Confused

My knees start to shake

when your in sight,
my minds filled with wonder
my heart with fright.

when will this feeling stop, 
when did it start 
how can I listen to my mind
without breaking my heart.

I am so confused, 
what should I do? 
I can't think of anything 
except of you.

Should I ignore you 
or just give it time
I can't think straight 
my heart controls my mind.

Walking Away

I'm tired of dreaming.

I'm through with trying.
Tired of living, yet scared of dying.
Maybe things are good for you,
but look at all that I've been through.
Look at all the pain I've won.
I bet you think that it's been fun.
You never thought I'd turn away.
You never believed you'd see this day.
Look again cuz here I go
leaving behind all I know.
Changing it all as I must do.
Not daring to stop and think things through.
Wanting to run as fast as I can,
not stopping until I understand.
Like why did I let things get this way?
Why didn't I leave yesterday?
How are things going to be,
since there is no more you and me.

Truth Hurts More Than Your Lie

The truth you tell me hurts more than your lie

Once I learned it I started to cry
Every time I thought of you
I remembered what I thought was true
I try to cover it as I mend my heart
It's no use I'm broken apart
Into a million pieces I've been shattered 
Not that you cared not that it mattered
The truth hurts more than I thought
Reality showing what I forgot
My smile returns to a fake
There's nothing else for you to take
You took my heart when I learned the lie
Inside I'm dying as I try
To mend myself as best as I can
Hoping that this won't happen again
I'll try to leave this behind
As I start to find
Myself looking at you during the day
And try to find something to say
That won't bring back this painful memory
what won't remind me what couldn't be
As I start to learn it's still true
I still find myself loving you

May be i live Alone

It is truly regrettable that is looking for truth in the age of infidelityand looking for love in the hearts of the cemetery
True love does not end until the death of the owner and false love die when the owner lives
Meet the rare coin and hearts are a few banks and banks that dealwith this type of currency

now my pain is not important

its not important ... after saying goodbye there is nothing important
its not important ... the dream was lost there is a dreams no-more
you were in my life everything ... the dream, the light and the way
you side goodbye ... the dream was gone and every meaning in my mined gone
now my pain is not important too
now everything good is dieing ... and the sunshine seems to be dark night ... and my happyness turned to sadness and pain
and the fearness now like the security
you side goodbye ... the dream was gone and every meaning in my mined gone
now my pain is not important too

in front of life mirror

when the dignity go away easy then nothing important 
when the lovers cheat each other then nothing important 
when the bad guys be the one over the good one then nothing important. When the cheep person be the best over the special one then its over ... there is nothing important
when the money be the important thing more than the human respect to themselves then .. nothing important

in front of life mirror ... i stand to see myself ... from all the pains and the wonds .. i couldn't recognize myself
i saw other one its not me ... while the person stand in front of it ... its me i saw other one its not me ... while the person stand in front of it ... its me
its a reflect to someone sad and tired its a reflect to someone lonely have no one to help its a reflect to wounded ghost has a white hair, white hair ... i couldn't recognize my self
in front of life mirror

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My days

Along years ago, i dreamed to be with you ...

Along years ago, i waited you, and when i saw your eyes i became a slave between your hands

My days with you ....

i'm a life because i admire you

i'm a lover because i wish to die while i'm still loving you

i forgot who real i'm between your Arms,

there is a love inside me i couldn't discus it with words ... who can discus a dreams which he had been dream with it to many years

you can come to live your life in my hug .. i have no one but you, i feel with my life meaning with you, i like my life while i'm closed to you

this is ...

my days, with you

Empty Heart

Now you are acting as you cannot see and know what is love meant,

Now you are living all your days and all your dreams in illusion and lies

that's enough … I'm too sorry ...you became a such person which have no heart

Many things inside you had been died while I have my silent and never say; no

and I let my tears free to talk and when I have my pain I never complain

I'll tell you my last words

I'm sure that your heart beats no more.

Now your heart is empty … everything around it was died and you accept this

Now your heart is empty … everything around it was died and you accept this

empty Hearts

What you Do ?

Failure is only a temporary change in direction to set you straight for your next success.

Only those who dare to fail greatly can ever achieve greatly.

You can choose to be happy or sad and whichever you choose that is what you get. No one is really responsible to make someone else happy, no matter what most people have been taught and accept as true.

