These few weeks I reverted back to the old me, The pain I hide away so no one will again see, except in what i ink I’m fine happy I will say, I detest lying but others prefer it that way.
I try to be there just listen whatever happens to you, even I’m crashing badly somehow this I still can do, I feel weak, sick, tired, exhausted in reality, No one realizes how bad it is as they don’t care about me.
I guess I now know just badness bad luck to others I bring, So I ought to just die so I don’t hurt others with this evil thing, I hate me for spoiling things and bringing others down, So I have to self-destruct in silence and never show a frown.
I guess when I see someone is happy I should not stay, Because I will chase their happiness good fortune away, For others have more value purpose that is sadly true, They deserve to be happy and I mustn’t make them blue.
So pain, hurt, frustrations I will just file away and hide, as silently crying as I just die more and more inside,I survive only to serve my family to try let them live, to repay them for all that they have to others give.
When this is over at last I can at last go permanently away, I’m too tired now and have no other reason to on this earth stay.
Out of love, a person need to maintains a balance of feeling, for some are destructive and others giving healing... Some gave us great joy.. whereas others are sad, Can you see, they can be good or painful and bad.
As we rise joyfully high then to depths we fall, A balance of life is there for us all.
We have these two huge extremes... To appreciate the opposite to "me" it seems.
When the darkness falls we'd not fight, If we were never filled with good light
Opposites are always there and always inside we kept, for we've all experienced joy then to have wept.
So darling, when next time it seems again all is sadly tossed... And life meaning and purpose has been lost, just remember though bad, the opposites still near.. We keep trying, we must have faith.... and good sooner or later will .... appear.
And for your morning I'm sending a gentle touch of love for
kindness bears the sweetest fruit, that makes our dreams come true.
Touch my heart and I'll touch yours, guide me when I'm blind, for a good
heart, good love and good friends are hard to find.
Touch my heart and
I'll touch yours, a little more each day, may we both find happiness,
somewhere along our way.
In the darkness as the flame flickers up high above... you make my heart melt from your
candle of love.
You give me light, when I can't see... you take my
sadness, and set it free.
Promise me to be always there, day or
night... you guide me in, with your shimmering light.
You will be there to
warm my feelings when I am cold, always around for me to hold.
You have understanding, and show me concern, forever in my heart,
your candle will burn. When the power is out, you're always there, to
give me comfort, and show me care.
This may be a
poem or maybe not, but the feelings are real, from your candle of love, you made me
feel. How proud I am, to be at your side, now I have light, I don't have
to hide. For you my dear, you make me live, in
return, I'd like my all to give.
The most true meanings of love we hear it without the accent of words.... The most beautiful vision of life we see not with eyes but through our feelings... The magic of charming music is felt in our heart with the soul ... not our ears,
We all have the same senses yet not all of us knew how to use it.
You see, you want me to
run towards success because it does not have legs ... but I prefer to
crawl towards the house where my love is waiting for me.
You see the poet beneath my words, when I prefer the child who drives my emotions towards you.
How beautiful it is when we write words remain by some as beautiful and seen by some as expressive and
influential, and seen by others as meaningless... while there are few who know what is hiding behind its queues.
Do you ever before knew that life isn't only the pleasure of vanity, for there is still this special kinds of human whom never regret for a second about them honest intention, And even for them greed-less deeds in this life , even if they found not anyone who he appreciates them as it should.
They will stay proud that them were and still remains humans carrying a heart of gold.
Yeah. It is painful for anyone to promise you to stay forever in your life, for he will not go away, but he will make you leave by his vanity actions toward you.. and then,
Only then you will discover the end of your validity in them hearts and finally you will not waste your time in inquiries when there is no place to
express ... you will carry away with you the dignity still remains in your vain, got the lesson and just wake away knowing that life was only the pleasure of vanity to some people.
You are a cloud came down heavily as a drizzling rain in my life, which has been suffering from a Long drastic drought, Flooded me with flashed happiness and joy.
You are the moon came down suddenly in my life, which has been covered with damn darkness, you showered me with your sluttish light and rrepelled my every stoic lethargy.
You are wind but rushed down as a seditious storm overturn my road in the psychic deep sea .. Yet guided me to the unknown ... exciting, surprising and wonderful
You come in again and again in my life as a light as a wind, as a rain
I wish you to remain in my life forever even if forever was a lie and drain
My darling when she promises me I see the world is laughing at me, And when her soul arrived, it delighted me leaving me thinking about what could happen to my life without her,
I forget all existence around. It does not occur to me as if my world had no sound
And when the mold changes... And my heart becomes in turmoil, O.. With thoughts coming into my mind the fire and puzzled by ... my soul start to weeping,
My darling ... after night comes the light, and after the clouds there are spring and flowers.
