Thursday, February 25, 2016

Incomplete story

Why whenever I start to talk about humans greed I always have tears rol down my eyes.. Oh.. Where do I start my lIfe story
It was there always for me like an angel
I could hold it with my eyes
I could hug it with my heart
I could kiss it tenderly within my mind
it gave its unconditional love with passion
it was a world worth living
I have walked with it every moment... the mountains and sea opened their heart for us
What a wonderful day when I was still remain alive
Those days were the best days of my life
But till the Satan separated me from it
I did not know that humans sickness which called greedness will end our life.. now.. nobody can see the tears in my heart
neither the pain in my mind that cries for losing my reason to live everyday... each day I lose a part from my reasons to stay alive.. honestly, My life story should ends into an incomplete story.

My life.. need me no more.

There is a pain in my heart that brings tears in my eyes. I am sad because my life hurts me... 
like a sky without clouds, like a river without fishes and
like the seas without waves
I am sad because my life left me alone...
The stars are in the sky are not glittering, The moon in the sky is not sailing, The cool breeze is not touching me
I am sad because my life don't care for me...
The truth always become lie, The love always become trouble, The understanding always become fail
I am sad because my life don't trust me...
The thoughts in my mind become waste, The dreams in my heart cannot be fulfilled. The life in the world brings me an emptiness
I am sad because my life need me no more.

Wednesday, February 24, 2016

The same fear everyday

When the day is done and the darkness come, will there be light, can we still fight
holding on
I'm trying to find a reason, just one more night and i can go on.. but when the night is done
will i see the morning sun
will i still be here
will i still have the same fear

Hearts never see

Why does the head never agree
why can't the heart ever see
why does the mind know deep inside, what the heart choose blindly to hide
why is the mind so weak, when the heart starts to speak
why wont the mind take the lead, even if the heart starts to plead
maybe if the mind took over grew stronger, then the heart wouldnt hurt any longer 

Tuesday, February 23, 2016

Trust...

Trust is...
me telling the truth and you believing me.
me not being afraid and you not making me.
deep down within....
I hope real hard, i scream and shout and i think theres no way out.
For...
What once had has now been lost, for that i blame myself, for childish as this thought may sound.
trust we had so long ago.... trust has been destroyed.
All i can give is a 
Simple word...sorry
a simple thought...happiness
a simple emotion... love
a simple thing... my heart
a simple rule... I give all of me, you give all of you.

Monday, February 22, 2016

Leadership

Good Leadership means.. To lead yourself into a good life, Good life for yourself requests... Being a fulfilled and content human being with strong basics.
If you can’t give to yourself what your heart and soul needs, Wisdom will fly away and you will give your children a life with cold hearted decisions, so many failures will annoying they future and your kids will follow your path..  See feelings of understanding lead to feelings of acceptance .. that last one is basically the seeds to a strong relationship and passing through that.. true eternally love born.

Your soul..

We knows there would be times we'd need a word of cheer, want the face of smile .... to brush away .. our tears
We knows there would be times we'd need the joy of that "little things" in order to appreciate what life brings across our steps on this long road.
We knows our hearts oftentimes throb with aches and pains at the door of trials and misfortunes .. when the day is dark with no light at sight 
And we also knows we'd need the comfort of an understanding heart, to give us strength and courage that we make a fresh and new start everyday.
We knows we’ll need companionship that’s unselfish, lasting and true, thus, God always answers our heart's call with the gift of special soul like your soul.

Sunday, February 21, 2016

I can't promise you.

I can't promise you roses, which bloom of brilliant red but I promise, when you need me when you day will turns blue, as much as possible I will be here for you.
I can't promise you perfection for perfection I am not. I am like the blue rose ... thorns are all I've got and tears are what I know.
I can't promise you wealth with money to shower away the old pains that engulf us, but I can give you my love to share throughout each day
I can't promise you the stars for they are out of my hands reach, but I can show you how to walk gently through our stormy nights... and I’ll hold your hands till we cross it together no matter what.
I can't promise total happiness and never a tear in your eye, but I can give you my word that in every way I will try to listen and wipe the tears you shed.
I can't promise eternal life for this is not mine to give, but I can promise you something to love and support you ... everyday in which we live.. so, as you see I am not the best, but then you will never know until you've put me to the test.. when we reach into the edge of the river.

