ماتت... ماتت بمحراب عينيك ابتهالاتي

ماتت بمحراب عينيك ابتهالاتي... واستسلمت لرياح اليأس راياتي
جفت على بابك الموصود أزمنتي... ليلى وما أثمرت شيئاً نداءاتي
عامان ما رف لي لحن على وتر ولا استفاقت على نور سماواتي
اعتق الحب في قلبي وأعصره فأرشف الهم في مغبرّ كاساتي
ممزق أنا لا جاه ولا ترف يغريكِ فيَّ فخليني لآهاتي
لو تعصرين سنين العمر أكملها لسال منها نزيف من جراحاتي
لو كنت ذا ترف ما كنت رافضة حبي... ولكن عسر الحال مأساتي
عانيت لا حزني أبوح به ولست تدرين شيئاً عن معاناتي
أمشي وأضحك يا ليلى مكابرةً علي أخبي عن الناس احتضاراتي
لا الناس تعرف ما أمري فتعذرني ولا سبيل لديهم في مواساتي
يرسو بجفني حرمان يمص دمي ويستبيح إذا شاء ابتساماتي
معذورة أنتِ إن أجهضت لي أملي لا الذنب ذنبك بل كانت حماقاتي
أضعت في عرض الصحراء قافلتي فمضيت أبحث في عينيك عن ذاتي
وجئت أحضانك الخضراء منتشياً كالطفل أحمل أحلامي البريئاتِ
غرست كفك تجتثين أوردتي وتسحقين بلا رفق مسراتي
واغربتاه... مضاعٌ هاجرت مدني عني وما أبحرت منها شراعاتي
نُفيت واستوطن الأغراب في بلدي ومزقوا كل أشيائي الحبيبات
خانتك عيناك في زيف وفي كذب أم غرّك البهرج الخداع … مولاتي
فراشة جئت ألقي كحل أجنحتي لديك فاحترقت ظلماً جناحاتي
أصيح والسيف مزروع بخاصرتي والغدر حطم آمالي العريضات
وأنت أيضاً ألا تبّت يداكِ إذا آثرتِ قتلي واستعذبت أنّاتي
من لي بحذف اسمك الشفاف من لغتي إذاً ستمسي بلا سحرٌٌٌُُ ٌ حكاياتي.

Who controls the universe

I try to evaluate the pain and sufferings, What was wrong with his message of offering ?
Compassion and peace to all with Almighty's blessings, I wondered and knelt down with pain for people's doing... It makes me to cry more, I search soul and try to explore,
What might have gone wrong at that time ?
Why people should resort to cruelty sometimes ?
All prophets descended the earth with one mission, Take out the blind faith and teach them the power of confession, No word is as holy as confession itself if done with earnest desire, Surrender to thee with no more unholy acts before life expires.
I read and reread as my lady once said about divine light, no where I found hatred to my delight. "Love the neighbor and love the poor, serve the man if he is suffering next door"
All good people here in recent times have met with ugly death, life mission incomplete and fired from gun with bullets, God give him good sense as they are misguided, the last words from their mouth have certainly provided
Why someone should feel hurt from my utterances ?
Why should I try to create hatred with harsh sentences ?
I love to read all such sentences which forbid, make the people to understand and wisely follow the lead.. and to any faith that preaches love I shall bow my head,
Shuns the violence and firmly believes in his power and blindly follows on what is good, digests its teachings and consumes it as rich food.
Don't tell me that no one knows about who controls the universe..!
Why do we still reflect unawareness with fears..!
Let us not divide ourselves and create golden cages, for no one may remember what we wrote on page.

