precious things right outside your door.

Keep On Smiling

If at times you feel you want to cry.

And life seems such a trial.

Above the clouds there’s a bright blue sky 

So make your tears a smile. 

As you travel on life’s way 

With its many ups and downs 

Remember it’s quite true to say 

One smile is worth a dozen frowns. 

Among the worlds expensive things 

A smile is very cheap 

And when you give a smile away, 

You get one back to keep. 

Happiness comes at times to all 

But sadness comes unbidden 

And sometimes a few tears must fall 

Among the laughter hidden. 

So when friends have sadness on their face 

And troubles round them piled 

The world will seem a better place 

And all because you smiled. 

You

Would you care if we quit talking

Would you care if I went walking

I need to know how you feel

So I know how to deal

I like it when your by my side

I hate it when you try to hide

All the cheating and the lies

Brings me one step closer to saying goodbye

I know the cheating is a fact

because I've caught you in the act

I wish I had more trust in you

but it's kinda hard when I busted you

Seems to me you wouldn't care

even if I wasn't there

I always wonder who your with

hoping it's not another chick

I'm not saying I don't believe you

it's just too many people have told me to leave you

But you are everything to me

which is why I want you me to always be

Believing you may be a mistake

but it's a risk I'm willing to take

I really love you, always know I do

and remember there will always be a me and you

Miles away

I'm getting insane
Of the distance we have
How can we be together
Is there any way
For us to get closer
No calls nor letters
Just sadness and tears
When this all be end
This sorrow and pain
Time always keep us away
So hard to think this everyday
Wish I could dream of you
Every night when I'm asleep
For this is the only way
Only way for us to meet

The missing pieces of my heart

one thing I know for sure 

is that words could never take the place 

the place of how I feel 

I keep saying I'll never love again 

but every time I see you 

I see your smile, and feel your warm touch

I fall so deep for you 

you say you love him and not me 

I let you go but you keep coming back to my mind 

leaving my heart shredded

every time you walk away 

holding on till the day 

when you come back 

with the missing pieces of my heart

Not Here, Not Now

You come to me and go away like waves
You change moods like seasons change weather
Sometimes you act hard like a rock
Sometimes as light, soft, and nice as a feather 
With you it's on and off like light 
While I stay strong with great defense and might 
But I don't think I'll win the fight
My inconsolable heart can't take anymore
You're putting me down
All the way to the floor 
Just like the ocean will never run out of water 
Just like the sky won't ever change to another color 
I don't want to run out of your love 
Like peanut butter and jelly, I want us to be together 
You and me
Me and you
Always and forever...
I said hello 
But I don't want to say goodbye 
Not here, not now, not today
Not for a senseless reason
Not this way

Heal from broken heart

as I lay here staring out the window
our memories flowing through my mind
holding back as a tear hits the pillow
scared of thoughts I might find.
telling myself I'll be stronger tomorrow
if you would just come back until then
but instead it's constant sorrow
now I have nothing for he was my sin.
as time should heal all things
it feels as if it's going so slow
crying, careless what life brings
but I do not dare to let it show.
for he was my love 
now that is gone
telling myself I'll be happier another day
until then 
wondering what went wrong
thinking why didn't he stay.
I rather just cry now and not hurt later
and ask myself why this happened to me
telling myself it'll soon get better
I really hope 
I believe

i Saw your Face

While walking today as I normally do 
I turned around and your face came into view.
My heart beating fast just took my breath away
totally speechless with nothing to say.
I remembered things that were spoken the day we said goodbye
and how bad I felt when I saw you cry.
Just then someone took you by the hand 
it seemed that you were happy and life has treated you grand.
So with one more glance at your beautiful face 
I knew that someone else had taken my place.
So memories of you will in my heart forever stay 
and I am so thankful I saw you again today.

Communication

Communication takes practice,

it's never perfect,

sometimes not patient,

sometimes not kind,

but you have to say what's on

your mind.

Lend an ear,

listen not just hear,

to the ones you love so dear.

Communication is not a one way street,

it takes two,

to concur this feat.

Communication is hard you see,

but in the end,

it is key,

to that great relationship,

we all want and need.

Open your heart,

say what's on your mind,

When you are partners 

for life there's nothing to hide.

Friends Forever

I couldn't find the right words

Nothing seemed to rhyme

To write something for you all

I think it will take time

Because when you have friends

That are very hard to find

There's so much to say

Because you make everything alright

So I will tell you right now

exactly what I need to say

To show you how much I appreciate

You being there everyday

You're worth more than anyone

even a million pounds

Because you always know what to say

When I am feeling down

You make me smile big smiles

And my days so very bright

And when I lose my way

You find me in the night

I sometimes wish I could explain

How much you mean to me

But its just not possible

To list a billion things

So I just wanted to say

I love you so so much

And I hope you never leave me

Promise to stay in touch

Happy birthday

Today must be your birthday because the sun is shinning bright 

The clouds that are usually hiding it are now nowhere in sight

The birds are singing joyfully as they go happily on their way

It's as if Mother Nature herself knew this was a very special day

The day before was gloomy and the weather was pretty bad

But on this day it all went away and now I don’t feel so sad

My sadness was replaced with happiness that wasn't there before

Your birthday does this every year so I hope you'll have many more

Every year it's has been this way since the day of your sweet birth

And it's this day that makes me appreciate my time down here on earth

My friendship with you grows each year and I feel a special bond

And when this day no longer shines I will know that you are gone