I'm missing the dawning.. in your eyes

Only to you .. yes you and nobody but you

Just remember

it's best for you to love wisely, no doubt

but to love foolishly, honestly 

is better than not to be able to love at all

I'll be there

When wild vines choke the road and thick leaves block the sky, 
leaving you lost under a canopy of darkness - I'll be there.
When the paths before you look foreign and strange, 
and the signs all point to nowhere - I'll be there.
The day you decide to use me and betray the feelings we once shared, 
turning forked tongue toward my waiting ear - I'll be there.
When the end comes and forces us to part and you walk away, 
leaving me alone on a rocky pier - I'll be there.
Soon enough you will realize what you have lost, 
and in a vain attempt to reclaim my love.
You search for me where I was as if frozen in time, 
but you find only a memory with words frozen on its lips.
............. 'I'll be there.' 

The end

Sooner or later someone will leave your life, but it's not the end of your story.. simply it's the end of their role in your own story

Apologize

What's more beautiful than to
Speak with confidence ..
Tastefully kidding ..
Politely ask ..
And sincerely apologize

Me too

You said that you love the rain, But you stretch out your umbrella, When it rains.
You said that you love the sun, But you find a shade, When it shines.
You said that you love the wind, But you close all the windows, When it blows.
That is why I am afraid, that you will say the same... to me too.

Sometimes love is a cruel unfair game.

I've given up on this thing called love
it hurts so deep
it steals my sleep
it plagues my mind
and leaves me blind
I'v come to find my self to blame
for stumbling in to all loves pain 
My soul is a lost lovers soul
Lost in the sea of cold darkness
Once your in you can only come back out on
One condition, 
You leave some of your soul behind
And for people who
Experience severe heartbreak, 
The tolls even higher
The ocean wants more of your soul, 
Depending on the pain you endured
As for me, 
My souls running on empty 

Never fall apart

If you want to be my first, please be sure to be the last...
At least that's what I've learned from all the heartaches of the past.
If you want to see me smile, then don't make me cry...
Understand and love me, promise to never tell a lie.
If you want to keep me forever just love me with all you heart.
Do these simple things and we'll never fall apart. 

In the twilight

While I am trying to escape and become invisible for you
To Hiding myself in the twilight ... To banish all memories of you .. I like to walk in the rain. For there I can cry. Its not looked upon as weak. In the rain I can cry .. For within my hart it rains all the time. Things never go right. Always go wrong Turn out for the worst. In my hart I cry so no one sees In the rain it don't matter no one can see. 

Love is 003.

It is understanding the words unspoken
Held back behind a veil of silence,
It is understanding the hurt
Hidden beneath self-defiance,
It is understanding the joy felt
On hearing your achievements
It is understanding the longing
The loneliness, the pain endured.
For, when you really understand
The reasons behind the tears and fears
The motives and the dreams,
The thought behind the actions,
The restrictions which influence
And the desire of the Soul,
You can say, “I know, I understand.”
Its enough if you understand
For when you truly understand
You can forgive anything, accept everything
then .. You can truly love! 

In love ... 001

Love is a hand to hold
A shoulder to lean on
A understanding heart
Whatever misunderstandings
It holds, a word of comfort
To care, to share
And to know that there is
Someone always there! 
All this and more
But, Love is a Ocean
Whose taste varies
From shore to shore
No one can define
Its depth or power better
Than one held in its hold! 

He is I

without him still this whirling earth
Might spin its course around the sun,
And death still dog the heels of birth,
And life be lived, and duty done.
Without him let the rapt earth dree 
What doom its twin rotations earn;
Whither or whence, are naught to me,
Save as his being they concern.
Comets may crash, or inner fire
Burn out and leave an arid crust,
Or earth may lose Cohesion’s tire,
And melt to planetary dust.
It ’s naught to me if he ’s not here,
I ’ll not lament, nor even sigh;
I shall not feel the jar, nor fear,
For I am he, and he is I.