She is following me,

It is burning desire from heart of a lover, He can’t hide it from anybody under any kind of cover.
It may come to be known to every one, It may move on smoothly if objected by none, It may remain his exclusive desire to go for it... even alone, for he wants her to remain under his exclusive domain.
His main worry is just how to keep her by his side, She should remain there and stay permanently beside.
He may act unwise and dream in fool’s paradise, but he has many dreams to materialize, he builds castle in the air and wants to realize, yet she can't help him to live like king’s size, there is nothing wrong if nothing goes wrong and boat to capsize

It may be strong desire to move hand in hand, she may have to side with him and act as friend, This may possible be the road to fine end, flowers of all kinds with best wishes are daily sent.
He would want to her to remain at door steps, he must welcome her try to help, The relaxation can be extended by her kind gesture, the happiness may always be there if she is completely sure.
Who will not his companion to remain always in sight..!
She will come willingly to the cause whether wrong or right, It will be earnest attempt to walk along in difficult time, the priorities may be different but goal will remain as prime
It is not mad man’s race to go for it and capture, It may develop crack and relations stand to rupture, It needs confidence building with full trust, to win over the hear is condition and must.
Let us not remain confined to desires and wait it to come, Everybody may think of it and try to overcome, Sincere trial may be good step and welcome, It is desirable to prove worth of it or try to become.
It is not wrong to dream about future course, It has to be based on realities of course, It may not run aground for the want of reality, It has to have complete theme with continuity
It may add to fragrance with good smell, There may be different stories to tell, The desires can be met if everything goes well, It will be surrender not arising out of sale.

Ray of hope,

When nothing is left to remember, When no one is ready to accept me ... as member
What shall I do to remove the misgivings.?
Why do they need lips service and thanks giving.?
When dreams are shattered you have no way to go, You will have to make all out efforts and full weight to throw.
It is human psychology that works behind.?
Nothing works except few words of any kind, 
Nothing can be built on ashes, It comes all of sudden and finishes  
If it may be possible for you to raise new order, then life may still prove to be little harder.
Why not go as possible and easy way.?
letting me wonder if ... At the end of tunnel there is bright ray..!
Anyway it was never a thought in mind, exact reason I could not find... I really felt it was asking for something more, do I really had to think and explore.
I so sample and just needed a nice company, though I was blessed without enough of money, but if I was had enough, But really it was not so... and proving, O' it's very tough.
Romance always is my first choice, I had hidden feelings but could not voice, I wanted to shout on top of the roof, as I was lone soul and remained aloof.
It is divine gift to be given to a lonely soul, Entire world is dependent on it .. as whole, Nothing wrong in it If one goes for it.. You may head towards right direction on feet.
Let not be considered as simple game, One should bow down head and in loving you feel no shame, It is bound to take place and come, It is nice step and we need to welcome.
abandonment was as feel void in life, though it is like cutting edge of knife, One may feel something short of accomplishment, but still your companionship is like glorious moments.
And so, with time I realized that it is hard mission and not easy, though it engages us and keeps busy, there are lot many things to be done, Though the real battle is yet to be won.
It may not turn sordid affair, The chances are very fair, You got to take every care, firm commitments for doing fare.
We may move on smoothly, Everything can be tackled easily, for my darling romance can be built up only on definite trust, This is open criteria and must,

I'm with you

When the memory is strong, and something has gone wrong ... with no mood to sing a song but to keep silence and remain silent among.
When it has the direct bearing, the body is apart tearing ... the pain takes over the mind, where no way remains open solace to find.
When in love or no love, we must believe ... And in the real world we barely can live, and love is merely the strange fold.
How can I wish you sweet dreams when I get no sleep..?
Sleepless nights make me nervous and compel to weep, All great hopes are in tact with me and I shall always keep, I shall try to reach you even if path is dangerous and steep.
The stars may not shine, they may feel bad and not feel fine,
They may hide the face in clouds, we won’t be able to hear it loud,
The moon has also lost its charm, It has not remained cool and lost its warmth
No one can dream of sad event... It lacks warmth and nothing to comment,
When the memory is strong, and something has gone wrong ... with no mood to sing a song but to keep silence and remain silent among, I'm with you.. I'm with you.

When you suggested to me let us meet anywhere..

