Of life I know

Of life I know there's little that I do know
I've learned that one might say the hard way
But spiritually we should not cease to grow
And from the 'Book of life' a lesson every day.
Respect and love of others out of love of self is born
That's how it is and that's how 'twill always be
'If you cannot love yourself you cannot love anyone'
A wise old lady once said that to me.
A self taught person the years had left her gray
Wisdom does not come with a university degree
An unkind word of another I never heard her say
Her insights live on in my memory.
Self loathing is not healthy for the mind
It can lead to crimes against humanity
If you cannot love yourself then love in you is dead
Since love of self gives birth to empathy.
Every day we live from life something we learn
For life 'twould seem is the best teacher of all
We never do stop learning we are told
The babe is learning before he or she does crawl.
So little of life I know I do know
And in that I am not one of a few
From living we learn something every day
Though on saying that I'm not saying anything that's new.

Your hand

Through the noon and the nights get started the kingdom of fights, 
where aches off the wall and grievances in my soul taste all the sights
From the port at which I deserted who I really am, my sanity is covered with a hide, 
Next to my humanity exists what is a melody in disguise; there is a road I can ride, 
but with any attempt, the crying face of the sun falls down on me, making me mild, 
No guides are present here and there around us, absent is the real sense of side
I am here crawling beside, waiting for my secret love begged to be my would-be bride
And the row and sow has shifted me into such a man in pursuit of what nbms means, 
my sparkling secrecy of love chases me to the marvelous hide of heaven and teens
As a man without the knowledge of what is meant by 'first...'; I have got to know, 
Swimming into the road of your eyes, this heart is day by day enhancing to grow
All the tints of masterpieces could only be invaluable over your skin and brow
Let my final destiny lie on your way, on your lip, on your lap and in your mornings
Let all the stars become really bright with the essence of your hand and longings

Tears are swimming in the pool of aches

Tears are swimming in the pool of aches and pains 
Lies fly in the sky with an attempt to contradict reality 
Honours are left in the pot from which I drink anguish 
Hours are in the temptation to lose their originality 
Minutes have embodied into an unknown realm 
Desert my soul as in the very beginning of heart 
Insert the sword of tensions into my very existence 
Make me cry day and night, putting a trace of loneliness 
Make me lose count of the seconds I feel inside your vein 
Kill that insanity, turning me into a rush hour of emptiness 
I have given into the time line that charges me with all the ups and downs 
There is no expectation for me as to the coming and appearance of tomorrow 
I am aware that the things to get born for me are the moments of sorrow 
Terrified of that world and the ignition of that body, Okan bleeds like the murdered man 
Asking who I really am, I bring myself to the kneels and hands of thunderous tan 
The rhymes of any poem have become senseless and pointless as for the fragile turmoil 
Now I am starting to make a preparation for the accumulation of gravestone soil 

Life storm

When storms of life are all around,
It's so wonderful to reach out and touch a hand I've found,
One who gives me sight to see the way,
And leads me to a brighter day,
Although at times it seems very long,
But as I lean on my God, He makes me strong.
He gives me hope to watch and wait,
I know it will come soon or late,
And this storm too will pass
As other storms that did not last. 

