Giving up life

The wounds began to build up, quicker than I had thought The pain began to amplify, from the lies others had wrought.
I sit alone, in my room, thinking about my life, Backing away, taking a look, at this world of strife.
I lean back in my chair, letting a deep sigh escape, Hearing all those lies replayed on an endless tape
My father telling me about the miracles of fate, How I was a mistake, There was no love, only hate... My whole life has been one wound after another, No matter how much I looked, I couldn't find even a single soul brother.
No one to help me through all my suffering an pain, No one to keep my dry through this world of rain.
So, I sit up here in my room, afraid of the light, Switching it off, not sure how much longer I can fight, Alone in this world, wanting to be set free... Wondering, if anyone in this world would miss me.
And then, 
I think I make my decision, To plunge into the dark world of sin, I finger the tip of a blade, wondering if I should cause a flood to cut into my wrists, open them up and see the blood... or I could just as easily throw the throttle, drive to fast, or take all the pills in the bottle... Could drift away so soft and quiet, Would my passing even cause the smallest of a riot, I can feel the tightening of this world's noose, Tightening around my throat, not letting me loose
I can feel the darkness closing in around me, Blotting out my vision, I don't think I can see... Is this death, is this what it feels like to die?
I don't know what I am doing, I don't know why?
Why did I choose to end it all instead of living?
Now that I am dead, What I am giving?
All those people that i Had let down?
Just because I let my troubles wash me up and I drowned in the sea of my own transgression, When I realize now, I had my own mission... There are people out there, that need me, people who looked at me as their only key.
Then, 
with a gasp, I rise from my sleep, I had been lost, in the world so deep, My unconscious mind had tried to tell.. That if I ended it all, My world would be hell
Even if my whole family tries to destroy, All that i Have built, There is still someone out there, who looks up and sees, A person they can trust, perhaps a hero in me...
So for all of you, who want to end it, who wish to go bye
Think of all that you are leaving behind before you die
Think of your friends, I am sure you have one.
Think of your unborn children, your future daughter or son
Think of the memories you are throwing away
Because you can't hang on for just another day
I know I know, no one knows what you feel, No one has been what you have been through, don't know what is real... Trust me on this, you are completely wrong ?
If you think you are alone, you are singing a false song, You are not alone, other have been where you are, Others have felt worse pain, and have worse scars
And they can live and fight and strive for more, Keep on trucking no matter how sore, Pick themselves up when knocked to the floor because they love memories and just want more.
But this isn't a plea for you to not die.. This is a plea, for you to ask why ?
Instead of looking to the bad looking to the night, To stop dwelling on the dark, and live in the light... Because if you weigh the good with the bad, and look at these things without getting mad, You'll understand that the twenty, forty or less years that are past you, are filled with many fears,
But also, somewhere, there is happiness and joy, So turn up your head, You girl, or you Boy ... And remember all those around you that mean something to you, they love you... and you aren't a toy.
And they, they are the reason you need to keep hold on, move on, carry on and .. and never ever give up.

The ashes of my mind

There's nothing to see here, The streets are all clear, Nothing but fear, If only you could be near, I return to those few yesteryear, To think of what I must held dear,
And here is another dead end, another closed door, no way in, and nothing to explore, There's nothing inside me any more, I'm not what it is you are looking for... There is nothing left here.
Nothing lives here any more, just apathy, I feel no joy like before, nor sympathy, No music echoes to write my symphony, The streets are all .... empty.
I.. 
Gotta squash the fear
Gotta make it clear
Gotta dream a way
Today... Is the sound of emptiness, and I'm alone in the darkness, there's nothing inside, I just wanna close my eyes and hide, Pretend I'm not crying and dying inside.
No wonder my thought bring nothing but rain, And no wonder I gave all my world nothing but pain, I've got nothing inside of me left to share
There's nothing left in there, I lost the best of me behind, The flame that had once burned so bright, today became the ashes of my mind.

Agony

If you think that you are sane, you should know that life is pain.
And in that pain we have to choose, most of us seem to lose.
but what it is most of us don't see, is that life brings nothing kind to me.
All I feel day by day, as my stability fades away... is that my life is a death in agony.

