Welcome to my crazy world

How nice of you to visit my world, I wondered who was at the door... Yes, I'm alone in my deep within..... don't be concern, I've been this way oftentimes before
Of course, there are the memories, I don't know why I keep them all, Some make me smile, some make me cry, 
In the dead of night, they often call.. I look through the window now and then, Just to see what goes on out there, But your world's no better than mine, Everyone's living on hope and prayer
I live with what was... not what might be, Long ago my dreams went to bed and they haven't awakened since.....
I'm beginning to think they're all dead... I'll not disturb them..... just let them be, At one time, I nurtured them well, But dreams are strange, hard to predict, They can lead you to heaven.... or hell... But you know.. fate has a plan for each of us, 
I obeyed and answered the call, Now, I'm trying hard to forget, Please, don't make me walk memory's hall
Long ago, I tried to run away from a world that's lonely and cruel, Though there's no escape, I still try, True, there's no fool like an old fool
Gone is my brashness .... my confidence, My flag of surrender's unfurled...
If you can stay, I'll make some tea, 
If you stay ... welcome to my crazy world 

The art of communicate

We’ve given up the art of conversation, 
This has left me feeling vexed, 
Though it will fill some with elation, 
Their preference is to communicate by text.
Send me an e: mail I’m busy right now, 
Truth is they don’t want to talk, 
It’s swollen joints this art will endow, 
On your fingers it’s a terrible shock.
Why buy a book my tablet is fine, 
I just delete it whenever it’s read, 
I can even purchase a bottle of wine, 
Or even a nice loaf of bread.
I don’t even need to go over the door, 
Shops are now a thing of the past, 
I send an instruction to my local store, 
Everything’s then delivered quite fast.
I can see who’s calling I have the choice, 
As to whether I answer or not, 
If I so choose I’ll delete their voice, 
Knowing I cannot get caught.
My mobile is something I would not be without, 
To do so would just give me strife, 
At work, rest or play let there be no doubt, 
It’s an integral part of my life.
There’s no need to talk to you face to face, 
Those days are now long gone, 
That communication we had we’ve no need to replace, 
We are witnessing a brand new dawn.
We’d become totally dependent on a mobile device, 
Past talents are now out of reach, 
For that mistake we paid a heavy price, 
We had forfeited the power of speech.
Then one fateful day the world’s power died, 
The world was in a state of despair, 
Nobody could talk so everyone cried, 
The past they could not repair.
Different generations going back thousands of years, 
Had talents they all left behind, 
Trying to resurrect them left them in tears, 
As those skills they could no longer find.
Like all civilisations that have went before, 
Those past abilities could not be applied, 
The art of conversation we could not restore
Our Ability To Communicate...  Had Died

Women's

Strong woman works out every day, 
Pride in her appearance she portrays, 
But a woman of strength kneels to pray, 
Her soul in shape, God leading the way. 
A strong woman claims she isn't afraid of anything, 
Looking forward to challenges each day will bring, 
Women of strength show courage in the midst of fear, 
Declaring triumph through faith because God is near. 
Strong women won't let anyone get the best of them, 
So skilled in defenses even if they have to pretend, 
Yet a woman of strength gives her best to everyone, 
And even on a cloud filled day still bright as the sun. 
A strong woman relies on the physical attributes making her tough, 
In her search for power and money she will never have enough, 
A woman of strength understands that it's not about material stuff, 
Knowing that before becoming a diamond first she'll be in the rough. 
A strong woman sometimes disguises her feelings shadowed by clouds, 
Unhinged when challenged on her policy becoming boisterous and loud, 
A woman of strength concerns herself not with judgment from others, 
And will not let business interfere with commitments as a wife and mother. 
A strong woman is easily impatient back and forth she will begin to pace, 
Counting on her holier than thou attitude instead of depending on faith, 
A woman of strength is assured trust in God will always carry her through, 
And at the Creator's appointed time she'll receive all that is justly due. 
A strong woman makes mistakes and avoids the same for tomorrow, 
Refusing to take time looking back with reverence and Godly sorrow, 
The woman of strength realizes life's mistakes no matter how slim, 
While thanking God for the blessings as she capitalizes on them. 
A strong woman walks head first with no doubt in her mind, 
No matter what, she'll not make this mistake a second time, 
But a woman of strength knows God will catch her when she falls, 
So when a situation arises again, she's not afraid to answer the call. 
A strong woman wears the look of confidence on her face, 
Always doing whatever it takes to finish, seeking only first place, 
The woman of strength competes with an emotional sense of grace, 
Understanding it's more important to run a Holy Spirit filled race. 
A strong woman has faith that for the journey she'll have enough, 
No matter how uneven the terrain or roads being rocky and rough, 
A woman of strength knows it's in the journey she will become strong, 
And the love of God is forever with her, no matter how difficult or long. 
A strong woman when uninformed thinks that she is being mistreated, 
In the end her physical attributes fail causing doubt to become seeded, 
A woman of strength will compromise as a little give and take is needed, 
Why? Because a lesson not learned the first time is soon to be repeated. 

