Bed Of Clouds

I sleep in the clouds, dream in the sky,
I'll keep dreaming as life passes me by,
I think my dreams keep me sane,
I dream of happiness, a life without pain,
some people say I'm stuck in this place,
and I'll never go anywhere,
but in my dreams I've already been there,
I know some day I'll have to wake up,
but I feel the real world is more like a nightmare,
I'm safe in my closed eye wonderland,
this poem goes to all the dreamers that understand,
no matter what they say...
keep your dreams but don't dream your life away, 

Remembrance

Has anyone ever thought like this? The way I think when I think about you? I see you so clearly your eyes, your mouth, your nose, everything about you is so clear. I still feel your arm wrapped tight around me. our hands clasped, your thumb rubbing circles on mine. I feel you calloused hands on my back and I hope you feel mine. I want to see you will I ever be able to?
Has anyone ever been in such agony over someone? Is this pain even bearable? I hear your voice saying my name and making it sound beautiful. I hear our conversations over and over in my head. Do you hear them to? I want to hear your voice. Will I ever get the chance to? 
Has anyone ever felt the way I felt when we first touched? It was ever so brief yet something happened, then you couldn't keep your hands off me. You touch my head, hair waist, arm, and hands. I still feel every one of them and when I remember them I wonder if you remember them to? I want to touch you again will I ever get to?

SOULS AND GRAVES

The colors of their faces,
The tears that they shed.
The writing on the walls,
Their parents nearly dead. 
They sleep with their eyes open,
They cry with their eyes closed.
They pray without god’s presence, 
And without a soul to hold.
Who will cover their wounded faces, so that their young-ones won’t be afraid?
Who will notice the children’s’ shattering faces, when they stand near their parent’s unmarked grave?
God’s presence is nowhere, so the children don’t believe. 
THEY LISTEN TO EACH OTHER’S STORIES OF WOUNDED SOULS AND GRAVE. 
They speak, in a low voice, as though their spirit was drained away.
A piece of their heart is missing,
It’s rotting out there to decay. 
They step out into the light,
To see the tyranny of their acts.
They notice each other’s fright,
Now their just a fact.
They are left with no words, only the horrors of their past.
The slaughter, the rape, the torture.
That the Sudanese government had cast.
It is written upon their faces,
Through scars and through tears.
Now all the genocide cases,
Won’t compare to this modern year’s.
They walk upon the Darfur ground.
To visit their once-upon- a-time homes.
To search for a quiver, to search for a sound.
To look upon the distance.
To search for the bodies never found…
They will never forget.
They can forgive.
But the people who have died.
Will never relive.
So that questions their motives.
And what they want to do,
To try and be peaceful.
Or to become one of the few…
To rise against the many.
And to do the same. 
To take the life of any. 
To start a new game.
But they don’t need to kill.
They only want to be free.
To make life still.
To make them want to see.
But {they} are just tyrants of war and of politics.
That set people apart.
Just by their statistics. 
The little girl can’t find her mother.
And the young boy has no brother.
But now they can unite.
To join 
And to fight.
To rise.
So that they can fall.
Once again.
Once and for all. 

Dancing Trees

Take a moment to notice
The beauty of the trees.
Sit and take a look
At the dancing leaves.
Note the little child
Laughing, playing with a toy.
Always so full of energy;
Humongous amounts of joy.
Don't crush the insects,
Who are 1/1000ths of your weight.
They may creep up your path,
But don't decide their fate.
Life's not about avoiding storms.
Instead, dance in the rain.
The Earth is so beautiful;
Why must we cause it's pain?
Take time off your busy schedule
To glance at the starry night.
Because nature is genius.
So pretty, such a sight!

learn a lesson from nature

I watch the waves crash in, breaking on the shore
All their anger dispensed on the oceans floor
I look at the sky so blue, sun shining so bright
Spreading heat and happiness with its blinding light
Long blades of grass swaying in the gentle breeze
Dancing in rhythm with so much ease
Look up at the trees hearing the singing of the birds
Happily chirping singing at ease without words
Sitting here holding my knees to my chest
Watching and hearing nature at it s best
I ponder how Nature could get it so right
When we have let Natures lessons get so out of sight
We hold our anger, let our happiness slip away
Making our survival a struggle each and every day
We have forgotten the little things that mean so much
Like the laughter, the freedom, and someone’s loving touch
If only I could make people stop, watch and listen to Natures tale
We could all sit back happily and our world would not be so frail
In each others existence in harmony we could all survive
I’m sure like the sun, wind, tree, and birds our lives we could revive
If only we let nature take its course in each and every one of us each day and night
As I sit and ponder how Nature got it so right and we lost all sight.