Don't change me

If i could be what you want me to be,  
If i look the way you want me to look,
If i act the way you want me to act, would you fall in love with me as we used to be..?
Don't change me but change the world around you, for there comes a time in our lives when we have to say no, A time we have to let our own opinion and thoughts to show.
say what you need to say, and do what you need to do, and finally we may change the world.. but don't let it change "We".

Autumn leaves

I've focused my mind on false game, my brain knows this and shrinks in shame,
Into the light we aim ourselves away from darkness we swear but i guess too much light in once's manner won't  vanish  this darkness without blame.
And that is the fact my dear.. we were alone when we into this life arrive and alone we must sooner leave, no more ego,  vanity,  or any bad deeds,  just we and dust under Autumn leaves.

we aren't in the same page.

To becoming who we want to be it takes more then words.
But as we all know, in reality, It usually starts and ends out of borders
To insure that is doesn't happen, you should have the ability to change 
 And get ready for what life will bring, for in the book of life
we're definitely not on the same book page... The only difference between you and a child is a difference in age.
You live life and care for what's in front of your eyes.
You act with honesty and never give up hope or waiting for financial surprise.
Life is expensive we agree on that much, but that is all,
It'll watch your rise to 'responsbility, and with ageing it'll watch your fall.

untouchable part of life..

Do you see things as we all do ?
Trying to prove yourself, but to who ?
Are you worried about what we think of you ?
You're insecure about yourself, but who knew ?
You play your part as the alpha male,In the end it's an empty role and you always fails, from ignorance you start ending like a fool..!
Break down your ego to allow for change, Trying to be reasonable drive you insane,  With foolish pride comes foolish pain. Yes I'm needing your help to endure the game.
Life is unpredictable immeasurable living,  life is unmistakable indescribable to someone still unnoticeable with "who"
So, everything is good, he denying giving up and still hoping for getting through.

people knew nothing

Some people will talk about love, but they never cared.
There wasn't a single moment of real love they had shared.
People don't realize how little they know, Ignorant to every emotion he couldn't come out and show.
There is so much more to this man then meets the eye, A close few see it in him, most others never even tried.
He liked soccer, he could be on the pitch everyday...
look at how his time alone was spent.. Listening to music, busy reading and writing in his room by himself yet he never ever pretend.
Thinking all alone at night, going through his doubts in hopeless fight.

life as empty space...

Too much of good things my be bad,  I got my share of things wasn't glad
Through all the ups, all the downs some will be there, some can't be found.
If they won't care as they should, so be.. For this is life in the way that I need to see it.
You can give your all, or you can try not but when they decide to leave, what have you got.?
I builds it up, then it breaks away.... This is life in the way I see it today.
Days come and go, true hearts stay close not like ghost... Without happiness, love is an imitation at most.
It's hard to translate one's feelings into speech, It takes time to overcome the obstacles we meet.
Don't let me live life scared of what my words will bring,
Even if i fail, at least you attempted to do something.
In this life I would rather fail everyday, and tell my stories of the one's that burning bridges just for getting away.. O
Wait I'm still having a wish, When I die, carry out my final wish.
Bury me beneath the soil, away from all of this.
The want for love, the need for your company.
Bury me far from it, when my breath has left me.
Never to be reminded of this terrible place,
I've tried to called it home but it's really just empty space.

Nest

That marble floors and gilded walls can never make a home.
But every house where Love abides and Friendship is a guest,
Is surely home, and home sweet home for there the heart can rest in that very special place called memories nest.

Hope reborn at new dawn

When hope and dreams all fade away, distrust and suspicion settles in to stay,
Depression creeps in like a dark cloud, Completely engulfing you in a black shroud.
deep inside of you there is a tiny spark, of hope eternal, trust, and faith vanishes slowly all the dark.

It is best to fail in originality.. be original,

"It is best to fail in originality than to succeed in imitation" .. but;
If you pay love to where love is due and to your own higher self try to remain true,
If you treat everyone as an equal and all as the same, Your's ought to live on as a remembered name.
If for everyone you believe on a 'fair go', and despite their race or creed due, respect to them show and never ruin anyone's character with malicious lies, Above the ordinary you are one who does seem to rise.
If you unlike many not addicted to vanity or greed and try to help those of help who are in need.. And of your own Human flaws you do feel aware to say the least people like you are quite rare.
If you do believe in the live and let live and you are not too proud to receive and generous enough for a true love to give, And respect to the rights of all others you pay... Then as a person you are doing quite okay.

