I can

When the world seems to be against me
when the people i love the most despise me
when the time as come to say enough
when it is so tough 
I stand tall and believe i can.
when i feel my world shrinking
when everything seems bigger than me 
when time stands still
I just stand tall and believe that i can.

Shalimar .. my white diamond

Shalimar .. my white diamond
You are the heart that beats inside of me
you are the air on which I breathe
You are the sun that always shines
You are the moon that glows outside
You are the stars that twinkle in the night sky
You are everywhere around me
The wind that kisses my face 
The rain that falls from a heavenly place
The snow that glistens on the ground
The river that flows along
the birds that sing your favorite song
All of these things makes me feel
Like i,m close to you and your for real
Although your far away
there is always a piece right here with me 
A piece that no one can take away
You take a piece of me with you
To cherish and hold onto
To know I love you so
And that i will never let you go
I love and cherish you
Every moment is special to me
the memories that we created 
will stay with me forever
Never again will I love so 
Shalimar .. my white diamond
Go in peace with knowledge 
I will always love you so

The truth

Say what you want, mean what you say
Remember the darkest, Lights of that day
The truth is out there
The search is not in vain
The truth is out there
Out there in the rain
Say what you want, But you better believe
The truth is a goal we all must achieve

When explanations are hard to produce
Lie after lie comes shining through
Truth gets locked away
For reasons only known to yourself
Truth may hurt
but the lie hurts more
one lie to cover another
what was the first lie
can you remember?
So much hurt and 
too many lies
whats the truth
will I ever know
can you ever separate the two? 

Your truth is important

Fact exists, truth needs to be believed
My truth is important to me
I also understand that
Your truth is important, to you
My life is not just a single truth
But a village of many kinds of truth
The version you believe, may be different from mine
And both versions are true, to each of us
The duality of truth
Fights for resolution and yet, coexists 
Quietly, when it needs to
Funny concept this truth
Does fact indeed exist? 
And do we really need, to believe the truth? 
Are both just empty shadows
We chase, to play our role 
In a divine comedy
For an audience of one 

My wedding note

The world outside is full of light,
there is no fear, no hate, no night,
love and life are free to all,
no one can hear the darkness call,
The world outside is colder now, 
I feel the fear, the hateful row,
love is scarce, so very rare,
I hear the darkness, feel it's snare,
The world outside grows darker still, 
I'm losing hope, I’ve no free will,
the darkness grows ever stronger,
I wonder if I’ll last much longer,
The world outside is black and cold, 
my very soul feels weak and old,
I gaze into the shadowed lake,
my eyes, my hands, seem somehow fake,
The world outside has but one light, 
one tiny glimmer through the blight,
a fire burning deep within,
I feel it's warmth throughout my skin,
The world outside is brighter now, 
I see it glow, I hear it's vow,
I hear no darkness, feel no fear,
in happiness I shed a tear,
The world outside is full of light, 
there is no fear, nor endless night,
my heart and soul feel full of life,
for now, you see, you are my wife. 

A touch of reality

We're born into this world without a choice of when or where, 
We learn from those around us through their harm or through their care, 
Though dreams of greater things will give us hope for better days, 
Our path is often guided more by luck than other ways.
We're taught that we have free will and though that may well be true, 
We still depend on faith and hope to show us what to do, 
Though some may claim to rule their lives and set their destiny, 
The truth is that we're all the same in man's ignominy. 
We're born and we will die with little say in either case, 
Too soon to change the world and far too late to win the race, 
Though time is never ending all our lives are but a blink, 
Our days are but a journey that ends sooner than we think. 

Hidden so they can't be found

Safe within your cloak of sound, 
Blocking out the world around, 
Floating on angelic ground, 
Hidden where you can be found.
Standing here against the wall, 
Close enough to catch your fall, 
Waiting at your beck and call, 
Thinking how to make you stall, 
Creeping just a step behind, 
Always in my sights to find, 
Keeping you in heart and mind, 
Hoping you will act in kind, 
Stepping out into your life, 
Introductions with a knife, 
Walking now like man and wife, 
No one here to aid your strife, 
Leaving you my sacred mark, 
Putting out your angel's spark, 
Pretty eyes now cold and dark, 
A work of art so bold and stark, 
Safe within my cloak of sound, 
Thoughts of pain and death abound, 
Keeping them deep in the ground, 
Hidden so they can't be found. 