Beautiful morning

Imagine a beautiful morning.. when I wake up every morning.. I always watch you for a while then I kiss you very lightly, Watch you lips turn to a smile.
Then you ask me what the time is and I whisper in your ear... that the hour hardly matters when you're lying ...warm and so near.
Your smile grows slightly wider but you turn your face away, hide your head under the pillow, try to cheat the break of day.
your hair wisps round about you, flows like water to your hips but your neck soon bare before me feels the pressure of my lips.
Then I touch you very lightly, run my fingers down your spine and your body gently waking turns till eyes gaze into mine.
Oh.. and in that very moment as your mouth seeks to entice, When I wake up every morning ... I am lost in paradise.

Feed a flame with in..

Don't be fooled by how I act, don't be fooled by the posts I show. For I have thousands of masks though none of them are me. What hidden sweetness there is in this emptiness.. I feed a flame within, which so torments me .. That it both pains my heart, and yet contents me...  On her eyes will I gaze, and there delight me; While I conceal my love no frown can fright me.

Saturday, February 20, 2016

words are also the weapons

Words are the weapons which do speak a lot, So now I Take there help to show you what have I got.
The Beauty of her Mind was all that mattered, Cause for me I was never flattered. But yes my Friends it can hurt you too, Cause one sided will never get you through.
All that will be left will be pain and sorrow, With you asking for a better tomorrow.
So here is request to all you out there, When you fall in love then please do fear.Cause it can lead you where you don’t want to be here or there.. It’s like feeding you what you don’t want to be fed.
Love is a Beautiful for those who get it, But it is a curse for those who fail in it.
So be happy be single and, Never ever try to mingle.
Follow what your Parent’s say, Cause one Day love will fade you away...

Love isn't long distance..

Love is never far 
From where I am 
And always where you are 
You take my love with you 
And leave your love behind 
With lots of loving thoughts 
That linger in my mind 
Love may come and go 
But somehow stays around 
To always lift you up 
When you are feeling down 
Love can't be measured 
And it's a well known fact 
That the more love you give 
More love you will get back 
But if love were long distance 
I would travel far to find .. 

Friday, February 19, 2016

Life!

There it is again, im down on my knees, with my head in my hands, 
I stumble to my feet weaker then before, my head hurting, ears ringing and my spine killing.
I can see the light in the darkness that surrounds my life knowing that I will never reach it in time
my body is so weak and heavy, I find it hard to breath some times, the pain it hurts so much I think im dieing, my head is so full of noise it going to explode.
I feel so alone in this world of mine, walking around like his, if only I didn’t build so many walls but some people build them to keep people out, and some to see who cares enough to try and knock then down…
it coming…I can feel it, it start in my neck then down my spine…then Bang it shoots back up into my head then whack, im down on my knees shouting…why me…please? 
the stars in my eyes blind me and the noise in my head deafens my senses, I cant breath this is the end…..? 
slowly I come around, I crawl toward the light, trembling like a leaf in the wind.
I cant describe this feeling inside, lost and confused, alone and unique, just to try and name a few.
I feel sick, oh so sick why me! ! ! 
I collapse to the floor in a heap, to weak to carry on, just wishing I was dead.
As I lay there crying in intense pain all I can see and hear is my kid smiling faces saying I love you daddy…
what remains of my heart sinks even deeper into stomach, making me sick.
Iv got to get up and keep moving, if not or me then for my little angles…iv got to find the strength! ! ! 
my hearts is beating faster then the time before, as I try to stand up I collapse…im so weak…
I finely find my feet thou still wobbly I carry on, iv got to keep fighting…iv got to be a survivor not a failure for my family…
I wouldn’t wish this feeling the worst person in this wicked world we all share.
I know it wont belong till it comes back around, so iv got to keep moving to make up some ground.
Cold and alone, with no confert in site.
so this is my life, and this is were im shore im destend to stay hoping to reach that distent light some day.
this is just one grain of sand on a beach, called my life…this is me….this is my life… 

Disappear

The time is here..and the end is near..i think its time for me to walk away off and disappear. This road i follow as come to an end..on any one else i can no longer depend. this life of pain is all i know..from this life iv got to go.
And... To my friends who dared to care..i thank you all for being there. 