So,

What you do…No one can decide. Its up to you. And who you are is what you choose. These times when the world falls apart makes us who we are

I'll lie to myself and to my soul if I say to my heart i forgot you .... And, i often side i forgot you while i couldn't thought in anything but you

I'll lie to myself if I said I forget you, or I don't care about you while I'm still  loving you, and my world is still not possible to live without you
My days and nights with you it is usually in front of my eyes ... i Remember the first meeting i remember the last words ... 

BElievE or NOt

 Here is a test to find out whether your mission in life is complete...
        If you're alive, it isn't

        if you're, believes No proof is necessary.
        if you're, not believe, No proof is possible

      , what I meant is ...

 Human often becomes what them believes themselves to be.
if I keep on saying to myself
that I cannot do a certain thing,
it is possible that I may end by really becoming incapable of doing it.
On the contrary,
if I have the belief that I can do it,
I shall surely acquire the capacity to do it,
even if I may not have it at the beginning. So,

When you come to the edge of all the light you have,
and are about to step off into the darkness of the unknown,
faith is knowing one of two things will happen:
There will be something solid to stand on,
or you will be taught how to fly

will never be.... another you!

A lot of things go unquestioned, 

A lot of Questions go unanswered, 

A Few words go unsaid, Few go a unheard, 

Some are born ... dead, That's Life and its Rules in my opinion is Assume Nothing, Expect Little, Do More, Demand Less, 

Smile Often, Dream Big, Laugh a Lot, Pray Always, 

Cry Once for missing someone special everyday
because it will never be .... another you!

What you took was more than your share

What you did was beyond repair

You hurt and you stole

My love is no longer for your soul

For my happiness you did not care

What I had you took from me

My peace and serenity

It was not yours nor did I give it freely

What you stole my sanity

You gave me pain and hurt

You gave me more than your worth

I didn’t want it; never asked for it

You gave me your burden

 It’s not mine to carry

How could you ask other to share it?

My heart is full of scares

Most of which is from your mar

What did you think that it would set you free?

It didn’t I know this to be

Because I won’t carry it, I gave it back to you

It’s not mine I won’t bare it,

I have my own; and I won’t force others to share it

Pain is what you caused pain is what you feel

Pain you brought other; pain all too real

God help me when I feel this way

God help me, I hope you find a day

When your pain is no more

When you find a way not to hurt to the core

I am working on healing for myself

I hope you find healing in your health

My heart still does hurt

Nevertheless, even through my anger

I don’t wish you harm

I hope you find

HOPE, HEELING AND PEACE

happy or sad

You can choose to be happy or sad and whichever you choose that is what you get. No one is really responsible to make someone else happy, no matter what most people have been taught and accept as true,
There is always a lesson through every tear. Whether you think it’s a bad thing or a good thing, it’s a lesson not a punishment. Though you may think it is a way to punish, It’s only a way to teach. Through love or through hate you will soon realize that it’s not only you learning with every tear.
I don’t respect the people that don’t respect me, I'm starting respect the people that deserve it, that’s how i’ll get somewhere in life.

Last lesson

You teach me that the past was all an illusion and empty words .... And faithful in love has no place in this life. You are a luckier because you can forget, you are luckier because you can be a hard person, you are luckier because you do not have a heart someday will tell you I loved him

you forgot my love in second, you can live your life as a second. You could love easy and let it go easy you never give your Treachery a chance

You teach me that the past was all an illusion and empty words .... And faithful in love has no place in this life. I spent many night and many years with you, while you never feel it pass through. I built my dream on my wounds and you quickly destroy it...

I wished that I never believe in your life

I wished that I never believe in your illusion

I wished that I never believe in your love

Missing You

I want to cry every night,
       because I miss the way we fight.
I pray for you every night,
       because I miss you not being in my sight.

I miss the sound of your voice,
       that I am sick and tired of all this noise.
I miss the way you smell,
       oh that smell.

I miss the look upon your face,
       that made me smile with such grace.
I love you so much I can't deny,
for when I see you I will break down and cry.

For when I cry these happy tears, I won't have anymore fears.
You'll be home safe with me,
that I'll be able to sleep.
Oh how I miss you so much.

I'll just have to wait and hope you will, keep in touch

What is a soul mate ?

