The silence of our conversation

The silence of our conversation Is worse than anything you can say And that fact that there's but silence between us Is well to my dismay I love you so much Yet silence is the only thing I let escape
Silence draped over our conversations Like a long, black cape There's so much I want to tell you But I know I wouldn't And I want to scream at you But I know I shouldn't
I know you want to say something too Of this I'm sure But it is only so little That you or I will endure The few times we talk I can hear it in you voice I can her uncertainty And the need to make a choice 
I wish silence would leave Once and for all Then maybe we could have better communication Perhaps even outside a phone call And I try so hard
Just like I try to make this poem rhyme But it just takes too much effort And way too much time But you can't expect me to let silence take over And if you do you are very wrong And if we continue like this We won't be together long And I bet that's what you want
The silence continues..... And so does this game What's worst is I know That I'm the only one to blame It's all my fault It's because of what I did and didn't do
And it hurts so much Because I'm so in love with you
I can hear in the silence What I've heard for some time You don't say anything
But I know what's on your mind You leave behind silence In the dark abyss that is my heart And what's worst is I, myself, tore it apart
When I realized what I was doing It was already too late Just another Twist of my terrible fate And silence took over A silence caused by me A silence that's eternal A silence that won't leave

Dark is all that I can see

Now i lay me down to sleep, I close my eyes and hoping to weep
And then i feel the hand upon my cheek, To wipe away the fears that creep
From the corners of my mind so deep, I open them up to see
The one that is standing over me, The outline of a face that haunts thee, Standing there i wish she'd touch me
Is she the same one that visits me in dreams ?
But as i try to focus i can not see, I fear she is slipping away from me..
Back into my romantic fantasies, Yet i know she is the key, To cure my nights of that renewable weeping tree, The image in the dark is all... that i can see.

Never

Never,... threaten a real man. 
Never,... breaks someone trust until you're ready to lose him or her.
And never say never.. for never like forever both are a lie.

A kiss on the beach

Today melts into tomorrow gone is my sorrow.
Now the pinnacle of my day you've chased all my tears away.
Beaming at you I know your joyful too.
Walking hand in hand across a long beach of sand.
You turn to me with a sparkle in your eye, I suddenly feel warm and shy
you bend your head to mine, your lips feel heavenly divine.
I'm lost with you, but always at home.
Together, a unity, wherever we roam.. for tomorrow I will be at home.

Lacking into sanity

Is it not good to be different ?
Is it not an asset to be your own ?
Is it bad to be an individual ?
Do you have to live life as a clone ?
Why are we to be judged by the color of our skin instead of the color of our inner souls ?
Why are we to be judged by the clothes we wear, Our favourite music.. Or the color of our hair ?
Is it crazy or is it just me .. Am I lacking in sanity to think this world can live as one.!!!
.. alas, Each of us are different and none of us are wrong'

In time..

It takes true talent to accept both sides of someone dear to you but sometimes, it's better not to speak than to be judged for your words for only through time we will see the truth by our own eyes.. maybe we will be scary.. maybe we will be happy when finally will find the answers for each and every "why" hasn't "because" after. But for now Could we hold each other's hands for just one second ?
Let every pain be faint light, slowly dwindling the act of living..!
And for now I need to let the mind taking control over this weakness heart.. stay faithful, stay strong, stay loyal .. for I keeps my promises.

Sailing with a poem is not wiser

Life is a sailing ship with lots of adventures but it needs a captain
To weather through life's storms, A wrong decision for a solution by the captain through panic the ship surely sinks like the Titanic.!
But the captain with pure determination will steer the 'ship' to her destination to greener pastures, unexplored places, admire interesting faces..
Life is running a big race trying to meet one's satisfaction, trying to prove one's quality of life and overcoming any hardship without loosing the meaning of friendship by appreciating other's advice or avoiding secrets and lies
Whether one's ship is big or small "her" master should stand tall..
Without loosing coolant so having perseverance is evidence of facing the world with "Hope" with tears or laughter in one's own ship to cope.. for when one is the only master, charting the course of life, accepting the adventure with a smile for a bright future.
Life is ... a sailing ship, With lots of adventure
Life is patience, don't be mad, Life is faith so be glad, Life is endurance that's a fact... Life is love remember that.. For that's true.. Life is a journey we go through,
Life is believing and trusting never let me lose that, 
Life is God Gifts to be treasured with daily thanksgiving.. 