Without Her Love

What has happened is never spoken
And everything around me has been broken
There's no words, just silence.
Hate, but no violence
Sadness, without tears
Humans, without fears.
When will the ground break?
Where is the open gate?
Slowly, the darkness creeps
But still, no one weeps.
All are withering
Hearts are shriveling.
This world has grown cold
There's no one left to hold.
I fear that I too will join them soon
Just when the light fades from the moon.
My beloved has been turned into a dove
And now I know what becomes of this world, 
Without her love.

Fake Drug

I shed too many tears and wasted too much time thinking of you

I devoted so much time to you 
In return all I got where my own tears
Nights I couldn’t sleep
I ask over and over
What am I doing wrong
But then I realize that it was you the whole time
I gave you my smile and you almost gave me a child
Every time you needed me I gave into you like a drug
And I suffer the side effects alone in my bedroom
Were you last left me with out a sound
Was this another hit it and quit it
Cause I haven't heard from you in a minute now
And its getting pretty late
I'm just surprised you haven't checked up on me
Should've thought twice before I overdosed on you
Cause you were the fake shit
But since I've already opened you up and saw what was really inside 
it was too late
I was ripped off but now I'm screwed cause there's no refunds

Troubles of Life

Life may be hard,
and life may be cruel,
But people beware,
'cause your no fool.
You make hard decisions, 
and have many fights,
You make few wrongs, 
but you make more rights.
Life is not easy,
and it's sure not fair,
But hopefully it's bearable,
knowing I'm there.
You have lack in your faith,
and fear in your heart,
Of what's been decided, 
and you've no part.
But your strong people,
and you make your own path,
Your worries will end,
and you'll suffer no wrath.
Your path is your own,
and yours alone,
You've been given a second chance,
smile and bring cheer,
And dance a happy dance.

Life

Swiss of color, fabric of silk 

Breakfast as simple as cornflakes and milk

Occults fascinate and horror chills
Just another teenager trying to find more thrills
Beaches of white, Ocean of blue
The love of my life and it's true
Nature and music entwine as one
Homework, papers and books are never done
Friends misunderstand, that's what I can't stand
Why don't they take me as I am?
I rebel but with a cause
To change all within me that is flawed.
Understand me it's not that hard
Emotions play a very BIG part
Thoughts of mine fly like color in time
Sing song of harmony that fall in rhyme
Try to understand me that's all I ask
Try to understand me and this too shall pass

My Life

The things I've seen will scar me for life,

growing up I've seen wrong and very little of right,
I hear a sad song and tears roll down my face,
I look in the mirror and feel so out of place,
I don't want to become something larger than life,
I want to become something real and so right,
do they understand am I understood,
can life be better I wish that it could, 
before I make a decision I always think twice,
they say what can I do to help you feel better 
I say nothing because this is my life

A Soldier Died Alone

A midst the desert sands dawnings just begun, battle rages on, bombing veils the rising sun.

A boy not yet a man holds a picture to his heart, of loved ones not forgotten though oceans keep them apart.
Called to serve his country, land of freedom home of brave, risking his existence for the lives that he may save.
Concealing his dismay he holds his head up high, his arms embrace a trusted friend watching him slowly die.
A boy he is no more, on that day there stood a man,
his heart filled with rage, his mind fights to understand.
Raised to be a man of God, taught thou shalt not kill,
now placed upon the battlefield where there tis his only will.
Resting beneath the sunset, wounded he dreams of home,
lying on the desert's floor a soldier died alone.

Eternal Love

I stand alone on the sandy beach 

my tears flowing into the sea 
because I know you’re out of reach 
and no longer here with me
You looked so handsome laying there
In eternal sleep forever
The pain I hide is too much to bare
I want us to be together
But I am needed on this lonely land
for a little longer at least
to help and guide the people I love
giving them reassurance and peace
so I’ll be on the shoreline here
to cry more tears over you
On your birthday every year
to celebrate our love so true
Until it's time to meet once more
to hold and love one another
as we did all those years ago 
when I was your friend and lover.

