Sometimes love is a cruel unfair game.

I've given up on this thing called love
it hurts so deep
it steals my sleep
it plagues my mind
and leaves me blind
I'v come to find my self to blame
for stumbling in to all loves pain 
My soul is a lost lovers soul
Lost in the sea of cold darkness
Once your in you can only come back out on
One condition, 
You leave some of your soul behind
And for people who
Experience severe heartbreak, 
The tolls even higher
The ocean wants more of your soul, 
Depending on the pain you endured
As for me, 
My souls running on empty 

Darkness and light

A cataclysmic silence wraps its fingers around my throat
Daring me to breathe a teasing breath of air
Lying on the floor, seeing nothing to save my soul
Distant memories appear inside my fading mind 
A child so young yet brave for his middle age, Lies awake 
The terrors of the night force his mind to work hard
New thoughts and questions run through his tired mind 
Far away from the night is where, he finds himself
Now, lying on the cold floor, I let my mind carry me away
To places unknown .. I dream of dreams untold
I feel my chest tighten, as air is kept from me .. 
I live as survival kicks in .. I know who I am
Breathing in the bittersweet air, Tears come to my eyes
I’m alive.. Being here now in this place
I no longer fear the dark
I now have learned
The light will always prove to .. Be brighter
The dark will always run away.. And on this line 
I find .. peace

Never fall apart

If you want to be my first, please be sure to be the last...
At least that's what I've learned from all the heartaches of the past.
If you want to see me smile, then don't make me cry...
Understand and love me, promise to never tell a lie.
If you want to keep me forever just love me with all you heart.
Do these simple things and we'll never fall apart. 

In the twilight

While I am trying to escape and become invisible for you
To Hiding myself in the twilight ... To banish all memories of you .. I like to walk in the rain. For there I can cry. Its not looked upon as weak. In the rain I can cry .. For within my hart it rains all the time. Things never go right. Always go wrong Turn out for the worst. In my hart I cry so no one sees In the rain it don't matter no one can see. 

Miss me but let me go

When I finally come to the end of my road the stars set for me I want no gloom filled room
Why cry for a soul set free? 
My soul was burdened. And my life was my prison.
Miss me a little, but not for long
And not with your head bowed low remember the love that once we shared, This was something I had to do... I needed to be free.
Miss me, but let me go.
For this is a journey we all must take each must go alone.
I had to end my pain, So my life I did now take.
A step on the road to home where at last life don't bother me.
Sing no sad songs for me, Laugh at all the things we used to do
Miss me, but let me go
so when i'm gone miss me yes .. Cry for me no.
I am free now at last my soul is at peace.
So miss me but let me go

Diamond ..

I held you like a diamond in my hands
But you were sharp and cut me
And still I held you close even more
I would not be parted.
I bled and my hands were sore
But I wanted you to be close even more
You were so lovely and full of value in other- 
peoples eyes
but my eyes were sore from tears 
and the sighs from my lungs had grown heavy.
I had to let you go
I dropped you and you were gone
But I began to heal
From now on I’ll have to survive on my own
And learn once more how to feel free
Because to possess you was not enough
And love is sometimes tough on lovers
And sometimes we have to let go
Of loved ones we know who cannot love us truly
But one day they might learn of love they spurned 
That was true and given freely. 

I've life

Life is full of noise

Much ado about nothing

It is a fool’s paradise - Where 

Every man thinks he is wise! 

Life is a chamber in which we live

And think this is the world

One person playing many roles

We straddle one two many a horse

Bit and bridle holding in hand

We turn and mount the other way

The dumb teach the deaf

And the blind lead the lame

In this world where none can lead

Being students all, yet, we try

Our hand to lead to by our will

Sweet we are we think

Like a soft and blooming rose

But, alas! We have our thorns! 

Life is good, life is correct

To each man what he does is right

When right and might fight to chose

Life ends up to be a sucking whirlpool..!!

Now do you have life ..!! personally i have

Life is breathing .. I have life

My heart flutters in its breeze, I pile no money

So my life is easy because i no need to count.

Life is working .. I have life

My heart flutters beneath its strain, I work and work

So my life keeps on going.

Life is enjoying .. I have life

My heart flutters for all pleasures, I play .. i pray and eat

So my life isn't lounging lazily.

Life is loving .. I have life, My heart flutters 

In ecstasy, I love all

So my life is full of joy.