Footsteps

I see your footsteps by the door
I start to cry and even more
when your footsteps started leaving
I was tricked into believing
that you said you cared for me
and together we would be
forever in each other's hearts
but you ripped mine to little parts
I hate myself for loving you
I miss the things we used to do
the things we used to laugh and share
the fuzzy feeling when you're there

When you will be mine

Loving you is like the deepest sin
Our hearts and minds connect within
The minute we touch is a temptation
A feeling that gives me a rushing sensation
After one tender kiss
The moment is bliss
After one gentle touch
It grows to a rush
Your skin is like honey
your lips are like wine
A mixture of passion and lust combined
Our bodies connect in strong emotion
A feeling of endless support and devotion
The passion of love
That comes from above
A moment in time
When you will be mine 

A dawning

One day, 
In the real world lived...
A dawning is going to be witnessed.
And everyone who sees it, 
Will agree...
A period of darkness has ended.
And those who missed this phenomenon, 
Will be left right where they are...
Asleep.
With no one awakening them, 
To solicit from them an opinion...
As to what may be their beliefs! 
And that dawning will be experienced for what it is! 
The Sun.
Rising upon the horizon.
And surrounding in full acknowledgement, 
Is a noticeable occurrence of life! 
Stripped of pretensions.
Many will hopefully accept it...
And will be able to move on.
Without any attempts to prompt a thought process, 
That 'this' is indeed what 'actually' takes place...
Within a twenty four hour period.

I got the lessons,

i feared being alone
until i learned to like myself
i feared failure
until i realized that i only fail when i don't try
i feared success 
until i realized that i had to try in order to be happy with myself
i feared people's opinions 
until i learned that peolple would have opinions about me anyway
i feared rejection
until i learned to have faith in myself
i feared pain
until i learned that it's necessary for growth
i feared the truth
until i saw the ugliness in lies
i feared death
until i realized that it's not an end but a beginning
i feared my destiny 
until i realized that i had the power to change my life
i feared hate
until i saw that it was nothing more than ignorance
i feared love
until it touched my heart, making the darkness fade into endless sunny days
i feared ridicule 
until i learned how to laugh at myself
i feared growing old 
until i realized that i gained wisdom every day
i feared the future
until i realized that life just kept going better
i feared the past
until i realized that it could no longer hurt me 
i feared the dark 
until i saw the beauty of starlight
i feared the light 
until i learned that the truth would give me strength
i feared change
until i saw that even the most beautiful butterfly had to undergo a metamorphosis before it could fly

A true friend

In rhythm of life full of many strife
We find ourselves out of tune
From momentary sorrow and pain
No man is immune
Friend is like umbrella in the rain
The music of nature is in best
In the company of friends when you rest
Enjoy the life like a little parody
Friends are here to provide melody
Hold true friend with both your hands
You will feel the bliss of nature in sea and sands
Don't let go as true friend
For relations may start and end
Remember my dear, O my dears
A true friend sees the first tear, Catches the second... and stops the third
Stands with you situation may be absurd
A friend multiplies happiness and divides sorrow
A deep friend is like colorful rainbow
When the perfect amount of happiness and tears are mixed
All differences big or small is then fixed
And results in a colorful bridge between two hearts
A new renovated and rejuvenated journey starts

Freedom

Freedom doesn't mean
You are free to do anything
But it does mean
You can do anything
In your own fashion
Provided your action
Doesn't lead to reaction
Doesn't encroach others right
Freedom doesn't give you right
Right to use you might 
To do what you think is right
Freedom seeks from you
You to be just in your action
Unprejudiced in your view
Freedom gives opportunity
To capitalise your ability
Freedom does demand responsibility
From you
To take freedom in right sense
And don't do non-sense
And become a nuisance
To your society
To your community
To your country 
Freedom does mean
You are not mean
It seeks from you
Respect others right
Without duty no right

Who just walked away

I'll remember to forget
The one that made me sad.
But I'll never forget to remember
The one that makes me glad.
I'll remember to forget
The one that lied and deceived.
But I'll never forget to remember
The one that stuck by me.
I'll remember to forget
The one that was always shady
But I'll never forget to remember
The one that calls me 'Good Man'
I'll remember to forget
The one who just walked away.
But I'll never forget to remember
The one God sent my way. 