Never measured by "like"

Love isn't long distance... Love is never far, From where I am and always where you are
You take my love with you and leave your love behind, With lots of loving thoughts that linger in my mind
Love may come and go but somehow stays around, To always lift you up  when you are feeling down
Love can't be measured and it's a well known fact, That the more love you give... More love you should get back
But if love were long distance then how to find
Love that is as sweet, Just like yours when you are mine!

May i freez the time

Sometimes Lakes freeze over, Sometimes minds do too but my feelings is too soft
My heart is too warm to ever be frozen with you.
We give and we take and with love we do make, The most of a few precious hours while our love blossoms forever, Like the earth giving birth to a field of beautiful flowers
And while our minds are in line and love's on our hearts so... blind
I wish I could find in sweet moments like these..  A magical way to freeze the time.

What you pay for

My home based on love, patients, honesty, and sincerity surround them whole Slowly, slowly as snail reach my goal, your game made by cheating and soon you will win then... we will fall, 
keep your pride, your vanity, you silence, stay pretending, kill all the birds.. shot, shot with no rule, 
My goal is loving ones being mate with my soul, not a queen of wax living in a dream of sand mixed with gall,
congratulation..... for our fall, now you will get what you pay for

It doesn't meant to be,

In this world we go threw test, not to see who is the one, or who is the best. Life isn't some game we play on a chess board or hit hint when we don't know its meant to be designed to challenge our soul to become this what we are and what we know. 
I need to tell you that there is a saying after death is eternal it means sacrifice all that we have and work hard and do good unto others and so then when death comes it come with our internal life of everlasting.

Hard night

The moon accompanies me every night, Witnessing along hours of struggling
To get some sleep and shut my mind losing delight, convincing myself that I'll always be forgetting.
If disappointment was my destiny or it's for my best why my mind never got rest
So I lay in bed least expecting to sleep, A mind so confused I was never at ease
What is it that I'm trying to achieve, an impossible dreams or a new life i shall believe.
a million words fight, through all the night... maybe I'm waiting the dawn at that first light.

understanding

Life Begins from no total understanding... to a full stupidity 
In life there is so many twists and turns, we never know whats going to happen next, So we keep our head up and keep trying in a stupid race called living
yet in this world few can make it, but a lot of us always fail to understand how to make they dreams come true or even how it works at first place,
So we work hard to achieve our goals, we set them high, and waiting in the cloud to watch them vanish with the wind.

Poors never ask

Tis said that money makes more money and, tis also said that much wants more, but the things in our lives that most matter are the things that we tend to ignore, Such as happiness, joy and contentment these are the things money can't buy
Though money in life is important and it's value how can one deny.
Yet all things decay with time... The forest sees, The growth and down-fall of her aged trees while in human ambition there is a common thing, Each one by nature loves to be a king. but if you is the poor please don't for anything ask, for the lier will never put on his mask.

Be my inspiration

Inspiration is like a gentle breeze it slowly passes, softly touches, leaves an everlasting impression and awakens the eternal soul!
Man tends to act either out of inspiration or out of desperation. But be careful often acts done in desperation lead to miseries.

Dreams of hope

Today, i got a dream, so weird..
"I saw me with a lonely vanishing shadow whispering tenderly 
Just keep going.
Just keep giving.
Just keep kicking.
Just keep striking.
You may not click but just keep clicking.
You may not hit but just keep hitting.
There can never be a getting without going.
There can never be a growing without sowing.
There can never be a achieving without failing.
And you who he walking in the valley of hope and dreams, Always remember you gonna bloom if only you bear the gloom", 
So, it was night full of hopes and dream,and i asked myself dreams, hopes So what...!
In some eyes is laying asleep a little dream, sky is silver and the road is lighten with moonlight, a glaze; a blaze of the sight of a shooting star calling for the creatures of the night and darkest nights are no longer to stay cause the dawn is about to break the day..! 
And where there is a burning desire there is a pool of replenishing hopes,
it will always be like this too shall pass through whatever good or bad life will sail through.
Once the mountains will bathe in the sunshine the dust; the dirt; the dark will glow white and will turn all things bright for where there is life there is a dream to live and hope to achieve and again dream, in between life and living there is a valley of hopes and valley of ever lasting dreams..