Seventy Seven Ways to check your Ego

Ego Shouts, Higher Self Whispers
Ego is Thoughts, Higher Self is Feelings
Ego is the False You, Higher Self is the God in You
Ego is Fear, Higher Self is Love
Ego is always Lacking, Higher Self is Abundance
Ego feels Victimized, Higher Self feels Challenged
Ego feels Deprived; Higher Self feels Joyful
Ego Blocks, Higher Self opens up
Ego Grudges; Higher Self Forgives and Forgets
Ego Devolves; Higher Self Evolves
Ego doesn't admit mistakes; Higher Self admits mistakes
Ego is Impatient; Higher Self is Patient
Ego is Serious and Sarcastic; Higher self is Humorous
Ego is Calculative; Higher Self is Compassionate
Ego hangs to Past; Higher Self lives in Present
Egos is Empty Speech; Higher Self Honors
Ego wants Conflict; Higher Self wants Peace
Ego is Anger; Higher Self is Calmness
Ego Punches; Higher Self Pats
Ego is seeking Death; Higher Self is seeking Birth
Ego is Divorce; Higher Self is Marriage
Ego is always I, Higher Self is We
Ego Argues; Higher Self Admits
Ego wants Chaos; Higher Self wants Peace
Ego Depreciates; Higher Self Appreciates
Ego Hates; Higher Self Loves
Ego is Authoritative; Higher Self is Diplomatic
Ego is Disrespectful; Higher Self is respectful
Ego Talks without Listening; Higher Self Listens and Talks
Ego Blames mistakes; Higher Self Informs mistakes
Ego is Unconsciousness; Higher Self is Consciousness
Ego is Stingy; Higher Self is Generous
Ego is Emotional; Higher Self is Sensible
Ego is Mind; Higher Self is Soul
Ego is Adamant; Higher Self Realizes and Apologizes
Ego is Destructive; Higher Self is Constructive
Ego is Conditional Love; Higher Self is Unconditional Love
Ego is Contraction; Higher Self is Growth
Ego is Negative; Higher Self is Positive
Ego enjoys Sadness; Higher Self seeks Joy
Ego always expects to receive; Higher Self wishes to give
Ego is narrow focus; Higher Self is Broad Look
Ego is Suspicion; Higher Self is Trust
Ego is misunderstanding; Higher Self Understands
Ego Disintegrates; Higher Self Integrates
Ego is Exclusive; Higher Self is Inclusive
Ego Rejects; Higher Self Embraces
Ego Depletes; Higher Self Energizes
Ego looks External; Higher Self looks Internal
Ego is Disappointment; Higher Self is Contentment
Ego sucks character; Higher self improves character
Ego is Hypocrisy; Higher Self is sincerity
Ego is quarrel; Higher Self is reconciliation
Ego is jealousy; Higher Self is broad mind
Ego Frowns; Higher Self Smiles
Ego is False Pride; Higher Self is Humility
Ego seeks Protection; Higher Self gives Protection
Ego is Regressive; Higher Self is Progressive
Ego is Attached Detachment; Higher Self is Detached Attachment
Ego is Sorrow disguised as Happiness; Higher Self is Real Happiness
Ego is Conflict; Higher Self is Harmony
Ego is Darkness; Higher Self is Light
Ego is Selfish; Higher Self is Selfless
Ego is Wicked; Higher Self is Godly
Ego is Damaging; Higher Self is Healing
Ego is Impulsive; Higher Self is Intuitive
Ego is Confinement; Higher Self is Freedom
Ego is Distress; Higher Self is Peace
Ego feels Superior; Higher Self is Humble
Ego is Excessive Desire; Higher Self is Passion
Ego is Self Pride; Higher Self is Self Esteem
Ego is Loftiness; Higher Self is Self Confidence
Ego is Possessiveness: Higher Self is Generous
Ego is Doership; Higher Self is Duty Bound
Ego is Harsh; Higher Self is Sympathetic
Ego is Rebellious; Higher Self is Obedient
Ego is Partial: Higher Self is Total
Ego is a Must!
To the Extent to Identify You
To the Extent to lead your Daily Life
It's Cosmically Foolish to be Egoistic
Choose Higher Self! Choose Life! 

