judging silently

Every single drop of my tear is costly than anything in this World. But, No one knows its real value until they have it in their own eyes. I keep saying; Everything is gonna be alright even I’m dying inside !! but If our world is really easy and beautiful; nobody would have entered it by crying !! by a way or another i realize that; The worst regret is not for the things i did wrong but for the countless right things i did for the wrong people!!
I thought my heart was dead forever
But now its beating even faster than ever.
I am very proud of my heart.
It is been played, cheated, stabbed, burned and even broken.
but somehow it is still functioning for me! So please ..
If you don’t know then ask me, I may answer.
If you don’t agree then argue with me. I may missing something.
If you don’t like then say it to me, I may change.
If you don’t feel well then let me know, I may help.
BUT
Please don’t start judging my tears silently !!

No matter

No matter how hard I cry, the sadness still grows

No matter how many friends I have, I still feel lonely

No matter how many people love me, I still feel empty

No matter how loud I laugh, I’m still not happy

because

I just need you to love me then; all my pain will go

Dreams

I dream of laying on a blanket under the stars
I dream of you holding me tightly as we dance
I dream of you looking in my eyes as you say you love me
I dream of our first night in our own house
I dream of our first fight
I dream of our first make up kiss
I dream of spending the rest of my life with you.

The Journey

For so long I held my heart so securely in place
Away from the world, in this cold, dark, lonely space
Then you came into my life, and I didn't know what to do
What my heart had so longingly missed, I now found in you
Letting you in my life was something I wasn't sure about
But the more time we spent together I was left without a doubt
Knowing that with each passing day, your love to me meant more
It filled a place inside my heart that had known only emptiness before
I didn't see how painful it must have been for you to love me, unconditionally
When I demanded so much of you, this perfect person you tried so hard to be
Even though it wasn't purposeful I know it hurt your heart to believe
That just one mistake, and I wouldn't hesitate to leave
How could you have known nothing was ever farther from being true
Your smile, the warmth of your heart, I could never bid adieu
As you held my heart you touched a part of my soul, and there your fingerprints still rest
Your whispers softly echo, with hopes of hearing them I quiet my very breath
Although where we're headed now is something yet unknown,
A part of me has left, and never again will I alone, my heart own
And how fortunate I must be, that at this journey's end
It has been, still is, and always will be, you I call best friend

Honour Of Love

People find shame in it,

They deny it,

They spit on it,

They step all over it,

But in my eyes,

To be obsessed,

Is to be in love,

How can a man deny such an honor?

For most do not love,

They might care,

They might adore,

But they will never know true love,

Except for the lucky few who do,

To be in love with someone,

Is not to call them your soul mate,

Or one and only,

It is to be obsessed with only one,

And not ever change or falter,

For to be obsessed is to be an honor,

The honor of love

<3

Please don’t cry

Please don’t cry
I’m not really gone
When you look out the window
I’ll be standing on the lawn
Please don’t cry
I’ll see you again
Don’t be sad
Keep up your chin
Please don’t cry
I’m not really dead
When you cry yourself to sleep
I’ll be by your bed
Please don’t cry
Just because we had to part
As long as you remember me 
I’ll live in your heart
Please don’t cry
I’m not gone forever
I’ll be a cool and gentle breeze
In hot summer weather 
Please don’t cry
Don’t run and hide
When you need a shoulder to lean on
I’ll be by your side
Please don’t cry
When you’re sad and weak
I’ll be there
To kiss you on the cheek
Please don’t cry
This is just a goodbye
So please, oh please
Baby, do not cry

She and Me

She smiles, I cry.

She's brave, I’m shy.

She loves, I’m alone.

She’s amazing, I’m unknown.

She’s beautiful, I’m a mess.

She’s happy, I’m depressed.

She’s a fake, I am real.

My mask is perfect, she hides me.

A Face Among The Stars

I looked for you this morning, 
I looked for you last night,
I looked for you everywhere,
But you were not in sight.
I looked up to the night sky above,
And saw your face in the stars.
It was then I realized,
You’re not here anymore 
But you’ll always be with me…..
You will always be in my heart.
Life is something all of us must borrow
Returning it in time, to whence it came.
Good-bye doesn’t mean you’re gone,
So long as I still love you,
Your memory will live on.