Ladies start everyday on your knees with supplication and prayer, 
Trust and believe that God will always get you from here to there, 
And should your giant steps seem to be moving only inch by inch, 
The journey is not as A Strong Woman but A Woman Of Strength. 

Difference between farther & further,1 is distance,1 is to understand, 
Where Motherhood is instinctive however it has to be learned by man, 
A woman carries a life form up to & maybe more than 9 months long, 
Man can't stand to be with a crying for baby 2 hours and he is strong? 

Every woman is a catalyst for any little girl to become the same, 
So the question is what will be the consequences from her name? 
Strong relays an outward appearance yet under pressure it cracks, 
And only through strength will she be able to withstand the attack.

Girls beware, because the road traveled is both winding and long, 
And for this very reason you will surely have to more than strong, 
This should inform you that an arduous trek is measured in length, 
The main reason it takes intestinal fortitude only found in strength.

They all suffered ..!

Stunning beauty cherished femalenessb is there, can there be enough? 
Is one special someone all there is for me, When my heart yearns for sensual variations 
Yet the depth of longing and pain of denial count not against what I carry for you
So alongside you I stay forever, Yet in me cries never ending 
The pain as she walks by and out of my world will it ever release me? 
I cannot know nothing but your embrace and my great need for you ... And your voice ... Your touch sustains me sweetly ... Until the answers come.

Be my thorn..

Be not the rose my dear
I don't want the world awe at you 
be my thorn instead and ..
I shall love you silently to the rest of my life.

Second C.. Commitment ..

y heart's struggle begins to settle slowly reveling in knowledge of deepening intimacy with you
The One who my innermost heart lies bare and cherished, the One who provides comfort of powerful primal attachment 
The stunning beauty when we are together our mingling passions
widening our twining lives on in me always deepest of truths sustaining me with sensual knowings of love 
A haven for the pain and hurt the feelings known and heard being supported in every way calm amidst the moods of my life
This is the choice of maturity for comes times needs must wait and responsibility and commitment overwhelm all that there is of now
And so much so much left unexperienced in multitude of shrines to the indulgence of the senses
But here is the place where I for you and you for I have chosen to give all of the I and the you and the never forget the We for all our yearnings and needs wants and desires
And the feeling of peace
And knowing excitement
As we get ever closer to doing for each other what most can be done one lover for the other
For it seems that it is not the many that bring the fruition all of the wants but rather the focused path of the true only one for always
So it is, that for now and forever
You are my only wonderful lover. 

Emptiness

Emptiness means little without you
Words alone cannot equal two
You meant a lot to me before we met
The world alone closed every sunset
I had fought and lost again
What thought had found to gain
Its memory a frozen ocean
Without you Love's empty notion

Completely lost..

Have you ever had that feeling? 
That you are completely lost. Your mind and senses reeling, as in a dark foreboding frost.
Nothing but nothing is as it seems, Words like phantoms come and go.
It is as if all the ...... dreams, have turned your brain to snow.
The ticking of the mantelpiece clock, cuts the silence like a knife.
Your mind is in a mysterious block, you ask yourself is this my life.
Perhaps I am just getting old, brain and body gone to pot, where are the times that I was bold ... and my brain could solve every plot. 

And more.

You are life and love and more.
You are earth and fire and more.
You are the sky above the sea below and more.
You are what encompasses life
What gives direction
What holds hope
What nurtures happiness
What feeds passion ... And more.
You are to me
What I am to you in my dreams.. And more

Wishes.

Wish upon

Another's heart
Let her be happy
Let her be strong
Let her Love right the wrong
Wish upon
Another's mind
Let it seek
Let it be free
Let it's knowledge find me
Wish upon
Another's soul
Let us journey
Let us travel far
Let our Love guide the star

The way I love you..

Love was.....
When "if" lay between you and I.. and "never" seemed forever, I fell to earth in surrender and you became the centre of my eye.
Love is.....
When I'll pass by you accidentally, I grab a sense of your charming smile... and when between us is distance measured by the mile... I grab a sense of our lost love immeasurably
Love will be.....
When I can no longer see to see... When I can no longer hear to hear, I know you can hear.. I know you will be near... simply just you and me
Love eternally.....
When God granted us our wish finally.. He put in us a throbbing heart, When it stops from this earth we will depart without saying goodbye but be sure that; our Love will live .... eternally

Incomplete story

Why whenever I start to talk about humans greed I always have tears rol down my eyes.. Oh.. Where do I start my lIfe story

It was there always for me like an angel
I could hold it with my eyes
I could hug it with my heart
I could kiss it tenderly within my mind
it gave its unconditional love with passion
it was a world worth living
I have walked with it every moment... the mountains and sea opened their heart for us
What a wonderful day when I was still remain alive
Those days were the best days of my life
But till the Satan separated me from it
I did not know that humans sickness which called greedness will end our life.. now.. nobody can see the tears in my heart
neither the pain in my mind that cries for losing my reason to live everyday... each day I lose a part from my reasons to stay alive.. honestly, My life story should ends into an incomplete story.

