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Saturday, April 02, 2016
This.. Is my life.
O.. there it is again, i'm down on my knees, with my head in my hands, I stumble to my feet weaker then before, my head hurting, ears ringing and my spine killing. I can see the light in the darkness that surrounds my life knowing that I will never reach it in time.
My body is so weak and so thiny, I find it hard to breath some times, the pain it hurts so much sometimes I think i'm dieing, my head is so full of noise so loud.. O, it's going to explode.
I feel so alone in this world of mine, walking around like a vanishing shafow, if only I didn’t build so many walls but some people build them to keep people out, and some to see who cares enough to try and knock them down…
it's coming… I can feel it, it starts in my neck then down my spine…then Bang it shoots back up into my head then whack, i'm down on my knees shouting… o God.. why me…please.!!
the stars in my eyes blind me and the noise in my head deafens my senses, I cant breath... Is this the end…..?
slowly I come around, I crawl toward the light, trembling like a leaf in the wind.
I can't describe this feeling inside, lost and confused, alone and unique, just to try and name a few.
I feel sick, oh so sick why all this happiness to me.!
I collapse to the floor in a heap, to weak to carry on, just wishing I was dead.
As I lay there can't even crying in intense pain all I can see and hear is my kid smiling faces saying I love you daddy…
what remains of my heart sinks even deeper into stomach, making me sick.
I'v got to get up and keep moving, if not or me then for my little angles…i'v got to find my lost strength.
my hearts is beating faster then the time before, as I try to stand up I collapse…i'm so weak…
I finely find my feet thou still wobbly I carry on, i'v got to keep fighting…i'v got to be a survivor not a failure for my family.
I wouldn’t wish this feeling the worst person in this wicked world we all share.
I know it won't belong till it comes back around, so i'v got to keep moving to make up some ground. Cold and alone, with no confert in site. So, this is my life, and this is were i'm shore i'm destend to stay hoping to reach that distent light some day.
this is just one grain of sand on a beach, called my life…this is me….this is my true life.
My body is so weak and so thiny, I find it hard to breath some times, the pain it hurts so much sometimes I think i'm dieing, my head is so full of noise so loud.. O, it's going to explode.
I feel so alone in this world of mine, walking around like a vanishing shafow, if only I didn’t build so many walls but some people build them to keep people out, and some to see who cares enough to try and knock them down…
it's coming… I can feel it, it starts in my neck then down my spine…then Bang it shoots back up into my head then whack, i'm down on my knees shouting… o God.. why me…please.!!
the stars in my eyes blind me and the noise in my head deafens my senses, I cant breath... Is this the end…..?
slowly I come around, I crawl toward the light, trembling like a leaf in the wind.
I can't describe this feeling inside, lost and confused, alone and unique, just to try and name a few.
I feel sick, oh so sick why all this happiness to me.!
I collapse to the floor in a heap, to weak to carry on, just wishing I was dead.
As I lay there can't even crying in intense pain all I can see and hear is my kid smiling faces saying I love you daddy…
what remains of my heart sinks even deeper into stomach, making me sick.
I'v got to get up and keep moving, if not or me then for my little angles…i'v got to find my lost strength.
my hearts is beating faster then the time before, as I try to stand up I collapse…i'm so weak…
I finely find my feet thou still wobbly I carry on, i'v got to keep fighting…i'v got to be a survivor not a failure for my family.
I wouldn’t wish this feeling the worst person in this wicked world we all share.
I know it won't belong till it comes back around, so i'v got to keep moving to make up some ground. Cold and alone, with no confert in site. So, this is my life, and this is were i'm shore i'm destend to stay hoping to reach that distent light some day.
this is just one grain of sand on a beach, called my life…this is me….this is my true life.
Alas.. If dogs can talk..!!!
If dogs could talk what would they say?
Maybe, hey you come let's play, go grab the ball and the frisbee lets play a game just you and me.
Maybe they'd say don't leave me out here, I want to be with you, close and near, I don't want to be tied to this chain, Will you bring me inside out of the rain?
What would a dog say on being a stray.. Maybe hey you I've lost my way, I'm hungry and thirsty and lonely too... Hey maybe I can come home with you?
