bow to love

When our life will vanish away,
Memories are all we have got,
To rejoice in what we were, 
And regret, What we were not.

Who am i but "Tomorrow"

 
Letting me struggles through darkness, just to make things right,
It seems to be that all around you are a pockets of light awaiting to be found, So in all confusion, anguish and fear, I'll search for the light for it's always near, hold up your head,
keep up the fight, anticipate tomorrow, for it might be bright.. and even in darkness night  I'm still have faith that  what meant to be will always find the way.

Ballerina on the sand

May tomorrow be the day of knowing which way to go and to help me decide, which emotions to let flow and which I'll let behind .
May it help me to understand what exactly is going on and why the story should written on the sand Where all my mistakes are made and what I am doing wrong... May it give me an answers to questions that I ask "Who am I" and the truth be unveiled.. or relieved from its mask.
May the day bring me companionship, love
and everything else may help.
May it be the best day to ever pass me by and leave me in a euphoric state some kind of natural high. 

Another world

Why does hate exist..!
I think this crying world needs some rest, don't you think that life is hard to live and survive through all this hazard.
Don't you think that life is weird..!
Some are fighting in wars suffering.. feeling so much pain of bleeding scars while others are singing, dancing and drunk in bars.
Don't you think it's funny..!
that everything is going bad.. nothing goes fine people are killed and others are tasting the wine nectar.
I can't bare the changes of the world's temperamental stages,
I can't believe the darkness of man's heart,
I guess they should be all blocked in cages.
Don't you think that life is tough people are too greedy they never get enough,
Where are your feelings people.. why are you so cold.!
when will we live in peace.. where are your humanity sold.!
When will you throw the sword?.. isn't enough being bold.!
When will we feel those fears of innocent children living in nightmares.!
How can you ever feel the pleasure out of seeing other people's suffer.. All this hatred for a stolen land,
When will you people understand
why are you all so passive..no one wants to offer a helping hand,
Don't you feel the shame.. But it's not the time to blame it's time to get together.. why are we still enemies, 
Can't we just live like sisters and brothers, All the world come together.. just come together and lets make this world better.

Stop calling my name.

I left a note on a distant channel.. I lost and can’t find my way home, Yesterday I saw you standing in a shade but you never cared to look at me..
When darkness starts to fall and I got through a wake-up mind call.... You made a disappearing, Your voice is vague and unheard..
Now on this road to a choice of life, I never can imagine where you are.!!
Every night all prayers are uttered that I will see you one day and even if tomorrow comes, I come screaming your name... Til I can shout no more and die. But your whereabouts is unknown
Gone crazy here and there looking for you, so please stops calling my name for until clarity.. all I have is but a shame.

Who am i !

Have pride that you have helped someone rise, and not that you have conquered someone.
Pride is that one feels about oneself high
Show vanity for your affinity; Show not vanity for your elegance.
Vanity is that one shows oneself high,
You are vanity woman your love is deaf and cannot hear the moans of the mind,
is blind and doesn't want to see the tears of the heart.
You are pride woman and there is blood of love on your wounds that nobody knows,
covered by pain that shouts in silence while your eyes hide in a sweet smile,
those sores of love..
now answer this ..!
I was not born until yesterday
I do not exist even today
But you impatiently waiting for me ..
Who am i ..? 

Shoo .. trust in miracles

This yearning in my heart
this confusion in my mind
the words left unspoken
the emptiness in my life
haunts me all the time
At this very moment you.. mistrust.!
Why does your heart grow doubtful dear..! Your tense and beating, full of fear.
I keep with me your everlasting unspeakable love, and bless the day God sent you from above.
You remain my angel and I feel that I must, tell you that within you, you have my trust.
My love is the tide, your soul is the shore, you have my heart, do I have the core .!
I'll belong to you till the very end, and you will forever stay as my lover and also my best... friend.
It has been so good like this from the start, so darling please, 
trust me with your heart.
there is yearning in your heart
there is confusing in your mind
there are words left unspoken
the emptiness in your life
hunts me all the time.

That invesable bond

How well can we label beauty ?
For it does things, words will not ever describe.
For it is felt and not seen and what makes you itself is embedded.
For it burns through our heart and in doing upon it a special scratch that we will keep with us forever lovingly treasure.
For it removes from us all burdens that you have collected in our time yet it appears so soft beneath our feelings and our mind.
For it goes straight to our soul, passing beyond our eyes, yet we'll know, that special feeling always it will live... beyond our life.
A beautiful evening to all of you.!!

