Never give up hope..

We will never have rainbow in our life until we learn how to cry..  cause tears can make a rainbow of colorful feelings but we need to give it a try.. so, why do I'm afraid of trying didn't we after surrendered always crying.

Open that door..

Deep within your heart there is a place.. a special secret place... where silence lives,
Where the secrets of profound emotion and yearning wait to be awoken,
Where the unspoken words of a heart filled with love remain unsaid, They hang heavy like teardrops frozen in the mists of time, This secret garden of silence born of a heart lost in visions of love, Images of love that live vividly within a dreamers heart yet to be realized,
A love that shall bring about the birth of an eternal springtime,
An orchestra of love that shall fill life's garden with sweet loves melody, Where the memory of the longing years shall be carried away upon loves rhythm, Just .. Listen to the gentle pulse of the waterfall that has sprung new hope, for you, for me and for us all, Now the unspoken words of love shall hang heavy on the heart no more.. 

Didn't you miss me..!

She asked,
Did you miss me?
I confess,
I longed to be near you without rest. Though you were not here, I spiritualy felt you in my chest. You were the air of hope, I was blessed enough to receive, Giving me a sense of comfort, Knowing you wouldn't leave, As I hid amongst the trees, Staying low to the ground, feeling my heart pound... A slow steady beat,
Giving me strength to carry on. I rose to my feet, Looked to the horizon melting with the sea, Where I knew should be... Standing by your side, Gazing into your eyes.
As I am now.. Missing the expression of affection I have found in the smile on your face..
Yes...
I confess,
I am missing you.

Yearning eyes

He waits patiently with wide eyes yearning, he stands alone by the sea shore bend with a broken heart but a stronger will.
He knows for sure someone need to start a journey.. not to fill his soul, not to mend his broken heart, but simply to see a true smile, a true longing, simply to search for himself.
Someone who'll complement his being, stand by him as he stand by her, through a lifetime of an existence full of meaning and love.
A day will come when he can say and she can claim... when he can say finally... we are home.

I'm not scared.!!!

Fears about future, tears from the past.. 

Fear of love, pain.. it's leads you to be insane 

Fear of the unforgiving cane, of lies, of those distraught eyes,

Fear of everything combined,

Fear is what always makes you blind,

Fear is what makes you think, fears is what makes me ink,

Fear is when you’re scared to love someone,

Fear is when the sky turns grey, is when you stopped pray,

Fear of wounds beyond repair, of losing a heart can't compare.

Journey into the center of the unknown..

looking through the eyes of people makes me realize how uniquely the same we are.
Everybody yearns to have that someone to love and to have a certain someone to love them back with understanding, sensitivity, clarity, freedom and wholeness.
Everybody's waiting... simply waiting for that perfect moments when that 'perfect' someone will arrive.. though we know that perfection is a matter of perspective... a matter of how one sees things in one's eyes.
It has become everybody's passion to look or wait for love though hearts break, hearts yearn, hearts cry and mourn.
For each spirit passionately must wait for the one 'meant' to compliment their souls.. 
May God blessings spreading upon all lonely souls in this insanity world.

Kindness as I know.

gentle present, solemn words, sincere smiles, payed freely, with no regrets.. 
mold deeply one's world.
without return, giving one's own. Sending a beam of love, with no shadows.... 
touches tenderly one's soul.

Fourteen lives not enough

If i can only take your pain away, I'd grasp it lovingly on my special place it in my heart without a tear or doubt.
If i can only take your place I'll embrace your tired soul with a loving heart keeping fate with gratitude.
If i can only take your sadness I'll happily hold it tight take it away to the deep blue sea as i search for my own destiny.
If i can only ease your life bring a smile on your tired faith i'll give my light, my life easily and i'll simply dream to see you glow

A lie still a lie.

