Am I dead ..!

I'm alive just in body's face because inside me, 
I feel that I'm not any more in this place
I lost my spirit, I broke my old habit
Now I'm lock in this secret
As you can see and feel it...
I don't have dreams
I lost the wish of a new future
I even lost my old screams
That made me felt that I was immature
I lost my sharpness mind
I'll hold, hold what I find
I'm always lost and blind
Because my life lost the big why
The why I was here ..!!
The why I fought for ..!
The why I would breathe with my sickness lung..!!
The why I wont go out from that door
Am I alive ? Am I dead ? 
Did I lose the control of my head ? 

Questions without answer

Questions without answer
Nothing is possible in a new true
You could die in a whisper and I could die too
You brought my old fears
But you never left my soul
Every night you try to held my fear's,  you said they're brilliant
I breathe away loving your words, in fact ..
I'm in love for what I'm afraid about
This love is hide in a secret place
And is driving me in doubt ..  no one can replace

A place

Maybe we stare at screens to blind ourselves from real life
From muffled screams and what really goes on outside
And our English teachers who we thought would save us
And from bottom bleachers at a game we don't care about
Maybe we're trying to be blind or unsee things we left behind
And even as I type 'unseen' spell check's squiggly line corrects me
You can't take away what's been give and perhaps it's not your place
To forget a face, a word, a place,
To find to ourselves an empty space. 

Stand up ... "Fear"

When fear puts you in dismay
It may be hard to find your way
When this is so, stand up and say
That the fear just cannot stay
And then the fear will go away.
Though I lack the courage
To heed my own words
I urge you to listen 
To what you have heard
Stand up to your fears
Whatever they are
And show them that they can't stop you
From being a star 

God I beg for your help ..!

It seems when you have the most time on your hands, Is when Stress reaches full potential. For when time slips through your fingers life grains of sand
You can't try to keep control, or you'll fail... Well, I tried .. 
I tried so hard that I met new emotions I never dreamt real
I felt new feelings I never knew I could feel
I miss my old friend, the smile
I wish he'd come visit me, just once in a while
When your brow is a permanent straight line, no laughter ensues
I tried to control Time, yet Time broke my feeble grasp and broke loose, I only wanted but a moment, a single fraction of Time's wealth .. Just to spend with those I hold dear, O God I beg for your help! 

The song of insects

The insects sing what they call beauty
Undefined by human cruelty
The plants now dance in a wind-filled sway
As if they all wish to say
That now it's time to come alive
To dream the dream you've kept inside
Release the pressure but slowly to keep my balance. 
To the song of insects, join the plants 

Get ready for me

Death can't hurt you once you've realized
You can take all it's power by who you are inside 
By the way you treat the ones you love
It all depends on what your soul's made of
I'm not afraid of whatever comes next
For I know in my heart that God is everywhere 
With making sure we get our rest. So, 
We can move on to our next test
I've got so much to do, many new things to learn
I've still a lot of money to earn! 
I've to fall in love, to find that one girl, To find my eye's apple, my oyster's pearl
I've yet to leave my country's land
To sink my feet in a new desert sand
To travel to unexplored countries,  to Abandons the place the great Pyramids, call home
I've never seen the Northern Lights align,However, I'm still can breath and I've still got some time 
I'll take advantage of what time is still mine .. So am I afraid? 
No, but I'd still rather stay
Too much to live for, a whole world to see, I can't wait to see what's the best I can be
So get ready world, get ready for me

Tomorrow's dreams

The innocent, the mercifull
Bring peace and love wherever they go
Though the lights have gone out for their show
There's still one way to reach them, I know
So now I close my eyes to sleep
In hopes they visit in my dreams
For in my dreams, they speak to me
They close my eyes so my heart can see
I drift away into the depths of space
Until I see a familiar face
She looks at me with her charming eyes,
Two great colored pools that fill the sky
She whispers to me a piece of advice
Quickly before she waves goodbye
That rather then lips, to read one's eyes
For they are the key to see through liesThey have so much knowledge for me to find
So now to await tomorrow's dreams
And see what the departed will have for me. 