In a place Where existence is not there, We then will have enough freedom, With close quarter and ruling the wisdom, We exchanged so many pleasantries, Life was to level with your words and commentaries, No distance seemed between ocean and countries, Neither mountains, hills nor any boundaries, We had feelings for each other, Relation still didn't grow any further, when eyes never met any longer yet it still said what words failed to one another, Let us not forget this moment and bother .. I prayed for god sincerely for your hand, He smiled and blessings lend, I looked at you for further acceptance, you accepted it without any insistence, Now I have enough courage and bold strength, however I couldn't go and meet you at any length, Is it not necessary to see each other before we marry..!
Life' as challenge was to be understood and carry, One's was hesitant for slight moment, He too did not allow me for single movement, Slight delay was causing me some concern, I was not prepared for sudden and any 'U' turn, I offered my self for holy deal, I was there for his wounds to heal, With only condition for him to make you in my world... real, Waited for his approval for the final seal.
What word was I expecting from any mouth..., I did not care whether you were from north or south, I wanted firm commitment and promise, Relation was to be permanent. I was not here for simple game, He was not here for charge or fame, it was an earnest attempt to do with sincerity, What was at stake... Nothing but simple clarity,
I didn't know what all I did, conscious very clear and didn't hide, talks very clear and nothing to confide, sincere desire with best offer to provide. I am not sure of what others might say. I want to have perfect love in my way, then you came and grab me for ever, O god.. I want to rest on her shoulder forever.
He must know what I am and what does it mean..? I can offer my complete conscience and lean,  I want to know definitely and precisely learn, Will there be any treachery or any ugly turn..?
She can be whole and sole for me, I may consider her as holy gift from thee, Since I know she is meant for my existence, I simply don't worry for her continued absence,
See to it that it is done with all good show, Allow me the freedom to mushroom and grow, I will stand all the taste of cruel wind, I stand there alone ... and you for me.. should find.

dreaming isn't enough

All dreams may not come true... All credits due may not accrue... But with true reflection in mind, Ideas newer and newer may emerge and find, though may not be the nature too so kind.
Dreaming in day time is not at all good, for good thoughts and efforts work as food, Earnest efforts to come out of wood, Failure may stun and you loose the hope, Still not difficult to walk on tight rope.
It is not bad to dream for high sky, Speak always truth and do not lie, You may not have wings to fly, Still nothing wrong to work and try, No need to think or needlessly cry.
You must have third sense to rise, All acts should be sensible and wise, Rise and fall is part of our life game, Goal and ideas you must frame, No use trying luck or fate to blame.
What ever you do must be with resolve, Take full blame and never try to absolve, Put in best efforts to come out and solve, Full dedication and make everybody to involve, Try to mix with all as soluble dissolve.
Complete days routine and reflections of day's thoughts, In night, thoughts clash and hard won battles are fought, Freedom and joy sincerely thought and brought, Stealing in day time but not easily caught, Simply night dreaming when lying in the cot.
Continue to seek solution in dream, Energy not focused but travel in beam, Try very hard and work as team, Good efforts in direction but not as power game, Not letting any opportunity with excuses lame
So I find easy way to seek refuge in night, Lie low and have good say without light, more and more attention I try to pay, Always hope to find way in form of ray.
Life doesn't end with setting of day, Sun may rise again with bright ray, Your hopes may be high and tall, Vast horizon may lie open for all, Try for success without any fall.

the magic answer.

There is something like conscience... It gives light in its presence, The soul is awakening to experience... All gates are opened hence
The answer was just before.. I had to go no where, to seek just an answer... The opportunity waited there.
You may come out from long sleep... There may be even chance to silently peep, This may keep you in good spirit... The light will be dimly lit
We aren't fresh like green leaf.. Just emerged but stay for brief, One slow shake from the wind... The virtual ground place to find.
Whether you understand or neglect... Choice is nearly open to select,.. There has to be clear ad visible act.. This is reality and fact,
We may not realize it till the life come to an end, Don't.. This isn't negative and suicidal trend... We got to think and make amend,... This beautiful message is to be spread and sent.
There may not come any warning... The answer lies with only you.. for very good morning,
The night and end cycle may repeat without fail.. so, we may seek His blessings and avail.

this..