You can't always believe everything you hear.
A fib is a fib, a lie still a lie, you may know the truth, but would much rather die.
Sometimes you make excuses to cover the light. Like sunglasses at noon, pretending it's night. You tell this to others.'What a beautiful evening. Don't you agree my dear friends?
They look at you like your crazy. Some nod and just smile... but they know the truth...you live in denial. And when day comes to completion, and the moon rules the sky, while other's are sleeping... you stay up and cry. You ask yourself why..!
Throw the glasses away, and enjoy the next day. for you have a never chance every new dawn..
Don't be a fool for deception to rule.
Don't be the face, of a heartbroken race.
Shed that last tear. And go have a prayer. Live in the truth, your redemption is near... Be in the now, this moment of time. Let your smile be light to attract the sublime. Laugh after laugh, step after step, you'll no longer worry about the sorrow you kept. Stay one step ahead of the past.

Love and hate.. deception

For the love of you, Don't know what I would not do, The actions you make seal your fate, Make choices for the best, before it's too late
Lies and deceptions are not your friends, For they will lead you, to your bitter end, He would have stayed, had you not lied, Now you must live, a little dead inside
Your biggest regret wont be from the truth it'll be all those lies, pretending and deception. It's the hardest lesson you have to learn. Lies aren't something you can return. Tell the truth, no matter the cost because a lie isn't worth, all that is lost.. but anyway don't worry, it's too late, Love can hardly turn to hate

The power of your love, is all I need tonight

Once your little shoes were kicked off your tiny feet, you lied your body on beach.. close but far from me and it was quiet and then silent.
i walked my fingers up your back, they tip-toed up your spine
and then, found the dance floor at your shoulders waltzing, eyes closed like swimming in fantasy memory and O.. the deeper i pushed, the harder it was to refrain from wiggling slightly while our temperature was on automatic rising and gaining speed our breathing.. And my wandering fingers, curiously aimlessly feeding your fingerprints with my skin and your body becomes my canvas for all the poetry i want to touch your freckled back, and soft sides warm chest, beating fast, lips moist .. i, i get them wet with mine in a shore of dreams where we're the only two sounds, the only ones alive
And you, push my hand away just to the places where you want me to, while in a waves of shyness and desires you say we shouldn't ... but, you dig in your nails... we remains for a while of time, and while you climax my heart falls harder, you make me want to make you want me more.. we're our own game of pure ecstasy, I've touched your body completely every square centimeter, over and over again.. 
I can't control, i can't let go and you don't want me to and we're like branches off of different trees swaying with the wind the same grazing with intention,
you're the only one that's every made love to me, the way i made love to you... and that's special and i hope you feel it because i feel it like a heart attack that never stops, and i never die
You take me to the heaven's in a bed that's made for just us two and when we're tired, we pass out fast and you're in my arms, and we're laying naked for once our feet are warm, we're comfortable it's the best sleep that I've ever had...
until you leave me in my dream to race around all day inside my head.. 

Just thoughts

Don't let a shadow shed your light, for right now I'm stealing sadness from your sight, surrounded by what my love loves... so be sure to say it loud, but quiet
send all the perfumes into the night, with all the words i've spoken, for tonight into your ears, my heart is open to tell you that, i love you.. then I'll repeat it over and over and who knows maybe all the night.
but don't wake away in my sleep, just make me smile and sigh for in my dreams I'll send an angel to tell you .. he, loves you even when he can't see you eyes to eyes.

Pride..

I could hear that someone was listening to all the answers I've been miss.
I could feel that someone was caring to all the feeling I've been lost.
I could see your pride fighting back, feelings needs attach,

Could you fit me tonight.!!!