Be ready for our next Hello.

Life is so strange, Nothing stays the same
Everything changes, But who is to blame 
Life is like a game, Where you have to lose
Before you can gain, To win you have to face the fearful rain 
In life... they always say don’t use your heart Only use your brain 
In life there is love but the more is hate 
No one decides, we all hesitate
And who knows the fate, The people you need go away 
When you need them the most, You find them lost 
Day after day.. Days go by
People are born... and others die
Year after year 
No one understands
Nothing is clear 
Nothing in hearts except fear 
Today you walk and talk, tomorrow you lay in your grave 
And morning it gave the money that you save 
And no use of your gold, when it won’t be sold
You have to be strong .. Stop doing the wrong 
And never lie .. is the role
Be ready for your last goodbye

Just One

One song can spark a moment 
One flower can wake a dream 
One tree can start a forest 
One bird can herald spring 
One smile begins friendship 
One hand clap lifts a soul 
One star can guide a ship at the sea
One vote can change a nation 
One sunbeam lights a room 
One candle wipes all the darkness
One laugh will conquer gloom 
One step must start each journey 
One word must start each prayer 
One hope will raise our spirits 
One touch can show you care 
One voice can speak with wisdom 
One heart can know what’s true 
One life can make a difference 
You see it’s up to you

Being different

They say that everyone Is different
And unique in every way
Then how come the World judges each other So harshly
When people let their uniqueness Show just because they do Things differently or are Different themselves
People look down their noses at you It cuts you to a size of an Atom bomb
Just can’t help being different
We cannot change though we Did try
People say it’s important to be Yourself
But it’s so hard when the world Has a very little tolerance of People who dance to the Beat of their own drum

Just remember: 

we're not really being different, We're just different beings 

True light.

Darkness filling the whole land through, Entwined in black, no sky now blue.
No life on land or in the sea, Only sadness clothing me.
A storm awaited for so long
A zephyr wind becomes so strong.
The rain falls down right from above,
Opening my heart into arms of love.
As the storm doth dwindle and fade, 
I remember all those prayers I'd prayed,
A new life with God shining down
The King of love which I now crown.
On eagles wings together we fly
Hand in hand through bright blue sky.
A rainbow shining down as gold,
More and more that love unfolds.
Each day so beautiful now passes by
Beneath my God now I lie.
The sun always shining down so bright
At long last I find true light. 

Our love song

She gave me part of my dream.
I gave her freedom for her
Emotional state of mind.
She never experienced it before, 
And I never had the guts to explore
So freely, casually, and openly
The expression of feeling and emotion
She so graciously accepted with
Just a hint of anxiety and hesitance, 
Making her smiling face beam
As she exchanged the expression of my dream
For the expression of eternal and internal embrace
Of love and warmth with her beauty and grace
Given and shown through her eyes and smiling face
Interlocked with mine in a frozen glance, 
Hypnotized by our curiosity and deep desire
To find love we longed
To start an emotional fire
Burning in our hearts-long and strong
Until we finished writing our love song. 

Between woman and love's meaning

Will I....... Love?
Will I ....... love?
What is ....... love?
I am ......... love.
How do I represent love?
What is it about a woman That loves ? ... 

Her heart Or her very being, radiating With love that never separates
At birth, both to a mother and to the other love she seeks in man?