Taste it..

While rhyme is not the essence of it, we may agree, it is the honey of it.. what a sweet tooth have children, true. but too much rhyme will be the death of me and you.. for life is like a wine, it is an acquired taste and not much good to children.

Our tomorrow.. sunrise

I want to watch the sunrise
I want to watch it in your eyes
I want to feel it in your body an erotic passion in disguise
I want to hear the waves crashing down upon the shores
I want to feel your hands explore me while all around us the water pours.
I want to feel the sand between my fingers small the salt in the air
I want to feel my tongue go through your secret places if you dare!
I want to feel your heat of a chilly Autumn night
I want to kiss you softly beneath the pale moonlight
I want to meet the stars that lie hidden in your surprise
So will you wait for me to watch the sunrise?

Sunrise..

when you really live
a sunrise is a thought
a sunset is a memory
Our sunrise can be someone else's sunset
someone else's sunrise can be our sunset
It is relative but one thing is certain
it holds every day, forever and always the duality of this amazing universe.. to whisper to all God creations to keep on balance.. 

The power of love

There cames a time, When you face the tougest of figths, Seaching for a light
I'm lost in the darkest of nights the wind blows so cold
I'm standing alone befor the battles begun but deep in my soul
There is the future still unfolds, it is bight as the rays of the sun
You got to believe in the power of love
There's a light that falls from the heart it's a chian reaction
There's nothing that will keep us apart stand by my side, bow to love.
There's nothing to hide for together, we will fight to the end
Take hold of my hand and you will understand
What means to be friends and being fully in loving
You got to believe in the power of love for It's what hearts are made of.

I got a tears can't weep...

For our children, For there future, For there purity, For there vulnerability
I got a tears can't weep...
For those at war, For their families, For their safety, For their sanity
I got a tears can't weep...
For the hungry, For the homeless, For the lost, For the sick
I got a tears can't weep...
We are headed into treacherous water, For our country, for all mankind mistery and suffering 
I got a tears can't weep... 
Through all the pain
Through all the sorrow
Through all the uncertainty
Still
For our families, For our children and For our love
I have hope..

Good life need good wife.

In a round way of life what does a man need?
a woman to be call a wife.. or a plot to grow some whets?
just lie down in the night with your eyes gaze at the light, knowing nothing could be done with your might and ask yourself is that all to life.!!
Some think life is all about making wealth or having a family with good health, they gain all they thought but is like joy as melt
still the same life is to be felt.
They try to seek for other solutions but it becomes a greater situation is like life is a place without salvation.. that is the a place you call the world.. 
now let talk about my place call the reality.. We don't need to be in the dark nights, where satisfactions have great might because we have come to the light together, with no bit of fears, we feed our life together hand in hand from our true emotions, taking care of all the family, help each other's to growing, to face the worth, the bad and the good together with so much patience, to trust each other, to believe in each other's.. so please.. 
just believe in God, just believe in love and shine so bright in our life, for I'm blind without your lights..

Second chance..

You can't hide your emotions behind the tears of a clown
And neither can I,
You can't hide your fears behind the words of wisdom and neither can I, This leaves me to do some heavy thinking,
As I light up a cigarette today And stare at the walls of our possibilities and capabilities, For the wall is my enemy and it will soon be defeated.. I'm holding on to what's real, Someday you will understand why
I may be lonely now but I will captivate your heart once again, these past couple of months have been hell for me, I can't imagine what you're going through, Still the universe has an affect on us both.. We can't deny our failure any longer, As desperate seas rage I still love you, Wiping out deserted shores
Love is powerful.. shoo, Listen to me.. I'm speaking from my heart
Second chances don't come around very often, A lot of time has been spent.. Contemplating the future anything to get you back in my life again

The other side

Everybody deserved to be heard
but not all have the chance to be listened to
and even if they are, still limited in time and place
that is why.... I write,
for them to know the other side of the story

The question is... What if.. I can.!!

