You Cheated...

Why can't you love me the way you should? 
I know you could... 
Instead my heartache is what your choosing... 
It's me that you are loosing... 
I hate what you've done to me, 
I was all that you ever wanted me to be, 
I'm not blind, I can see.. 
I see your game, 
I'm not insane, you are hurting me... 
After everything I have done for you, 
everything I gave you, you turn around and cheat? 
All the times and memories we have spent together you even said we'd be forever.. 
The bond we share, 
I never thought you would dare, 
dare to hurt me this way, 
all the lies you say... 
You made me sick, 
she is what you want to pick...
You made me cry while you told a lie, 
you made me want to die... 
How could this be your not here with me? 
You are not that man I thought you were, 
now I know, now I'm sure..."Never hurt you", 
is what you said, 
now I know your not a man of your word...
Made me feel crazy when I asked "why your phone was off", 
yet I knew you were hurting me, 
I knew I was right, you were out of my sight, 
you really ruined my life... 
How could you ask me to forgive you? 
How many times can I? You have lost my trust over what I call lust... 
You chose to hurt me it was a must...
I am beautiful so I have to be brave, 
brave enough to move on, 
I will be strong, without you,
my life won't be wrong.. 
I will forget you in time, 
and no, no it's not fine... 
I'm glad that your not mine... 
You use to be my greatest treasure but now your never... 
I hope your happy for what you did to me, 
right now your blind but soon you will see....

Other People ..

Hell is other people who
No matter what you do
Always find something to judge
They drag you through the sludge
And see through your thin disguise
As they shred you with their eyes
All their faults and lack
They place upon your back
Unable to see their own transgression
It becomes their only obsession
To find all of your flaws
And all your broken laws
And they won’t even let you live
Because they refuse to forgive

Heaven is other people who
No matter what you do
Choose to see the best
In you and forget the rest
They don’t dwell on your sin
Since they want all to win
They don’t create divisions
By their prideful derisions
Of those with whom they differ
For they know that the transfer
Of their own guilt to another
Will come back and smother
Their efforts to be free
And their search for unity

It's His Fault

Why do you beat yourself up
because you had the courage to love
gave all of yourself in hopes that he was the one
Why do you beat yourself up
When it was his choice to be unfaithful
His choice to hurt you
Why do you beat yourself up
Knowing that you had done everything for him
supported him, comforted him, 
loved him more than you loved yourself 
Why after his lies and deceit
do you still love him? and want him to love you
Why after the repeat of hurt and trust being lost
do you think that he deserves a love as pure as yours
Why do you beat yourself up
over what you could have done better
when you know deep down there was nothing
What makes you search for answers as to why 
when they will not change the past
Nor mend your broken heart
Why when a man decides to cheat do we blame ourselves?
why does it make us question every little detail about who we are 
Make us think that we are not worthy of love
Why when a man cheats do we still long for him to change
Realize how wrong he was, and fall in love with us again
Why do you beat yourself up
When you deserve more
When all that you have done is loved someone completely
Give yourself time and the pain will subside 
and the mourning will cease
You will see that you are still you
Still wonderful, beautiful you
Nothing has changed except your experience in love
And your determination to share love with another
As you can never truly love someone until you learn to love yourself 

“Good Bye”

I’m tired of your apologies,
I’m tired of your Lies..
You’ve left me feeling empty,
Ready to say Good Bye…
I’ve given you my heart,
I’ve given you my soul..
I’m tired of feeling empty,
Just once more to feel whole.
Show me you love me,
Whole heartedly and undoubtedly..
Give me reason to believe,
That we were meant to be..
Give me hope and understanding ,
These are just some of what I need..
I’m drowning in a feeling, 
That what we had may be gone..
But I’m praying that feeling is wrong.
I‘m tired of your apologies,
I’m tired of your lies…
Please give it all you got before I say Good Bye.

Painful Memories

Pain is not an emotion I know
Yet it's all I know 
I can't feel it
Nor can I heal it
It happens all the time
For me, it's all I know
I've experienced first hand a fathers abuse
Yeah, sometimes it hurt
But I grew numb to the pain
I've witness my mother cry
And every time I wanted to die
That's all in the past now
But the memories still last
This may be hard to believe
For a girl whose just sixteen
But when I think the memories have left me
They come back to haunt me
You may find it hard to believe
But sometimes late at night I cry 
Until I feel dead inside
So don't think I don't know pain
Because pain is all I've know.

Life is

A dream for the wise, 
A game for the fool, 
A comedy for the rich, 
A tragedy for the poor.A mistakes for the loser,
A beautiful for the blind
A heart break for the lover
Ignorant human raise them questions that wise human answered a thousand years ago.
When all you dares to be a fool, that will be the first step in the direction of wisdom. before that do not search about the good Cards in your life game Just try to play well with the cards you already Have

Carefree

Young, carefree, innocent
You sing, laugh and dance
Taking in all Gods' glory
At every single chance.

Grown up
You ignore the wonders
that you cherished as a child
Gone is the carefree, honesty and mild.

You walk around with blinders on, 
Into the race of money and greed.
Not caring who gets hurt
Just to fulfill your selfish needs.