Second chance

Who knows but god, when the uninvited guest finally arrive to reveal and set your evil free and open his suitcases?
Then
A house within a house will speaks .. Did you hear that  ?
An echo reply .!!
Push with all your power 
Hope with all your dreams
But you get no second chance 
until you learn.. how to screams 

Silently..

Emotional silence, that'd kill with bare hands,
Attentive silence, absorbed in the environment,
Thoughtful silence, wallowing and preparing,
Embezzled silence, bored in self indulgence,
Quiet silence, uncomfortable and unwanted,
Subdued silence, waiting in the wings,
Meditative silence, which can move heaven and earth,
Dogmatic silence, enough said about it,
Comforting silence, no words could describe it,
In this communicative silence, Someone, Say something or, not. 
In silence we can but think ..
The things we shared and love in grace,
It is in silence that we can keep in peace,
The peace that held us both in pain.
let me amazing both of you silently.

In a memory of you..

In after you, I won't spend the night suffering from wounds, please.. Do not ask me why or how.!!Your love in my heart became a slaughtered bird, Will not return to life and will never die even you can not return to me again.I'm sorry .. I am sorry, but I am not remorseful .. In other words, what was going to happen .. from your heaven.. go watch the mountain .. How it explodes, erupts. how it contain the volcano inside yet.. Still stands firm and high.I'll not repent of my dreams, which have become tears of remembrance. Which have become a mountains of disillusioned, each night I climbs them for I can see how tomorrow will be. for to see if life will comes willingly carrying happiness for me.Do not you think that; without you I will not see the light .. because feelings and emotions still remain in my heart .. didn't you notice the Earth is still revolve,Despite the dark .. I still can see the light.

Your heavenly gates

Can we draw a day, with a loving hope and pray, 
Watching the dawn till the sunrise, hugging each others even through eyes. 
Then talk a walk, folding our dreams in sand beach, letting waves be witnesses to our unspeakable speech. 
Can i touch your heavenly gates, waiting the sunset over the horizon to paint our destiny plates. 
And tonight i need no Moon even not a single stars for tonight..  I'll simply ask you to glow.

Let me picture a paint for you tonight..

The tree grow day by day even feelings glow tear after tear until I do.. come on strong through convince others... that my ideas cannot be wrong, Alas, There are millions like me in this big world out there, then how should I feels precious..  since my type are not rare.
but you know..!
With all those dark shadows in my eyes and beneath that blue fields of silence, i see a reflections of dieing souls, whispering softly in my ears.. "to picture a paint with words, use only your tears"...

Offering anybody permission to dream

When you look at the world through eyes full of tears
When you feel that you've wasted so many years
When all of the plans and dreams have all fallen apart
When all you feel is emptiness deep down in your cold heart
When you finally realize that ..
Love is the lie we hide behind, until someone makes us change our mind 
To see the truth of love grow old, when our hearts too weak to be glow bold 
To never take that final leap, and have the one thats ours to keep.
To enjoy watching them yelling and scream, i dare you not to offering them.. the permission to dream.

 

Untitled.. lie.

There's a truth behind the coward, There's a coward behind the lie.
There's a truth behind the coward, There's a coward behind the lie.
There's a truth behind the coward, There's a coward behind the lie.
There's a truth behind the coward, There's a coward behind the lie.
There's a truth behind the coward, There's a coward behind the lie.

Never give up hope..

We will never have rainbow in our life until we learn how to cry..  cause tears can make a rainbow of colorful feelings but we need to give it a try.. so, why do I'm afraid of trying didn't we after surrendered always crying.

Open that door..

Deep within your heart there is a place.. a special secret place... where silence lives,
Where the secrets of profound emotion and yearning wait to be awoken,
Where the unspoken words of a heart filled with love remain unsaid, They hang heavy like teardrops frozen in the mists of time, This secret garden of silence born of a heart lost in visions of love, Images of love that live vividly within a dreamers heart yet to be realized,
A love that shall bring about the birth of an eternal springtime,
An orchestra of love that shall fill life's garden with sweet loves melody, Where the memory of the longing years shall be carried away upon loves rhythm, Just .. Listen to the gentle pulse of the waterfall that has sprung new hope, for you, for me and for us all, Now the unspoken words of love shall hang heavy on the heart no more.. 

Didn't you miss me..!