My life.. need me no more.

There is a pain in my heart that brings tears in my eyes. I am sad because my life hurts me... 
like a sky without clouds, like a river without fishes and
like the seas without waves
I am sad because my life left me alone...
The stars are in the sky are not glittering, The moon in the sky is not sailing, The cool breeze is not touching me
I am sad because my life don't care for me...
The truth always become lie, The love always become trouble, The understanding always become fail
I am sad because my life don't trust me...
The thoughts in my mind become waste, The dreams in my heart cannot be fulfilled. The life in the world brings me an emptiness
I am sad because my life need me no more.

The same fear everyday

When the day is done and the darkness come, will there be light, can we still fight
holding on
I'm trying to find a reason, just one more night and i can go on.. but when the night is done
will i see the morning sun
will i still be here
will i still have the same fear

Hearts never see

Why does the head never agree
why can't the heart ever see
why does the mind know deep inside, what the heart choose blindly to hide
why is the mind so weak, when the heart starts to speak
why wont the mind take the lead, even if the heart starts to plead
maybe if the mind took over grew stronger, then the heart wouldnt hurt any longer 

Trust...

Trust is...
me telling the truth and you believing me.
me not being afraid and you not making me.
deep down within....
I hope real hard, i scream and shout and i think theres no way out.
For...
What once had has now been lost, for that i blame myself, for childish as this thought may sound.
trust we had so long ago.... trust has been destroyed.
All i can give is a 
Simple word...sorry
a simple thought...happiness
a simple emotion... love
a simple thing... my heart
a simple rule... I give all of me, you give all of you.

Leadership

Good Leadership means.. To lead yourself into a good life, Good life for yourself requests... Being a fulfilled and content human being with strong basics.
If you can’t give to yourself what your heart and soul needs, Wisdom will fly away and you will give your children a life with cold hearted decisions, so many failures will annoying they future and your kids will follow your path..  See feelings of understanding lead to feelings of acceptance .. that last one is basically the seeds to a strong relationship and passing through that.. true eternally love born.

Your soul..

We knows there would be times we'd need a word of cheer, want the face of smile .... to brush away .. our tears
We knows there would be times we'd need the joy of that "little things" in order to appreciate what life brings across our steps on this long road.
We knows our hearts oftentimes throb with aches and pains at the door of trials and misfortunes .. when the day is dark with no light at sight 
And we also knows we'd need the comfort of an understanding heart, to give us strength and courage that we make a fresh and new start everyday.
We knows we’ll need companionship that’s unselfish, lasting and true, thus, God always answers our heart's call with the gift of special soul like your soul.

I can't promise you.

I can't promise you roses, which bloom of brilliant red but I promise, when you need me when you day will turns blue, as much as possible I will be here for you.
I can't promise you perfection for perfection I am not. I am like the blue rose ... thorns are all I've got and tears are what I know.
I can't promise you wealth with money to shower away the old pains that engulf us, but I can give you my love to share throughout each day
I can't promise you the stars for they are out of my hands reach, but I can show you how to walk gently through our stormy nights... and I’ll hold your hands till we cross it together no matter what.
I can't promise total happiness and never a tear in your eye, but I can give you my word that in every way I will try to listen and wipe the tears you shed.
I can't promise eternal life for this is not mine to give, but I can promise you something to love and support you ... everyday in which we live.. so, as you see I am not the best, but then you will never know until you've put me to the test.. when we reach into the edge of the river.

Beautiful morning

Imagine a beautiful morning.. when I wake up every morning.. I always watch you for a while then I kiss you very lightly, Watch you lips turn to a smile.
Then you ask me what the time is and I whisper in your ear... that the hour hardly matters when you're lying ...warm and so near.
Your smile grows slightly wider but you turn your face away, hide your head under the pillow, try to cheat the break of day.
your hair wisps round about you, flows like water to your hips but your neck soon bare before me feels the pressure of my lips.
Then I touch you very lightly, run my fingers down your spine and your body gently waking turns till eyes gaze into mine.
Oh.. and in that very moment as your mouth seeks to entice, When I wake up every morning ... I am lost in paradise.

Feed a flame with in..