Deposed king

She sat with fear in her eyes contemplating the overturned cup.
She said;
My son, do not be sad, Love is written for you.
My son, he who dies for the religion of the beloved has died a martyr.
Your cup, is a terrifying world.
Your life, travels and wars.
You will love often, my son.
And return as the king who has been conquered... In your life, my son, there is a woman.
Her eyes ... Praise be to Him who is worshiped,
Her mouth ... is drawn as bunches of grapes;
Her laughter ... is music and roses.
But your sky is full of rain and your path blocked for your heart’s beloved, 
my son,
Sleeps in a haunted castle. The castle is large, 
my son.
It is guarded by dogs… and soldiers.
Your heart’s princess is sleeping.
He who enters her chamber is lost.
He who asks for her hand, is lost,
He who descends the walls of her garden, Is lost.
He who attempts to touch her hair, My son, Is lost . . . lost.
I have looked and read often, but never have I read a cup like yours.
I have never known, my son, Sadness like yours.
It is your destiny ever to walk in love, upon the edge of a dagger. To remain lonely as the oysters, sad as the willow
It is your destiny ever to remain in the sea of love, without rescue, To love her with millions of times, And to return as the deposed king.

God only knows

love is magic but magic is an illusion
So is the heart shrouded in a lie, when love enters it..?
An illusion distorting the eye, bear witness to such deception O, such a beautiful lie. 

What is seen is not the truth, what is cannot be said

Trust comes not without seeing nor understanding without words
The wise comprehends with knowledge to the ignorant it is but a wonder
Some worship the formless God
Some worship his various forms
In what way our God is beyond these attributes
Only the Knower knows.. yet that charming music cannot be written, now tell me...!
How can then be.... the notes..?

Tired but never expired

I can't think of a day, a week, a month or a year that passes, where my thoughts, are not with you. 
Even though, I tell myself, it's not the best thing to do. 
It may be easy for someone else, to tell you it's time to let go. 
But their feelings are not mine, so how are they to know. 
No doubt there have been others, who have been in the same shoes before. 
For me, especially it's just so impossible to close that door. 
I feel when I keep you near, it adds a great deal to my sanity.
That's why you're always in my heart and forever... a part of me!

In time

I don't know when, we'll meet again, at heavens door. 
I only know, we'll be together, as we were before.
Never for a moment, did I forget you.
As you know, that's not easy for me to do. 
You are very dear to my heart, as I, was with you. 
So when the time comes, I'll not be afraid, 
just knowing, I will see you once more. 
What makes it even easier, 
is the fact, you'll be waiting for me, at heavens door ! 

"in the memory of my mother grave"

It will vanish at some point

I'm starting to believe that to some of us 'happiness is just a word', When everything you try turn to fall apart, you become furious and a target of the voices in your head. You watch the time tick listening to its sound as it passes you. Still you remain left alone inside your own shell of nightmares. Becoming far away from the light and the people surrounding you.
You can feel the demons haunting your soul, preying on your thoughts. Life gets really harder as your life get filled with more mistakes, discouragement events, disappointments and failures.
You keep telling yourself that your turn is coming, same words being spoken by your family, father and friends after witnessing the sorrow soul in your face. 
If happiness was a bird, you'd be the first to seize it, hoping to find some comfort to unbroken your heart. But really life gets darker and days more stressing than before. All the motivations are starting to sound like lies. Your faith in your will is slowly becoming nothing, for everything you believe in is not going accordingly. 
So keep calm, even though it doesn't help at all. You've tried your best to succeed, but know I assure you, beating yourself from inside will vanish at some point.

