April Fools

I sit in the corner, depression im bleeding. I sit in the corner, barely breathing.
People stare, they don't admit.
People stare, they laugh at the slits. They don't know how it feels, the pain inside.
They don't know how it feels, to want suicide. When I am gone,
cause the slits went to deep.
When I am gone, the will pretend to cry and weep.
Even though deep inside, they know if they would've helped.
Even though deep inside, I would have stopped if they cared.

I guess it's too late.

Butterflies

In a beautiful butterfly,
Your face comes so true to me.

Through a pretty butterfly
You come flying so serene into me.

As the tiny wings flutter
I watch with love and joy
and wonder how it could be
that I see your face coming to me.

With beauty and grace
you perch among the flowers
as if searching for a special place.
Oh if I could only turn my heart
into a bed of flowers
for you to fly and hide
and secretly whisper to me
with fluttering wings how you love me.

Warm and kind is our friendship
so rare like a beautiful butterfly.

Welcome to my garden of happy thoughts
where butterflies fly along
the paths of lovely flowers.

You are so special in my life.
So innocent and pure is our friendship.
I care for you with a heart full of joy.
You are mine, I love you.

God, help me not to be possessive.
Love is freedom in true sense.
Possession is selfishness.
God, help me not to be possessive.

(When we fall in love, we think love is possessing the other. It takes time and maturity to realize that real love is freedom and never possessive. So we do experience divinity in selfless love).

Stay alive please..

For being a good friend, thank you, I'd never knew that you're my horse to ride on, and to look out on the world
You see through my disguise, You did never let me be that ordinary man.
For the knowledge you instilled in me, now I'm filling out some paperwork,
I search within myself to find a way to put a blame, and queries on you.
When I was a toddler and I didn't.
Did you ever realize, how much I love you.!!!
And the though of losing you brings tears into my eyes and destroy everything beautiful from my vision,
Though you taught me real men... O please ... don't cry, It so hard for me to hold it back.
There are special people around the world, but we "you and i" are so special in this world our own small world. Its hard for them to understand The bond between you and I,
Is what deepens our connection in I, myself, My father and My son.
This is a so very hard day for me my fathers.. please stay strong, just please don't you ever pass away.. don't you know that you will leave me alone in this world.
Thank you, you dedicated me your life
My mentor, the greatest teacher I ever had, not enough to put into words,
I just wish I could, make you proud of me.

This world where i belong

This life is a hospital where every patient is possessed with the desire to change beds; one man would like to suffer in front of the stove, and another believes that he would recover his health beside the window.
It always seems to me that I should feel well in the place where I am not, and this question of removal is one which I discuss incessantly with my soul.
'Tell me, my soul, poor chilled soul, what do you think of going to live in another country...? 
It must be warm there or maybe much colder, and there you would invigorate yourself like a star falling, or just be another stranger in unknown train station. This city is on the sea-shore; or full of deserted land o..
My soul does not reply.
'Since you are so fond of stillness, coupled with the show of movement, would you like to move into Holland,
that beatifying country ? Perhaps you would find some diversion in that land whose image you have so often admired in the art galleries. What do you think of Rotterdam, you who love forests  and ships moored at the foot of houses ?
My soul remains silent.... Not a word. Could my soul be dead ?
'Is it then that you have reached such a degree of lethargy that you acquiesce in your sickness .. it seems to me as another hopeless case ?
At last my soul finally explodes, and wisely cries out to me: 
No matter where ! 
No matter where ! As long as it's out of this world..!

She said, 'First I know you, then I die.'
He said, 'For the one who knows you, there is no dying

Patience

If you want what visible reality can give, you're an employee.
If you want the unseen world, you're not living your truth.
Both wishes are foolish, but you'll be forgiven for forgetting that what you really want is love's confusing joy.
If you show patience, I'll rid you of this virtue.
If you fall asleep, I'll rub the sleep from your eyes.
If you become a mountain, I'll melt you in fire.
And if you become an ocean, I'll drink all your water.

let me paint reality

Someone will say It is abstract And for another It is collage
Some may say It is cubism or Impressionism or Surrealism
But no one will say It is absurd, it is a big lie, it is fall of fake people but above all ... Life is like a painting we can not satisfy every viewer.

