Sunday, August 07, 2016

I will never walk alone again

One day I found myself.. standing at the edge of good-bye, looking over the canyon of my life
Waiting there to die.
I felt so lost and empty inside.. alone, like no one would care, No one in my life to love.. My heart filled with despair.
I stood at the very edge..  and lifted my face up to the sky, I stood there at that very edge..  and prayed to God I'd die.
Everywhere I seemed to turn.. 
My life filled up with pain,
My days were filled with agony
My nights fell down like rain.
The only arms to hold me.. Belonged to this body of mine, I curled hard within myself..  to my empty heart I was resigned.
And then one day as I sat.. curled tight and all alone.. I felt a warmth stirring, that turned my heart from stone.
This light shone down on me.. And warmed my very soul, It brought a love into my heart.. and made me feel whole.
I felt two arms encompass me and lift me to my feet, this love that spoke to me.. said we would not accept defeat.
Together we will face this world.. and all it brings our way, no longer will you walk alone.. for life starts anew this day.
From now on when you need shelter from this storm of life, I'll be the one to hold you.. for I want you for my life.
When you need love and comfort.. I'll be there to light your way, Just let my arms protect you.. and I'll be here every day.
Never will you be cold or feel lost or all alone.
Just let my love surround you for my love is deeper than you've known.
And with her declaration of this love so grand,
I felt my heart begin to thaw as I began to understand.
No longer would I walk as one or face this world alone, for with this love she gave to me.. I am more loved than I've ever known.
And now when I stand at that edge.. and stare out over all I see, I know I'll never be afraid for I feel her love surrounding me.
She'll keep me safe from harm and love me unconditionally, And all I need to do in return
Is let her give her love to me.
Though she asks for nothing in return
I gladly give her my heart,
I will never walk alone again
For she resides within my heart..

Saturday, August 06, 2016

blind souls


I hide me well, every day,
Forever in disguise I’ll stay.
I’ll smile away the tears that fall,
I’ll show no sign of weakness at all.

never let your ego, lead you to dead end.

Desiring things, decrease their occurrence in perception while potentially increasing
their occurrence in reality.. when there is a point where desireing and potentials gets dead end, and we start to no longer care.. take your time for in this game only death will win.

Thursday, August 04, 2016

good day, good night and goodbye.

So naked I want you to stand in front of me
Full of hope and full of fear
Locked in my arms and you'll glow all the night
Loneliness... will no longer real
My breath caresses strands of your hair
My palms touches your hungry skin
It will be an evening of hurting hearts,
That life has put together.. to heal.

Eternally and a day.

Sometime last night while sleeping out loud your name I cried, Because while lying next to you last night sometime I died.
My spirited lifted up from me above that bed of ours, I floated high above you and watched you sleep for hours.
I felt the tears that fell as they washed over my face, for I longed to be held tightly in your warm loving embrace.
I didn't want to leave you there to face your life alone, For ours has been the greatest love this world has ever known.
I knew how sad that you would be when you woke and found I'd died, I wanted so to be there while you hold me close and cried.
And then I felt this light on me
And I knew my time was near,
And the angels to come and carry me
And take me far from here.
I whispered into the night a tiny prayer for you,
For you to be strong for me and hold my love close to you.
At that time I felt the angels lift me high into the night, I watched you sleeping peacefully as I flew into that light.
Until there before me stood into God angles, Who spoke them words to me, they told me not to worry much for greater god'd watch over you lovingly.
And that one day it would be your time to come home here to me, and when that time came about we would share truly eternity.
So please my love when you wake and find my lifeless form,
Please don't cry unduly, for my love will keep you warm eternally and a day.

Don't offer your love..

Do not mention the name of love, O my simple minded companion.
Strange is the path; When you offer your love.
Your body is crushed at the first step.
If you want to offer love
Be prepared to cut off your head and sit on it.
Be like the moth, which circles the lamp and offers its body.
Be like the deer, which, on hearing the horn, offers its head to the hunter.
Be like the partridge, which swallows burning coals in love of the moon.
Be like the fish, which yields up its life when separated from the sea.
Be like the bee, entrapped in the closing petals of the lotus.