Your words tangle my thoughts, Winding them together so tight, Yet giving me the strength, to imagine possibilities,
Possibilities my mind can't refuses, to spend all my time thinking of, You entwine me into your web of hope, with no destination, Confused yet I'm hopeful. For the destiny awaiting me through this fog... A fog cast only by you.

Beyond your logic

You need to see I need to hear
You need to think I need to feel
You need to hide I need no mask behind.
We obey as much as we love.. and beyond all your logically thoughts, there is a world need to discover.
Close your beautiful eyes, turn off all your thoughts, with so humble true love, call my name.. dream .. stay there.

Into the gloom

The wanting creature inside me.. Wanting more of life than to live from dust to dust, Trying to truly live and never neglegating love to lust.
Thinking that a Later is so long and yesterday was over due, he needs to think forward, To makes for future dreams come true.
Dear, waiting creature;
Do you believe there is some place that will make the soul less thirsty.!! In that great absence you will find nothing.
Be strong then, and enter into your own body;
there you have a solid place for your feet.
Didn't you know that; Sometimes it is the prospect later that makes the present bloom.. please enjoy the moments and let me searches for happiness between the gloom.

On my desk

On my desk of memories, lies a blank page, an unaddressable envelope and pretty pictures of my love.
On my desk of desires lies a leaking fountain pen, two stamps stuck together and an open dictionary.
On my desk of thoughts, lies so much words unwritten, unrequited dreams and these unsent letters.
On the desk of my life, lies the girl I remember, the woman I lost and the lady I love.
On the desk of my reality lies your warm embraces, gently passionate loving words and you with those beautiful children at the end of the day.
On the desk of my future, lies our hopes to growing old together, hand in hand no matter how the storm will be, 

bow to love

When our life will vanish away,
Memories are all we have got,
To rejoice in what we were, 
And regret, What we were not.

Who am i but "Tomorrow"

 
Letting me struggles through darkness, just to make things right,
It seems to be that all around you are a pockets of light awaiting to be found, So in all confusion, anguish and fear, I'll search for the light for it's always near, hold up your head,
keep up the fight, anticipate tomorrow, for it might be bright.. and even in darkness night  I'm still have faith that  what meant to be will always find the way.

Ballerina on the sand

May tomorrow be the day of knowing which way to go and to help me decide, which emotions to let flow and which I'll let behind .
May it help me to understand what exactly is going on and why the story should written on the sand Where all my mistakes are made and what I am doing wrong... May it give me an answers to questions that I ask "Who am I" and the truth be unveiled.. or relieved from its mask.
May the day bring me companionship, love
and everything else may help.
May it be the best day to ever pass me by and leave me in a euphoric state some kind of natural high. 

Another world

Why does hate exist..!
I think this crying world needs some rest, don't you think that life is hard to live and survive through all this hazard.
Don't you think that life is weird..!
Some are fighting in wars suffering.. feeling so much pain of bleeding scars while others are singing, dancing and drunk in bars.
Don't you think it's funny..!
that everything is going bad.. nothing goes fine people are killed and others are tasting the wine nectar.
I can't bare the changes of the world's temperamental stages,
I can't believe the darkness of man's heart,
I guess they should be all blocked in cages.
Don't you think that life is tough people are too greedy they never get enough,
Where are your feelings people.. why are you so cold.!
when will we live in peace.. where are your humanity sold.!
When will you throw the sword?.. isn't enough being bold.!
When will we feel those fears of innocent children living in nightmares.!
How can you ever feel the pleasure out of seeing other people's suffer.. All this hatred for a stolen land,
When will you people understand
why are you all so passive..no one wants to offer a helping hand,
Don't you feel the shame.. But it's not the time to blame it's time to get together.. why are we still enemies, 
Can't we just live like sisters and brothers, All the world come together.. just come together and lets make this world better.

Stop calling my name.

I left a note on a distant channel.. I lost and can’t find my way home, Yesterday I saw you standing in a shade but you never cared to look at me..
When darkness starts to fall and I got through a wake-up mind call.... You made a disappearing, Your voice is vague and unheard..
Now on this road to a choice of life, I never can imagine where you are.!!
Every night all prayers are uttered that I will see you one day and even if tomorrow comes, I come screaming your name... Til I can shout no more and die. But your whereabouts is unknown
Gone crazy here and there looking for you, so please stops calling my name for until clarity.. all I have is but a shame.