Good teachers still exist..

teacher is the best artist of the child....
He is also the builder of a strong Nation, If his art fails the statue, this child will be wild, then, what about the future of our Nation? 
Negligent teacher's children become bad, This is a mysterious hit to him by Nature, A good teacher does his duty what he had, His children will be fine by the grace of God. 
Teacher is blessed by God if he teaches well, He should think that every child is his own, Tomorrow before God every teacher has to tell, In society a good teacher is well known.
A careless teacher is cursed to go to hell, A good teacher lives with a honored crown.

Thursday, February 18, 2016

But even with intelligence

It is the systematic of paranoid, Feeling you are an android, Electronic sense fills your void, A proof of human brilliance, Intelligence in every Joint, Wire, or electric field around copper shields, The rules simulate you, Commands in every step, telling you what to do, 
You have no tongue, you have no lips, 
You're a puppet but with different kind of threads, 
You dun have dreams, nor you have a will, 
You think you're sleeping, but you're not, 
Keeping you in some shell or pushed your button, or pulled your rod, Master of the puppet is a human brain, 
Connected the threads in a brilliant way, But even with intelligence, you're just a puppet...
Move here and there, with empty brain pocket, You have data-base, you can't gain knowledge, Information is your food, and you have a limited storage.
Your piss is deletion, your soul is just a bridge, Connecting two worlds, or some thoughts, By electronic threads.. 

Stay humble

She would sit and cry for hours and I would not offer a second of pity for that was like giving a junkie a needle.
She would sit and laugh for hours on end alone in the dark and I would remain under my covers with my radio firmly cemented into my ears .. I would not humour her mania for that would be like encouraging a bad comedian.. oh.. It was only when she would ask me how
my day was would..?
I sit beside her, stroke her hair and allow myself to be her son. 

Love, hate, oblivion and Contentment ...

Love...  the disharmony of the senses, the destroyer of our emotional defences.
Hate ... the unrelenting warrior of distraction, the perfect camoflauge for true passion.
Oblivion ... The ultimate partner of short lived bliss .. The friendly devil with the seductive kiss.
Contentment ... the executioner of all tommorows, which is the bringer of the greatest sorrows..? 

Sunday, February 14, 2016

Silent Language

All Silent Language is without any sound, The smile, raised eye brows maybe a frown, 
In utter disgust, turning your head around, Disagree side to side, concur up and down.
Action will truly speak louder than words, Even when the language is clearly heard, I love you is said many times but of course, Almost 60% of marriages end up in divorce. OH..
A firm handshake is more than words convey, 
And a comforting hug sends your fear away, 
Kissing shows more affection you might say, 
While holding hands is an invitation to stay

.
To be continue..

Saturday, February 13, 2016

Shades of fairness

Ever in shades; 
Life is a lot lighter than we see it.
Though the shades may darken here, 
It is always brighter on the other side.
And if we wait a little while longer, 
It will brighten over here too; 
And we'll see things in shades of fairness.. will be a story to tell.. stay happy my love.. even in shades .. light always near.

You..are not alone..!

You are not alone dear
You have a lot of everyone, far and near
But you know..! That makes you a prisoner to your fear
A lot has gone amiss since last we met; 
A lot I can't recall in detail yet.
Am sure it's all about how true we are
To us in spite of where indeed we are.
But one day in the life of each of us, 
We'll come to know the harm we've done to us. 

Thursday, February 11, 2016

It kills me..

It kills me that you feel that way
It kills me that I have nothing to say
It kills me that you have to cry
It kills me that I have to ask why
It kills me that you're hurting inside
It kills me that all i can do is stand beside
It kills me you have to carry that burden
It kills me you can't make it through the night
It kills me that I can't make it right

Friday, February 05, 2016

Maybe.!