Life is serving .. I want more life

My heart flutters for other’s worries, I serve and help

So my life aims heavenly heights.

War

War begets - A conscious 
Murder of men
It is the mother of Poverty
Because of destruction
Of all resources so long held
Curtsy the creation of man and God
It is a the death of Liberation, Peace 
And democracy - It begets
Hatred in the minds of the subjugated
And leads to a legion of crimes
It is the cause of birth of secret movements
Which grow into terrorist groups
War is not the means to peace
Only Tolerance, Peace and Non-violence
Shall pave the way to a peaceful earth!

Love is 003.

It is understanding the words unspoken
Held back behind a veil of silence,
It is understanding the hurt
Hidden beneath self-defiance,
It is understanding the joy felt
On hearing your achievements
It is understanding the longing
The loneliness, the pain endured.
For, when you really understand
The reasons behind the tears and fears
The motives and the dreams,
The thought behind the actions,
The restrictions which influence
And the desire of the Soul,
You can say, “I know, I understand.”
Its enough if you understand
For when you truly understand
You can forgive anything, accept everything
then .. You can truly love! 

Love is ..002

Love is being brave, 
When facing adversity never fear
For, your help is ever near holding your hand
Even if the world is against you, 
When love is there you can see it through.
You have to brave to protect
Your loved ones from misery or pain, 
You have to be brave to dream, 
To reach for the stars even if it is dark
You have to be brave to hold on
To struggle, to fight back, to breathe
Till all your goals are reached.
You have to be brave to promise
You’ll take care till Life’s end! 
Love makes you fearless
It gives you strength and courage, 
Love makes you braver
When you know someone believes
“You can! ”
It’s only then you dare to do! 

In love ... 001

Love is a hand to hold
A shoulder to lean on
A understanding heart
Whatever misunderstandings
It holds, a word of comfort
To care, to share
And to know that there is
Someone always there! 
All this and more
But, Love is a Ocean
Whose taste varies
From shore to shore
No one can define
Its depth or power better
Than one held in its hold! 

Commitment in love

It is a bit like Yoga
The sharing of the body
Helps in the bonding of souls
When the physical needs
Are satiated the comfort
Which flows transcends
The body and reaches the soul
Platonic love may be a way, 
That distance will increase
And keep love 
May sometimes prove 
To be a fallacy! 
The woman like a garden
Should welcome and accept
Her man like a river of life
Into her heart, her soul
Destinies fulfilled 
By receiving she gives 
And by giving he receives
Lust alone can never bind
Two hearts into one 
Which is the committed
Outcome of true Love! 

You've got to prove

As far as I can see, 
there's only love, 
as far as I can tell, 
there's only joy; 
and if by chance I'm wrong, 
then you've got to
prove to me, 
my love you can destroy.
As long as I can breathe, 
there's only you, 
as long as I can speak, 
there's just your name; 
and if by chance I'm gone, 
then you've got to
prove to all, 
You'll still remain, the very same. 

One day

One day, I'll write my book, 
The words will pour right out,
You'll shake when you do look,
When first, I begin to shout.
You can scream and no one hears,
You can cry and no one knows,
You can hide from all your fears,
Thinking you are safe from all the blows.
Your just a shadow, living in a dream,
Your just a phantom, existing in the night,
The ones you love, they're not what they seem,
They're slowly swept away, in fearful flight.
You'll see them all again, in my written pages,
You'll hear them speak again, in quiet words,
But you'll never hear again, the sullen rages,
They've taken shelter with the angry birds.
Birds of prey, they sit in darkened light,
Waiting, watching, they want to see you die,
Wasting away in the corridors of fright,
They'll take you now...if you let them try. 

Don't overload

We shouldn't  overload our day with worry about sustenance of the coming year, We must be gratefully with whatever given to us today. If the coming year is part of our life ... then our God almighty will bring us in every new day our sustenance, 

But if it is not part of our life then ... why are we worried about something, which is not ours...?

Stand up

Submit to pressure from your peers and you move down to their level. 
Speak up for your own beliefs and you invite them up to your level.
If you move with the crowd, you’ll get to further than the crowd.
When 40 million people believe in a dumb idea, it’s still a dumb idea.
Simply swimming with the tide leaves you nowhere.
So if you believe in something that’s good, honest, and bright.... stand up for it.
Maybe your peers will get smart and drift your way.
Within my earthly temple there's a crowd;
There's one of us that's humble, one that's proud,
There's one that's broken-heart for his sins,
There's one that unrepentant sits and grins;
There's one that loves his neighbor as himself,
And one that cares for naught but fame and pelf.
From such corroding care I should be free
If I could once determine which is me! 
will the real you please ... stand up..!!

