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Tell me, what I should do and still I didn't do it. What I missed to be the man who can fit, My life you have taken, my heat you have gotten... All love words had written, words I new its meaning and even the words meanings I've forgotten. Tell me, what I should do and still I didn't do it, what I missed to be that man . . . before I'll leave this earth and waiting you in the other side with a tear telling you "I'm still waiting for you see how fool you were. ..!"
Clinging to the tone of deprivation and kept complaining, letting subject goes astray, neither the sweetness you saw helped you nor the tenderness you feel everyday, and I know there's nothing will intercede to my heart saving it from that sway, Am I hurting you, O.. be honest for you have the ability to hurt a country... I'll leave you for there is nothing left you can do but killing me, I'll leave you and abandon you forever for you think you bought me, I'll leave you for the "I" in me shout, and the "you" with hopeless doubt, will never be "we".
When you lose your love to someone in the mist, it is the "I" who is lost, and then you fell like it is both who are you need the most... And nothing is ever as the same as you want it to be. We live in a very ordinary world, can't you just see, any extraordinary pain mixed with the small routines, our loss seems huge and yet nothing can be pinned down or fully explained, for you are afraid if you found the perfect love, it would scald your hands, You push and push to lose your love for him and then it is him who is lost... You tried not to hurt and yet,, everything you touched in his fragile world became a wound, then you tried to mend what cannot be mended, you tried, neither by your vanity nor tenderly, to rescue what cannot be rescued. My darling... You failed, for nothing is ever as perfect as you want it to be.
And I was light a candle into your night before it getting dark For one only has one life and it's time to make our own mark. So... Please pray for hope and be strong, and if in your lips I needs to believe , I wish that nothing tonight will go wrong. goodnight, google fan's
Put these words in your mind and feel them with your heart. femininity isn't to show men much attractions or the beauty of your body or even how smart you are... For If this was the criterion for evaluation, then bars and brothels would be the first targets of men to search for what they need, femininity standard in my life dictionary is to be chastity, inhibition, abashment From the other hand, real men not whom Stringy, Fanatic opinion, Moody. And not of course the drinkers. Manhood is literature in treatment others.
Right now I just want to come to terms, search for hope, and pray for pleases you through words. Dreamland is for lost souls, and not for tending, I am still here hoping and your attitude still need to amending. No brash word or song will say goodbye... It is my fight for hope it is not about your lie. Please don't close your eyes tonight.. I see you are wishing to reverse that fight. One doesn't know the way life turns out and It is good that life goes so round about. I feel no regrets to be part of these five years... because tomorrow ... may have more fears I might have only one moment left in this earth to stay, But my force will never leave... today.
No one can be ever be completely good or bad, Live makes us flit between happy or sad. No one is just clever we can all be fools, Whatever happens we are all life’s tools. Some our words they manipulate and us vexed, Repeat our words completely out of context. False images are formed masquerading as truth, This deception has been practiced by most since youth But the truth will always win as it reveals itself gently,, The falsehoods appear and shrivel away sometimes slowly, So try stay true adapt as life’s makes us ebb and flow, Throughout our real true soul will truly show However elaborate the lies, while the plain truth they refuse to accept, One day they have to face it and finally their lies will be met,
Somewhere on this earth there's a place waiting for us willingly. Someday we may discover our real destiny Somewhere beneath the hill, a hope hidden carefully Someday you may find your heart soul lie in paradise peacefully Somewhere we will find that offers total tranquility Someday we will uncover true love for eternity
You think I'm a fool, just like any unwanted tool, Residing at the bottom of the tool box, decaying rusting unwanted to all. I cling to false hope of love and help them to things mend I try all possibilities to give my best but they just fling me back beneath the rest I gave my all to help again but to try to speak I'm the lowest of men It proves I'm the least important tool of all, So into the bottom of the tool box again I fall.
These few weeks I reverted back to the old me, The pain I hide away so no one will again see, except in what i ink I’m fine happy I will say, I detest lying but others prefer it that way. I try to be there just listen whatever happens to you, even I’m crashing badly somehow this I still can do, I feel weak, sick, tired, exhausted in reality, No one realizes how bad it is as they don’t care about me. I guess I now know just badness bad luck to others I bring, So I ought to just die so I don’t hurt others with this evil thing, I hate me for spoiling things and bringing others down, So I have to self-destruct in silence and never show a frown. I guess when I see someone is happy I should not stay, Because I will chase their happiness good fortune away, For others have more value purpose that is sadly true, They deserve to be happy and I mustn’t make them blue. So pain, hurt, frustrations I will just file away and hide, as silently crying as I just die more and more inside,I survive only to serve my family to try let them live, to repay them for all that they have to others give. When this is over at last I can at last go permanently away, I’m too tired now and have no other reason to on this earth stay.