أحياناً يُغرقنا الحزن

أحياناً يُغرقنا الحزن حتى نعتاد عليه، وننسى أنّ في الحياةِ أشياء كثيرةٍ يُمكن أن تسعدنا، وأن حولنا وجوهاً كثيرةً يمكن أن تضيء في ظلامِ أيامنا شمعة، فابحث عن قلبٍ يمنحك الضوء، ولا تترك نفسك رهينةً لأحزانِ الليالي المظلمة.
فمن يقرأ التاريخ لا يدخل اليأس إلى قلبه أبداً، وسوف يرى الدنيا أياماً يداولها الله بين الناس، فالأغنياء يصبحون فقراء، والفقراء ينقلبون أغنياء، وضعفاء الأمس أقوياء اليوم، وحكام الأمس مشردو اليوم، والقضاة متهمون، والغالبون مغلوبون، والفلك دوار، والحياة لا تقف، والحوادث لا تكف عن الجريان، والناس يتبادلون الكراسي، لا حزن يستمر، ولا فرح يدوم... ومن يعلم الغيب لعل اليأس هو آخر محاولة قبل النجاح

Seeds of yesterday

The poor have no ability to realize their dreams into the light... Yes it's a negative bad thoughts, but that is what happening in the hand of reality, but in the land of my hopes where dreams giving birth let me say today is gone, so we have to look forward to what the next day, is going to bring. 
Each day, is a new day and that's a very good thing. 
If we think about it, each and every day, gives a new perspective and changes what transpired, the day before. 
If it didn't turn out right, we have the chance, to even the score. I find it makes no sense, to get in a tether, when there's seven days in a week. 
Every day, can't be a bad one, so to speak. Take each day and enjoy, what it has to offer, with hopes, we were up to task. Then look back and see, it really wasn't,
too much to ask..!

Another travel failure

Have you ever lost something out of your hand, Clean out of your unlocked hand..? One breath it was there, the next, gone, vanished; the stupid thing spirited away suddenly into thin air,
Have you gone back and forth in disaffection..! 

Do you pray every day through pains..!
Do you have endless stream of tears..!
Do you travel in lone roads of dead ends..!
Do you wake with screams of freedom ?
Do you feel lost, raped, stripped of rights ?
Do you suffer the indignity of inhumanity, your skin color or even your religion ?
Come with me to one with helpful solutions
Come with me to pathfinder friend of mine. let us pray someday soon death come take the pains..
There is no new songs.. else all in vain my tears and my pain.
Here is my hand to keep, my heart ... Take it, and do not weep.

I can't grow old without you "Gratitude only for you"

when I was blinded ... You took my hand and showed me the way, 
when I cried over it all ... You took my hand and dried my tears, 
when I questioned our destiny ... You took my hand and helped me understand,
when I was too stubborn to say anything ... You took my hand and mended my mind,
when we remembered my funny mistakes ... You took my hand and made me laugh,
When I was wonder if God has a special plan for me ... You took my hand and made me see,
When you took my hand and made me promise, I’d never walk alone again.
When I takes your hand and never let go, because our love means more than you’ll ever know..!

Romantics at heart..!

You brought me sunshine, when I only saw rain.
You brought me laughter, when I only felt pain.
I want you to know, cause I'll never forget
knowing your smile ... your kisses and yet

Pain is always my way...

Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same.
Sometimes people just can’t understand, Why things get out of hand.
Sometimes life just isn’t fair, Especially when people just don’t care.
Sometimes it’s all you can do to get by, especially when dreams continue to die.
Sometimes we need someone to call our own, especially when we’re lonely.
Sometimes we see things that aren’t meant to be seen.
Sometimes things aren’t always as they seem.
Sometimes we just need to get away, when we’ve had a really bad day,
 sometimes it's hard to say, Why things have to be this way.
Sometimes it’s nice to sit in the rain, even to just relieve the pain.
sometimes when people get hurt, Even the strongest ones may need comfort.

Do it with all your heart

If you're doing something for someone, do it with your heart, never, do it half way!
Should you proceed without caring, it's bound to catch up with you, one day. If
you think you're fooling someone, nine times out of ten, it's going to show. People
can see right through you, as I'm sure you know. 
We have to be up front about our feelings and not pretend. It doesn't serve any purpose and it's quite confusing in the end! Always, tell the truth from the very
beginning, it helps clear the air. 
Say what you mean and mean what you say, it's easy to take it, from there. Don't keep anyone guessing, tell them how you feel from the start. If you can follow through,  it's the right thing to do, so do it, with all your heart!

With the name of god..