Stepping over the line of morals
to have wealth and material things
Ignoring all Gods gifts
Like the first rain in Spring

Keep that little child inside!
Hold her close to your heart,
We're only here for a brief time
Then with this world, we must part

For a moment each day
It's OK to get silly
to laugh and dance. 
Take in all Gods glory
At every single chance.

What A Wish

What to wish 

What a wish
A wish is a wish you can wish
For
A wish is where anything can come true
A wish is where anything can happen
What would you wish for 
If you had a wish would you wish for money
Or for world peace
Would you wish for all your dreams to come true
Or for a good life
Would you wish to die of old age
Or to have a great life
Me I would wish for nothing
Cause to me a wish is a wish
My life is okay
Sure there would be some things I would love to change
But to change something so small
That you can’t even see
Is one precise moment you would lose
Just by that wish you could lose something so great 
Even if it was good or bad
Only you would know if you lost what was truly yours
That one moment could change your whole life if you lost what was most special to you
So to me a wish is a bad thing to wish for
A wish is something that could mess up your whole 
Life!

I want to change the world

I want to impact it so deep
That I reach the core
I want to change the meaning of peace
To something permanent
I want to open doors
And shut out doubt
I want the past to dissolve
It makes my ears bleed
Mistakes linked in memory
Times so hard the world shakes in its boots

I want to change the world
The sun rises and then sets
But leaves its mark before it goes
It creates life and growth
The moon brings serenity and mystery
Both bring death too
I want the growth to shine through
But erase the death
I want to change the world
But I would not dare change the past

Tell Me Goodbye...

The memories of you

Are engraved within my heart

Nothing in this world

Could ever tear us apart

Because you’re not here

Some think that you’re gone

But I tell them better

Let’s say you just moved on

I try to stay positive

To keep you watching over me

Some think it’s crazy

But I know you’ve got to be

We were pretty close

I hope I can say

You were so pretty

I’ll never forget those days You were such a fun person, And your personality was great, All the guys loved you, Most girls had to hate I know how you were, And how you were so shy, But I wish you told me one thing

I wish you would have said goodbye…

Your future was great, You had so much in store, When I’m forced to think of it, It rots me to the core

I spend most of my time, Thinking of you, And reminiscing of the things, We said we’d do 

What I wouldn't give , To be in your place, I’d give the whole world, Just to see your face, Some say I’m going crazy, Or maybe insane, But they don’t understand , This heartbreaking pain, You were my drug, My source to get high, 

But I really do wish, You would have said goodbye…

I’ve been thinking of the days, When we used to sit together, I now cherish those moments, I also hope you remember, You’re always in my head, And I can’t get you out, I get so mad at times , That I just want to shout, I feel as if pieces are missing, Like a book with no end, Too late to tell you how I feel

Now and forever, only a friend, My old memories of you, Fly by me fast, And everything I remember of you, Is now in the past, All the sweet thoughts of you, Brings a tear to my eye, I miss you so much

I wish you’d say goodbye…

I hope heavens good to you, And I hope you get your Wings, An maybe when I get there, You can show me all the beautiful things, I really don’t want to say it, But please wait for me, Knowing your up there

I really can’t wait to be, That day when angels came down, Was a sad day of grief, When I first found out, I stood in disbelief, Although you’re gone, You still feel so close, Maybe it’s the thought, Of missing you the most, I wish this was a joke, A foolish student’s lie, But you have no idea

Please…tell me goodbye…

I Wish I Wasn't Alone

Once when I was little

I was happy and carefree

I used to run around laughing

Until it was time for tea

I used to play games

And smile all the time

I used to feel on top of the world

I used to feel fine

It's amazing how things change

When people let you down

And how that once happy face

Turns into a solemn frown

You search and search

For someone who cares

Anyone who understands

Anyone who dares

Loneliness, it hurts

It kills you deep inside

It makes you feel empty

It stops you in your stride

You cry yourself to sleep

Hugging your pillow tight

Wishing for someone

To hold you through the night

Once when I was little

I was happy and carefree

Now my life's full of sadness,

Pain and misery

Once when I was little

I was never on my own

But now I pray at night

''I wish I wasn't alone''

Another World

The pain that I feel so deep inside, The hurt, the shame, and all the lies. 
People that I live with thought they would be the people that I love, 
With the hate, the anger, the yelling, the teasing, and the madness. 
The more that I cry, the more I think there is no love. 
When I go to work they always talk about me, 
When I come home that’s not where I want to be. 
Sometimes I feel I don't want to be in this world, 
If someone shot me I wonder how they would feel, 

Happy, mad, or pretend that they are sad. 
The pain that I feel so deep inside, The hurt, the shame, and all the lies.

The Pain I Feel Inside

The pain that I feel so deep inside, The hurt, the shame, and all the lies. 
People that I live with thought they would be the people that I love, 
With the hate, the anger, the yelling, the teasing, and the madness. 
The more that I cry, the more I think there is no love. 
When I go to school they always talk about me, 
When I come home that’s not where I want to be. 
Sometimes I feel I don't want to be in this world, 
If someone shot me I wonder how they would feel, 

Happy, mad, or pretend that they are sad. 
The pain that I feel so deep inside, The hurt, the shame, and all the lies.