Trust or Belief

Belief is Doubtful, Trust is Certain
Belief is from Mind, Trust is from Heart
Belief is Lip Service; Trust is Heart Felt
Believe many; Trust only a Few
Believing is Easy, Trusting is Hard
Belief is Ordinary; Trust is Extra-ordinary
Belief is Start point; Trust is End Point
Belief is Limited; Trust is infinite
Belief is Shaking Hands, Trust is Embracing
Belief keeps Control; Trust gives up control
Belief is jumping opportunities; Trust is staying
Belief is not Time Tested; Trust passes Tough Times
Belief is Partial; Trust is Complete
Believe in Thoughts; Trust your Intuition
Belief in God is Attempting; Trust in God is Surrender
Belief is Important; Trust is Essential
Belief is Plastic Rose; Trust is Real Rose

Blue

The voices make you blue
Now suicide is waiting for you
Pills seem to be the way now
The bottle is waiting
What are you to do
This sad but true
Now you swallow all but two
As your skin turns blue
Your friend breathes into you
How did this not work for you
You just wanted to die too
Maybe next time will do
This is sad but true
You pray the knife will cut you into
What they have done to you
Now this will have to do
Now it is done for you
This is .. but true

Sad in blue

Sad sad sad in blue 
For sad sad sad you 
The moon is all bluish tonight 
The night is all dark out side 
Nowhere to run 
Sad sad sad in blue 

Into the night hold me tight 
Love me babe I need some light 
What's wrong and what's right 
When shadows dwell and abide 

Sad sad sad in blue 
For sad sad sad you 
The moon is all bluish tonight 
Is there some star shoot in sight 
To wish upon 
For sad sad sad you 

Into the night take a flight 
Feelings, touch, everything out sight 
Love me with feelings ok 
Come come babe now closer stay 

Sad sad sad in blue 
For sad sad sad you 
The moon is all bluish tonight 
Is there some star shoot in sight 
To wish upon 
For sad sad sad you 

When Never Is Essential

It is NEVER a NO when you want is a YES,
You will only experience constriction in your chest,
You will feel like choking yourself to death.
Never say GOODBYE when you want is HELLO,
When farewell feels good but welcome is so great,
When leaving seems certain but not preferred.
Never GIVE UP neither GIVE IN,
When you know you can still try and go on,
When you feel neither quitting nor resigning is not a solution.
Never SAY you don't love that person,
When you can't seem to stop thinking,
When daydreaming is best when you see him there standing.
Or never SAY something that you will regret later,
It’s better to restrain yourself than to lose your temper,
When something you would say will fire up a quarrel.
Never STARE at someone you don’t recognize the face,
If you don’t want to be questioned,
If you don’t want to encounter an equal disrespect.
Never LAUGH when you see a disabled,
Neither a nerd nor a visually weird,
It is not something to express your amusement.
Never RELY on someone,
Who is flippant, fickle minded, and erratic;
Who fiddles with his finger on every single object.
Never say NEVER if you mean by all means,
You know you cannot predict whatever is next,
You cannot even guess what is on the mind of your guest.
Never LIE on something even if it is just a bit,
It’s better to bite your tongue when temptation attempts,
We know there’s no trivial or casual fib,
Lie is untruth and always falls as false.
Never SWEAR on something you aren’t confident,
A YES or a NO reply is actually sufficient,
To convey what you mean or to make a full statement.
Oh yes, there are many more NEVER to quote,
More than a thousand and one to point out with cause,
Sadly this page is not enough for me to note.

Hard life lesson

You've taught me how to really love someone.
For that,
I am forever grateful.
I intend on paying that debt by being yours.
We've had our good times and our bad,
Our ups and downs.
But all the moments we've had/will have,
I will cherish forever.
I try to stay away from you,
Sometimes when I think I'm falling too hard.
But something keeps drawing me back to you.
I would like to know what that something is someday.
But,
Who knows?
It kills me so much that we aren't together YET
I second guess myself when it comes to you
Did I say the right thing?
Did I sound stupid?
Did I write a good poem? (you get get it)
You give me something to care for,
Something to have faith in.
Something to hope for.
Something to pray for.
Something to be thankful for.
Something to wish for.
Something to dream about.
Something to think about.
Something to write about.
Something to talk about.
Something to cry for.
Something to be happy for.
Something to protect.
Something to love with all my heart and soul.
Through the good times and the bad,
I know through all of it.
We will never have bad feelings for each other.
And I know that whenever we are together,
We will always have fun.
From the moment we first started talking,
I knew that we'll be friends (and maybe even more)
And I was right out everything.
And now look how far we've come
Compared to where we began.
I'd do anything for you.
If I had two wishes,
I'd wish for:
Peace,
And you.
Your everything to me.
From the stars in sky
To my world.
From the sun,
To my dreams.
I can't stop loving you,
No matter what I do.
I used to think I would be loved by no one.
But you gave me hope.
Hope that everything would get better.
And I cannot thank you enough.
I hope you never forget me,
Because I know I'll never forget you.