The dog in a shelter must have alot to say.. What did I do to end up this way, can you take me home and give me a name... I once had a family, this just isn't the same
I don't want to fight, a dog once said, All I want is a nice soft bed, It hurts to fight and be ripped apart, why don't we make a brand new start.
A major discussion goes on everyday, Why oh why are we stuck in this cage, Will you leave us go and let us be free, This isn't right, why can't you see.
So, if dogs could talk what would they say.!!!
They'd say I love you and with me you could play, we'll go for walks and relax in the sun, now wouldn't all that be such fun but they can't talk, but look in their eyes, those eyes say more than one can surmise, they're devoted and loyal and oh so true...
All they want is to be with you.
Maybe, hey you come let's play, go grab the ball and the frisbee lets play a game just you and me.
Maybe they'd say don't leave me out here, I want to be with you, close and near, I don't want to be tied to this chain, Will you bring me inside out of the rain?
What would a dog say on being a stray.. Maybe hey you I've lost my way, I'm hungry and thirsty and lonely too... Hey maybe I can come home with you?
The dog in a shelter must have alot to say.. What did I do to end up this way, can you take me home and give me a name... I once had a family, this just isn't the same
I don't want to fight, a dog once said, All I want is a nice soft bed, It hurts to fight and be ripped apart, why don't we make a brand new start.
A major discussion goes on everyday, Why oh why are we stuck in this cage, Will you leave us go and let us be free, This isn't right, why can't you see.
So, if dogs could talk what would they say.!!!
They'd say I love you and with me you could play, we'll go for walks and relax in the sun, now wouldn't all that be such fun but they can't talk, but look in their eyes, those eyes say more than one can surmise, they're devoted and loyal and oh so true...
All they want is to be with you.
Friday, April 01, 2016
Our minds..
One thing, important and rare, which cannot be found everywhere,
we need it every-time, to have a happy and nice time,
when it is here we don't care, we make it go away,
then again we want it to come, when so difficult it has become,
A necessity of old, young and child, it's absence makes us wild,
We can neither avoid, nor ignore it, for it makes the candle of happiness to lit,
WWe have to achieve at any cost, otherwise everything would be lost,
Now i would like to remind, that the thing is peace of mind
we need it every-time, to have a happy and nice time,
when it is here we don't care, we make it go away,
then again we want it to come, when so difficult it has become,
A necessity of old, young and child, it's absence makes us wild,
We can neither avoid, nor ignore it, for it makes the candle of happiness to lit,
WWe have to achieve at any cost, otherwise everything would be lost,
Now i would like to remind, that the thing is peace of mind
There is a reason
Every little thing no matter how small is here for a reason, A part of the All;
Not insignificant, not just a whim, all are created expressions of Him;
Nothing is simple, nothing is rare, all of it matters, to someone, somewhere; None of it random, none of it small, all is important for one and for all;
you are my Shadow, we aren't the same, Equally chosen as part of the game; One day we'll see it, one day we'll know out of that wisdom.. wonders will flow; And in that moment all hearts will sing,
There is a reason for every little thing.
Not insignificant, not just a whim, all are created expressions of Him;
Nothing is simple, nothing is rare, all of it matters, to someone, somewhere; None of it random, none of it small, all is important for one and for all;
you are my Shadow, we aren't the same, Equally chosen as part of the game; One day we'll see it, one day we'll know out of that wisdom.. wonders will flow; And in that moment all hearts will sing,
There is a reason for every little thing.
Nay no regret
No regrets.. Nay I have no regrets
For the time that passed away, joys and happiness died
Loneliness and sorrow tiptoed into my life
No regrets nay I have no regrets
For the feelings doth burned and the yearnings never yearned
Smiles those faded away lies of life which did vanity
No regrets nay I have no regrets
For love which never become mine and searching like fool and blind
Lashes those put by thoughts snatched away all last hopes
Now I am lying on the bed
Made of thorns and venomous blades
Looking into the cold and frigid eyes
Pleading her to take my soul away
Once dead there will be no regrets
Nay there will be no regrets
For the time that passed away, joys and happiness died
Loneliness and sorrow tiptoed into my life
No regrets nay I have no regrets
For the feelings doth burned and the yearnings never yearned
Smiles those faded away lies of life which did vanity
No regrets nay I have no regrets
For love which never become mine and searching like fool and blind
Lashes those put by thoughts snatched away all last hopes
Now I am lying on the bed
Made of thorns and venomous blades
Looking into the cold and frigid eyes
Pleading her to take my soul away
Once dead there will be no regrets
Nay there will be no regrets
The game
Sitting around this empty place, full of hollowness and nothingness,
None of the place I wanna be, the place that I call home.
