Second C.. Commitment ..

y heart's struggle begins to settle slowly reveling in knowledge of deepening intimacy with you
The One who my innermost heart lies bare and cherished, the One who provides comfort of powerful primal attachment 
The stunning beauty when we are together our mingling passions
widening our twining lives on in me always deepest of truths sustaining me with sensual knowings of love 
A haven for the pain and hurt the feelings known and heard being supported in every way calm amidst the moods of my life
This is the choice of maturity for comes times needs must wait and responsibility and commitment overwhelm all that there is of now
And so much so much left unexperienced in multitude of shrines to the indulgence of the senses
But here is the place where I for you and you for I have chosen to give all of the I and the you and the never forget the We for all our yearnings and needs wants and desires
And the feeling of peace
And knowing excitement
As we get ever closer to doing for each other what most can be done one lover for the other
For it seems that it is not the many that bring the fruition all of the wants but rather the focused path of the true only one for always
So it is, that for now and forever
You are my only wonderful lover. 

Emptiness

Emptiness means little without you
Words alone cannot equal two
You meant a lot to me before we met
The world alone closed every sunset
I had fought and lost again
What thought had found to gain
Its memory a frozen ocean
Without you Love's empty notion

Completely lost..

Have you ever had that feeling? 
That you are completely lost. Your mind and senses reeling, as in a dark foreboding frost.
Nothing but nothing is as it seems, Words like phantoms come and go.
It is as if all the ...... dreams, have turned your brain to snow.
The ticking of the mantelpiece clock, cuts the silence like a knife.
Your mind is in a mysterious block, you ask yourself is this my life.
Perhaps I am just getting old, brain and body gone to pot, where are the times that I was bold ... and my brain could solve every plot. 

And more.

You are life and love and more.
You are earth and fire and more.
You are the sky above the sea below and more.
You are what encompasses life
What gives direction
What holds hope
What nurtures happiness
What feeds passion ... And more.
You are to me
What I am to you in my dreams.. And more

Wishes.

Wish upon

Another's heart
Let her be happy
Let her be strong
Let her Love right the wrong
Wish upon
Another's mind
Let it seek
Let it be free
Let it's knowledge find me
Wish upon
Another's soul
Let us journey
Let us travel far
Let our Love guide the star

The way I love you..

Love was.....
When "if" lay between you and I.. and "never" seemed forever, I fell to earth in surrender and you became the centre of my eye.
Love is.....
When I'll pass by you accidentally, I grab a sense of your charming smile... and when between us is distance measured by the mile... I grab a sense of our lost love immeasurably
Love will be.....
When I can no longer see to see... When I can no longer hear to hear, I know you can hear.. I know you will be near... simply just you and me
Love eternally.....
When God granted us our wish finally.. He put in us a throbbing heart, When it stops from this earth we will depart without saying goodbye but be sure that; our Love will live .... eternally

Incomplete story

Why whenever I start to talk about humans greed I always have tears rol down my eyes.. Oh.. Where do I start my lIfe story

It was there always for me like an angel
I could hold it with my eyes
I could hug it with my heart
I could kiss it tenderly within my mind
it gave its unconditional love with passion
it was a world worth living
I have walked with it every moment... the mountains and sea opened their heart for us
What a wonderful day when I was still remain alive
Those days were the best days of my life
But till the Satan separated me from it
I did not know that humans sickness which called greedness will end our life.. now.. nobody can see the tears in my heart
neither the pain in my mind that cries for losing my reason to live everyday... each day I lose a part from my reasons to stay alive.. honestly, My life story should ends into an incomplete story.

My life.. need me no more.

There is a pain in my heart that brings tears in my eyes. I am sad because my life hurts me... 
like a sky without clouds, like a river without fishes and
like the seas without waves
I am sad because my life left me alone...
The stars are in the sky are not glittering, The moon in the sky is not sailing, The cool breeze is not touching me
I am sad because my life don't care for me...
The truth always become lie, The love always become trouble, The understanding always become fail
I am sad because my life don't trust me...
The thoughts in my mind become waste, The dreams in my heart cannot be fulfilled. The life in the world brings me an emptiness
I am sad because my life need me no more.

The same fear everyday

When the day is done and the darkness come, will there be light, can we still fight
holding on
I'm trying to find a reason, just one more night and i can go on.. but when the night is done
will i see the morning sun
will i still be here
will i still have the same fear

Hearts never see

Why does the head never agree
why can't the heart ever see
why does the mind know deep inside, what the heart choose blindly to hide
why is the mind so weak, when the heart starts to speak
why wont the mind take the lead, even if the heart starts to plead
maybe if the mind took over grew stronger, then the heart wouldnt hurt any longer 

Trust...

Trust is...
me telling the truth and you believing me.
me not being afraid and you not making me.
deep down within....
I hope real hard, i scream and shout and i think theres no way out.
For...
What once had has now been lost, for that i blame myself, for childish as this thought may sound.
trust we had so long ago.... trust has been destroyed.
All i can give is a 
Simple word...sorry
a simple thought...happiness
a simple emotion... love
a simple thing... my heart
a simple rule... I give all of me, you give all of you.

Leadership

Good Leadership means.. To lead yourself into a good life, Good life for yourself requests... Being a fulfilled and content human being with strong basics.
If you can’t give to yourself what your heart and soul needs, Wisdom will fly away and you will give your children a life with cold hearted decisions, so many failures will annoying they future and your kids will follow your path..  See feelings of understanding lead to feelings of acceptance .. that last one is basically the seeds to a strong relationship and passing through that.. true eternally love born.