Who am i !

Have pride that you have helped someone rise, and not that you have conquered someone.
Pride is that one feels about oneself high
Show vanity for your affinity; Show not vanity for your elegance.
Vanity is that one shows oneself high,
You are vanity woman your love is deaf and cannot hear the moans of the mind,
is blind and doesn't want to see the tears of the heart.
You are pride woman and there is blood of love on your wounds that nobody knows,
covered by pain that shouts in silence while your eyes hide in a sweet smile,
those sores of love..
now answer this ..!
I was not born until yesterday
I do not exist even today
But you impatiently waiting for me ..
Who am i ..? 

Shoo .. trust in miracles

This yearning in my heart
this confusion in my mind
the words left unspoken
the emptiness in my life
haunts me all the time
At this very moment you.. mistrust.!
Why does your heart grow doubtful dear..! Your tense and beating, full of fear.
I keep with me your everlasting unspeakable love, and bless the day God sent you from above.
You remain my angel and I feel that I must, tell you that within you, you have my trust.
My love is the tide, your soul is the shore, you have my heart, do I have the core .!
I'll belong to you till the very end, and you will forever stay as my lover and also my best... friend.
It has been so good like this from the start, so darling please, 
trust me with your heart.
there is yearning in your heart
there is confusing in your mind
there are words left unspoken
the emptiness in your life
hunts me all the time.

That invesable bond

How well can we label beauty ?
For it does things, words will not ever describe.
For it is felt and not seen and what makes you itself is embedded.
For it burns through our heart and in doing upon it a special scratch that we will keep with us forever lovingly treasure.
For it removes from us all burdens that you have collected in our time yet it appears so soft beneath our feelings and our mind.
For it goes straight to our soul, passing beyond our eyes, yet we'll know, that special feeling always it will live... beyond our life.
A beautiful evening to all of you.!!

Second chance

Who knows but god, when the uninvited guest finally arrive to reveal and set your evil free and open his suitcases?
Then
A house within a house will speaks .. Did you hear that  ?
An echo reply .!!
Push with all your power 
Hope with all your dreams
But you get no second chance 
until you learn.. how to screams 

Silently..

Emotional silence, that'd kill with bare hands,
Attentive silence, absorbed in the environment,
Thoughtful silence, wallowing and preparing,
Embezzled silence, bored in self indulgence,
Quiet silence, uncomfortable and unwanted,
Subdued silence, waiting in the wings,
Meditative silence, which can move heaven and earth,
Dogmatic silence, enough said about it,
Comforting silence, no words could describe it,
In this communicative silence, Someone, Say something or, not. 
In silence we can but think ..
The things we shared and love in grace,
It is in silence that we can keep in peace,
The peace that held us both in pain.
let me amazing both of you silently.

In a memory of you..

In after you, I won't spend the night suffering from wounds, please.. Do not ask me why or how.!!Your love in my heart became a slaughtered bird, Will not return to life and will never die even you can not return to me again.I'm sorry .. I am sorry, but I am not remorseful .. In other words, what was going to happen .. from your heaven.. go watch the mountain .. How it explodes, erupts. how it contain the volcano inside yet.. Still stands firm and high.I'll not repent of my dreams, which have become tears of remembrance. Which have become a mountains of disillusioned, each night I climbs them for I can see how tomorrow will be. for to see if life will comes willingly carrying happiness for me.Do not you think that; without you I will not see the light .. because feelings and emotions still remain in my heart .. didn't you notice the Earth is still revolve,Despite the dark .. I still can see the light.

Your heavenly gates

Can we draw a day, with a loving hope and pray, 
Watching the dawn till the sunrise, hugging each others even through eyes. 
Then talk a walk, folding our dreams in sand beach, letting waves be witnesses to our unspeakable speech. 
Can i touch your heavenly gates, waiting the sunset over the horizon to paint our destiny plates. 
And tonight i need no Moon even not a single stars for tonight..  I'll simply ask you to glow.

Let me picture a paint for you tonight..