mother's day

Life ... every day we dream of conquering new continents and kingdoms without realizing all are illusions
And without realizing the final reality will one day envelop us
So finality is the true reality 
Life, that wonderful dream never meets with reality till its final moment called death, 
that was the only words my dad said the day we grave my mother, happy mother's day Mom may god blessings spreading upon your soul

Untiteld reality.. saturday night

When I'm gone, your tears will be flowin like falls, but I won't know... Cry for me now Instead!
When I'll be dead, will send flowers, but I'won't see them... Send them now instead,
When I'm gone, you will say words of praise, but I won't hear, Praise me now Instead.!
You will forget my faults, When I'll be dead, but I won't know, Forget them now Instead..!
On my way to heaven, you will miss me then, but I won't feel, Instead miss me now.
When I'll be dead, you will wish you had spent more time with me, Spend it now instead.. spend it ... with me now,
Make me feel special, for you never know when time will take me away from you forever. 

Being unique

Of all people who are to come and have gone from this Earth since the begininng of time, Not one of them is like you..
No one who has ever lived or to come has had your combination of abilities, talents, appearance, friends, acquistances, burdens and even your inner sorrows
No one's fingerprints are like yours,
No one prays about exactly the same concerns as you,
No one is loved by same combination of people that love you..... Unduplicateable and Miraculous thing, it's to be you..  you're absolutely unique! 
You're meant to be different, nowhere in history will the same,
Things be going on in anyone's mind, soul, spirit as one going on in yours right now,
If you didn't exist, there would be a hole in my creation, a gap in my history, Something missing from the plan for humankind. 
It's a gift only given to you,
No one can reach out to others in the same way you can,
No one can speak your sweet words,
No one can convey your meaning,
No one can comfort with your hands of solace,
No one can bring your kind of understanding to another person,
No one can be cheerful lighthearted and joyous in your way,
No one can smile like you whilst I'm smiling, 
No one I can love so much like you,
No one I can show such appreciations,
Only you I can love with whole of my heart,
You're unique... that's why i'm unique. 

Forgotten memories

I open my eyes to see the newfound light and my heart takes in another breath of air 
The scream now clutched inside my chest 
I hold it in and the tears bleed from my eyes 
Do you sense the pain inside of me..? 
Can you take my hand and see right threw the mask 
My soul is crying out for anyone to notice me 
Even through a desert full of sand I feel all alone 
Like its just me against the world with no one at my side 
Could you push this all away and bring me back 
Bring me back into the warm comforting light 
The one my heart knew so well 
The desperation's getting to me now 
I can't seem to fight off the sense of desolation 
I can't help it if you don't see all my frustrations
Please.. just erase all the pain that's poisoned my vision 
My face would display for everyone to see 
The poisons seeping threw my vains and fear is triggering a sense of illusion..
I can't tell what's real and what is false 
Kiss me like sleeping beauty and awaken me from this spell 
Hold me close and tell me you'll never let me go 
Listen to the way my heart beats, it only skips one for you but could you pull me threw the darkness 
I know you can see me very well but my own sight is clouded and I can't find my way 
I need you to guide me and help me discover 
The things my heart always knew 
Whisper into my ear four single words "I'm still loving you "
To break my bind into the shadows 
I'll always come back to you 
Regardless if you want me too 
I love you will always weaken my heart 
But I breath out my emotions each time its spoken 
I fear this more than anything in the world 
But once embraced its like weight is pulled off my back 
My wings can expand and I can fly all over again 
Kiss me to drain the poison from my blood 
Will you take the dagger out of my back..? 
And throw it to the ground 
Are all the words I uttered to you? 
Just a whisper that the winds now carries away 
Was love  just a figment of my imagination and what still remaining is a boring life ? 
Now forever lost in the clouds of confusion 
I swear I saw the love in your eyes .. When you placed your lips on mine, oh.. 
For the first time I felt fully alive like nothing in the world could break me 
I know I may not be easy to love but could you at least give it a try 
I see something good still locked in your smile 
And I want to discover what it is that intrigues me 
I know you could heal me but is it worth the shot 
My hearts so use to being bruised and broken 
Is it really worth your aggravation and dedication? 
Would you really try to put me together again? 
Because I know you could if you tried 
It's just a matter of how and when will you achieve it 
Please don't let me be devoured by everything I feared 
I don't want to fade away, I don't want to die away from you.. 
I can feel my heart beat, I have to be alive 
I'm not just a forgotten memory 
I am someone who could make you strong 
But I need to have a little work done 
I need to be reconstructed and taught again 
I remember how it is to love 
But I need to feel it to see it clearly 
Will you takes my hand and show me 
Or will you let me fade away to become forgotten memories 