Love is like this, intercourse, auctioneer, satisfaction and adversity. and from this and that no doubt love is you.
I would do anything just to see you once even it was my last time, where I could hold you in my arms and look deep into your beautiful soul... And tell you how much I'm missing your presence in my life ,
One last time that I could see your beautiful smile,
One last time to feel your lips touch mine,
Its unacceptable for me to say goodbye before our combine,
I wished this moment would come.. I prayed every night, hoping that my worst fear wouldn’t come true but as the day that we can't get closer... I know that my prayers have gone unanswered, Its hard to believe that we can't be closer soon.. you, you are,
A person that brought so much joy, intelligence and means to my life, A person that made everything seem so perfect, A person that four thousands away from my side.
I'd never thought I would fall so mad for anybody, you’re the angel that stole my heart and I hope you know that my heart will always be with you, no matter where you are for you’ll always have a place in my heart, I’ll carry you with me everywhere
and we'll never be apart.
I'm sorry
I failed to be in time as a man
I'm responsible for this situation
I can't live without you
and if i said you are free, then you are free only to love me more.
When will i ever wake up from this nightmare it is daytime i see the suns bright glare, i feel as it's all a bad dream but I'm awake, i want to run away, i want to escape my body can't take much more there's too much sadness soon my mind will be driven to madness.
how much can one person handle, I'm in total despair i need time, time for my mind and body to repair... life is not perfect and easy nor do i expect it to be but it shouldn't be this hard... do you not see..!
Please help me wake up from this nightmare of mine... i doubt that I can take any more, no, not this time, I have no patient to wait another four months, I'm a human with a feelings vanish everyday in a world where love has no doors opened.
I gave you myself, the mine, I and me but I'm not a toy for you to play, to use, then go on your way
I'm here for your amusement, but I don't have to accept the abuse you sent
I'm a person, if you can believe, I'm for your sadness to... relieve, I've feelings too, just like you, well your supposed to
I except to be for you something to wipe your feet on but I.. am.. not here for to beat on,
You cant steal more feelings of me anymore, I left in shadows, but I closed that door.
Maybe I'm nothing, worthless, useless or even dead, but as you said " I'm nothing then Who you are..!!"
See, I'm a person, I've a name, I'm not a toy, in a game.
If you think when the mind took over your actions, you will grew stronger. and then the heart wouldn't hurt any longer. O, so please answer me..!
why does the mind know deep inside, what the heart chooses blindly to hide..!
why does the head never agree, why can't the heart ever see..!
why is the mind so weak, when the heart starts to speak...!
why won't the mind take the lead, even if the heart starts to plead.
Being in love is something people say they can handle, but is it true ?
Some people say that to be in love is very confusing, ... is it really ?
Some
people say that love is something that cannot be handled with care you
have to be responsible enough to understand the meaning of the word.....
So what is next ?
You tell me... for depression is a feeling too, That you get inside of your heart, is a place that hurts... something self cannot get passed with any art.
It is like a puzzle... you have to find all of the right pieces.
It is a game ... it can be taken literally or it cannot be taken literally..
It is confusing sometimes.... Only if you have the hang of things and if not then you will be lost and never find your way back..!
Life..!
Why i feels like losing self control.. O
Long after sunset I saw seven doves fly in a line, low over the waters of the Egyptian Nile.
They followed a path laid down by the moon to bring them home safe to where Nbms laying in his final destination.
Alone out of time in my mind’s eye ... still they fly, as they always flew low, over the Nile
in single file homeward to Nbms, who dwells in a humble house at the further end of the silver path to the moon.
If not for poverty, could I turn great.?
If not for miseries, could I change fate.?
If not for enemies, could I be sane.?
If not for evil minds, could I God gain.?
Some people complaining from poverty while poverty for me is best teacher;
Some people are so greedy when selflessness has been my best helper;
Some deal with life as misery while my miseries have been my best lover;
Some forgot about God, when my love of God has been my best Master.
I'm not planing to be great, or even change my fate.. Just a simple life in our heavenly gate.
You think life is neither an illusion or a field for battle..!
Yet in my world it’s a going on journey though different kinds of people which may not feel it like the way they do not know anything about what happens around them.... When they are in deep sleep.
If I count the heads under this weakness body, O.. They are many under my shed
All poor minds and weak personality, just to avoid torture my shadow they seek
They choose my shelter to taste justice and to get fresh air away from the greed, letting them deeds out, behind the wall.
With an open door where I lay like home for wretched and poor minds.