Out of love, a person need to maintains a balance of feeling, for some are destructive and others giving healing... Some gave us great joy.. whereas others are sad, Can you see, they can be good or painful and bad. As we rise joyfully high then to depths we fall, A balance of life is there for us all. We have these two huge extremes... To appreciate the opposite to "me" it seems. When the darkness falls we'd not fight, If we were never filled with good light Opposites are always there and always inside we kept, for we've all experienced joy then to have wept. So darling, when next time it seems again all is sadly tossed... And life meaning and purpose has been lost, just remember though bad, the opposites still near.. We keep trying, we must have faith.... and good sooner or later will .... appear.
And for your morning I'm sending a gentle touch of love for
kindness bears the sweetest fruit, that makes our dreams come true. Touch my heart and I'll touch yours, guide me when I'm blind, for a good
heart, good love and good friends are hard to find. Touch my heart and
I'll touch yours, a little more each day, may we both find happiness,
somewhere along our way.
In the darkness as the flame flickers up high above... you make my heart melt from your
candle of love. You give me light, when I can't see... you take my
sadness, and set it free. Promise me to be always there, day or
night... you guide me in, with your shimmering light. You will be there to
warm my feelings when I am cold, always around for me to hold. You have understanding, and show me concern, forever in my heart,
your candle will burn. When the power is out, you're always there, to
give me comfort, and show me care. This may be a
poem or maybe not, but the feelings are real, from your candle of love, you made me
feel. How proud I am, to be at your side, now I have light, I don't have
to hide. For you my dear, you make me live, in
return, I'd like my all to give.
The most true meanings of love we hear it without the accent of words.... The most beautiful vision of life we see not with eyes but through our feelings... The magic of charming music is felt in our heart with the soul ... not our ears, We all have the same senses yet not all of us knew how to use it. You see, you want me to
run towards success because it does not have legs ... but I prefer to
crawl towards the house where my love is waiting for me. You see the poet beneath my words, whenI prefer the child who drives my emotions towards you. How beautiful it is when we write words remain by some as beautiful and seen by some as expressive and
influential, and seen by others as meaningless... while there are few who know what is hiding behind its queues.
Do you ever before knew that life isn't only the pleasure of vanity, for there is still this special kinds of human whom never regret for a second about them honest intention, And even for them greed-less deeds in this life , even if they found not anyone who he appreciates them as it should. They will stay proud that them were and still remains humans carrying a heart of gold. Yeah. It is painful for anyone to promise you to stay forever in your life, for he will not go away, but he will make you leave by his vanity actions toward you.. and then, Only then you will discover the end of your validity in them hearts and finally you will not waste your time in inquiries when there is no place to
express ... you will carry away with you the dignity still remains in your vain, got the lesson and just wake away knowing that life was only the pleasure of vanity to some people.
You are a cloud came down heavily as a drizzling rain in my life, which has been suffering from a Long drastic drought, Flooded me with flashed happiness and joy. You are the moon came down suddenly in my life, which has been covered with damn darkness, you showered me with your sluttish light and rrepelled my every stoic lethargy. You are wind but rushed down as a seditious storm overturn my road in the psychic deep sea .. Yet guided me to the unknown ... exciting, surprising and wonderful You come in again and again in my life as a light as a wind, as a rain I wish you to remain in my life forever even if forever was a lie and drain
My darling when she promises me I see the world is laughing at me, And when her soul arrived, it delighted me leaving me thinking about what could happen to my life without her, I forget all existence around.It does not occur to me as if my world had no sound And when the mold changes... And my heart becomes in turmoil, O.. With thoughts coming into my mind the fire and puzzled by ... my soul start to weeping, My darling ... after night comes the light, and after the clouds there are spring and flowers. Love is like this, intercourse, auctioneer, satisfaction and adversity. and from this and that no doubt love is you.
I would do anything just to see you once even it was my last time, where I could hold you in my arms and look deep into your beautiful soul... And tell you how much I'm missing your presence in my life , One last time that I could see your beautiful smile, One last time to feel your lips touch mine, Its unacceptable for me to say goodbye before our combine, I wished this moment would come.. I prayed every night, hoping that my worst fear wouldn’t come true but as the day that we can't get closer... I know that my prayers have gone unanswered, Its hard to believe that we can't be closer soon.. you, you are, A person that brought so much joy, intelligence and means to my life, A person that made everything seem so perfect, A person that four thousands away from my side. I'd never thought I would fall so mad for anybody, you’re the angel that stole my heart and I hope you know that my heart will always be with you, no matter where you are for you’ll always have a place in my heart, I’ll carry you with me everywhere and we'll never be apart.
I'm sorry I failed to be in time as a man I'm responsible for this situation I can't live without you and if i said you are free, then you are free only to love me more.
When will i ever wake up from this nightmare it is daytime i see the suns bright glare, i feel as it's all a bad dream but I'm awake, i want to run away, i want to escape my body can't take much more there's too much sadness soon my mind will be driven to madness. how much can one person handle, I'm in total despair i need time, time for my mind and body to repair... life is not perfect and easy nor do i expect it to be but it shouldn't be this hard... do you not see..! Please help me wake up from this nightmare of mine... i doubt that I can take any more, no, not this time, I have no patient to wait another four months, I'm a human with a feelings vanish everyday in a world where love has no doors opened.
