Painful Memories

Pain is not an emotion I know
Yet it's all I know 
I can't feel it
Nor can I heal it
It happens all the time
For me, it's all I know
I've experienced first hand a fathers abuse
Yeah, sometimes it hurt
But I grew numb to the pain
I've witness my mother cry
And every time I wanted to die
That's all in the past now
But the memories still last
This may be hard to believe
For a girl whose just sixteen
But when I think the memories have left me
They come back to haunt me
You may find it hard to believe
But sometimes late at night I cry 
Until I feel dead inside
So don't think I don't know pain
Because pain is all I've know.

Life is

A dream for the wise, 
A game for the fool, 
A comedy for the rich, 
A tragedy for the poor.A mistakes for the loser,
A beautiful for the blind
A heart break for the lover
Ignorant human raise them questions that wise human answered a thousand years ago.
When all you dares to be a fool, that will be the first step in the direction of wisdom. before that do not search about the good Cards in your life game Just try to play well with the cards you already Have

Carefree

Young, carefree, innocent
You sing, laugh and dance
Taking in all Gods' glory
At every single chance.

Grown up
You ignore the wonders
that you cherished as a child
Gone is the carefree, honesty and mild.

You walk around with blinders on, 
Into the race of money and greed.
Not caring who gets hurt
Just to fulfill your selfish needs.

Stepping over the line of morals
to have wealth and material things
Ignoring all Gods gifts
Like the first rain in Spring

Keep that little child inside!
Hold her close to your heart,
We're only here for a brief time
Then with this world, we must part

For a moment each day
It's OK to get silly
to laugh and dance. 
Take in all Gods glory
At every single chance.

What A Wish

What to wish 

What a wish
A wish is a wish you can wish
For
A wish is where anything can come true
A wish is where anything can happen
What would you wish for 
If you had a wish would you wish for money
Or for world peace
Would you wish for all your dreams to come true
Or for a good life
Would you wish to die of old age
Or to have a great life
Me I would wish for nothing
Cause to me a wish is a wish
My life is okay
Sure there would be some things I would love to change
But to change something so small
That you can’t even see
Is one precise moment you would lose
Just by that wish you could lose something so great 
Even if it was good or bad
Only you would know if you lost what was truly yours
That one moment could change your whole life if you lost what was most special to you
So to me a wish is a bad thing to wish for
A wish is something that could mess up your whole 
Life!

I want to change the world

I want to impact it so deep
That I reach the core
I want to change the meaning of peace
To something permanent
I want to open doors
And shut out doubt
I want the past to dissolve
It makes my ears bleed
Mistakes linked in memory
Times so hard the world shakes in its boots

I want to change the world
The sun rises and then sets
But leaves its mark before it goes
It creates life and growth
The moon brings serenity and mystery
Both bring death too
I want the growth to shine through
But erase the death
I want to change the world
But I would not dare change the past

Tell Me Goodbye...

The memories of you

Are engraved within my heart

Nothing in this world

Could ever tear us apart

Because you’re not here

Some think that you’re gone

But I tell them better

Let’s say you just moved on

I try to stay positive

To keep you watching over me

Some think it’s crazy

But I know you’ve got to be

We were pretty close

I hope I can say

You were so pretty

I’ll never forget those days You were such a fun person, And your personality was great, All the guys loved you, Most girls had to hate I know how you were, And how you were so shy, But I wish you told me one thing

I wish you would have said goodbye…

Your future was great, You had so much in store, When I’m forced to think of it, It rots me to the core

I spend most of my time, Thinking of you, And reminiscing of the things, We said we’d do 

What I wouldn't give , To be in your place, I’d give the whole world, Just to see your face, Some say I’m going crazy, Or maybe insane, But they don’t understand , This heartbreaking pain, You were my drug, My source to get high, 

But I really do wish, You would have said goodbye…

I’ve been thinking of the days, When we used to sit together, I now cherish those moments, I also hope you remember, You’re always in my head, And I can’t get you out, I get so mad at times , That I just want to shout, I feel as if pieces are missing, Like a book with no end, Too late to tell you how I feel

Now and forever, only a friend, My old memories of you, Fly by me fast, And everything I remember of you, Is now in the past, All the sweet thoughts of you, Brings a tear to my eye, I miss you so much

I wish you’d say goodbye…

I hope heavens good to you, And I hope you get your Wings, An maybe when I get there, You can show me all the beautiful things, I really don’t want to say it, But please wait for me, Knowing your up there

I really can’t wait to be, That day when angels came down, Was a sad day of grief, When I first found out, I stood in disbelief, Although you’re gone, You still feel so close, Maybe it’s the thought, Of missing you the most, I wish this was a joke, A foolish student’s lie, But you have no idea