Untitled..!

I write every word with hope, that you will read it one day
It will be my chance
To explain
To show you
How it really felt
To see you radiant
To make you smile
To feel for one second, you were only mine
The rays of your love that never fade, our world unaware was of it all
The nights brought the passion
The days promptly stole
Without the words, conversation flowing
But please tell me, are we failed in the end, to keep it going

Wednesday, August 03, 2016

falling leaves..

Like a candle burning on a window sill
In the darkness of the night admist silence
He lies in quiet desperation in hopes that a falling star will shine its light of mercy upon his broken dream,
It was the high of love that didn't last
The chaotic fluster of emotion drifting from his thoughts, through his veins and into his bleeding heart,
As tears of innocence softly caress his cheek
Falling behind time, upon the candles flames in attempt to dim the fires bright passion,
Reflecting the anger behind a missing kiss, the shadows behind a series of laughter face to face.
Now in a solitude of darkness, with only the glimmer of the moon sneaking through a window
And a flicker of the candle's last light,
A calming fills his soul, like a tree that grows and stands alone,
Strong and mighty against the battles of thunderstorms and fierce winds
A thing of natural ugliness
A piece of art when the sun shines its rays through his falling leaves, 
Even in the darkness of night the moon start to fade away... 
Day after day, alone, tall and strong but 
People will see him; an uglyl tree of failed dreams.

Promise

I knows I'll see you... in this side, or another

Tuesday, August 02, 2016

being..!

What Is the difference between a daydream and pretend..!!!
Both memories that fade away
Both moments that were created as a ways to an end, Whether to fall into slumber or leave reality
What’s the difference with either creativity..!
You can dream you live miles away,
Pretend you are everything you are not
You can dream you are rich,
Pretend that your fears will stop
You can dream that you are in love
Pretend that you are famous,
You know what your soul is made out of
You can pretend these hopes do not matter
But 
What is the difference..?
Who is to say.?
You can spend eternity pretending and dreaming your life away.. without a single day can count as alive.. for when you are alive..!!
You create dreams among many other things and the despair inbetween.
You hold on to hope, keep you warm like a sleeve, dry your tears so you may cope.
You learn kindness for, family, friends even for your beloved to help in your adventure, to stay by you till the end..
For when you are alive, one thing you will need
It is love, 
To envelop you
To flourish you from just a seed, from just a daydreamer or a pretender to be alive again.

Qualm the joy that life may bring

Does anything ever changes..?
The days that slow go bye
And the ones you wish to tell
The tears you watch them cry
The plans you have
The truths to see
The hopes you savor
Ever cease to be
Qualm the joy that life may bring
Or the time ... to remembering
Last the joke that is undone
Stop the ever, setting sun
Watch tomorrow slowly become today
And like untold speech, stay the same... same way.

Sunday, July 31, 2016

losing trust..

If you sit down at set of sun and count the acts that you have done to this very humble someone,
And, counting, find
One self-denying deed, 
One word that eased the heart of him who heard,
One glance most kind
That fell like sunshine where it went, 
Then you may count that days in nothing you ... spent.
But if, through all the livelong day, you've cheered no heart, by here ot there, yea or nay
If, through it all you've nothing done that you can trace, that brought the sunshine to one face,
No act most small
That helped some soul and nothing cost,
Then count that day as worse than lost.

Friday, July 29, 2016

You.. yes you.!