House

Where the house filled with living
The house continuously giving 
Where the house filled with nature 
The house filled with adventure 
Anything can survive
With the nature it provides
Where the house filled with grass
The house filled with hedges, bushes and plants
Canopy trees be it rain or shine 
Will be there for you at any time
Where the green house filled with fresh air 
Will shelter you in the heavy rain
O the house of beauty
O the house of sound
So much variety is yet to be found

Pain .. dreams

Sometimes I imagine that I’ve strode away from my dreams too soon
At night I can’t sleep
Evoking the memory defeated dreams of you and me
My heart and all I am inside wants to give again
Another chance to you and I and then memories begin
Suddenly I hear a thunder loud enough to raise the dead
All I want is to erase you forever, from my head
The rain begins but my logic is clear
Ignore the little demon chanting in my ear
But I can’t ignore part of all I am
The pain is more than I can withstand
Now paindrops are falling to my knees, from my eyes
Agony crawling, above a sea as I sigh
All you’ve done feels vicious and cruel
So how can I imagine sailing back to you
If I suggest another stab at my plans and dreams
You’ll take it literally and you won’t kill me gently
Begin the slow turning of your knife in my side
I already feel it burning jagged edges, as you pry
Your smiles of the past felonious to all I need
I must finish this at last but tomorrow we’ll see

Too deep that it sits untouched

Too deep that it sits untouched! 
Just inches below the surface...
If an itch was scratched! 
And under their feet.
But leap years away, 
From those caught up...
In divisions.
And visions growing within them dim...
When the slightest 'light' enclosed inside, 
Is trapped! 
To allow an ignorance flourished to set in! 
Beginning a diminishing, 
Swiftly! 
Blowing a blind dust to addict and attract, 
Until a rusting holds them back! 
And that which is considered too deep to touch...
Fades, 
Into familiar charading masquerades.
Paraded and chased...
By those barely thriving, 
Without lack of insight! 
Once glowing bright with promise.
To assist a few who dared to acknowledge...
Just steps away lay the keys, 
To unlock their minds from confinement! 
Too deep that it sits untouched! 
'Underwhelmed' with a persistent stubbornness that insist...
Those gifts within their reach, 
Can not be so near.
Unthinkable it is! 
And to accept thoughtlessness.
Too deep that it sits untouched.
A treasure chest of 'jewels'
Unearthed.
Unrecognized! 
As much as they perceive themselves.
Floating above the surface to mingle unashamed, 
Without a purpose... 
To rightfully claim what belongs to them to proclaim! 

Depression

Depression is being tired, when you're never able to sleep
Depression is pity, when you hate other's sympathy
Depression is longing for more, when you never acknowlede what's already there
Depression is the feeling of self-hatred, when the arrogance is concurrently overwhelming
Depression is the repugnance of emotional discomfort, when a sanctuary for physical affliction exists
Depression is loathing at your own success, when the ones around you prosper
Depression is perfectionism, when you could care less about anything else
Depression is the rock that you choose to constantly trip over, when all you have to do is move around it...
Depression is the ultimate cost of denial, when the truth is too much to handle 

