She seeks the original.!!

There are always a huge lack between..
What we are thinking about and what our hearts looking for.. 
What we hope and what we can achieve
What we deserve and what we get
And, as much as we shrink this gap, we become realistic and living in a peace with life .

Spring longing

Once a day and sometimes more
I look out my day dream door
To see if spring is out there yet
I'm really anxious, but mustn't fret.
I see the snow a melting down
and lots of mud and slush around
I know the grass will surely sprout
and birds, flowers will come about.
But why oh why does it take so long..!
I'm sure the calendar can't be wrong.
Sunshine fills my heart with cheer
I wish that spring were really here.
Soon mother nature will sound the alarm
Wake up! get dressed, turn on your charm
Winter's gloom has gone its way
It's Spring! It's Spring! Ow. ..  It's Happy Day! 

Darkness and light

For many years I have searched to find
The Balance of the Heart, Soul and Mind
Between depressing darkness and light
Enjoying the morning after the night
Somewhere among the how and the when
Order came from chaos in the big banging
The Creator said let there be eternal light
To exalt the day, from the darkness of night
The secrets of the universe is in this code
Unchanging laws only change the mode
Whether seed have evolved, or have been sowed
Any life is so dependent on its own abode
The measure of a life force has many scales
But there is only one power that never fails
We may look inside, or we may look above
We won't find anything more divine than love

Whisper in a land of deaf

Two pure hearts, each from an opposite world
Perfectly in touch but destiny always twirled, 
Too late for change, definitely to late for changed
Deify a heart, a possibility may win.
Two great hearts are set free, but meant for destiny
Content in each own world, a sincere give away.
The goodness of the heart always aglow
The surest thing my life will always know, 
The love that we give, a testimony, a reverie
Assured by my heart that has spoken to me, 
The doubts unfounded, let us face reality
True feelings - a window to what is really me.
A man-made world - our ambitions a drive
Yet an itinerate mind perceives a divide, 
A mind from outside foresees a decline
Before it's too late, let the truth be mine.
The vibrating wind blowing from within
The feel of the breeze, a sting to my brown colored skin.
The parch in our hearts the longing emerged
But distance had purged our heart's desire to converge.
In our opposite world our horizons extends
Unreachable dreams the impossible reigns.
Two sad hearts reached out, derspair in ones heart
A pain, a counterpart, a willingness to opt out.
We both have our world though our dreams once spun
Oneness in our hearts but the distance has won, 
A wide dividing range in a marine of clouds
Fearless birds spread their wings and loved without doubts, 
These words I had spun out of the recesses of my heart
A solid reminder of a love in our mind's walkabout.
So walk away, walk away to a distant far away land
Our desire and destiny are in an opposite distant land
Mine walk is just for now, fearless and forward...
I'll take it from here one day at a time...

Exchanging silence..

I may not express what I feel for you
But in silence I know 'Someone' up high do, 
I may not feel your touch in my arms
But the wind's silent soft touch will do
I may not be in a place with you
Yet unknowingly our footprints will be
In the same path on a certain time and day.
I may not be able to say in words
How I admired learned things from you, 
But in prayers I do certainly know and wish
The best things in life for you.
And though our eyes may never gaze again
And words be never spoken out to hear, 
My silent, fervent prayer indeed
Will find its way to you as something else.
For I know in silence we can but think
The things we shared and love in grace
It is in silence that we can keep in peace
The peace that held us both in pain. 

Heart vs Mind..!!!!

How come the persons we love never love us back
and the ones who love us always lose our track
It makes you wonder how this world functions
and you keep searching for any other options
When you fall in love and get a broken heart in the end
All you'll blame is your heart and why he couldn't stand
But when you fall with your mind you manage to handle
the shock at that moment, when you melt like a candle
When love blinds your eyes, you only see what's pretty
when you use your mind you'll come out with a pitty
Running after that person, you realise it's becoming an addiction
by using your brain you know it's nothing more than fiction
Don't feel so angry if your heart has redden your face
coz the mind too has his part in this case
Imagine if you control your feelings with your brain only
you'll end up in the streets lost and lonely
coz you'll miss all the fun, the hot moments of the story
what this trip is all about, from a tiny attraction to the most legendary
When you feel that all the laws of nature are on your side
a thought like that makes the brain scream out loud
When you believe that impossible is nothing infront of this love
and you want te reach the sky by flying like a dove
The mind will ask you to wake up from this fantasy
The heart will push you to go on beyond this galaxy
So in the end it's up to you to choose
in who's line you should be and which item you need to lose
Is it heart or mind the one that will bring you glory
Or are they both necessary to finish this story? 