Please…tell me goodbye…

I Wish I Wasn't Alone

Once when I was little

I was happy and carefree

I used to run around laughing

Until it was time for tea

I used to play games

And smile all the time

I used to feel on top of the world

I used to feel fine

It's amazing how things change

When people let you down

And how that once happy face

Turns into a solemn frown

You search and search

For someone who cares

Anyone who understands

Anyone who dares

Loneliness, it hurts

It kills you deep inside

It makes you feel empty

It stops you in your stride

You cry yourself to sleep

Hugging your pillow tight

Wishing for someone

To hold you through the night

Once when I was little

I was happy and carefree

Now my life's full of sadness,

Pain and misery

Once when I was little

I was never on my own

But now I pray at night

''I wish I wasn't alone''

Another World

The pain that I feel so deep inside, The hurt, the shame, and all the lies. 
People that I live with thought they would be the people that I love, 
With the hate, the anger, the yelling, the teasing, and the madness. 
The more that I cry, the more I think there is no love. 
When I go to work they always talk about me, 
When I come home that’s not where I want to be. 
Sometimes I feel I don't want to be in this world, 
If someone shot me I wonder how they would feel, 

Happy, mad, or pretend that they are sad. 
The pain that I feel so deep inside, The hurt, the shame, and all the lies.

The Pain I Feel Inside

The pain that I feel so deep inside, The hurt, the shame, and all the lies. 
People that I live with thought they would be the people that I love, 
With the hate, the anger, the yelling, the teasing, and the madness. 
The more that I cry, the more I think there is no love. 
When I go to school they always talk about me, 
When I come home that’s not where I want to be. 
Sometimes I feel I don't want to be in this world, 
If someone shot me I wonder how they would feel, 

Happy, mad, or pretend that they are sad. 
The pain that I feel so deep inside, The hurt, the shame, and all the lies.

Natural Life

Take a moment to notice
The beauty of the trees.
Sit and take a look
At the dancing leaves.
Note the little child
Laughing, playing with a toy.
Always so full of energy;
Humongous amounts of joy.
Don't crush the insects,
Who are 1/1000 this of your weight.
They may creep up your path,
But don't decide their fate.
Life's not about avoiding storms.
Instead, dance in the rain.
The Earth is so beautiful;
Why must we cause it's pain?
Take time off your busy schedule
To glance at the starry night.
Because nature is genius.
So pretty, such a sight!

Faded Love

You were my angel 

From heaven you fell right into my heart
But now that your gone, I'm lost with out you 
Where do I start?
My heart has been broken, 
My feelings shattered
I will never feel the same with any other woman,
I'm far from flattered
I'm missing you more than ever, 
You gave my heart a reason to beat
Love is just a friendship on fire, 
But we finally lost the heat
I'm missing you to this day, 
But you probably don't feel the same
Now I'm sitting here wondering if you still remember my name

My Dream

I dream of a church on a beach,
Where all go to preach
I think of that beautiful beach,
Which I know is beyond my reach

I dream of a nation 
Without any dissension
Where peace and prosperity rules
Over the ocean blues

I dream of taking a risk 
Of touching the blazing asterisk
Although it is only a dream
I wish to travel the realm

I have a dream
To eat an icy cream
Which is far more luscious that any treat
In this human world of greed

I dream that I’m Megaman 
Soaring the skies like Superman
Yet as sharp as Batman
Mixed with the humor of Spiderman

I know my delusion 
Is nothing but a mere illusion
Yet to realize them I’ll try my best
And on God I leave the rest

A Sad Ending

I was walking all alone,

on a road of rocks and stone,

never did I know where it would lead,
sometimes I wondered, "was it because of my deeds?"

Then came along a sweet little breeze,
seemed to me, my whole world would freeze,
for a little while I thought,
that the road I chose was the best one I got.

The breeze took away all my pain,
as if a barren after years had a rain,
this seemed to lead me to a meadow,
where in the sun, only gave me shadow.

The feeling was great,
but it came at some rate,
I felt like being on top of the world,
"come down to mother earth "somebody called.

It was a beautiful dream,
which I had,
the heat was taking it's toll on me,
and it never made me glad.

Then came the storm,
that shattered my dreams,
it crushed all my norms,
and it went all down the stream.

I had no place to hide,
as if I was sinking in high tide,
slowly and slowly my body gave up,
soul left my body,
helplessly forever, I shut up.

Answer me !!!

How could I be so lost,
In a place I know so well?
How could I be so broken,
In a family so together?
How could I be so lonely,
Surrounded by so many?
How could I be so unhappy,
Surrounded by so much beauty?
How could I be me,
When even I remain a mystery?

The Best Ship Of All

Friendship is priceless,
And can never be forgotten,
Friendship is timeless,
And never rotten,

It takes more than hugs and kisses
To be a real friend,
the nature of friendship,
Requires a blend.

The road to a happy life, 
May sometimes make us stumble. 
But to have a friend to give us a hand, 
Teaches us to be humble. 

Good friends are hard to find,
Hard to lose,
And impossible to forget,
But when they fly away,
Your anger turns to regret

Sometimes in life, we need a special person
To listen while we talk. 
A special person who will not discourage or judge,
But encourage us as we walk.

Friends are there 
To help you along,
The journey through friendship,
Is always long.

In life,
There are big ships,
And there are small ships,
But the best ship of all,
Is friendship.