Until you change

Until you change nothing shall change 
Start liking people around , visit the visible ground 
You will find many .. Who suffer cheap mentality? 
Yet they survive and live 
It is not question of simply living 
It is quest for believing 
The secrets of life and its purpose 
These all one has to choose 
People may enter and go, But when will you blow? 
Your trumpet and let the voice out 
So decide 
And don't hide 
It is your life and goal 
So think calmly and give call

Only you..

The sky, simple blue, 
Casting down its morning dew, 
Sprinkling the ground in a gentle hue, 
Of what I couldn't have, but didn't do.
Yet still, always, want to 
That was for you..and only you.

I knew you are a man

When times are tough and you feel like you are being destroyed.. 
Keep strong, Keep brave
When you feel like crying.... Cry
When you feel like laughing... Laugh
When you feel like shouting out loud to yourself ... Do it
Keep going, Keep strong
So it is with life...
we may not see life turning around
we may feel you are the bottom
But wait.. Its hard, the wheel of life does turn, slowly, but surely
we will be there again
we will be strong again
I write this while I am at the bottom, Knowing one day with only god help, I reach my destination .. i'll know the reason behind, so... Don’t listen to those who say you can’t.
You can!
Keep going.
Keep strong.
you know you can.

no matter what..

No matter what happens I’ll always be by your side,
No matter what comes your way I’ll always love you,
No matter what life hands you I’ll always be there to help,
No matter what you go through I’ll always understand,
No matter what tries to separate us I’ll never let it happen,
No matter what we need to do I’ll always do it,
No matter when
No matter who
No matter where
No matter why, you’ll always have my heart.

No matter who will change the world

There

comes a time in our lives when we have to say no.
A time we have to let our own opinion and thoughts to show.
The thought of each individual is priceless and unique.
So let your voice be heard, stand up and speak!
It is your mission, what you have to do,
no one else will get the message through.
So make your stand, say what you need to say,
change the world a little each day.
say what you need to say, and do what you need to do,
change the world...don't let it change you. 

Single blink

Trapped

in the fog of an ever changing dream.
Swimming through the currents of time.
High on a fiery mountain covered in steam.
Lost in a forest of tall wood pine.
Stranded on a sandy island beach.
Watching the auroras in the northern sky's.
Listening to a world with lessons to teach.
This all happens when I close my eyes.
These things that I see.
The wonders of the world could pass you by.
It goes to show you how much can change,
In the single blink of an eye. 

Color of life,

A

sunset makes us feel as though the world has been born again.
A life with love lets us know it's worth to let someone in.
A rainbow with colors thats a moment frozen in time, to be grateful for all that is beautiful and feel all the glory inside.
A heart that has feelings, well that would be me.
For I love just the thought of you and hope you feel the same for me again.. for,
A Sunset without a sun is no sunset at all.
A life without love is no life at all.
A rainbow without colors is no rainbow at all.
And heart without feelings is no human at all.
All these things need something to be, either a sun or a person or a crayon, If only to create what nature said was meant to be.

She is a teacher..

Life is a teacher, 
Which teaches how to live, which teaches how to win, which teaches how to laugh, which teaches how to make other people cry.
Which teaches how to love, which teaches how to hate and how to win honour, which teaches how to embarrass others.
Indeed, life is a great teacher as it teaches everything and in this very greatness lies life's weakness, that it teaches everything.
It teaches how to love, but also teaches how to hate.
It teaches how to help, but also teaches how to harm.
It teaches how to honour others, but also teaches how to embarrass others, how to laugh, but also teaches how to make other people cry.
Wish life were a bit selective in its teaching.
But can't we be a bit selective in taking lessons..!

Another Language

Everything except language knows the meaning of existence.
Trees, planets, rivers, time know nothing else. They express it moment by moment as the universe.
Even this fool of a body lives it in part, and would have full dignity within it but for the ignorant silence of my talking mind.