You could fit me right pulsating puzzle pieces, fit together a little tight a little dark, our eyes at night and the sweat gleams rolling down your skin
a salted path that didn't cry
a sweeter taste, the greatest high .. two bodies moving intertwined like cycloned rainbows arching skies
Could you fit me right.!!
your tongue plays give and take like mine.. you tremble as i unglue you and slowly put you back together just to start this love all over and over again.. 
But i'll never leave your side.. for i only want to learn to love you right 
And break me down, the pieces held
And gently touched and placed with care
 for kiss me how you think i want you, for i will kiss you just the same.. i will hold you close, two bodies bare without a space of light between, eclipse the end come back to me and never stop and never leave.. tell me, tell me that you want me, and i'll give you what i need .. close your eyes and hold on slow, your neck is calling so serene, it's begging for the sense of feel, never stop me for i'm grasping all your lovely parts and licking endless, endlessly..
i'm reaching for that cold unbearable, unbeatable largest heart
that i think i've yet to see and from now and so on, please let you be my imagination... or even just my favorite, naked, steamy faraway dream, you could fit me right.. for I'm trying my best to fit you.!!
i think i've felt it once or twice and i've never touched your skin, i've never held your hands,or given you a kiss...
but you drive my imagination, to the brink of desecration...
And then you bring it back to me, you make me want to leave...
the world i know, without a note, cthrow away the lock and key...
could i fit you?
could you fit me?
The way our hearts... simultaneously, almost everything it seems... but maybe just to me... worlds apart, two different starts shining only to each other's, to different places, indeed...
and we could meet in different worlds, maybe in this earth or another and i won't forget the way you paint the words for me, i can't forget the soul i've read and loved but never got the chance to touch...
And that is fine,
i like to love love whenever it's impossible to love and so do you, i love that about you...
i hate that about me, that i can't with you to always be; a little free, a little more, a little less scared...
To meet you in the middle of a place nobody have never been touched before, i'll use my imagination
Till you feels the need i have
Till you feels the want i need,
and then we will touch, and we will love to make love
we'll be inside eachother, complete.. eternally.. tenderly,
we'll penetrate the depths of loss when we let our pride feed our souls, 
we'll shed the light that we both need..
And what.. O dear i'll kiss you till we're ended, so you'll know i'd never leave...
and if I'll never hold a hand till death.. I thank you for your part in my sadness journey, i'm so happy that i love to rhyme of your soul, and i'm excited how i feel so tired...
i can't wait to go to sleep to dream; of how i'll fall in love with you tomorrow, I'll use my imagination.. for you became my inspiration and my lovely light beam,,

Goodnight..

My god.. Into her night I send my love with your last beam light and If black is the color of my statless nights, it is probably a proper custom...
Look at me, so, I should dress myself in the white of my white hair in mourning for youth.. 
My god.. into your universe I'm spreading my eternally love.

Breathe .. blow the dust of emptiness

Wipe clean, all those things don't forget the corner where we've swept... 
all the shards of broken dreams and all the burnt remnants of pictures that still silent scream pretend as if you've never been exist.
i love you, a thousand times on a single piece of paper in different ways... 
in pen pretend you wrote it all in pencil, erase it 'till the lines fall off, till you see the table on the other side then neatly put it in a pile, right in front of you... then breathe .. exhale it like a birthday cake close your eyes and make a wish...
i wish the painful past would disappear, for you, for me... for anyone who hears
the voices that haunt them from their sleep
the painful itch that never leaves until it's left.
the past is falling fast, and it grabs you where it can, it holds on for dear life, for it is dead... 
and scared afraid to be alone, sorry that it made you cry...
but mostly, it's only sorry for itself...
crying in a broken mountain, that you put in the corner...
but never called the coroner, in hopes that it would come back to life... like some sort of miracle... and we're messed up over a lingering... praying for death because we and it just can't let go.
there is no moving on... until you make the first move,
release the white knuckled grip
let the blood flow into fingertips, feel the dying disappear brace yourself in life and living... give to those, worthy of giving.
leave the rest to wishes and breathe blow the dust of emptiness
I wish that it would disappear.

Love from above

True love is the gift to treasure forever but given by God with price, if just we can pay for it with any means necessary.. 
True love is a gift we all possess and is the key to the heart and the souls happiness..
It stays in your heart for eternity until your soul leaves this world to start over again and leave your only true love
Is a depressing thought but be happy as true love can sometimes come with a price.

Love is angel..