 عندما تزرف آخر قطرات الحنين. 

وترى الحب... اطياف يملؤها الانين.

 اجساد نضب بها الامل... بين بؤس و ليين

 لا تسألني يا حبيبي. هل لازلت... لحبك... مدين.!
فالعشق بلا رحمة.. ملحد ... بلا دين.

honored promise.

When the sun will set over our crowns of ego, there will be few seconds left no time for regrets... Thousand of memories will struggling silently to pictured itself in the apple of our fading colors, 
until horizon will hold that priceless last Ray, until the light will dimming in that deep blue infinity carring countless unfinished hopes into the land of oblivion, 
at this very moment.. I give you my honored promise... I'll only recall your name.

To you.. who sow wisdom

To you who sow wisdom will reap plenty of intelligence and adorn them on your mind like gracious morning sunbeam.
wits for it will not vanish from the dusk to dawn and blessings from heaven with an angels sing the daybreak tune.
To you who plow thousand fields of honor and integrity, who count pearls in the oceans and dive into the deepest sea with minimal understands how life goes in a simple way, and how humans secrets keep.
whichever... there's no place to escape away from reality, nor escape from reveal.
To you who can't say a word, your silence always in my mind screams, hidden a thousand answers with a tenderly dream.
To you who have the reason to deem, judge not thy who... who writes impossible dream, let him reap the result of thy tilling, and fill his baskets with hope, to the journey he is simply failed to aim.

A day before I giving birth.

When fear puts you in dismay
It may be hard to find your way
When this is so, stand up and say
That the fear just cannot stay
And then the fear will go away.
Though I lack the courage
To heed my own words
I urge you to listen
To what you have heard
Stand up to your fears whatever they are
And show them that they can't stop you from being a star

أ.. ب .. سياسه

سئل  طفل والده : ما معنى الفساد السياسي
فأجابه : لن أخبرك يا بني لانه صعب عليك في هذا السن،لكن دعني أقرب لك الموضوع
انا اصرف على البيت لذلك فلنطلق علي اسم الرأسمالية...
و امك تنظم شؤون البيت لذلك سنطلق عليها اسم الحكومة...
و انت تحت تصرفها لذلك فسنطلق عليك اسم الشعب...
و اخوك الصغير هو املنا فسنطلق عليه اسم المستقبل...
اما الخادمة التي عندنا فهي تعيش من ورائنا فسنطلق عليها اسم القوى الكادحة
اذهب يا بني وفكر عساك تصل الى نتيجة.....
و في الليل لم يستطع الطفل ان ينام .. فنهض من نومه قلقآ و سمع صوت أخيه الصغير يبكي فذهب اليه فوجده بل حفاضته.
ذهب ليخبر امه فوجدها غارقة في نوم عميق ولم تستيقظ ،
و تعجب أن والده ليس نائما بجوارها..
فذهب باحثآ عن أبيه
فنظر من ثقب الباب الى غرفة الخادمة فوجد أبوه معها بوضع منافي للاخلاق ...
و في اليوم التالي
قال الولد لابيه! : لقد عرفت يا أبي معنى الفساد السياسي .
فقال الوالد: وماذا عرفت ..
قال الولد :
عندما تلهو الرأسمالية بالقوى الكادحة وتكون الحكومة نائمة في سبات عميق فيصبح الشعب قلقا تائها مهملاً تماماً و يصبح المستقبل غارقا في القذارة...

Moon day dust giving, birth to Sunday kissing

Ashes to ashes, dust to dust... The shattered remains of my broken trust,
Which has never been repaired
Because all this time I've been wounded and scared.
But if it ever could be done... I know that I'd be you.. the one.
To show me people aren't all bad.. and not everybody makes me sad.
You've made me weak and helped me grow, You've shown me things I've never known.
But the one thing I realized I was never knew, Is now I can't picture a life without you.