Loss of Paradise

With Mason Cooley words //No need to be sentimental to mourn the loss of Paradise// i'd like to start ..

I miss the nights, I felt angels near enough to touch
I miss the calming words, silent prayers that mean so much
I miss the undying pride, I found each day anew
I miss the reassurance, I had always known in you
I miss the songs, bringing Joy to a Youthful Heart
I miss calling out, knowing you would be there
I miss loving You, Lord, I miss you so much.
I spent the time, crying out to You in Prayer
I spent the time, not always knowing what to do
I spent the time, hoping You had a place for me too
I spent the time, down on my knees for You
I spent the time, and here I am: Alone by Your Side again
Oh to have things back as they were before
During my early years of trusting LoveBefore my heart registered the pain You had known
As people degraded the Love You offered, let our voices call as One: .. Oh God, forgive them for they know not what they have done.

Money or Soul...!

Years have fallen like flowers
and time is flying by hours
Yet more or less, I am a beginner
rather a poor beginner
What have I gained? 
What have I lost? 
Gained I have nothing
Lost I have every farthing
My early attempt has turned a failure
a futile attempt to live
A life from hand to mouth
Only my soul l did save
From all dishonest thoughts and deeds
I barred my heart from all such weeds
but still hunger has stole upon me
Money is supreme of all man’s needs
It was merely a matter of question
a question too much a triffle to notice
What you want to save
your soul or money? 
Whatever you choose
the other you loss
For me it was a question of choice and need
I went for soul
And this is what I have gained
a tried conscience
and endless poverty
It seems my values had lived ages pest
For if I held up my head 
my soul was bound to be in mud But then, 
I held up my soul
and my head was in mud. 

A story to till..

When shall we learn, what should be clear as day,
We cannot choose what we are free to love?
Although the mouse we banished yesterday
Is an enraged rhinoceros today,
Our value is more treatened than we know:
Shabby objections to our present day
Go snooping round its outskirts; night and day
Faces, orations, battles, bait our will
As questionable forms and noises will;
Whole phyla of resentments every day
Give status to the wild men of the world
Who rule the absent-minded and this world.
We are created from and with the world
To suffer with and from it day by day:
Whether we meet in a majestic world
Of solid measurements or a dream world
Of swans and gold, we are required to love
All homeless objects that require a world.
Our claim to own our bodies and our world
Is our catastrophe. What can we know
But panic and caprice until we know
Our dreadful appetite demands a world
Whose order, origin, and purpose will
Be fluent satisfaction of our will?

Drift, Autumn, drift; fall, colors, where you will:
Bald melancholia minces through the world.
Regret, cold oceans, the lymphatic will
Caught in reflection on the right to will:
While violent dogs excite their dying day
To bacchic fury; snarl, though, as they will,
Their teeth are not a triumph for the will
But utter hesitation. What we love
Ourselves for is our power not to love,
To shrink to nothing or explode at will,
To ruin and remember that we know
What ruins and hyenas cannot know.

If in this dark now I less often know
That spiral staircase where the haunted will
Hunts for its stolen luggage, who should know
Better than you, beloved, how I know
What gives security to any world.
Or in whose mirror I begin to know
The chaos of the heart as merchants know
Their coins and cities, genius its own day?
For through our lively traffic all the day,
In my own person I am forced to know
How much must be forgotten out of love,
How much must be forgiven, even love.
Dear flesh, dear mind, dear spirit, O dear love,
In the depths of myself blind monsters know
Your presence and are angry, dreading Love
That asks its image for more than love;
The hot rampageous horses of my will,
Catching the scent of Heaven, whinny: Love
Gives no excuse to evil done for love,
Neither in you, nor me, nor armies, nor the world
Of words and wheels, nor any other world.
Dear fellow-creature, praise our God of Love
That we are so admonished, that no day
Of conscious trial be a wasted day.

Or else we make a scarecrow of the day,
Loose ends and jumble of our common world,
And stuff and nonsense of our own free will;
Or else our changing flesh may never know
There must be sorrow if there can be love.