She asked,
Did you miss me?
I confess,
I longed to be near you without rest. Though you were not here, I spiritualy felt you in my chest. You were the air of hope, I was blessed enough to receive, Giving me a sense of comfort, Knowing you wouldn't leave, As I hid amongst the trees, Staying low to the ground, feeling my heart pound... A slow steady beat,
Giving me strength to carry on. I rose to my feet, Looked to the horizon melting with the sea, Where I knew should be... Standing by your side, Gazing into your eyes.
As I am now.. Missing the expression of affection I have found in the smile on your face..
Yes...
I confess,
I am missing you.

Yearning eyes

He waits patiently with wide eyes yearning, he stands alone by the sea shore bend with a broken heart but a stronger will.
He knows for sure someone need to start a journey.. not to fill his soul, not to mend his broken heart, but simply to see a true smile, a true longing, simply to search for himself.
Someone who'll complement his being, stand by him as he stand by her, through a lifetime of an existence full of meaning and love.
A day will come when he can say and she can claim... when he can say finally... we are home.

I'm not scared.!!!

Fears about future, tears from the past.. 

Fear of love, pain.. it's leads you to be insane 

Fear of the unforgiving cane, of lies, of those distraught eyes,

Fear of everything combined,

Fear is what always makes you blind,

Fear is what makes you think, fears is what makes me ink,

Fear is when you’re scared to love someone,

Fear is when the sky turns grey, is when you stopped pray,

Fear of wounds beyond repair, of losing a heart can't compare.

Journey into the center of the unknown..

looking through the eyes of people makes me realize how uniquely the same we are.
Everybody yearns to have that someone to love and to have a certain someone to love them back with understanding, sensitivity, clarity, freedom and wholeness.
Everybody's waiting... simply waiting for that perfect moments when that 'perfect' someone will arrive.. though we know that perfection is a matter of perspective... a matter of how one sees things in one's eyes.
It has become everybody's passion to look or wait for love though hearts break, hearts yearn, hearts cry and mourn.
For each spirit passionately must wait for the one 'meant' to compliment their souls.. 
May God blessings spreading upon all lonely souls in this insanity world.

Kindness as I know.

gentle present, solemn words, sincere smiles, payed freely, with no regrets.. 
mold deeply one's world.
without return, giving one's own. Sending a beam of love, with no shadows.... 
touches tenderly one's soul.

Fourteen lives not enough

If i can only take your pain away, I'd grasp it lovingly on my special place it in my heart without a tear or doubt.
If i can only take your place I'll embrace your tired soul with a loving heart keeping fate with gratitude.
If i can only take your sadness I'll happily hold it tight take it away to the deep blue sea as i search for my own destiny.
If i can only ease your life bring a smile on your tired faith i'll give my light, my life easily and i'll simply dream to see you glow

A lie still a lie.

You can't always believe everything you hear.
A fib is a fib, a lie still a lie, you may know the truth, but would much rather die.
Sometimes you make excuses to cover the light. Like sunglasses at noon, pretending it's night. You tell this to others.'What a beautiful evening. Don't you agree my dear friends?
They look at you like your crazy. Some nod and just smile... but they know the truth...you live in denial. And when day comes to completion, and the moon rules the sky, while other's are sleeping... you stay up and cry. You ask yourself why..!
Throw the glasses away, and enjoy the next day. for you have a never chance every new dawn..
Don't be a fool for deception to rule.
Don't be the face, of a heartbroken race.
Shed that last tear. And go have a prayer. Live in the truth, your redemption is near... Be in the now, this moment of time. Let your smile be light to attract the sublime. Laugh after laugh, step after step, you'll no longer worry about the sorrow you kept. Stay one step ahead of the past.

Love and hate.. deception

For the love of you, Don't know what I would not do, The actions you make seal your fate, Make choices for the best, before it's too late
Lies and deceptions are not your friends, For they will lead you, to your bitter end, He would have stayed, had you not lied, Now you must live, a little dead inside
Your biggest regret wont be from the truth it'll be all those lies, pretending and deception. It's the hardest lesson you have to learn. Lies aren't something you can return. Tell the truth, no matter the cost because a lie isn't worth, all that is lost.. but anyway don't worry, it's too late, Love can hardly turn to hate