After Foreve

There is nothing stay forever .. but after Forever .. We usually Fall in the  Cry .. Silence from Afar

My Paintbrush

I keep my paint brush with me wherever I may go,

IN case I need to cover up so the real me doesn’t show. 
I’m so afraid to show you me, 
'Fraid of what you'll do-that you might laugh or say mean things. 
I'd like to remove all my painted coats to show you the real true me, 
but I want you to understand, 
I need you to accept me for what you see, 
so if you'll be patient and close your eyes. 
I'll strip off all my coats real slow. 
Please understand how much it hurts. 
TO let the real me show. 
Now my coats are all stripped off. 
I feel naked, bare and cold, 
And if you still love me with all that you see, 
You are my friend, pure as gold. 
I need to save my paintbrush, though, and hold it in my hand. 
I want to keep it handy In case somebody doesn’t understand. 
So please protect me, my dear friend 
And thanks for loving me true. 
You made me feel so happy. 
And I am no longer blue.

Live each day to the fullest

Sitting on the steps, looking across the lake,

Wondering why, life at times, can seem great.
But in that second, it took me to just think,
My life could change, faster than a blink.
Is this a reason why we should always cherish?
Not knowing when loved ones may suddenly perish.
Living everyday, like it was our very last,
for our days could be very long or go by very fast
So I'll cherish and take nothing for granted,
not say things that shouldn't be chanted.
If this is the last day I have on this earth,
I accept my life, for what it's been worth.
Tomorrow isn't promised to young or old alike,
Today may be the last day I'm able to hold you tight.
Don't wait for tomorrow, do it all today,
If tomorrow never comes, you'll never regret a day.

Dear Addiction

I’m writing this to you

Telling you were thru
I can’t take you anymore
Don’t know what I liked you for
All you did was wear me out
Now I know what your all about
You came to me with promise and joy
Now look at all the things you destroy
Families, lives, bank accounts you see
You ruined it all with one little tease
Look at the way you make me feel
Then you take it all and want me to steal
Why can’t you just go and hide
Somewhere far away where I’ll never find
Everyone at home don’t understand
How you rip me apart , then lend me a hand
I keep coming back thinking inside
Maybe this time I’ll make you my bride
Then I sit and wonder why
Why do you really want me to die
Thousands and thousands come to you
Hoping and praying you’ll help them thru
Then they fall for your lending hand
Only to realize your nothing but a scam
You promised me heaven and sent me to hell
You ruined my life and then wished me well
Watch me now as I go on my way
I’m washing myself of all of your pain
So you and your power can just leave me be
I’m taking my life and setting it free

Value Of Love

I have seen women lifted by love.

Countless women surrounded, fed, embraced by love.
But most recently I have met a woman condemned by love.
Alienated, starved, forgotten by love. 
The pain from love is visible in the eyes, heart, and soul of this woman.
She who lives for love, who would die for love.
Curiosity forces me to look deep into her. 
Big brown eyes tell of a man whose love was taken away as quickly as was given.
A selfish man whose compassion drowned in these eyes.
Taking advantage of the faith and forgiveness she possesses.
Tears roll down her cheeks and begin to drip from her delicate chin. 
As sympathy overwhelms me I invite myself in for a better look.
A bleeding heart welcomes me to the truth behind this love.
What once was bliss has transformed.
The love that filled now forces her to starve.
An endless hunger that consumes, leaving nothing for this woman.
This man has stripped her of all that she loved including himself.
He has laughed at her sorrow and found comfort in her misery.
My heart breaks for her as she opens up to let me in. 
One foot after the other I step into her soul. 
My thoughts echo as I begin to connect with her sorrows.
"Stop," catches her attention as I start to reason with her.
"Do not give yourself to this man."
Confusion fills her as she wakes to catch my gaze.
"If your love/your life mean so little to you that you can just give it away, why should it mean any more to him?" 
I hear these words and reality sets in. 
I have met this woman in love.
Alienated, starved, forgotten by love.
I have seen into her eyes, felt her heartache, and visited her soul.
This muse whose sorrow connects so genuinely with mine... is ME!
I have given my life to a man who has never asked nor has he ever cared for it.
I have believed and made true all lies.
I have accepted inferiority, for how can he value me more than I value myself?

New Morning, New Life

Remember And Forgive

Time has come to say goodbye
But in my heart you'll always stay
I'll walk away and hide my tears
And forever I'll remember this day
I'll remember how my heart did break
Remember the way you words stung me
But I'll forgive you, it's not your fault
And I'll deal with the fact that we weren't meant to be.