When you feel weak while you're strong.
When you stare at blank listening to a song.
when you're going in circles you feel like a stranger in Hong-Kong.

Maybe there's something wrong.
You should just smile, life is good.
Take things easy you did the best you could.
Wake up from your long nap. Release yourself to the world don't be in a trap.
Wake up from you're long nap. Step by step to your life map. 

Maybe there's something wrong.

Thursday, February 04, 2016

In your hand..

Your mind could be your best friend or your biggest enemy.. It can make you feel down or make you feel good and worthy.. Happiness is in your hand and depends what you want from your life. If your expectations are behind your limits, you will have a miserable life... Remember there is no another copy of you in this world, it shows how unique you are. Learn to enjoy every success no matter how small they are. Healthy Competition is good, but don’t just look at successful people above you
If you feel behind and unlucky, don’t forget there are a lots of people worse than you, below you
Depression and anger and anxiety is the fruit of negative thinking. So, I strongly recommend to all of you the power of positive thinking. You can’t help yourself or people around you. 
If you have a mind who constantly works against you
Don’t forget you just live once, so try to make best of it
Don’t wait for special day or conditions, enjoy it now, otherwise you will lose it.

Color of your love fades away


Living under one roof together but your mind so far from each other. You feel you have nothing to share together anymore. If that's case your relationship is dying for sure.
Not long ago you used to sit next to each other while holding each other hands ... Now barely talking together but a plenty of time to talk to the friends. Something happened that made the color of your love fades away
Now is just a matter of time to say each other, my way or hit the highway. Remember at this stage your love is like that dying tree that still has little root in the ground
If you want you can fix the problem and turn things around.. Go back to things that brought you together
Start slow by simple words such as hey I miss you, can we watch a movie together.. Remember love means giving up some of our favorite things. It is sad people destroy their relationship on silly things
It is so easy to walk away from the problems and feel good. But if this is your way, your next relationship will put you in a bad mood 

Wednesday, February 03, 2016

Walking in shadows, walking in clouds, dreams cover the valley intertwined with each other.
Dreams of another world, 
Fallen wishs 
Fallen fantasies
A place to get away, 
A peaceful ending to it all.
Fallen dreams .... show it all. 

Monday, February 01, 2016

Eyes see evil ..


Let's pretend 
That I am a warrior and not a prisoner of so many fears.
That I do not care about you
Let's pretend I have never feared the error and it is going to be okay
That I know the right direction to take
That I have the right words to say
And there are trophies on my shelf
Let's pretend 

That not everything is lost and the wounds are healed
There are still choices to make and I will not have to die alone.. because you will be always here with me... 

Never.. lie

Never give up on life live for as long as you can, That goes for every woman as well as every man
We only live once at life no second chance, So why not be happy and laugh, sing and dance.
Never give up on life though you are aged and gray and live for the moment and enjoy every day
Our time is too short for worry and woe. the sad sacks of the town few do wish for to know.
May your last day be your hardest as some are known to say for the weeks hurry by and time keeps ticking away
We are only mortals like the sheep or the cow.. And we only can live in the here and the now.
The great gift of life is a marvellous thing
And it's praises we ought to feel happy to sing
Your crosses may be hard to bear but why wish to die
Since none know of a hereafter and the facts never lie. 

Saturday, January 30, 2016

A promise..

I promise t
Give you a shoulder to lean on, A hand to guide your way, A whisper, a soft whisper that all is well, don't give up...
I promise that 

I will share my pain, laughter and joy. 
I will meet you halfway because I am your friend and your beloved .. and you are my friend and my woman on the road of our hard life.

Fears..

I imagine a romance stories and although I want it to be a beautiful work of art, I am afraid that I will live in the story I created in my mind. It's all in my mind I know, but sometimes, the romance becomes too ideal and realistic for me that I soon fall for the queen that was just a product of my imagination. I think that is both an fearful obstacle and a proof that somehow, I'm succeeding to touch a reader's heart - even if it is me who obly read what I ink here.. I get to try to move within, stop thinking the way I used to then, never move into the way my fear makes me move..