Moreover, It is man who seeks the love he knows nothing about. Woman merely softens her being of love To allow her heart to be still, tuned to the sound 

And quiver that love fills when man discovers
Woman for the first time. The only way that 
I am .................. love
Is through woman, since woman is love. So I ask myself again, 
Will I ........... love?
Will I find my heart, which is hidden
Among other organs that aren't
Even close to being
As vital to my health as the
Heart is beating?
If and when I find it, will I hold onto it?
Will I tell love
To make herself known, so that I might
Learn what love is, what she feels like, and
What she is capable of achieving
In my heart that I take for granted way too often.
A much better question than
What is ................ love, therefore, is
What is ..................... woman? She is the best thing that happened to man. 
She is the emotion that man lacks.
She is the reason love is in the world.
She is love, after all.
Without her, man dies.
Without her, love is lost and confused.
Without her, hope fades away..........
Then suddenly She replied ..
I Am ...........!!!. I am ............ love. 
I am ................. compassion.
I am ........................ comfort.
I am ............ delicate and fragile.
I am ............... the woman you long for. I am here for you to call upon 
When you need a prayer and a song.
I am here to forgive your wrongs
To help you feel confident and strong.
I know every thought that you have.
I can see it in your eyes.
You don't have to tell me any lies
To impress me.
I like who I see in the real you,
Which I trust will always be
The 'you' you want me to see.


Author Notes 

The empty blanks or lines are there for the reader to either leave empty or to fill in with his or her own personalized adjectives or verbs describing his or her intentions for expressing love. Also, I hope you the reader will notice how I wanted to use the idea of personification by saying how love was actually a woman through the phrase, 'Will I tell love to make herself known, so that I might learn what love is, what she feels like, and what she is capable of achieving.' 

I wish you health

I wish you health, and love and laughter, 
to cheer your weary heart, and all good gifts that
come thereafter, and I hope that I'm a part.
I wish for you a thousand rainbows, 
with never a stormy sky above, 
and at night a thousand moon glows, 
and my arms and lips to give you love.
I wish for me,  you'll always be there, 
when I'm lonely, cold or blue, I will wrap you
in my dreams, Just me, just you, 
and the sense, which humans called love. 

Set me free

What is a word for sorrow, that joy cannot erase? 
What is the look of sadness, one sees upon a face? 
There's such a thing as lonesome, that eyes can never show, 
There's another word for empty, what it is, I do not know.
If I knew it, I would tell you, you'd be the first to hear...
If I knew the words to mend your heartache, I'd yell them in your ear! 
I feel I cannot stem your tears, 
or to fill your heart with glee, 
If I knew what constituted happiness, 
It would cure your ills, as well as me.
I carry the weight, the feeling of gloom; 
In my suffering mind, i 'n my tortured head...
Wondering if I'd be better off, six feet below and dead.
The words I want to hear, I'll never hear from you-
What I want to hear, can only come from me, 
The words do not exist, they're burred in the void, 
Only I can break the seal, Only i can set me free.

Too hard to take

When all the world is sad and weary, 
When all the eyes are moist and teary, 
When all one does is mad and leery, 
That's when God's love shines through.
When all the hearts are full of sorrow, 
And nothing bright comes in the 'morrow, 
When all your hopes are there to borrow, 
That's when God's word comes true.
When you have emptiness and heartache, 
When all your wishes lie in your wake, 
When there is nothing else that one can take, 
That's when God's hand will reach to you.
When all the tragic sense of loss is there, 
When you feel as though no one's to care, 
When they tell you that your life's not fair, 
That's when God's voice will only will do.
That's when you'll shed the blues of doubt, 
That's when you'll know what love's about, 
That's when you'll feel the very joy to shout, 
That's when you'll know, the love you thought, 
But never really never knew. 

You aren't a tear

you aren't a killing weapon
because you are a cure that makes me live
you aren't a story to be forgotten
because you are a title for the eternity stories
you aren't a tear to be dried
because you are the spring in my desert.

So many

so many lights, but not shining
so many hearts, but not beating
so many songs, but without melody
so many flowers, but without smell
And from the bottom of my secrete windows .. just you were there.

You and me

Each of us a star
With respect, we can travel too far
each of us a star
our respect should never jar
each of us a star
each day my respect to you
ascends in the sky ... like star.