With you

with you '''

the time pass through Quickly. i don't know how or where we will meet again 

When you miss me ' Close your eyes and say my Name

i'll hear you i'll feel with you and you feel me

your picture in my hand i'll kiss it with my eyes and i'll send you a Rose

with you '''

the time pass through Quickly. i don't know how or where we will meet again

no ways will separate us .. no feelings will end .... however the night will be hard we will back to each other with more feeling

When you miss me ' Close your eyes and say my Name

i'll hear you i'll feel with you and you feel me

your picture in my hand i'll kiss it with my eyes and i'll send you a Rose

for you 

At the end i'm sure that There are those who feel the most basic rights to happiness

while they grow half-fruits of illusion ..

and There are those who feel the full rights in the Miserywhile they are picking all the fruits of truth

Impossible Love

What is love? 

This is a question that everyone is trying to answer for him or herself. Love is something that cannot be understood by the mind, it has to be felt by the heart. Love is something, without which the very existence of the humankind would be impossible. Love can be a reason to live or to die. Love is capable of moving mountains and reaching stars in the sky.
Every person on Earth looks for his or her love. Unfortunately, not everyone finds it. To some, it comes when they are young; to some, when they are adults; and to others, when they are old. The key is to wait for and believe in love. Unfortunately, oftentimes love comes when a person can no longer wait for it. There are such facts in the human history. California, too, can be proud of such a story of human love and fidelity.

What is Impossible love?

When we were together
Those were the happiest time in all my life
Now were separated I don`t know what I will do
`cause I can`t ever love another
No matter how hard I try
`cause I know. it`s impossible
Where ever you may be
I hope you`ll hear my words
Then maybe you`ll realise
My love that you were wrong

`cause I can`t ever love another
No matter how hard I try
`cause I know. it`s impossible

The sunset outside my window
Has lost all it`s glow
The rose in the garden
Doesn`t bloom any more

Missing Someone special

I tried to convince myself I didn't want you anymore.
I just can't let go.
I don't want to see you move on, but I'm not doing much about it either.
You're two different people and I wish it would stop, because I'm living to die and dieing to live, but it doesn't mean a thing to me, until I have you. I felt so good when I was with you, you made me feel like the world; to hear i was your favorite and the best you ever had. You were not ashamed and would hold my hand anywhere. We'd talk on the phone for hours, and every time we kissed it felt like i was dreaming. Love felt like heaven when I was with you; and now that you're gone im hurting like hell. I miss you so much, and I wish you were here, but I made the wrong choice and its too late, too many mistakes had been made and i lost you, forever -- but you didn't loose my love because i loved you ever since the day i met you. and ill never forget you, because to me, you are the WORLD

Everyday i think of you.

Everyday you cross my mind.
Everyday i see something that reminds me of you.
Everyday I'm missing you.
Everyday i wish you were mine.
Everyday i wonder what could of been.
Everyday i think of why you did this.
everyday I'm getting stronger.
Everyday I'm moving on.
But 

everyday ill always miss you

The hardest thing

The hardest things to do is 

• watching the one you love, love someone else
• When you are in Love you can't fall asleep because reality is better than your dreams
• If you love something, let it go. If it comes back to you, its yours forever. If it dosent, then it was never meant to be
• let someone become your everything, because when they're gone you have nothing! 
• True love never dies, even if you have found a new love, the sweet memory of the past will continue to hunt you for the rest of your life.
• even if you have found a new love, the sweet memory of the past will continue to hunt you for the rest of your life. 
• Love is like a mountain, hard to climb, but once you get to the top the view is beautiful
• We were like Romeo and Juliet. I thought we'd do anything for each other.
  But Juliet didn't break Romeo's heart

Only ... To you

Study this small story; I hope that makes a BIG change in you ....

Professor began his class by holding up a glass with some water in it. He held it up for all to see & asked the students,' How much do you think this glass weighs?'

'50gms!' .... '100gms!' ..... '125gms' .. the students answered.

'I really don't know unless I weigh it,' said the professor, 'but, my question is: What would happen if I held it up like this for a few minutes?'

'Nothing' the students said.

'Ok what would happen if I held it up like this for an hour?' the professor asked.

'Your arm would begin to ache' said one of the student 'You're right, now what would happen if I held it for a day?'

'Your arm could go numb, you might have severe muscle stress & paralysis & have to go to hospital for sure!' ventured another student & all the students laughed.

'Very good. But during all this, did the weight of the glass change?‘ asked the professor.

'No'

Then what caused the arm ache & the muscle stress?' The students were puzzled.