Undefined but true

you're in my life .. Whether you like it or not
Someday we'll be together, When the seas are clear... When the mountains are high even .. When your heart decides to beat again for this isn't the first time we got a blue night.. Staring at the moon wishing upon a star to everything gets again so right.. 
I'm not one to judge the powers of the universe
All I can do is rely on faith and determination
This is love .. I'm sure This is real love... 
I can feel it dancing in my bones and the miracle of love is accepting it for what it truly is
Complicated yes for sure yet undefined
Just like you
I think that's why I'll always still attract to you
You have the heart of a ghost and the soul of a grown woman, yet fight a knight..
Let me fill you with constant pleasure
Let me fill that empty space between your ears
I think you know what I'm talking about
Hugs and kisses
Kisses and hugs until forever will gone.. 
I love you now and so on... And so on

Until forever..

You know you belong to me
You are the only one allowed on my cloud
From heaven and beyond
The magic is made of pearls
Shiny illustrious pearls
I know not who you are
 but you are my angel
No longer in disguise
My cloud is your cloud
As the sky becomes the sky
Happiness comes around
When all is driven to love
For love is a spiritual need
My spirit lies deep within me
And you are a part of my spirit
Forever until forever is gone.

Then heart is in a fragile state of mind

A little child is sleeping in the wind
Silently she aches for her beloved
Who lives for to pleasure her to living
But often forgets his dying name
The heart is in a fragile state of mind
The eyes are piercing to the sun
Romance is in favor of everlasting treasures
A beloved one and her are flying the beloved kite
But only in a dream that doesn't exist to anyone else
Heart-shaped balloons always spark the fire
That leads to the eternal sun
Love me not for what I am.. What I am.!!
So beautiful like a gypsy in the night
I long to see her there
Where everything is free to roam the earth
Everything that is magic of course
And all will be bright until the day he will die
But for now, 
let us live in the moment of I love you
For my only love.. Forever is a lie..

I don't know.!!

I don’t know when this life started
I don’t know when it’ll end
I don’t know how things began
I don’t know how things were
I don’t know how things will be
I don’t know where I’m or where I should to be
I don’t know why I’m here.. How it will be there
I don’t know why I suddenly felt like that
I don’t know if you still feel the same
I don’t know why I came
I don’t know what is my aim
Can you believe it…? 
I even don’t know why they change my name
I just know one thing 
And it is that
I love you
That is the one thing that I know .. And I'll remember to the rest of my life..

În your eyes

In your eyes I saw everything new
And in your eyes I saw everything which grew
And in somehow I knew
I was meant to be with you
In your eyes everything was seen
Like the best in the entire scene
Looking in your eyes made me keen
And made me hate being mean
In your eyes there is a magical power
It makes me feel so much higher
And gives me a lot of power
To achieve and be prouder
In your eyes I see
How much you love me
In your eyes I see
All the love you gave me
By my eyes I want to tell you
How much I love you
I love you more than you know

Ordinary love costs..

Never give all the heart, for love will hardly seem worth thinking of to passionate women if it seem certain, and they never dream that it fades out from kiss to kiss; for everything that's lovely is but a brief, dreamy. Kind delight.O 
Never give the heart outright, for they, for all smooth lips can say, have given their hearts up to the play and who could play it well enough ... If deaf and dumb and blind with love?
He that made this knows all the cost, for he gave all his heart and lost.

A thousand try.. And more.

Sometimes life is against you.. You see it turning from dark to darker 
wishing it's just a nightmare and soon you'll wake up..
Wishing it's just the night and soon there will be light..
But you realize you were wrong
It's all very true
It's neither a nightmare nor the night,
It's just things are no longer right.
In a corner you sit..
Crying blood instead of tears waiting sadly alone
In that little seat of yours thinking that that would change the world..
Unfortunately that's not true at all
The world just won't change for you
The world isn't yours.. And isn't free for youb
If you want it.. Go for it, stand up and think quick
Try to change it inorder to suit you
Try to fix it and make it yours
If you fail .. Try once more never give up, never lose hope and remember it's your goal.
Things don't change from the first shot and light was invented after a thousand try or more.