The tree grow day by day even feelings glow tear after tear until I do.. come on strong through convince others... that my ideas cannot be wrong, Alas, There are millions like me in this big world out there, then how should I feels precious..  since my type are not rare.
but you know..!
With all those dark shadows in my eyes and beneath that blue fields of silence, i see a reflections of dieing souls, whispering softly in my ears.. "to picture a paint with words, use only your tears"...

Offering anybody permission to dream

When you look at the world through eyes full of tears
When you feel that you've wasted so many years
When all of the plans and dreams have all fallen apart
When all you feel is emptiness deep down in your cold heart
When you finally realize that ..
Love is the lie we hide behind, until someone makes us change our mind 
To see the truth of love grow old, when our hearts too weak to be glow bold 
To never take that final leap, and have the one thats ours to keep.
To enjoy watching them yelling and scream, i dare you not to offering them.. the permission to dream.

 

Untitled.. lie.

There's a truth behind the coward, There's a coward behind the lie.
There's a truth behind the coward, There's a coward behind the lie.
There's a truth behind the coward, There's a coward behind the lie.
There's a truth behind the coward, There's a coward behind the lie.
There's a truth behind the coward, There's a coward behind the lie.

Never give up hope..

We will never have rainbow in our life until we learn how to cry..  cause tears can make a rainbow of colorful feelings but we need to give it a try.. so, why do I'm afraid of trying didn't we after surrendered always crying.

Open that door..

Deep within your heart there is a place.. a special secret place... where silence lives,
Where the secrets of profound emotion and yearning wait to be awoken,
Where the unspoken words of a heart filled with love remain unsaid, They hang heavy like teardrops frozen in the mists of time, This secret garden of silence born of a heart lost in visions of love, Images of love that live vividly within a dreamers heart yet to be realized,
A love that shall bring about the birth of an eternal springtime,
An orchestra of love that shall fill life's garden with sweet loves melody, Where the memory of the longing years shall be carried away upon loves rhythm, Just .. Listen to the gentle pulse of the waterfall that has sprung new hope, for you, for me and for us all, Now the unspoken words of love shall hang heavy on the heart no more.. 

Didn't you miss me..!

She asked,
Did you miss me?
I confess,
I longed to be near you without rest. Though you were not here, I spiritualy felt you in my chest. You were the air of hope, I was blessed enough to receive, Giving me a sense of comfort, Knowing you wouldn't leave, As I hid amongst the trees, Staying low to the ground, feeling my heart pound... A slow steady beat,
Giving me strength to carry on. I rose to my feet, Looked to the horizon melting with the sea, Where I knew should be... Standing by your side, Gazing into your eyes.
As I am now.. Missing the expression of affection I have found in the smile on your face..
Yes...
I confess,
I am missing you.

Yearning eyes

He waits patiently with wide eyes yearning, he stands alone by the sea shore bend with a broken heart but a stronger will.
He knows for sure someone need to start a journey.. not to fill his soul, not to mend his broken heart, but simply to see a true smile, a true longing, simply to search for himself.
Someone who'll complement his being, stand by him as he stand by her, through a lifetime of an existence full of meaning and love.
A day will come when he can say and she can claim... when he can say finally... we are home.

I'm not scared.!!!

Fears about future, tears from the past.. 

Fear of love, pain.. it's leads you to be insane 

Fear of the unforgiving cane, of lies, of those distraught eyes,

Fear of everything combined,

Fear is what always makes you blind,

Fear is what makes you think, fears is what makes me ink,

Fear is when you’re scared to love someone,

Fear is when the sky turns grey, is when you stopped pray,

Fear of wounds beyond repair, of losing a heart can't compare.

Journey into the center of the unknown..

looking through the eyes of people makes me realize how uniquely the same we are.
Everybody yearns to have that someone to love and to have a certain someone to love them back with understanding, sensitivity, clarity, freedom and wholeness.
Everybody's waiting... simply waiting for that perfect moments when that 'perfect' someone will arrive.. though we know that perfection is a matter of perspective... a matter of how one sees things in one's eyes.
It has become everybody's passion to look or wait for love though hearts break, hearts yearn, hearts cry and mourn.
For each spirit passionately must wait for the one 'meant' to compliment their souls.. 
May God blessings spreading upon all lonely souls in this insanity world.