Love asks for more, Love is always kind for when you're in love your tail wags..
Love is respective.. exchanging, dealing with problems 
Love is loyal.. when we no longer face to face
Love is compassionate.. always flow, renewable 
Love is warm and comfortable when nobody beside but us
Love is patient and longing when there nothingness 
Love is affectionate and making life precious 
Love is earnest .. forgiveness 
Love is lasting.. for to grow old together
Love is nothing.. without you beside
Love is angel.. Angels do exists.. but you, still blind

Home..

One day that day we see, there would be many other ways.. To see, to look at, to appreciate, to get the meaning and to reach at the bottom of truth.
To measure success, to identify all your goodness, Just when all the doors of light would be kept open and wide, It would be up to you, In which way you want to enter, On which way you want to healed.
One day that day we see, when there would be no hate.. the soil of the shore would refuse to take in the seed of bias and prejudice,
Lust and greed and water would never quench thirst of the people whoever gets involved in a game of conflict.
When there would be no one way to lead life, no one way definition of beauty, and meaning of success would never end with victory for our joy willingly will start to blossom.
One day that day we see, the dawn, the sunrise, the sunset and the stars together, you, kids and I when we will knowledge know.. how the walls called home.

Butterfly

You got your colorful wings and you fly but I am never invited, left as a flower without butterfly
You are the wish, the need to always nearby
You are the desire, the reason to my life.. apply
Every one loves to fill with.. but my heart pangs in despair.
Even if I close my eyes and shut my mind my heart knows you come in as a rain, In the hearts of people but mine I find, In the desert under unbearable wreathing pain... I love my love as love should love but you never love as my love should love me.

Aboundment celebration

As long as we celebrate our aboundment, loneliness will cover the horizon with the shadows of our past mistakes. 
Grief fills the soul, Smile drowning in the sea of ​​life, And finally determination sail broken aginest the waves of vanity, 
The lighthouses remaining flare... Fixed, cold, hide its suffering like the sea rocks. Whose waters the waves.
A sinking boat asking the horizon.. Is sadness an ambitions, shouldn't you come to bury me, what was the journey cost for in shadows the destination have been lost.

Never bow.. 02

Bow not to anything.. Even do not bend nor break and never cry over something lost, through all your fears behind your back and live in this world comfortable and satisfied.
If grief and bitterness trubid your life, try your best to swallow it,
if your wounds left you to suffering alone with your past shadows, be smart enough to cheat it with a smile.
Stand strong aginest all your sadness, aginest all you fears.. A strong wedge for you yourself can only faced self despair..
Never leave your eyes prey to your tears, Forget the one who was next to you and he does not remind your existence beside him.
Open your eyes and teach yourself how to find what you need... Yet never bow to your arrogant and says..  "I", 
Yet never give the grief control over your will for it'll break your strength. Take off the greatness from your heart for it is fair enough to deal with how life humiliates us everyday.

Grave of morality

Honesty, disappeared from humans long ago, 
Secretariat, word was from the past few who knows its classification. 
Friendliness, has become an expression of common interests.
Moral, Expression shows how community members interact with each other. 
Sense and feelings, become items bought and sold. 
Love, became words ink on papaer and actions of the hypocrisy of the desire to escape from a bitter reality and under liability cover is a bit could stays till the end.
I love this insane world no more.

Your move...

Double identity..
The first is, thoughtless, selfish, irresponsible, superficial ideas, and young.
The second is, Respectful, confident, highly experienced in life, sad, infused with blues, artist at what she does, and old.
Both has the ability to play the game.. 
Eight players.. 
Two mains, two In reserve, two respected and two hate me,
In a game with one rule.. But, let's go.. Oh.. Just remember "Do not take advice from anyone, could not bear the consequences with you".

Heat over mind.!

Watch me bleed like you don't even care... Watch my heart sink into pits of despair.
Crush my dreams fill my head with doubt, kill me softly take me out.. Laugh as tears make pools at my feet... Make me feel miniscule... Make me obsolete.. But as soon as frown comes upon your face..!!?
I am there to comfort and embrace., foolishly I run back to you... Heart over mind which one rings true. 