meet me at the gate

A beautiful garden now stands alone,
missing the one who nurtured it
But now she is gone,
Her flowers still bloom, and the sun it still shines,
But the rain is like tear drops, for the ones left behind,
The weeds lay waiting to take the gardens beauty away,
But the beautiful memories of its keeper are in our hearts to stay,
she loved every flower even some that were weeds,
So much love she would plant with each little seed,
But just like her flowers she was part of Gods plan,
So when it was her time he reached down his hand,
He look through the Garden searching for the best,
That's when he found my love , it was her time to rest,
It was hard for those who loved her, to just let her go,
But God had a spot in his garden, that needed a gentle soul,
So when you start missing my love., remember if you just wait,
When God has a spot in his garden, She'll meet you at the gate

Over than 874 friends

Today i lived a dream and i'd like to share it with all my reader
Over than 874 friends pass and read my posts and that's made me feel so much happy and to thank all you i typed this words only for my reader .. my real friends

No other friends is quite like you,
No other friends could do exactly what you do.
No other friends could listen to my dreams,
No matter how weird it all seems.
You're the one thats there for me when i need a friend,
We're gonna be tight till the end.
We always have joy when we are together,
We always find something to share no matter what the weather.
No other friend could understand me like you do,
I dont know what i would do without a friends like all you.

Door Of Pain

In my life you're the one thing I fear, And before you die, this you must hear.
Everyday we were out to play, we'd laugh and joke, and together we'd stay.
Even Saturday's we'd go to the mall.
our great rapport was never to fall.
We had our favorite restaurants and we loved to eat, in our famous foot race, I was never to be beat.
We’d get in your truck and drive off to town, I was so happy my face was never to frown.
And as years past bye your pecan trees grew higher, and our relationship bond grew tighter and tighter. 
Something felt wrong and I hoped it wouldn’t happen.
But it did and I face it each day of my life, I got to be strong I’ve got to put down the knife.
What you did was so wrong and disgusting might I say, you'll never understand how I felt that day.
When people walk by and they start to wonder, I feel like the rain in a dark cold thunder.
I'm slowly coming down from this misery I'm in, I'm taking back what you have given because I'm giving in.
I can go to psychiatrists and spill out my thoughts, they can prescribe me pills and say I've been taught.
They can look at me and say "It's ok I Understand"
But they will never feel the fear of a, 'Lover's Hand'. 
You don't look back on what was begun, your losing your self in who you've become.
Now your gone to where you think its safe, where no one knows about the pain that I face.
Its so sad that your neighbors have no clue, all the people around you don't really know you.
Well Congratulations for fooling the world, but shame on you for hurting this man.
Don't worry too much but a day will come, when revenge will be given for the damage you've done. 
For right now I'll sit in the back of your mind, while you remember how I used to be kind.
And later on in your old pathetic life, you'll see me and how badly you ruined mine. 
You soon shall feel what I have felt for years, My head will turn, as your eyes fill with tears. 
Now before you die I hope you comprehend it, The pain you left now that its ended
I hope your new life is better mine
I'm sure your going on like everything's fine
And the day it hits you … what you didn’t see before, Will be that final day that I close that door
No more …!!

Her Special Door

Fallen here within her slipping grasp of time. She lives not for today but yet for then. Bound by the ones in memory of this bloodline. Each day passing becomes longer than the one before. Nothing ever changes here just beyond her special door. Many I have known but none to be as bold. She fights to show that she is not living in the past. Her heart that weeps over them feeds beneath her heart now cold. She weeps since then and it tears at her core. Nothing ever changes here just beyond her special door

Serious and Rules

life is no fun when you play it safe when you always follow the rules you never learn your place. you'll never know what you can do untill your pushed too far so don't be careful or you wont know who you are. Otherwise; let me ask .. have you ever purposely commented a sin will sometimes that's okay it doesn't mean the end!! 

when you feel hollow inside just give your soul to the night to take you away and end your life slow !!

the world is fake and life is just a game do don't be serious no one makes it out alive anyway

Live it!

Life is crazy, and totally unpredictable...
It's going to push you over, kick you while you're down
and hit you when you try to get back up.
Not everything can beat you.
Things are going to change you,  But you get to choose which ones you let change you.
Listen to your heart, Follow your dreams,
And let no one tell you what you're capable of.
Push the limits, Bend the rules, And enjoy every minute of it.
Laugh at everything, Live for as long as you can.
Love all, But trust none.
Believe in yourself, And never lose faith in others
Settle for nothing but only the best, And give 110% in everything you do.
Take risks, Live on the edge, Yet stay safe, And cherish every moment of it.
Life is a gift, Appreciate all the rewards, And jump on every opportunity.
Not everyone's going to love you
But who needs them anyways.
Challenge everything, And fight for what you believe.
Back down to nothing, But give in to the little things in life,
After all, that is what makes you.
Forget the unnecessary, But remember everything, Bring it with you everywhere you go.
Learn something new, And appreciate criticism.
Hate nothing, But dislike what you want.
Never forget where you came from, And always remember where you are going.
Live Life to its fullest, And have a reason for everything, Even if it's totally insane.
Find Your purpose in life, and Live it!

fall

You may see me struggle 

but you won't see me fall. 