No hope, My life’s a loss,
No wish, no aim, My life’s empty,
With only the sad darkness as company.
How could this be, this is not how it should be,
But with the way things seem, my chances seem so slim.
Can’t forget the things we done,
Can’t erase the memories in my mind,
All the lies she told,
All the love I sold,
All the friends she betrayed,
All the monsters I portrayed,
Has turned to guilt.
My vision is blurred,
My mind is clouded,
My body is numb, I feel so dumb,
For the things she done, under the name of game.
None of the place I wanna be, the place that I call home.
No hope, My life’s a loss,
No wish, no aim, My life’s empty,
With only the sad darkness as company.
How could this be, this is not how it should be,
But with the way things seem, my chances seem so slim.
Can’t forget the things we done,
Can’t erase the memories in my mind,
All the lies she told,
All the love I sold,
All the friends she betrayed,
All the monsters I portrayed,
Has turned to guilt.
My vision is blurred,
My mind is clouded,
My body is numb, I feel so dumb,
For the things she done, under the name of game.
Thursday, March 31, 2016
fall to the ground
The first I forgave 'cause I wasn't young
The second hurt but there were more
The third passed by without a chance
The last just passed without a glance
Four years passed by without that deceptive eyes to be open
That's how I found it takes more than talent to win
The eyes that followed everywhere
Judge me every step
They don't see what my life has been
They only see mistakes
Love, to not be loved.
Destiny, or fate?
Happiness, despair.
Sun, rain.
Sweet, bitter.
Soft, loud.
Finally like rain we all fall to the ground.
The second hurt but there were more
The third passed by without a chance
The last just passed without a glance
Four years passed by without that deceptive eyes to be open
That's how I found it takes more than talent to win
The eyes that followed everywhere
Judge me every step
They don't see what my life has been
They only see mistakes
Love, to not be loved.
Destiny, or fate?
Happiness, despair.
Sun, rain.
Sweet, bitter.
Soft, loud.
Finally like rain we all fall to the ground.
Deceptive
Eyes are the windows to each and every soul that articulates a story in every perspective seeping when sad and tightened when angry but can lie to us ‘cause they're deceptive.
For our eyes lie to each and every one of us unable to fathom what we're capable of no one has seen what our eyes have seen, which could vary from hatred to love.
Eyes close and bring darkness upon us for some, a reality unseen this deception can cause misconception that traps us within a dream.
Eyes can reveal a humans personality but illusory hide their story misguiding reasons behind a tear by which the eyes lie is mandatory.
But what if these eyes did not lie and only told the truth?
Would pain befall everyone for the truth we all lust?
Would all be revealed inside?
Or would a young child's eyes, be something you still trust?
For our eyes lie to each and every one of us unable to fathom what we're capable of no one has seen what our eyes have seen, which could vary from hatred to love.
Eyes close and bring darkness upon us for some, a reality unseen this deception can cause misconception that traps us within a dream.
Eyes can reveal a humans personality but illusory hide their story misguiding reasons behind a tear by which the eyes lie is mandatory.
But what if these eyes did not lie and only told the truth?
Would pain befall everyone for the truth we all lust?
Would all be revealed inside?
Or would a young child's eyes, be something you still trust?
Wednesday, March 30, 2016
So tired.. Time to live peacefully.