True love

True Love .. is to fall in love with the only person who can make you miserable, weak and powerless.. But neglect kills love, oblivion bury it, yet burning us.. I dare not to say your love killed me for "Love" itself does not kill anybody but attaches us inbetween life and death.. 
Love is a queen of all humans senses, and therefore love is always above all the laws.

Mask full of tears

You lost your soul long ago, and what still remains can't grow another.
You lost the trust in word "together", and what you can gain watching them suffer.
You live in an illusion, you live under the cover.
You must stop searching for reasons, why he left you to bears and move on for you holding, a wound with no heal's.
You need to face your fears, you need to believe in other's, for under all your strength, there is a mask full of tears.

The Man I need to be..

The man i was
I was.. Reckless, selfish, arrogant, hasty, trivial, listener, amused, foolish, unprepared, unexpected, weak, young and half-hearted
The man i am now
I am.. Convinced, isolated, feeling lonely, wiser, sane, sensible, ugly, take responsibility, older, stronger and more determined to keep doing better.
The man i see
I need to be .. More wiser, more bolder, more self determined, more better and not to be the best but having a seat in-between.
The man i need to be
I hope to get wisdom for it's a bliss from only my god, to live a happy life, to feel confident, to spreads love every where, to let who around me feel safe, to see happiness in the eyes of my family, to be more responses and to be only me.

Love, break and heal.. Keeping promises.!

The heart will love..
When i dream that special woman, to hold me in the warm sunlight, to embrace me in the rising storm, to capture my feelings without a fight, to exchanging respect and delight...my heart will breathe... Our hearts will love.
The heart will grow
When that women holds my hand, to control my wild heart in its cage, to break the rocky mountains of my rage, to let our love guide us into distant lands... Our hearts will grow for each other's.
The heart will break
When that woman pushes me aside, even for an instant, to run away to the arms of fears, jealousy, doubt and the opinions of others, to caress the gentle touch of another hands, to leave me standing alone with no one by my side, to test my ability to endurance.. Our heartd will break.
The heart will heal
When we returns to each other's with crystal tears, when she know that I'm still near and lays out the burdens of her hidden fears, i will embrace her once more stronger than ever and reassure my love for her with a kiss and so much blessings, her reathing heart i'll feel.. For our  hearts will eternally heal.

I do not need peace at the cost of abasements..

Stop terrorism and promote peace, replace class discrimination with universal brotherhood, abolish slavery and injustice with equity and fairness. Above all breathe out hatred and breathe in love! Then the world would be as beautiful as it was above.

A letter from within

Dear self.
This is who I am.. This is all I've got.. These are my mistakes and everything I'm not.
I'm not asking for your love, I want you to accepct me as what mirror reflect me..  Let go of these chains and set me free
Yes I mess up everyday and I'm nowhere near perfect but are the brusises and scars really worth it
Maybe I'm just a man, Who grew up way too fast and I'm trying make a future while i'm stuck in the past and you look so skinny but You feel fat inside.. You eat to cure the emotions that have died .. And you're dying to be loved again, cause you don't even love you and you're sitting in pain.
Don't know what to do.. you look and smile in the mirrior but the smile looks fake.. And looking at yourself was another mistake.
You hate yourself and you wish you were more strong, accepted wiser or pretty.. And so you wallow in your self pity.
You're hoping to be accepcted, Cause you're so misunderstood
You'd change your life in a second O... If only you could do,
Feel less worthless and gain some self esteem for maybe things wouldn't be as bad as they seem.
So you're writing yourself this letter .. In hopes that you'll get better. Maybe one day you'll seem that you're a shooting star or even you'll see that you've come so very far.. And finally accepct yourself.. For who you are.

Your sincerely shadow.
Take care.!

What meant to be, always find the way

Since I haven't anybody to reveal what's languishing in my mind.. 
How I can face my fears, How I can move on with no tears.. O God.. Even when I accpeted my final destination, Sun stills deny me.. And refused from hadows to appears.