How beautiful

How beautiful are the Creatures, when we belief in the Creator
How beautiful is the Belief, when we belief in the God
How beautiful is the Motherhood, when we belief in the Sacrifices 
How beautiful is the Fatherhood, when we belief in the Battles
How beautiful is the Childhood, when we belief in the Innocence 
How beautiful is the Dream, when we belief in the Ambition
How beautiful is the Contentment, when we belief in the Simplicity
How beautiful is the Life, when we belief in the dead
How beautiful is the Love, when we belief in the Care
How beautiful is the Happiness, when we belief in the Sadness
How beautiful is the Relationships, when we belief in the Tender
How beautiful is the Fruit, when we belief in the Farming
How beautiful is the Confidence, when we belief in Our self
How beautiful is the Beauty, when we belief in Our eyes
How beautiful is the World, when we belief in Peace
How beautiful is the Friendship, when we belief in Brotherhood
How beautiful is the Marriage, when we belief in Sharing
How beautiful is the World, when we belief in the Peace

Another life

Life is a road with ups and downs
Life is a travel that never ends
Life is so long for a dream to come true
Life is so short for a love to be remembered
We never know
If we changed the life or it changed us
Some just go on
To look for what he wants to see
Life is happy with tears
Life is sunny with darkness
Life is holding tightly but get nothing
Life is looking back but no way to go back

Life is you life is me

Life is how we sit our souls free.

Can color Claim

Can color claim to read between the lines
And paint fey portrait of each secret smile?
Nuances noting, can it reconcile
Chance extrapolations, sundry signs
Of the mind's ambitions, the designs
Link-locked within a bandwidth Waves confines,
Open doors, which, hidden seem to guide
Unexpected steps to answers bona fide.
Response and recognition each defines
Coded motives which tastes rainbow's shines
Laser beams of truth which will abide:
An insight into what occurs inside.
If from truth's spectrum some thing's infra re(a)d,
Much ultra may be drawn for years ahead.

Natural .. lover

Nature must be love
It is made by god above
Nature is in place
Nature is always with grace
The nature is green
It is colorful when seen
Nature is serene
It is peaceful ever seen
But people is bad
They make mother nature mad
When nature gets mad
It feels like the wrath of god
Disaster of nature
Is enough of your torture
Nature is flower
It gives love like a lover 

Believe

Believe in Love,
Believe in Faith,
Believe in Truth
Believe that no matter what happens, you have the power to prevail
Believe in Strength,
Believe in Courage,
Believe in Honor
Believe that everyone has the power to be good at heart
Believe in Song, Believe in Dance, Believe in Culture
Believe that no matter who you are or where you’re from- everyone is unique
Believe in things you never would
Believe in doing things you never could
Believe in achievement
Believe that if you think you can, you can- but if you think you can’t, you won’t.
Believe in the damned
Believe in the degenerate
Believe in the corrupted
Believe that evil does exist in many forms, but all can be overcome
Believe in spiritual
Believe in holy
Believe in sacred
Believe that your personal values can never be taken from you
Believe in mad
Believe in depressed
Believe in suicidal
Believe that one smile can save a life
Believe in hope
Believe in dreams
Believe that the unbelievable happens everyday
Believe in time
Believe in you
Believe that as long as you believe in yourself anything is possible 

Happiness with or without

Happiness Is a Choice:
Happiness is a choice that you make
From within…it is something you create
It doesn't come from a prescribed pill
Dare I say, it comes from feeling fulfilled
There is a joy that rockets when generosity
appears… it happens automatically
Giving of your time and ability to care
Deciding to be the kind of person who shares
Self-respect builds a strong foundation
It gives a surge when gaining conformation
Happiness brings a smile erasing imperfections
The mood of the day is improved by affection

Happiness Isn’t Guaranteed:
A notion of love being guaranteed is false.
Did you understand what you were told?
'You can not depend on someone else
For your happiness.' These words are cold.
Sometimes the person you rely on is unable.
Affection may wobble and spin away one day.
Happiness isn’t always long lasting and stable.
Accepting reality and moving on is the best way
As painful as it may have seemed at the time…
There was an awakening that was instructive.
Not every coupling ends with a perfect rhyme.
Good-byes with regrets are counterproductive.