He is I

without him still this whirling earth
Might spin its course around the sun,
And death still dog the heels of birth,
And life be lived, and duty done.
Without him let the rapt earth dree 
What doom its twin rotations earn;
Whither or whence, are naught to me,
Save as his being they concern.
Comets may crash, or inner fire
Burn out and leave an arid crust,
Or earth may lose Cohesion’s tire,
And melt to planetary dust.
It ’s naught to me if he ’s not here,
I ’ll not lament, nor even sigh;
I shall not feel the jar, nor fear,
For I am he, and he is I.

Wisdom

Gathering Information
extending to Madness, 
Stacking is there 
yet no Coherence is Sadness.
Rationality is Certain, 
when understanding's in accord.
Knowledge will be the Product
Intelligence is there, yet to Explore.
Wisdom is still
another Battlefield
Victors of the Priors
have the Power to Unseal. 

Can you Relate?

When people get abusive someway
Are spreading hostility and hate
Harness your emotions, control your state
Indulge neither in discussion, nor debate
Leave certain things to God and fate
Good things come to those who wait.
Spiteful words and double meaning talks
Backbiting and spying so difficult to tolerate
On encounters, they always negate
Cash in your patience, better to collate
Time will answer such foul mates
Good things come to those who wait
Patience is a virtue
Some learn, others have innate
Whether it present or future state
Gratification delays makes one Great
Tame your energies, stay steady and sedate
Good things come to those who wait.

Life ...

Likes and dislikes, preference and biases
Mundanely worries or heavenly glee
Existence must be liberated and free
Life is much larger than you and me
We fall short to comprehend it
And say its not my cup of tea
Goals of ABC education, n Job XYZ
Fail its meaning, when u look back and see
coz life is much larger than you and me
The success of life is achievement and victory
status, a big name, pots of Gold and Money
Society issues ones Boom's decree
Tied all the way, but think you are free
Life is much larger than you and me
Say! blessed are the prosperous ones, 
I disagree worldly goals buy contentment, 
not guaranteed feel joyed, when have peace internally
Your love, your children will complete this potpourri
So live as unbind not as abducted ...
Life is much larger than you and me
One after another
Challenges come, and grab your arm
You ask life, Now whats wrong? 
Troubles said: We are making you strong
Living a breezy life
Where no effort tag along
One never realizes what he has
Grasps after struggle short or long
Troubles said: We are making you strong
Everyone has a talent deeply sown
With no strive, stay hidden and unknown
In weakest moment one become strong
So, cash in hardships, they bring a new dawn
Troubles said: we will make you strong. 

Very black

Inside us we carry that parallel self
A burial vault without any delf
A little prick wakes up that oppressive pain
Buried deep in past with lots of strain
Ugly regrets which weren't ones fault
Nothingness exaggerated, life craving a halt
The feeling of lone & lost thing
One trusted most, damage the life string
Taking relations sensitivity, always for granted
Something and some words, just couldn't be supplanted
Left behind is the mirror with a crack
Which magnifies self, one less shiny… other very black. 

Once upon a time

Once upon a time
From the ashes
I was made to come alive
From the breathing ashes
Was I condemned
Back to dead ashes
Now I know
Why all stories begin
With 'once upon a time! '

Once upon a time
You made me
Come alive
But then, 
As if the creator has right
Over his creation
You sent me back to death
Now, 
Am I alive or am I dead ? 
I'm neither! 

BMW

Has the humanity gone
Yes! Far away from this earth it has flown, 
Man has become worst than ever
It's like the word 'help' has gone forever, 
Friends, helping is not a crime
Help others and treat everyone with a smile, 
Terrorism has gone beyond our imagination
Why, the world has become a corrupt nation, 
You want to eat in a five star
And drive home in a BMW car, 
Please if you have extra money give it to poor and needy
Please help the marginalized and you will get blessings as freebie. 