hen the night becomes romantic
When the moon sails in the sky smoothly
When the twinkling stars shine in the sky
Let my love sleep tight and peacefully
When I talk to you in my dreams
When I feel your loving words that echo my ears
When memories of the day run through my mind
Let my love sleep tight and peacefully
When the angels surround you in the night
When the prayers showered on you for blessings
When my love express you how much I miss you
Let my love sleep tight and peacefully
Tuesday, March 29, 2016
A kiss
I don’t know what an angel looks like
I don’t even know if they have wings
But I know when I need a reminder
Something wraps around me and sings
It’s the wind in the trees
Makes me pause for a moment
And it’s singing to me
Invisible hand brushing my cheek
Angel kisses to remind me
Everything is okay
Angel kisses and suddenly
I remember what I’m here for today
It’s my chance to love you through this
Daily dance and pass along to you
Some angel kisses
I don’t even know if they have wings
But I know when I need a reminder
Something wraps around me and sings
It’s the wind in the trees
Makes me pause for a moment
And it’s singing to me
Invisible hand brushing my cheek
Angel kisses to remind me
Everything is okay
Angel kisses and suddenly
I remember what I’m here for today
It’s my chance to love you through this
Daily dance and pass along to you
Some angel kisses
Thank you.. All
I thank God for who i am and the person i've become
I thank God for who's in my life and that i'm safer than some
I thank God for my family and how they're always there
I thank God that they raised me and how they'll always care
I thank God for all my friends and the trust they have in me
I thank God for my happiness that's now so easy to see
I thank God for the gift of life and that it's good and pure
I thank God for who's in mine to make me safe and sure
I thank God for the gift of love and what it means to me
I thank God for how our love felt when you set my heart free
I thank God for my favorite gift a special gift, it's true
I thank God for this special gift and that special gift is you
I thank God that you're by my side; that our hearts have become one
I thank God that i have you now for my love will never be done
I thank God for who's in my life and that i'm safer than some
I thank God for my family and how they're always there
I thank God that they raised me and how they'll always care
I thank God for all my friends and the trust they have in me
I thank God for my happiness that's now so easy to see
I thank God for the gift of life and that it's good and pure
I thank God for who's in mine to make me safe and sure
I thank God for the gift of love and what it means to me
I thank God for how our love felt when you set my heart free
I thank God for my favorite gift a special gift, it's true
I thank God for this special gift and that special gift is you
I thank God that you're by my side; that our hearts have become one
I thank God that i have you now for my love will never be done
My dear love.
In every life there comes a time for giving thanks and to say goodbye.
Even though you may be miles apart, your memories will keep you close at heart.
So don’t be disheartened at the thought of distance that can’t remove the memories; your heart’s closest treasures.
May you be blessed in all that you do, and may you experience lots of happiness too!
Goodbye for the moment till we meet again.
May our relationship be a treasure that will never end.
For my dear neloved.. you are always in my heart forever...'till we meet again and tomorrow will be soon here.. my dear love.
Even though you may be miles apart, your memories will keep you close at heart.
So don’t be disheartened at the thought of distance that can’t remove the memories; your heart’s closest treasures.
May you be blessed in all that you do, and may you experience lots of happiness too!
Goodbye for the moment till we meet again.
May our relationship be a treasure that will never end.
For my dear neloved.. you are always in my heart forever...'till we meet again and tomorrow will be soon here.. my dear love.
Asking for forgive
Loving you has filled my heart with joy beyond compare.
Nothing has meant more to me than knowing that you still care.
And deep within my heart I know,
That thought of past,
You will find great calmess in forgiven I.
That through the present,
I'll find my greatest happiness in sharing life with you.
That through the future,
We wont have to be apart cause I love you so and i know
You have given me your heart
Nothing has meant more to me than knowing that you still care.
And deep within my heart I know,
That thought of past,
You will find great calmess in forgiven I.
That through the present,
I'll find my greatest happiness in sharing life with you.
That through the future,
We wont have to be apart cause I love you so and i know
You have given me your heart
Monday, March 28, 2016
I love star fish
Fish have many pretty colors, they live beneath the waves
Some fish seem to swim in schools while others live in caves
Some are short and some are small and some are stringy thin
Some of them are wide and tall and some just dig right in.
There's not much light beneath the waves of all our great big seas,
But all the fish don't seem to mind, they somehow still can see
Plants live down there, under water and make things seem so nice,
That all the fishes dance around and always check things twice.
Some fish swim deep down there, others they just won't
Some of them seem unafraid, but most of them just don't
Some fish have large shiny teeth, some have none at all
Some of them swim hastily, while others only crawl.
Of all the fish and animals my favorite is a star fish.
If I find one on the beach, I stop ... and make a wish.
Some fish seem to swim in schools while others live in caves
Some are short and some are small and some are stringy thin
Some of them are wide and tall and some just dig right in.
