These few weeks I reverted back to the old me, The pain I hide away so no one will again see, except in what i ink I’m fine happy I will say, I detest lying but others prefer it that way.
I try to be there just listen whatever happens to you, even I’m crashing badly somehow this I still can do, I feel weak, sick, tired, exhausted in reality, No one realizes how bad it is as they don’t care about me.
I guess I now know just badness bad luck to others I bring, So I ought to just die so I don’t hurt others with this evil thing, I hate me for spoiling things and bringing others down, So I have to self-destruct in silence and never show a frown.
I guess when I see someone is happy I should not stay, Because I will chase their happiness good fortune away, For others have more value purpose that is sadly true, They deserve to be happy and I mustn’t make them blue.
So pain, hurt, frustrations I will just file away and hide, as silently crying as I just die more and more inside,I survive only to serve my family to try let them live, to repay them for all that they have to others give.
When this is over at last I can at last go permanently away, I’m too tired now and have no other reason to on this earth stay.
Out of love, a person need to maintains a balance of feeling, for some are destructive and others giving healing... Some gave us great joy.. whereas others are sad, Can you see, they can be good or painful and bad.
As we rise joyfully high then to depths we fall, A balance of life is there for us all.
We have these two huge extremes... To appreciate the opposite to "me" it seems.
When the darkness falls we'd not fight, If we were never filled with good light
Opposites are always there and always inside we kept, for we've all experienced joy then to have wept.
So darling, when next time it seems again all is sadly tossed... And life meaning and purpose has been lost, just remember though bad, the opposites still near.. We keep trying, we must have faith.... and good sooner or later will .... appear.
And for your morning I'm sending a gentle touch of love for
kindness bears the sweetest fruit, that makes our dreams come true.
Touch my heart and I'll touch yours, guide me when I'm blind, for a good
heart, good love and good friends are hard to find.
Touch my heart and
I'll touch yours, a little more each day, may we both find happiness,
somewhere along our way.