God

God .. 
Grant me 
the strength to confront myself, 
the courage to resist my weakness, 
the certainty to accept my fate, 
the satisfaction to rest my mind and  
the understanding to reassure my heart

Don't

So long we pretend to be angels, we follow the rules and do what were told, 
we wouldn't dare break them bend them for fear of getting in trouble, 
So long we pretend to be normal our status the great opportune, 
to stray would be a blood bath sin but to follow is trapping not few, 
sinking to that level of normal to blend with the defining definition is murder to the person we are yet to become, 
to the life we shall soon live in, but to stray would be all darkness with light just in the horizon but to walk blinded is in bad position
for all who don't wish to strive, 
those who do will be followed
by those who wish to be lead
but for all who seek adventure will venture far ... far ahead 

Strive

It may challenge you to the fullest
May temper with your happiness to the deepest, 
Would bring the best out of you
Although the happy moments sometimes may be few, 
It will always test you inside out
But remember sadness wont follow throughout, 
There will be times when you will fell like heaven
Which wont start on 6 and end on 7, 
But remember that the dawn doesn't last for long
And worst maybe waiting on the road singing a song, 
But to remain happy you must always strive
Because it may be challenging for it is life... 

Nothing but light runs forever.

All things of matter and energy, thoughts and experience, mind and body will one day wither and die.
But the light they leave behind will stay forever...
All darkness may disappear as it is fed only by those who conceal and restrict the movement of light; so when all care and courtacy subside, all that remains is the light....
One that casts no shadow and gives off no heat
but the natural warmth and care of it being there
One that learns no limit as it silently beams like eyes from a steady stream of devoted notion and uncut pleasantries...
The dead may lay restless in their graves or sleep in heavenly place but nothing is as silent as the light.
when it flows and when it glares it is unavoidable as is the Lord when He stares.
After all the light is He, and he is light
All will be transparent in this light, and there will be no hiding place;  not even the mind of thoughts that linger.
It knows no boundaries neither of nature nor knowledge as it moves seamlessly through space, time and terrine.
But for now all but one have sircumbed to its permeating force; that is of course the bearer of light and the key holder to its ultimate reign
Man- Wo-man- Hu-man- Wow
For he only would search boundlessly for what is his own.
The light is opportunity, it is power and it is wisdom
It need only be set free 

Respect is like honey

Respect is a lesson that everyone should learn
Respect must be given before an expected return
Respect is something that’s given for free
Respect is about us and never about me
Respect is the basis on which relationships are founded
Respect is the anchor that keeps a person well grounded
Respect builds the character and defines who we are
Respect sets the standard and raises the bar
Respect is magnanimous and helps to fulfill
Respect is the partner that sits with good will
Respect is like honey so sweet it’s perceived
Respect a taste to savoir for when it’s received 

Loss of Paradise

With Mason Cooley words //No need to be sentimental to mourn the loss of Paradise// i'd like to start ..

I miss the nights, I felt angels near enough to touch
I miss the calming words, silent prayers that mean so much
I miss the undying pride, I found each day anew
I miss the reassurance, I had always known in you
I miss the songs, bringing Joy to a Youthful Heart
I miss calling out, knowing you would be there
I miss loving You, Lord, I miss you so much.
I spent the time, crying out to You in Prayer
I spent the time, not always knowing what to do
I spent the time, hoping You had a place for me too
I spent the time, down on my knees for You
I spent the time, and here I am: Alone by Your Side again
Oh to have things back as they were before
During my early years of trusting LoveBefore my heart registered the pain You had known
As people degraded the Love You offered, let our voices call as One: .. Oh God, forgive them for they know not what they have done.

As a coward ..!!

i feared being alone .. until i learned to like myself
i feared failure .. until i realized that i only fail when i don't try
i feared success .. until i realized that i had to try in order to be happy with myself
i feared people's opinions .. until i learned that people would have opinions about me anyway
i feared rejection .. until i learned to have faith in myself
i feared pain .. until i learned that it's necessary for growth
i feared the truth .. until i saw the ugliness in lies
i feared death .. until i realized that it's not an end but a beginning
i feared my destiny .. until i realized that i had the power to change my life
i feared hate .. until i saw that it was nothing more than ignorance
i feared love .. until it touched my heart, making the darkness fade into endless sunny days
i feared ridicule .. until i learned how to laugh at myself
i feared growing old .. until i realized that i gained wisdom every day
i feared the future.. until i realized that life just kept going better
i feared the past .. until i realized that it could no longer hurt me 
i feared the dark .. until i saw the beauty of starlight
i feared the light .. until i learned that the truth would give me strength
i feared change .. until i saw that even the most beautiful butterfly had to undergo a metamorphosis before it could fly