Your soul..

We knows there would be times we'd need a word of cheer, want the face of smile .... to brush away .. our tears
We knows there would be times we'd need the joy of that "little things" in order to appreciate what life brings across our steps on this long road.
We knows our hearts oftentimes throb with aches and pains at the door of trials and misfortunes .. when the day is dark with no light at sight 
And we also knows we'd need the comfort of an understanding heart, to give us strength and courage that we make a fresh and new start everyday.
We knows we’ll need companionship that’s unselfish, lasting and true, thus, God always answers our heart's call with the gift of special soul like your soul.

I can't promise you.

I can't promise you roses, which bloom of brilliant red but I promise, when you need me when you day will turns blue, as much as possible I will be here for you.
I can't promise you perfection for perfection I am not. I am like the blue rose ... thorns are all I've got and tears are what I know.
I can't promise you wealth with money to shower away the old pains that engulf us, but I can give you my love to share throughout each day
I can't promise you the stars for they are out of my hands reach, but I can show you how to walk gently through our stormy nights... and I’ll hold your hands till we cross it together no matter what.
I can't promise total happiness and never a tear in your eye, but I can give you my word that in every way I will try to listen and wipe the tears you shed.
I can't promise eternal life for this is not mine to give, but I can promise you something to love and support you ... everyday in which we live.. so, as you see I am not the best, but then you will never know until you've put me to the test.. when we reach into the edge of the river.

Beautiful morning

Imagine a beautiful morning.. when I wake up every morning.. I always watch you for a while then I kiss you very lightly, Watch you lips turn to a smile.
Then you ask me what the time is and I whisper in your ear... that the hour hardly matters when you're lying ...warm and so near.
Your smile grows slightly wider but you turn your face away, hide your head under the pillow, try to cheat the break of day.
your hair wisps round about you, flows like water to your hips but your neck soon bare before me feels the pressure of my lips.
Then I touch you very lightly, run my fingers down your spine and your body gently waking turns till eyes gaze into mine.
Oh.. and in that very moment as your mouth seeks to entice, When I wake up every morning ... I am lost in paradise.

Feed a flame with in..

Don't be fooled by how I act, don't be fooled by the posts I show. For I have thousands of masks though none of them are me. What hidden sweetness there is in this emptiness.. I feed a flame within, which so torments me .. That it both pains my heart, and yet contents me...  On her eyes will I gaze, and there delight me; While I conceal my love no frown can fright me.

words are also the weapons

Words are the weapons which do speak a lot, So now I Take there help to show you what have I got.
The Beauty of her Mind was all that mattered, Cause for me I was never flattered. But yes my Friends it can hurt you too, Cause one sided will never get you through.
All that will be left will be pain and sorrow, With you asking for a better tomorrow.
So here is request to all you out there, When you fall in love then please do fear.Cause it can lead you where you don’t want to be here or there.. It’s like feeding you what you don’t want to be fed.
Love is a Beautiful for those who get it, But it is a curse for those who fail in it.
So be happy be single and, Never ever try to mingle.
Follow what your Parent’s say, Cause one Day love will fade you away...

Love isn't long distance..

Love is never far 
From where I am 
And always where you are 
You take my love with you 
And leave your love behind 
With lots of loving thoughts 
That linger in my mind 
Love may come and go 
But somehow stays around 
To always lift you up 
When you are feeling down 
Love can't be measured 
And it's a well known fact 
That the more love you give 
More love you will get back 
But if love were long distance 
I would travel far to find .. 

Life!

There it is again, im down on my knees, with my head in my hands, 
I stumble to my feet weaker then before, my head hurting, ears ringing and my spine killing.
I can see the light in the darkness that surrounds my life knowing that I will never reach it in time
my body is so weak and heavy, I find it hard to breath some times, the pain it hurts so much I think im dieing, my head is so full of noise it going to explode.
I feel so alone in this world of mine, walking around like his, if only I didn’t build so many walls but some people build them to keep people out, and some to see who cares enough to try and knock then down…
it coming…I can feel it, it start in my neck then down my spine…then Bang it shoots back up into my head then whack, im down on my knees shouting…why me…please? 
the stars in my eyes blind me and the noise in my head deafens my senses, I cant breath this is the end…..? 
slowly I come around, I crawl toward the light, trembling like a leaf in the wind.
I cant describe this feeling inside, lost and confused, alone and unique, just to try and name a few.
I feel sick, oh so sick why me! ! ! 
I collapse to the floor in a heap, to weak to carry on, just wishing I was dead.
As I lay there crying in intense pain all I can see and hear is my kid smiling faces saying I love you daddy…
what remains of my heart sinks even deeper into stomach, making me sick.
Iv got to get up and keep moving, if not or me then for my little angles…iv got to find the strength! ! ! 
my hearts is beating faster then the time before, as I try to stand up I collapse…im so weak…
I finely find my feet thou still wobbly I carry on, iv got to keep fighting…iv got to be a survivor not a failure for my family…
I wouldn’t wish this feeling the worst person in this wicked world we all share.
I know it wont belong till it comes back around, so iv got to keep moving to make up some ground.
Cold and alone, with no confert in site.
so this is my life, and this is were im shore im destend to stay hoping to reach that distent light some day.
this is just one grain of sand on a beach, called my life…this is me….this is my life… 

Disappear

The time is here..and the end is near..i think its time for me to walk away off and disappear. This road i follow as come to an end..on any one else i can no longer depend. this life of pain is all i know..from this life iv got to go.
And... To my friends who dared to care..i thank you all for being there.