Conviction inexhaustible treasure

Eyes of shadow and sorrow.
Enveloped in sadness and hate.
The seeds of heartache sown once before.
Sown now by my own hand, convicted.
Though the vines bloom and grasp.
They have no hold on me.
All my tears were shed before.
I have no more left to bare.
Only one last string remains now.
That time will devour wholly.
Though partial in my decisions.
I am sure in my conviction.
Battles remembered as this race ends.
Insulted and lacerated inside.
A constant reminder of internal torment.
Blended with my own surrender.
Blinded by the thought of nothing.
Forever on my knees in servitude.
Giving all I am, all I was.
Never once raising a fist to defend.
Wars waged aside these feelings will fade.
My resolve will rebuild, my mind will ease.
These wounds will close but leave their mark.
Reminders of why i'm convicted.
Grievances embraced, my new solace.
Bore on solid shoulders.
All adding to my certainty.
All adding to my conviction

At the corner of the street

He sits alone at the corner of the street
Not a penny in his pocket and nothing to eat
The sidewalk is where he makes his nightly bed
He can't remember when last he had a roof over his head
He watches with a pitiful stare at those passing by
He stretches out his hand but no one gives him an eye
No one seems to care about how he must feel
His stomach grumbles begging for a decent meal
Constant solitude is his only friend
When I wonder, will his misery end
A homeless beggar but a human being
nonetheless; 
Society's outcast, he's never shown any kindness
Day in, day out, his struggles remain the same
His ragged clothes is all that he owns to his name
He wanders about aimlessly through the town
But everywhere he goes they put him down
It would seem life dealt him a cruel blow
Alone is this cold world with no place to go
What will be this poor man's ultimate fate? 
Its sad to see how others are so unfortunate

Yes or No

I'm trying really hard not to fall in love with you
For I Know my heart will only be broken in two
Why fool myself knowing that you and I will never be
Someone like you would never take interest in someone like me
There are times I want to tell you how I truly feel
For so long these hidden emotions I've wanted to reveal
I hold you close to my heart as a very special friend
And I'm afraid if you know the truth our friendship will end
I'm struggling with my feelings to keep them under control
Not being to tell you pierces deep into my soul
I wish so badly that I could express my love for you
But I'm in a state of confusion, not knowing what to do
Maybe someday I will find the courage to finally confess
Pour out my heart to you so that it may be at rest
No matter what happens, I want you to know
I will love you still whether your answer is yes or no

Silence

Silence holds more voice than any shouting or screaming, 
Silence can be heard for miles, 
Silence is the key to everything and the doorway to nothing.
Silently you choose to be and silence is your eternity
You cannot hold silence in your arms and nourish it, 
But silence in your heart can take away with it every beat, and from your body, each breath and from your soul the ability to fly.
Beware of silence as it might creep up on you and take you by surprise.

Unanswered Questions

im siting here...
i cant feel anything..
all the pain...and everything
aren't there anymore...
it's a damp cold night...
and im just trying to figure out this life...
just thinking about this life hurts..
thinking of a way to make this pain to go away
im lost in confusion..
questions arise in my mind..
which i cant seem to solve
why is everything soo confusing?
why does everything wrong happen to the ones who do right?
why does life seem to be soo unfair...?
why does it take away the things we love?
why does something bad happen when you just seem to be happy for once?
why does all your happiness just seem to fade away...?
and all the memories remain...
why do your mistakes make you even more weak, when they are suposed to make you strong?
why do we hurt yourself too make the pain go away..
why does even the thought of happiness make you sad?
why is everything soo confusing?
with these questions unanswered
i cry myself to sleep every night...
with no hope of light..
just me and my thoughts and these memories!

What you left behind..

what you left behind..
is nothing but sadness..
nothing but misery...
tears for you
the darkness that surrounds me..
because of you..
i can never be happy
what you left behind...
is the love for you....
you left behind pain for me...
a broken heart..
a broken girl...that will never love again..
that will never be happy again
you created a dead person within...
who's life can only return with you
thats what you left behind! !