Soul 001

I will die...when the time is right,
And not prematurely or before;
I will not give up my precious soul,
To go through that unknown door.
I will fight to stay the course...
to navigate that twisted path;
I won't give in to loser's dreams,
or give in to the world's great wrath.
I will sail on, up that river...
going gently with the flow;
and I'll not harbor lightly,
to see the last and final show.
I'll spread as much love as I can, 
and touch and hug, all that I can reach;
I'll see the sunshine, not the darkness,
When I am rested on that blessed beach.
I will die...when the time is right, 
Not a moment sooner will I fall;
But I'll fight the dying of the light,
Until I am aware of nothing else at all. 

Shalimar .. my white diamond

Shalimar .. my white diamond
You are the heart that beats inside of me
you are the air on which I breathe
You are the sun that always shines
You are the moon that glows outside
You are the stars that twinkle in the night sky
You are everywhere around me
The wind that kisses my face 
The rain that falls from a heavenly place
The snow that glistens on the ground
The river that flows along
the birds that sing your favorite song
All of these things makes me feel
Like i,m close to you and your for real
Although your far away
there is always a piece right here with me 
A piece that no one can take away
You take a piece of me with you
To cherish and hold onto
To know I love you so
And that i will never let you go
I love and cherish you
Every moment is special to me
the memories that we created 
will stay with me forever
Never again will I love so 
Shalimar .. my white diamond
Go in peace with knowledge 
I will always love you so

Yes or No

I'm trying really hard not to fall in love with you
For I Know my heart will only be broken in two
Why fool myself knowing that you and I will never be
Someone like you would never take interest in someone like me
There are times I want to tell you how I truly feel
For so long these hidden emotions I've wanted to reveal
I hold you close to my heart as a very special friend
And I'm afraid if you know the truth our friendship will end
I'm struggling with my feelings to keep them under control
Not being to tell you pierces deep into my soul
I wish so badly that I could express my love for you
But I'm in a state of confusion, not knowing what to do
Maybe someday I will find the courage to finally confess
Pour out my heart to you so that it may be at rest
No matter what happens, I want you to know
I will love you still whether your answer is yes or no

My stranger

How do I commence speaking, of someone that I not know? 
my heart aches for them, to be my fountain of love so, 
A fountain from which they drink, every drop, an eternal passion, 
no blessing for me, in feeling their warm embrace, 
still, they're dearly missed, everyday when I lie, dreaming of the day, 
when I will be with them, my stranger at my side, 
hold them by me, an show how much I care, that I love them so, 
for in my mind, they just won't go, 
no matter what I do, my sight does see, my mind's one thought, 
is my soul's only want, to inhabit their's alone, an become one to be, 
for I am in love, with a stranger so dear, 
please God, O' please, bring my stranger here.

Poverty

it creeps up inside of you
with no warning at all
it controls you
your no-longer who say and think you are
it changes the way you think walk and talk 
and so much more
it closes every open door
there is no cure
once you have it your standing at deaths door 
you lose ability to think for your self
you lose everything
your strength and your wealth 
it is the deadliness killer of them all
it breaks down every cell wall
its misunderstood sometimes just plain over looked.
but who cares
its there
hurt and pain fills the life's of many people everyday 
its a silent killer that puts many in their graves

The final verse in our sweet song.

When did we ever say goodbye? 
When did we ever let each other go? 
When did we ever give up our love? 
We never really did, you know.
Years have passed, yet, your not gone, 
Years have passed, yet, we're the same; 
Years have passed and nothing's changed, 
There's nothing to fault, no one to blame.
Today, we pick up, where we left off, 
Today, we continue, what we've begun; 
Today, we celebrate our love, once more, 
Under the same old moon and sun.
Tomorrow, that's the final destination, 
Tomorrow, our love will still be strong; 
Tomorrow, it's you and I, 
The final verse in our sweet song.