Into the darkness valley

O.. God .. As the dawn start to gives birth to all your creations I'm bowing to your will willingness with the rest of my determination to lead my soul through the darkness valley of fortune and power lure,
O.. God .. I'm asking you 
The richness of the soul, The peace of the heart and .. The beauty of the morals.. For you are the only one who know all my fears

Can love be given without being received.?

Can love be given without being received.?
Is it the giver or the taker who benefits more.?
So, 
Let us speak about those issues..
If the steam does finally find it's way through the mountains and valleys before becoming part of an ocean's roar, it must continue to flow, least it dry up, leaving it's brittle and fragile remains, in an empty gully. So it is with love that is given and not returned.
Then who is the taker or the giver.? 
The stream or the ocean.!!! 
Neither, for without the one, there is no other, for they are one to each other.. Then..
Love can not be given with the expectation of love in return. For, 'pure love' or true love must mutually be given. There is no 'taker'..  Because only those who 'give' can receive the gift of love.
So, 
Let us understand that to love is to give and give and forever give..

Surly.. She is my wife.

Every time she scatters my heart but, she does not cognizant of it at all, either I am too paranoid or she is callous, Let it be owing to any reason, any impulse or urge, but still it creates a suffering in my heart
Every time she confers, she is not oblivious to its effects, her words pierce in my heart like a spear, either she does it consciously or I am too conscious about what she speaks,
Let it be owing to any reason, Any impulse or urge,
Every time she insists on what I do not like or what I do like what she insists on, let it be owing to any reason,
May be there is difference in our thoughts, May be there is difference in our likes and dislikes,
But, when I think of giving up on her or living without her.!!!
My heart stops to beat,
My breath gets stuck in one way,
My brain ceases to work,
Yes, every time she creates pain in my heart, But..
She keeps me alive,
Without her, I am dead,
Without her, I am lifeless,
Without her, there is no hope in my life,
She is my life,
She is my wife.

Take off the hat.. Philosophy

These evil days require you to grit our teeth in misery to survive,  But we have to realize life is more than staying alive:
We have to create magical kindness in the heart, Follow that thin skyline into the unknown.
Living out our Divinity involves a philosophy of beauty and refusing to hurt anyone.. We try as possible as we can to be humble, and spread love all over the road, to become a good idea to exchange our thoughts even to take off our hats respective to the others philosophy .. That's how we should accept the difference, that's how we grow from nothing.. To everything.

Shooo.. Listen

Anger is evil

Control your anger and never let it get control over you, Anger is dangerous for we don't know when it comes or when it goes, it feels your mind, fills your heart and feeds your soul or even takes a mighty toll.
Anger will stay forever within to acting with might of all your sin, it's deadly to all the people around, brings sad, turns you mad at the thought of sound.. I'll whisper in your ears something about... all your fears..
In life we strive to be the best, to meet the best and to do the best surly for us but also for others.. So it's the right time to get control over your anger .. And let us do everything wisely, 

I.. and your ego

When everything falling apart.. it will be our only bridge.. between life and death.. Our ego is the only tree will growing in self dust, but whenever it blooming.. It blooms in our souls always its rust.. 

Love costs..

This time I will never shed a tear, I will remember how this heart was torn apart, I'm the symbol of a soul with a broken heart, I tried to love but it seems so never right.. Now my intuition will never get me wrong.
This time I’m strong to recover the debris of my broken heart, Sooner or later I will be whole again with passion to survive, for now my life runs so peculiar with no traces where I started, who could imagine that, good heart gone badly when I stumble so deep and now my vision has no point to fill my dreams.
No more time to feel the pain within, I’m struggling hard to surpass this unfair game.. I was the picture of every day’s rain..  so cold inside but I feel the sorrows in all my body burning, No one can help me out even if I'm yelling.
No sentiment I felt, O God.. Why.. why..  good heart gone badly when I fall apart.. 
This is me now different and changed to someone I don't know.!!
I’m no longer that fool but there are so many peaces lost.. Is that was my true love.. cost.!