The power of your love, is all I need tonight

Once your little shoes were kicked off your tiny feet, you lied your body on beach.. close but far from me and it was quiet and then silent.
i walked my fingers up your back, they tip-toed up your spine
and then, found the dance floor at your shoulders waltzing, eyes closed like swimming in fantasy memory and O.. the deeper i pushed, the harder it was to refrain from wiggling slightly while our temperature was on automatic rising and gaining speed our breathing.. And my wandering fingers, curiously aimlessly feeding your fingerprints with my skin and your body becomes my canvas for all the poetry i want to touch your freckled back, and soft sides warm chest, beating fast, lips moist .. i, i get them wet with mine in a shore of dreams where we're the only two sounds, the only ones alive
And you, push my hand away just to the places where you want me to, while in a waves of shyness and desires you say we shouldn't ... but, you dig in your nails... we remains for a while of time, and while you climax my heart falls harder, you make me want to make you want me more.. we're our own game of pure ecstasy, I've touched your body completely every square centimeter, over and over again.. 
I can't control, i can't let go and you don't want me to and we're like branches off of different trees swaying with the wind the same grazing with intention,
you're the only one that's every made love to me, the way i made love to you... and that's special and i hope you feel it because i feel it like a heart attack that never stops, and i never die
You take me to the heaven's in a bed that's made for just us two and when we're tired, we pass out fast and you're in my arms, and we're laying naked for once our feet are warm, we're comfortable it's the best sleep that I've ever had...
until you leave me in my dream to race around all day inside my head.. 

Just thoughts

Don't let a shadow shed your light, for right now I'm stealing sadness from your sight, surrounded by what my love loves... so be sure to say it loud, but quiet
send all the perfumes into the night, with all the words i've spoken, for tonight into your ears, my heart is open to tell you that, i love you.. then I'll repeat it over and over and who knows maybe all the night.
but don't wake away in my sleep, just make me smile and sigh for in my dreams I'll send an angel to tell you .. he, loves you even when he can't see you eyes to eyes.

Pride..

I could hear that someone was listening to all the answers I've been miss.
I could feel that someone was caring to all the feeling I've been lost.
I could see your pride fighting back, feelings needs attach,

Could you fit me tonight.!!!

You could fit me right pulsating puzzle pieces, fit together a little tight a little dark, our eyes at night and the sweat gleams rolling down your skin
a salted path that didn't cry
a sweeter taste, the greatest high .. two bodies moving intertwined like cycloned rainbows arching skies
Could you fit me right.!!
your tongue plays give and take like mine.. you tremble as i unglue you and slowly put you back together just to start this love all over and over again.. 
But i'll never leave your side.. for i only want to learn to love you right 
And break me down, the pieces held
And gently touched and placed with care
 for kiss me how you think i want you, for i will kiss you just the same.. i will hold you close, two bodies bare without a space of light between, eclipse the end come back to me and never stop and never leave.. tell me, tell me that you want me, and i'll give you what i need .. close your eyes and hold on slow, your neck is calling so serene, it's begging for the sense of feel, never stop me for i'm grasping all your lovely parts and licking endless, endlessly..
i'm reaching for that cold unbearable, unbeatable largest heart
that i think i've yet to see and from now and so on, please let you be my imagination... or even just my favorite, naked, steamy faraway dream, you could fit me right.. for I'm trying my best to fit you.!!
i think i've felt it once or twice and i've never touched your skin, i've never held your hands,or given you a kiss...
but you drive my imagination, to the brink of desecration...
And then you bring it back to me, you make me want to leave...
the world i know, without a note, cthrow away the lock and key...
could i fit you?
could you fit me?
The way our hearts... simultaneously, almost everything it seems... but maybe just to me... worlds apart, two different starts shining only to each other's, to different places, indeed...
and we could meet in different worlds, maybe in this earth or another and i won't forget the way you paint the words for me, i can't forget the soul i've read and loved but never got the chance to touch...
And that is fine,
i like to love love whenever it's impossible to love and so do you, i love that about you...
i hate that about me, that i can't with you to always be; a little free, a little more, a little less scared...
To meet you in the middle of a place nobody have never been touched before, i'll use my imagination
Till you feels the need i have
Till you feels the want i need,
and then we will touch, and we will love to make love
we'll be inside eachother, complete.. eternally.. tenderly,
we'll penetrate the depths of loss when we let our pride feed our souls, 
we'll shed the light that we both need..
And what.. O dear i'll kiss you till we're ended, so you'll know i'd never leave...
and if I'll never hold a hand till death.. I thank you for your part in my sadness journey, i'm so happy that i love to rhyme of your soul, and i'm excited how i feel so tired...
i can't wait to go to sleep to dream; of how i'll fall in love with you tomorrow, I'll use my imagination.. for you became my inspiration and my lovely light beam,,

Goodnight..

My god.. Into her night I send my love with your last beam light and If black is the color of my statless nights, it is probably a proper custom...
Look at me, so, I should dress myself in the white of my white hair in mourning for youth.. 
My god.. into your universe I'm spreading my eternally love.