  (1) A questioner asked about a Penalty to befall-

	(2) The Unbelievers, the which there is none to ward off,-
	(3) (A Penalty) from Allah, Lord of the Ways of Ascent.
	(4) The angels and the spirit ascend unto him in a Day the measure whereof is (as) fifty thousand years:
	(5) Therefore do thou hold Patience,- a Patience of beautiful (contentment).
	(6) They see the (Day) indeed as a far-off (event):
	(7) But We see it (quite) near.
	(8) The Day that the sky will be like molten brass,
	(9) And the mountains will be like wool,
	(10) And no friend will ask after a friend,
	(11) Though they will be put in sight of each other,- the sinner´s desire will be: Would that he could redeem himself from the Penalty of that Day by (sacrificing) his children,
	(12) His wife and his brother,
	(13) His kindred who sheltered him,
	(14) And all, all that is on earth,- so it could deliver him:
	(15) By no means! for it would be the Fire of Hell!-
	(16) Plucking out (his being) right to the skull!-
	(17) Inviting (all) such as turn their backs and turn away their faces (from the Right).
	(18) And collect (wealth) and hide it (from use)!
	(19) Truly man was created very impatient;-
	(20) Fretful when evil touches him;
	(21) And niggardly when good reaches him;-
	(22) Not so those devoted to Prayer;-
	(23) Those who remain steadfast to their prayer;
	(24) And those in whose wealth is a recognised right.
	(25) For the (needy) who asks and him who is prevented (for some reason from asking);
	(26) And those who hold to the truth of the Day of Judgment;
	(27) And those who fear the displeasure of their Lord,-
	(28) For their Lord´s displeasure is the opposite of Peace and Tranquillity;-
	(29) And those who guard their chastity,
	(30) Except with their wives and the (captives) whom their right hands possess,- for (then) they are not to be blamed,
	(31) But those who trespass beyond this are transgressors;-
	(32) And those who respect their trusts and covenants;
	(33) And those who stand firm in their testimonies;
	(34) And those who guard (the sacredness) of their worship;-
	(35) Such will be the honored ones in the Gardens (of Bliss).
	(36) Now what is the matter with the Unbelievers that they rush madly before thee-
	(37) From the right and from the left, in crowds?
	(38) Does every man of them long to enter the Garden of Bliss?
	(39) By no means! For We have created them out of the (base matter) they know!
	(40) Now I do call to witness the Lord of all points in the East and the West that We can certainly-
	(41) Substitute for them better (men) than they; And We are not to be defeated (in Our Plan).
	(42) So leave them to plunge in vain talk and play about, until they encounter that Day of theirs which they have been promised!-
	(43) The Day whereon they will issue from their sepulchers in sudden haste as if they were rushing to a goal-post (fixed for them),-
	(44) Their eyes lowered in dejection,- ignominy covering them (all over)! such is the Day the which they are promised!

I love you once and for all

When you love somebody, your life is very complete. You finally have found, peace of mind and that in itself, can't be beat. Days are no longer full of longing, you finally found, the one you adore. You've gotten everything you ever wanted
and you couldn't have asked, for more. As far as you're concerned, life has given you, all the things you hoped for and now you made it to the top. You know you're extremely fortunate and pray this whirlwind, will never stop. You see, you can never give up hoping, as who knows, what the god have in store. If it
happened once, it will always be once and for all.

Old is Gold and unique..

Beauty, is in the eyes of the beholder, you have to look beneath the surface, to see, what lies within! 
Once you get to know someone, that's when you're feelings, start to kick in. You don't have to be good looking, in order to catch a beauty, it's not what you look like, it's all, in what you know! 
Personality, is very important, as it gets you everywhere, the moment you enter a room, they know, that you are there! 
People gravitate to you, as you're the type, that's full of mirth, it's more than
having good looks, as you're the kind of person, who's always, unique..

All we need is time,

Time, can do many things, for different people. 
For some, it can give them a new start. 
While for others, it can mend, a broken heart. 
Time, has to be on your side, when a big decision, has to be made. 
And without time, it's not possible, for you to make the grade. 
Many things in life, depends on time and how it goes.
Time is there for us, to care for us, that everyone knows. 
So use time wisely and don't fritter it away. 
Make good use of your time. as it can do most anything, come what may!