'Put the glass down!' said one of the students

'Exactly!' said the professor.' Life's problems are something like this. Hold it for a few minutes in your head & they seem OK. Think of them for a long time & they begin to ache. Hold it even longer & they Begin to paralyze you. You will not be able to do anything. It's important to think of the challenges (problems) in your life, but EVEN
MORE IMPORTANT to 'put them down' at the end of every day before You go to sleep. That way, you are not stressed, you wake up every day fresh & strong & can handle any issue, any challenge that comes your way!'

So, when you leave office today,
Remember to 'PUT THE GLASS DOWN TODAY! '

Did i'm a lier

بكدب على نفسي وعلى روحي لو اقول على قلبي انو نسيكي .... وبقول مش فاكرك مع اني مش آدر افكر غير فيكي

كداب لو قلت اني نسيتك اوبعتك وانا لسه شاريكي ... انا لسه بحبك والدنيا مش ممكن تتعاش غير بيكي

ايامي معاك وليالي هواك على بالي ومنسيتهاش ثانيه ... فاكر لياليك وبفكر فيك ... بعدك ولا حاسس بالدنيا

مع اني بقول للناس على طول اني بفكر في حاجة تانيه

i'll lie to myself and to my soul if I say to my heart i forgot you .... And, i often side i forgot you while i couldn't thought in anything but you 

i'll lie to myself if I said I forget you, or i dont care about you while i'm still  loveing you, and my world is still not possible to live without you
My days and nights with you it is usually in front of my eyes ... i Remember the first meeting i remember the last words ...  

After you i do not care this world
while i usually say .. to all my friends that i'm thinking in another thing

fight between man promise and his feeling

Dialog between Man pride and vanity Woman

He told her not to notice that the universe is male?
She said to him "Yes, I noticed that Being is female!
He told her that the light is male?
She said to him, but I realized that the sun is female!
he toldto her the generosity is male?
She said to him yes, but dignity is FEMALE!
He told her not to mention that the hair is male?
She said to him, and I likedtonotice that feelings is FEMALE!
He told her not you know that science is a male?
She said to him, I know that knowledge is a female!

He took a deep breath, and closed his eyes,Then he went back and looked at her to
a Momentarily silently
And then .........

he told her that the foolishness is woman.
She said to him, and you prove to me that stupid is man.
I told her I think that the crime was female.
She said to him and I am absolutely certain that the sin is male.
I told her I learned that monstrous female.
She said to him, I realized that the ugly boy.
Hem and take a water cupAnd drank the whole at once
Are they afraid when you grip the cup


Making it She smiled as she saw that the drink, And seeing her smiling at him ....

He told her it looks like you rightly nature female.
She said to him, and you have had and beauty is a boy.
Said it does not but happiness female.
She said to him perhaps, but love a boy.
Said to her, and I have to admit that the sacrifice of a female.
She said to him, and I recognize that forgiveness male.
Said to her, but I am confident that the world is female.
She said to him I am sure that the heart boy.

The debate still exists
Sedition are still asleep

And will remain as long as the dialogue continues .... if 

The Question is MALE ..
The answer will always FEMALE ..

Just walk away

I have no words to say but let's start with ...

When one door closes, another opens; but we often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door that we do not see the one which has opened for us
There are things that we don't want to happen but have to accept, things we don't want to know but have to learn, and people we can't live without but have to let go

And If you think missing me is hard, you should try missing you
you have nothing to fear ... i never hurt anybody ... i couldn't just walk away

love doesn't equal sex and sex doesn't equal love

love doesn't equal sex and sex doesn't equal love but my view is love and sex have a stronger relation with "money and age" gap those days

I'm really starting to wonder whether the age gap was really the main problem or the money

Maybe

it hasn't happen to you, but maybe you know someone who's fallen in love and when you think of it sure feels weird, because how can it be love when there's such a big age gap between them 

No, I'm not talking about just 1 or 4 years, but 10, 15 or even 20 years!

?Many people see this happening as something not normal and strongly disapprove, but why 

Why does true love between 2 people should be rated according to some silly age standards 

Isn't what's inside of a person that really matters not the number in your passport or ID where is says: age

 Why is it that you have to prove to others that this is REAL love, not some weird perverse relationship and even then it's extremely hard for them to accept your relationship

If you find that special someone then age should be the last thing to worry about (of course you need to be careful when you are adult and the other person isn't or opposite). If you feel happy and loved, that should be all that matters, because you don't fall in love with someone's age, but the personality. Love is unconditional, it sets no frames or limits and it should be celebrated when it knocks on your door.