Breathe .. blow the dust of emptiness

Wipe clean, all those things don't forget the corner where we've swept... 
all the shards of broken dreams and all the burnt remnants of pictures that still silent scream pretend as if you've never been exist.
i love you, a thousand times on a single piece of paper in different ways... 
in pen pretend you wrote it all in pencil, erase it 'till the lines fall off, till you see the table on the other side then neatly put it in a pile, right in front of you... then breathe .. exhale it like a birthday cake close your eyes and make a wish...
i wish the painful past would disappear, for you, for me... for anyone who hears
the voices that haunt them from their sleep
the painful itch that never leaves until it's left.
the past is falling fast, and it grabs you where it can, it holds on for dear life, for it is dead... 
and scared afraid to be alone, sorry that it made you cry...
but mostly, it's only sorry for itself...
crying in a broken mountain, that you put in the corner...
but never called the coroner, in hopes that it would come back to life... like some sort of miracle... and we're messed up over a lingering... praying for death because we and it just can't let go.
there is no moving on... until you make the first move,
release the white knuckled grip
let the blood flow into fingertips, feel the dying disappear brace yourself in life and living... give to those, worthy of giving.
leave the rest to wishes and breathe blow the dust of emptiness
I wish that it would disappear.

Love from above

True love is the gift to treasure forever but given by God with price, if just we can pay for it with any means necessary.. 
True love is a gift we all possess and is the key to the heart and the souls happiness..
It stays in your heart for eternity until your soul leaves this world to start over again and leave your only true love
Is a depressing thought but be happy as true love can sometimes come with a price.

Love is angel..

Love asks for more, Love is always kind for when you're in love your tail wags..
Love is respective.. exchanging, dealing with problems 
Love is loyal.. when we no longer face to face
Love is compassionate.. always flow, renewable 
Love is warm and comfortable when nobody beside but us
Love is patient and longing when there nothingness 
Love is affectionate and making life precious 
Love is earnest .. forgiveness 
Love is lasting.. for to grow old together
Love is nothing.. without you beside
Love is angel.. Angels do exists.. but you, still blind

Home..

One day that day we see, there would be many other ways.. To see, to look at, to appreciate, to get the meaning and to reach at the bottom of truth.
To measure success, to identify all your goodness, Just when all the doors of light would be kept open and wide, It would be up to you, In which way you want to enter, On which way you want to healed.
One day that day we see, when there would be no hate.. the soil of the shore would refuse to take in the seed of bias and prejudice,
Lust and greed and water would never quench thirst of the people whoever gets involved in a game of conflict.
When there would be no one way to lead life, no one way definition of beauty, and meaning of success would never end with victory for our joy willingly will start to blossom.
One day that day we see, the dawn, the sunrise, the sunset and the stars together, you, kids and I when we will knowledge know.. how the walls called home.

Butterfly

You got your colorful wings and you fly but I am never invited, left as a flower without butterfly
You are the wish, the need to always nearby
You are the desire, the reason to my life.. apply
Every one loves to fill with.. but my heart pangs in despair.
Even if I close my eyes and shut my mind my heart knows you come in as a rain, In the hearts of people but mine I find, In the desert under unbearable wreathing pain... I love my love as love should love but you never love as my love should love me.

Aboundment celebration

As long as we celebrate our aboundment, loneliness will cover the horizon with the shadows of our past mistakes. 
Grief fills the soul, Smile drowning in the sea of ​​life, And finally determination sail broken aginest the waves of vanity, 
The lighthouses remaining flare... Fixed, cold, hide its suffering like the sea rocks. Whose waters the waves.
A sinking boat asking the horizon.. Is sadness an ambitions, shouldn't you come to bury me, what was the journey cost for in shadows the destination have been lost.

Never bow.. 02

Bow not to anything.. Even do not bend nor break and never cry over something lost, through all your fears behind your back and live in this world comfortable and satisfied.
If grief and bitterness trubid your life, try your best to swallow it,
if your wounds left you to suffering alone with your past shadows, be smart enough to cheat it with a smile.
Stand strong aginest all your sadness, aginest all you fears.. A strong wedge for you yourself can only faced self despair..
Never leave your eyes prey to your tears, Forget the one who was next to you and he does not remind your existence beside him.
Open your eyes and teach yourself how to find what you need... Yet never bow to your arrogant and says..  "I", 
Yet never give the grief control over your will for it'll break your strength. Take off the greatness from your heart for it is fair enough to deal with how life humiliates us everyday.