Unknown destination, unseen morrow to the unawake dream of the thoughts unborn, In the island with a small firmament into the hidden truth, saturated from humans deception.. like what..!!!!
Like the fish in the lake of the dark night,
King to self, slave to water and servant to the god

Thursday, July 28, 2016

A day without you

Amazing you are to me,
a life without your smile or voice... I find it hard to live.
Precious you are to me,
a life without your touch. I find it hard to adore.
It feels like a huge massive hole has, been digged in my heart.
a life without you will never be the same all an all.
I've been teared apart the day you walked out on me.
I never found a meaning to uphold my wishes without you... 
I strongly feel that missing you is a job I shouldn't have resingned from.
That's why I say..!
never give up on someone you, can't go a day without thinking about.

Human Rights

My rights, yours rights, our rights.. Human Rights
From a mechanic shop came a cry of a boy...
What are my rights..?
Education or being a mechani..!!
From a house came a cry of a girl...
What are my rights..?
Doing the household work like a slave or education..!
From a house came a cry of a women...
What are my rights..?
Being made a slave or a free citizen..!
From a poor countries came a cry of  striving human....
What is his rights..?
To watch his national resource absorbed, or fight for his dying rights...!
My rights, your rights. our rights.. is do the right, 

The road..

The road ahead is long, but keep on moving.
I know, it is hard to follow along, but just put one foot ahead the other and you will make it.
The is path narrow, but keep strong.
You'll be there soon!
Yes, i konw the path is bumpy, but just keep walking onward.
Life is what you call this narrow path, It is full of trails, making you go over bump after bump, but remember to keep moving forward.
For you're almost there.!

Wednesday, July 27, 2016

My dove

Pour your light beam in my eyes to vanish the darkness of the years. 
Remove my pain, 
turn this garden blossom, 
turn on the light to this city of shadows.. 
Flutters.. flutters with dove wings. 
For I need you to become "when I'll sinking in that deeply universe sea", My island. 
Whatever I'll go west, 
whatever I'll go east.. 
I can't find anyone to hugging me but you. 
Opening you heart to conjoin me, 
Wipe up my carefree with your cordiality and affection 
When tears shed will give the permission to our words to have a meaning, beyond .. O
And only longing tears will speech. 
The paths we go through were so long, but.. 
sooner we will achieve our dream of wishful thinking.. 
sooner we will be near from the impossible. 
The dream within my heart is like a dove, 
A dove raising after the resurrection, to scatters peace on the sea shore. 
pour your light beam in my eyes, 
Vanish the darkness of the years, 
Remove the pain, turn this garden blossom..

Tuesday, July 26, 2016

lying..

You lied and enjoying  play games, I'm honest and never pretending.
You flirt, I'm hurt.
You wanted me to be something with value, I needed you if you are nothing but my wife.
You forgot, to remember, I remember and barely forget.
You promised none, I keep my words to anyone.
You stopped everything, I started something.
You're done, I'm trying.
You said you loved me... hay... Stop lying,
You should repear this until we will meet..
"Big or small..  lies are lies"

Come here to rest..

The night draws in, birds no longer fly.
I sit with a coffee and the only sound is my sigh.
my thoughts... drifting through, the memory of you.
Why does life turn around,
when the best you think you've found.
I look to the sky, and take a deep breath,
Dear God tell me why... why you send me along the rocky roads, when i yearn to be on the flat.
I guess ill get used to that. 
I think of tears, upon our fears.. 
I would love to hold on all my longing, but i know at some points we all need space.
maybe in few months to come, we may meet again, not in dreams but in reality.. 
things may be different, or they may be the same.
but deep in my heart, 
I'll still carry a flame... flame of hope to find a reasonable cause for all this nonsense actions.. 
I'll still carry a flame... flame of Moonlight to let you find me in that darkness road .. 

hate me not.

I can see it in there eyes, They feel nothing towards me aside from hate.
I look away from them in emotional pain and at the same time accept it.
For, this has long been my fate.. 
To actually know me is an ideal they long since dismissed, They are unable to see that I have done nothing to them, I am hated merely because I exist or maybe because of my color skin, anyway..
I do not want them to feel that way but when i look at their stone faces, I am forced to turn away
So now I beg of you, Please...
Please don't hate me.