Thursday, January 21, 2016

Stay..

When it comes a time to do it... we can love a beautiful face or a gorgeous body.. but we don't fall in love with that. We fall in love with an open minds.. the way a person thinks.. 
Beauty can attract normal people but a pure soul with a beautiful true thoughts are what's going to make them... stay.

Anger is but a mask to hide.... nothing

Do no harm. Too bad people live in their own little bubble and think they are the only ones entitled to be hurt with no remorse for how their selfish behavior has hurt others. Even if it is indirectly. They don't and will never get this... Even now I find it difficult to fathom how you can give so much of yourself to a person and have them so totally wipe it all away as if it never happened with no remorse and go on their merry way leaving a path of destruction behind them..

Tuesday, January 19, 2016

You win..

Some days you just have to create your own Moonlight 

Why are we being hard on ourselves?

We are humans and we do want the best life we can possibly create, but to what cost. This perfectionist drive we start in one area of our life will eventually bleed over to all areas of our life. We start to get frustrated and critical on ourselves. It does not mean we don’t have to give our best in all areas of our life, but we don’t have to be so hard on ourselves when we have temporary setbacks. Temporary setbacks or some might call them failures are actually a good thing. Failures help us expand our creativity and help us learn and grow. If we learn from our failures we are actually bettering our self for the successes. It is ok to fail and imperative we use all failure as learning lessons.

What does it mean to not be perfect?

We have all done this at one point in our life, having that drive to be perfect. At times it means we push ourselves through obstacles to become successful at what we are driving for. We could be driving for anything; career, personal life gain, sports… It does not matter what it is but the process is the same. Each and every one of us wants to be the best at something in our life and that requires complete dedication, drive and desire.

There is a fine line somewhere in the sand where we take this drive from a healthy standpoint to an unhealthy one. We all need to find where that line is we have drawn for ourselves. This line becomes obvious when everything turns into a competition or we start feeling like we are failing in other areas in our life and get frustrated. If feeling frustrated all the time, maybe it’s time to look at the concept of trying to be perfect in all areas of our life.

Monday, January 18, 2016

Take responsibility

If a person doesn’t want to take responsibility for the consequences of their actions, they may try to blame others. Don’t accept blame or try to fix things for them when you’ve done nothing wrong. They need to learn that if they want different outcomes, they will have to make different choices. I learned this the hard way. When they don't care, we should stop expecting them to. In some situations and for some people there is no hope, so stop beating our mind and our heart against the wall.
When times are tough, I remind myrself that no pain comes without a purpose. Move on from what hurt me deeply, but never forget what it taught me at first place. Just because we’re struggling doesn’t mean we’re failing. Every great success requires some type of worthy struggle to get there. and surely good things take time. So i used to remain patient and staying positive. Everything is going to come together; maybe not immediately, but eventually

I need you to love me a little louder today.

 Marriage wisdom teaches us to focus on the future, not continue to bring up the past. True forgiveness doesn't focus on the past but loves today and looks to tomorrow with hope. I really bet you can't guess who's lonely and missing you today.. I'm trying to stay busy... but you are my every thought.. I love you so much and waiting you to love me a little louder today.

Thursday, January 14, 2016

Intruders

When did we as a society start becoming so overly sensitive? The harder we try not to offend or intrude, the more we isolate each other as a society. 

Dear death

Death is not to be feared, we begin the process of dying the moment we are born. It is simply another door that opens to another life... those who fear death have put too much importance on this "experience" that was only meant to teach us - Life here on earth is but a school and the graduation is the death of this experience... you are not this body, you are a spiritual being which exist on a non-physical level and death of the body simply means you are going HOME.

Thursday, December 31, 2015

Don't push me!!

There is no greater than bearing an untold story inside of you. Everyone has a voice, I just need to find it and the courage to use it. One day I will have the courage to tell others how you have treated me. Trust is such a very fragile thing. When it has been broken time and time again...it's a little hard to be strong enough to believe that you can count on someone.