I started to love myself along ago... not ego.

When you look in the mirror what do you see?
is the person whose looking back the person you want to be?
Maybe you wish you were a bit taller
maybe you wish your ears were smaller
perhaps you would like to change your nose
have better feet and nicer toes
Maybe you wish you had a more attractive face
wider hips and a thinner waist
maybe you would like a broader chest
a flatter tummy and bigger breast
Many things about your body
you could complain about
you are unhappy with they way., you turned out
The way you look to others ... might cause you to feel rejected
all you want is to fit in, be loved and accepted
If that's they way you were made then what can you do?
First you have to start loving yourself and then, others will start loving you.

لا تسألني.. يا حبيبي.

لا تسالني يا حبيبي.. كيف هذا الحب جاء
لا تسالني يا حبيبي.. أين كان البدءُ... أين كان الإنتهاء
  لست ادري يا حبيبي... كل ما ادري أني لست أدري.. غير أن اليوم كان الأربعاء
والتقينا في رحاب الليل... عشنا وانتشينا.. ونسينا النوم والدنيا... وحتى الأصدقاء
وتكلمنا وطفنا الكون بالحب... نغرد كطائرين عاشقين .. من الغروب حتى المساء
ربما اللحظات طالت في الجفون ... ربما ضاع الوقت في عمق السكون ... ربما غبنا عن الارض وعدنا
يا حبيبي...  يا حبيبي لمسار الروح في عمق العيون
هذه اللحظات فاتت... فاتت... غير ان كلما مرت... يزيد بي الحنين
هذه اللحظات افديها بعمري... قد يهون العمر لكن لا تهون... ثم تسأل ما الذي قلنا .. وقلنا
يا حبيبي ... جن قلبي بصمتك  وما احلي الجنون
سمني ما شئت... لكن لا تسألني فكل ما قلناه... يعلو فوق ظني
كل ما توارى بين صمتك وصمتي .. يا حبيبي .. اصبح الان ترتيلي ولحني
همس الصمت من وحي الهوا... ليس منك يا حبيبي ليس مني
كنت صوت الحب ...  وانا كنت الصدي
أسأل...  أسأل الحب ولكن لا تسالني... سوف ياتيك الصدي بلحن التمني
فالاجلك... لأجلك اصبح الصمت يغني

Life can only be understood backwards

The best way to find what matters the most is to lose something precious to you. and It's nice to look back in your past when you see it as a lesson, not as something to regret. You know when life gets stressful, never forget the things you should remember, and remember the things you should forget. Life can only be understood backwards; but it must be lived forwards. Today I will. Pray more, worry less, laugh more, stress less, hug more and hurry less.
O,.. dear God, I woke up, I am healthy, I am alive, thank you. I apologize for all my complaining. I'm truly grateful for all you've done.

My angel.

You are my shadow, you are my rain, your are my lonely left only pain, you are my tears, you are my fears.. I'm restless even in my dreams.

Being slave to love.. is my free will.

Do we know what freedom is ..!
We are always see what we allow to see
We are always limited by bounds
We are always tied to something
We are always attracted to something
All of us should to die at the end; that's why we all are always limited by our lifetime, yet to be free .. completely free we need to never become a slaves to our own thinking and our own self. Understand that we are continuously changing, But...., in which way we will change is our free will.

I'm exactly where God wants me to be.

Things happen for a reason basically means that everything happens for good. All the things that happen to us in our lives are somewhere down the line, destined to happen.
Failures, turns and twists and adversities might break us down and lessen or morale completely. But even we should learn to take them in our stride and learn from every bad experience too. Tracey Gold had once remarked, “I don't believe things happen in vain. I believe they happen for a reason.” Everything that happens to us in our lives happens for good and teaches us a lesson. Perhaps one should learn from every kind of experience whether good or bad. People who keep their chin up even in the most testing circumstances can always end up making a lot out of their lives.
Believe me ... in our life Nothing happens by accident; you are exactly where God wants you to be.