There's not much light beneath the waves of all our great big seas,
But all the fish don't seem to mind, they somehow still can see
Plants live down there, under water and make things seem so nice,
That all the fishes dance around and always check things twice.
Some fish swim deep down there, others they just won't
Some of them seem unafraid, but most of them just don't
Some fish have large shiny teeth, some have none at all
Some of them swim hastily, while others only crawl.
Of all the fish and animals my favorite is a star fish.
If I find one on the beach, I stop ... and make a wish.
Sunday, March 27, 2016
In my heart.
Your glance your smile, your soft clear eyes,
They pierce my world, my heart, my sides,
Longing your soft and healing way,
My love, in vain, will not go away.
You've changed my life, what will I do,
Some days I think of, nothing but you,
You fill my mind, my prayers, my days,
With your loving and tender ways.
I wish only to fill your desires,
Render me please to fill these inquires,
I don't want to appear obtuse,
By trying to remove this worlds abuse.
Help me accomplish all of your needs,
I can satisfy much more in deeds,
I'll work so hard and not implore you,
But you must allow for me to adore you.
Your love for me to win one day,
For this I've always longed and prayed,
Remember please always, for you there will be,
That special place, in my heart for thee.
They pierce my world, my heart, my sides,
Longing your soft and healing way,
My love, in vain, will not go away.
You've changed my life, what will I do,
Some days I think of, nothing but you,
You fill my mind, my prayers, my days,
With your loving and tender ways.
I wish only to fill your desires,
Render me please to fill these inquires,
I don't want to appear obtuse,
By trying to remove this worlds abuse.
Help me accomplish all of your needs,
I can satisfy much more in deeds,
I'll work so hard and not implore you,
But you must allow for me to adore you.
Your love for me to win one day,
For this I've always longed and prayed,
Remember please always, for you there will be,
That special place, in my heart for thee.
Lost..
Searching now for your hidden inner space
Sure one day I'll find that forbidden place
What means of travel does one face
This journey from the human race
Listen sounds to tell the way
Or wait the stars to show way
Doth the soul to body say
Suppress all fears felt today
If it's thought that moves the man
Act as if your thoughts still can
God designed this travel well
So we can move through heaven or hell
To take a trip a different kind
To open a channel in your taugh mind
Inner space I need to find
God.. Please God,
Show me the way forward for I'm blind.
Sure one day I'll find that forbidden place
What means of travel does one face
This journey from the human race
Listen sounds to tell the way
Or wait the stars to show way
Doth the soul to body say
Suppress all fears felt today
If it's thought that moves the man
Act as if your thoughts still can
God designed this travel well
So we can move through heaven or hell
To take a trip a different kind
To open a channel in your taugh mind
Inner space I need to find
God.. Please God,
Show me the way forward for I'm blind.
There is no..
There is no Sunshine, on the sun,
There is no Love, which can't be won,
There is no Shame, that's ever lost,
There is no Fame, that's worth the cost.
There is no Friendship, that is too old,
There is no Dream, one can't unfold,
There is no Flight, some birds won't make,
There is no Step, one shouldn't take.
There is no Pain, one can't forget,
There is no Love, one should regret,
There is no Cloud, can dampen spirit,
There is no Sound, unless one hears it.
There is no Achievement, one shouldn't cheer,
There is no Task, that one should fear,
There is no Trouble, does not annoy,
There is no Trust, one wouldn't enjoy.
There is no Forever, on Earth fulfilled,
There is no Need, that can't be filled,
There is no Truth, that won't see you thru,
There is no Other, for me but you.
There is no Love, which can't be won,
There is no Shame, that's ever lost,
There is no Fame, that's worth the cost.
There is no Friendship, that is too old,
There is no Dream, one can't unfold,
There is no Flight, some birds won't make,
There is no Step, one shouldn't take.
There is no Pain, one can't forget,
There is no Love, one should regret,
There is no Cloud, can dampen spirit,
There is no Sound, unless one hears it.
There is no Achievement, one shouldn't cheer,
There is no Task, that one should fear,
There is no Trouble, does not annoy,
There is no Trust, one wouldn't enjoy.
There is no Forever, on Earth fulfilled,
There is no Need, that can't be filled,
There is no Truth, that won't see you thru,
There is no Other, for me but you.
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