Regardless if I'm weak or not I'm going to stand tall. 

Everyone says life is easy 

but truly living it is not.

times get hard, 

people struggle

and constantly get put on the spot. 

I'm going to wear the biggest smile 

even though I want to cry. 

I'm going to fight to live 

even though I'm destined to die. 

and even though it's hard and I may struggle through it all. 

you see me struggle...you will never see me fall.

An Epic Rush

A desire 

Smooth, refreshing, frigid, and friendly 

A brother to small grains

A lover of the sun, the moon, and the never ending rain

Who feels unsteady on his feet, always rushed, and like he doesn't have a place to rest

Who needs to flow, to dance, and to sing his beautiful tranquil song 

Who gives a superhuman relief

Who fears drought, death, and selfishness

Who hopes to be vigorous, potent, and natural

Resident of a vital source, the beauty of a star, and the shimmering appearance of the moon

My Heart Silent sight

All is silent, all is still

No one around to see the thrill;

Small, small light

A shadow moves

The petals move, start to sing

Wind picks up, nature's music starts

Starting at point base, feeling in the heart

Born to feel, always live the same

Never let the soul, ever be tame;

Starting to move, step by step

Slowly at first, but fast at last;

Keeping in tune, to the sound of the heart

Finishes, beautiful spin; tidy dancer starts off again;

A silent applause, for no one to hear

A feeling of gratitude from those who are near;

Still no one around, absolutely no sound

But a smile suddenly creeps while around everything sleeps.

The heart always goes what the eye always shows

Never give up that feeling you hold

Watching the Sky

Have you seen the Sunset and Sunrise

And the Horizon that's a prize

How the colors mix and melt

And look as soft as felt

How they float away into black

As you wish them back

And that feeling that makes you sad

How the tears come and just make you mad

But then you see the stars

That are so small they could fit in jars

Now there's so many

You'd by each one with a penny

How they shine so bright

And don't put up a fight

So you stand watching them twinkle and shine

Then you realize you feel fine

So you sigh

And say goodbye.

Beauty trees

Take a moment to notice

The beauty of the trees.

Sit and take a look

At the dancing leaves.

Note the little child

Laughing, playing with a toy.

Always so full of energy;

Humongous amounts of joy.

Don't crush the insects,

Who are 1/1000ths of your weight.

They may creep up your path,

But don't decide their fate.

Life's not about avoiding storms.

Instead, dance in the rain.

The Earth is so beautiful;

Why must we cause it's pain?

Take time off your busy schedule

To glance at the starry night.

Because nature is genius.

So pretty, such a sight!

My Angel in the stars

God saw I was getting tired 

as he put his arms around me

as he whispered come with me 

There is a place for you in heaven 

where there is no suffering and no pain

all you have to do is look up to the sky 

and know that you will see me

As I am an angel in the stars 

what a great place to be 

I am an angel of God and a 

sparkle I shall be 

Know that I'm watching over you 

just look up and see 

I'm looking watching over you 

please don't be sad for me 

I'm your angel in the stars 

where I am happy now 

you will see and one day 

you will be with me

As I Watch You Grow

Do you know how much you mean to me?
As you grow into what you will be.
You came from within, from just beneath my heart
it's there you'll always be though your own life will now start.
You're growing so fast it sends me awhirl, 
With misty eyes I ask, Where's my little girl?
I know sometimes to you I seem harsh and so unfair, 
But one day you will see, I taught you well because I care.
The next few years will so quickly fly, 
With laughter and joy, mixed with a few tears to cry.
As you begin your growth to womanhood, this fact you must know, 
You'll always be my source of pride, no matter where you go.
You must stand up tall and proud, within you feel no fear, 
For all you dreams and goals, sit before you very near.
With god's love in your heart and the world by its tail, 
You'll always be my winner, and victory will prevail.
For you this poem was written, with help from above, 
To tell you in a rhythm of your Father''s heartfelt Love!

Written and dedicated to my precious daughters Jassmina and Habiba