Mind is where i'm ... Belonging

Secure they made me feel...Isolated I was in my own mind. Accepted I was thus I belonged.
As trends came and went...I longed for acceptance. Belonging became an escape from my own mind, isolation had no room to fit in. Belongingness deprived me of living - living in my own mind. Through illusion, I became addicted to conformism; blending in denied any chance of self-mastery.
Different I now feel...Self-realization defeated the fear of being uncomfortable in my own mind. Uniqueness became my obsession. Secure I felt... Firm I stood my ground. In me I belonged.

Message sent from grave.. to my beloved one.

When the sun has set for me:
Never cry for my soul now sets free.!!
For this is the path that we all should take, It’s not my decision I had to make.
I wish you didn’t cry, I am always in your heart even though I’m far away.
For this is our God that had to end,
for it is today that God, His angel did send.
Wherever our ocean meets our sky, remember the memories of you and I.
Today, without me is a new start, aren't our footprints remain in your heart.
Just remember when i said..  "forever is a lie".

Forgive...

You exclude me
You torture me
You humiliate me
You reject me
You deny me but ... still I forgive.
You cut me with your words
You bruise me with your eyes
You paralyze me with your ignorance but .. still I forgive.
The scars of my heart are deeper than your oceans, 
The tears have dried like the Egypt deserts hide its grass with no emotion but ... still .. I .. forgive.
As my inner soul is nearly damaged, it affected my outer being but .. still I forgive.
I forgive..
I forgive to recreate my damaged soul; 
I forgive to stabilize my damaged mentality; 
I forgive to harmonies your thoughts inside my head; 
I forgive to reconnect the spirituality and the physicality of my being; 
I forgive because I know that you aren't responsible for making decisions.
I forgive without punishing because it is the way to love. 
Love forgives... and 
He who was able to forgive has love and is love.
He forgave... And still He forgives.

Whatever it ends

Whatever it ends, you have place in my heart, wherever I’ll go, I’ll always love you, and if I lost my life, I’ll Offer it to you, the breath that I’ll take will always be with you until, my soul leaves with a memory to tell that how much I love you
Now the world is so full not emptiness, the sky will be cry loneliness, Now the birds can fly knowingly singing melodies of die.. Even the fish once cry, deeply into the ocean vanished without goodbye.
while 
the love that I take will always be the same; the vision that my heart sing and the happiness my soul swings, will always be true, for in every moment I breathe, I breathe.. you
Show me, the start, leave me to begin, and lead me to pursue the pointless end, that you care for me, here my soul vow in the shadow of the timeless beginning, where I go from here, take care, my hand and leave not my own, it’s the eternity I aim.. Know what.. 
Treasure I hold the memory of love I’ll bring it where ever I'll go.

Dot..

Even noble beauty in confronting with time taken
Even noble will aginest the typhoon may apart fallen
Even noble soul in the face of bitter challenges finally broken

The door

Families that walk together 
Families that talk together 
Families that eat together 
Families that sleep together
Families are families that stay together
Families that communicate stay together
Those,  that don't split, even though no one has left 
left does not mean that no one has left 
Someone has already gone left
Several have already gone left
They just have not walked out the door yet .... left
The only question remaining is...
Will they softly ..... shut or slam the door .?

A message from hell in children hands.

Don't forgetting how to view the stories in a different lens..
Don’t look out of the window, child the world has gone wild. 
For that isn’t the sound of rain.
Those are fingers sprinting on the fast lane.
It is not in a stadium. 
The lane is on the cell phone screen.
No victor on the podium, It’s just a bunch of texting teens.
I must warn you before I proceed.
That child, the world has already gone wild. 
Cell phones grab the eyeballs of these teens and smear that super-glue of hers, and brings these sticky things into her arms, never letting go.
And then, she seals their lips
And plant their hips
Onto the couch, 
Making them slouch, 
Wasting their lives staring at that little machine and then, that sinister portal sucks out these vibrant souls replace it with ghouls, 
And these teens will just keep on what...
Tapping,
Texting, 
Mailing, 
Internet surfing, 
Never endingly.
Child, don’t be amazed, for this is the world today.
Hear me out, mark the words I say.
Be wary when you get yourself that evil technologies.
Or, do me a favour, crush it, and send it to hell.. Now move on face your reality's.