 I mean it doesn't happen every day that you meet that special someone you feel you would like to share everything with, does it? 

Love is the most powerful energy there is, the most splendid feeling 2 people can share and what matters the most - it makes you feel alive and happy so why worry about the age at all? I think you shouldn't.

WORDS OF WISDOM

I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you

Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful

The one who loves you will not make you cry alone at night thinking about him/her. They will be right beside you telling you it will be

A real man doesn't make love to a million women. A real man makes love to one women a million ways

Immature love says "I love you because I  

.need you". Mature love says "I need you because I love you".
The way to love anything, is to realize it can be lost.
If you want to be successful in life, be a wise. If you want to be successful in love, be foolish.

No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one who is, won't make you cry.
Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.
To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world.
Make yourself a better person and know who you are before you try and know someone else and expect them to know you.
Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened.
The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them.
Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with your smile.
To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world.
Don't waste your time on a woman, who isn't willing to waste their time on you.
There's always going to be people that hurt you so what you have to do is keep on trusting and just be more careful about who you trust next time around.
Remember: Whatever happens, happens for a reason.
They say forgive and forget, but if someone is worth forgiving then you'll never forget them.
The greatest thing you'll ever learn is to love and be loved in return.
Love is accepting, not expecting.
You think you look strong because you can hold on, but strength lies in letting go.
Love is like growing --it's hard to feel, sometimes, and even harder to see, but when you look back on it, you realize how far you've come.
It isn't what happens in your life that matters most, it is what your heart does with it, who it shares it with and what together they learn from it.
In all your remembering, remember that you have choices.
Though many people will go in and out of your heart only one will want to stay there. If you build a heart full of holes, think how much easier it is to hang on

To My Blue Rose only

My heart feels such pain,
tell me how to stop my tears.
What can I do to ease the pain?
Why, has life always been so hard,
showering me with such heavy burdens?
 The tears keep falling as I lay down to sleep. My eyes wide open, flashes of my past,
Of things I lost in my life. As the tears fall, memories
floating around in my mind, going back in time.
Remembering all the good times When I had it all.

The tears are falling like a summer rain,
wishing I could turn back time.
Never thinking one day, there would
be no you here beside me
With tears falling down my face,
Knowing there is nothing left
but my memories of times past,
When you were there beside me
Keeping me safe.
Making all the problems seem small
As you are standing so tall.
No tears of sorrow,
only Love, hope and happiness, Never thinking of tomorrow.
Now as my tears are falling
there is no one here to wipe them away.
Just my hands of loneliness Praying, what to do.
I stare at nothing,trying to decide where do I go from here,
Which way do I turn?
The tears are falling, remembering all the things I took for granted, now that all is lost and gone.
As I wipe the tears falling down my face I look up to the sky and pray.
"Please God, help to show me the way.
Lead me down the right path, give me the strength to carry on.
It's so lonely here by myself with so many things to do.
I need you to give me the faith to see me through."
The tears have stopped falling.
With God's help I'll figure out what I need to do.
It may not be the best, But it's the best that I can do,
Living my life by myself, without you.

it's so hard to forget pain, but it's even harder to remember

it's so hard to forget pain, but it's even harder to remember ...

Sometimes wound make me in the best case. Sometimes tears put me in calm way. 

Why i suffer from anything if everything should pass through

people come and go while life never stand. 

it means i should treatment wound by itself and who in life is not hurted by something

i had been many people in my life and today, who is located beside me

Separation is a humanbeen habit and i must make my heart used to it. 

Half of my life pass through and I do not remember when I come happy. i wish to know what is my life wants from me

in this life if i niked as i'm a life as if i don't have a lover, i'll never die while i'm still a life and separated between human is a rule to life

what i'll lose in my life and what i'll regret.

 like me ...!!!!

there are 1000 person live with people as a stranger.

just rest under a tree

Once there was a man who hated his own shadow. When he walked and found that his shadow was close behind him, he began to walk faster and faster. But the faster he moved, the closer his shadow came.

So he ran like a madman.. and in the end, he dropped dead. Those who do not understand the Dao are just like the man who hated his shadow. It is actually very easy to be rid of one’s shadow — just rest under a tree.