Kindness



One kind word may change someone's entire day, but it's better to keep silent than to tell others what you feel because it hurts badly when you come to know that they can hear you clearly but can not understand.

Wednesday, December 30, 2015

Be the change you want to see

Demonstrate a good example yourself, delegate tasks appropriately, involve and empower others to act for themselves and invest their own ideas and feelings into the workings of the group. Expect the best from those around you, and express your belief in their potential and ability to succeed. Give them meaningful tasks to grow from, not just busy work. Help them to see how their participation and contribution counts to make a positive difference. "Be the change you want to see in the world."

Tuesday, December 29, 2015

You .... are mortal

When you kneel, Kneel on both knees.
When you bow, Bow low from the waist
When you love, Love to death. And 

when your heart gets broken, 
Let the pain consume you to ashes and let the wind blow it away.
Re-invent yourself
Rise up on your feet
And start living again.Proudly, with your head high.
You are a human being, 
You’re not flawless
You will do onto others
And they will do onto you... Its how life is .. A chain of event, happenings and decisions. Don’t lose your identity be known for whom you are. Keep on seeking
Life is a journey, Try not to lose your humanity, If you lose it, you lose yourself.
And you die inside.
The journey stops when you pass on.
The journey never ends if you don’t’ lose your soul.
Be merciful and kind
Live and let live
Die for those who deserve living
Cry… Cry…. Cry like a child
Paint your face with mud
And scream like a mad person
Lick your wounds and let them bleed clean let the scar tissues remind you of the lost battles, Don’t feel sorry for yourself cuz you are what you made yourself.
Don’t  ever hate yourself, have the courage to live... dear anyone can die..
And when the angels comes lie down and let your soul go peacefully and let them kill you mercifully... nobody will be sad.. You are mortal 
Strength not a burning desire to win your goal, but a courage to try again every time you lose.

اي الاشخاص يكون..!


الانتظار مؤلم والنسيان مؤلم أيضا، لكن معرفة أيهما نختارهو أسوأ أنواع المعاناة ولكن وان كان النسيان نعمه فالذكريات هي هويتنا الأخرى التي نخفي حقيقتها عن الآخرين.. حتى أنّي استكيع ان اسال ... قل لي ماذا تتذكّر.. أقل لك من أنت ... جرّبوا هذه اللعبة تعرّفوا على أنفسكم من خلال سؤالكم: ماذا تتذكّرون بالضبط أيّة ذكريات نجت من النسيان خلال عبوركم متاهات العمر.. أيّ ذكريات لا تفارقكم كحياة تلك هي بالذات الذكريات التي تتحكّم في حياتكم... الان تخيل انسان لم يمنح هذه النعمه.. اي الاشخاص يكون..!

I Miss The Old, Happy Me

The worst feeling in the world is knowing you did the best you could and it still wasn't good enough, Sometimes we all need someone who believes in us just a little bit more than we do ourselves in order for us to become stronger but, as much as we grave in this life or another What we allow, is what will continue. You know..! Sometimes I miss The old, Happy Me but i believe that; from pain something will grow from all i'm going through. And it will be me..

Monday, December 28, 2015

B mine again...! ! !

The past flashes in front of your eyes. with all of my mistakes .. But for me, even thought i once broke your heart, I still love you.
When I'm all alone you are the only thing that think about. And here I am sitting and wishing, How bad I want you to be mine again...! ! !

Sunday, December 20, 2015

Life is happening now

Happiness is a choice, not a result. Nothing will make us happy until we choose to be happy. No person will make us happy unless we decide to be happy. our happiness will not come to us It can only come from us.. We become a day dreamer but so afraid to take risks.. we spend all the day searching throughout the entire universe for someone who is more deserving of our love, while If we can learn to love ourselves and all the flaws, we can love other people so much better. And that makes us so happy... life is happening now.. go find what you love and let it kill you softly.

Monday, November 23, 2015

Walk away

Sometimes walking away has nothing to do with our weaknesses even not because we want other's to feel our worth and value.... but we finally realize our own, the hardest part in walking away was the part when you realize no matter how slow we go... they will never run after us...