Don't be fooled by how I act, don't be fooled by the posts I show. For I have thousands of masks though none of them are me. What hidden sweetness there is in this emptiness.. I feed a flame within, which so torments me .. That it both pains my heart, and yet contents me...  On her eyes will I gaze, and there delight me; While I conceal my love no frown can fright me.

words are also the weapons

Words are the weapons which do speak a lot, So now I Take there help to show you what have I got.
The Beauty of her Mind was all that mattered, Cause for me I was never flattered. But yes my Friends it can hurt you too, Cause one sided will never get you through.
All that will be left will be pain and sorrow, With you asking for a better tomorrow.
So here is request to all you out there, When you fall in love then please do fear.Cause it can lead you where you don’t want to be here or there.. It’s like feeding you what you don’t want to be fed.
Love is a Beautiful for those who get it, But it is a curse for those who fail in it.
So be happy be single and, Never ever try to mingle.
Follow what your Parent’s say, Cause one Day love will fade you away...

Love isn't long distance..

Love is never far 
From where I am 
And always where you are 
You take my love with you 
And leave your love behind 
With lots of loving thoughts 
That linger in my mind 
Love may come and go 
But somehow stays around 
To always lift you up 
When you are feeling down 
Love can't be measured 
And it's a well known fact 
That the more love you give 
More love you will get back 
But if love were long distance 
I would travel far to find .. 

Life!

There it is again, im down on my knees, with my head in my hands, 
I stumble to my feet weaker then before, my head hurting, ears ringing and my spine killing.
I can see the light in the darkness that surrounds my life knowing that I will never reach it in time
my body is so weak and heavy, I find it hard to breath some times, the pain it hurts so much I think im dieing, my head is so full of noise it going to explode.
I feel so alone in this world of mine, walking around like his, if only I didn’t build so many walls but some people build them to keep people out, and some to see who cares enough to try and knock then down…
it coming…I can feel it, it start in my neck then down my spine…then Bang it shoots back up into my head then whack, im down on my knees shouting…why me…please? 
the stars in my eyes blind me and the noise in my head deafens my senses, I cant breath this is the end…..? 
slowly I come around, I crawl toward the light, trembling like a leaf in the wind.
I cant describe this feeling inside, lost and confused, alone and unique, just to try and name a few.
I feel sick, oh so sick why me! ! ! 
I collapse to the floor in a heap, to weak to carry on, just wishing I was dead.
As I lay there crying in intense pain all I can see and hear is my kid smiling faces saying I love you daddy…
what remains of my heart sinks even deeper into stomach, making me sick.
Iv got to get up and keep moving, if not or me then for my little angles…iv got to find the strength! ! ! 
my hearts is beating faster then the time before, as I try to stand up I collapse…im so weak…
I finely find my feet thou still wobbly I carry on, iv got to keep fighting…iv got to be a survivor not a failure for my family…
I wouldn’t wish this feeling the worst person in this wicked world we all share.
I know it wont belong till it comes back around, so iv got to keep moving to make up some ground.
Cold and alone, with no confert in site.
so this is my life, and this is were im shore im destend to stay hoping to reach that distent light some day.
this is just one grain of sand on a beach, called my life…this is me….this is my life… 

Disappear

The time is here..and the end is near..i think its time for me to walk away off and disappear. This road i follow as come to an end..on any one else i can no longer depend. this life of pain is all i know..from this life iv got to go.
And... To my friends who dared to care..i thank you all for being there. 

Good teachers still exist..

teacher is the best artist of the child....
He is also the builder of a strong Nation, If his art fails the statue, this child will be wild, then, what about the future of our Nation? 
Negligent teacher's children become bad, This is a mysterious hit to him by Nature, A good teacher does his duty what he had, His children will be fine by the grace of God. 
Teacher is blessed by God if he teaches well, He should think that every child is his own, Tomorrow before God every teacher has to tell, In society a good teacher is well known.
A careless teacher is cursed to go to hell, A good teacher lives with a honored crown.

But even with intelligence

It is the systematic of paranoid, Feeling you are an android, Electronic sense fills your void, A proof of human brilliance, Intelligence in every Joint, Wire, or electric field around copper shields, The rules simulate you, Commands in every step, telling you what to do, 
You have no tongue, you have no lips, 
You're a puppet but with different kind of threads, 
You dun have dreams, nor you have a will, 
You think you're sleeping, but you're not, 
Keeping you in some shell or pushed your button, or pulled your rod, Master of the puppet is a human brain, 
Connected the threads in a brilliant way, But even with intelligence, you're just a puppet...
Move here and there, with empty brain pocket, You have data-base, you can't gain knowledge, Information is your food, and you have a limited storage.
Your piss is deletion, your soul is just a bridge, Connecting two worlds, or some thoughts, By electronic threads.. 

Stay humble

She would sit and cry for hours and I would not offer a second of pity for that was like giving a junkie a needle.
She would sit and laugh for hours on end alone in the dark and I would remain under my covers with my radio firmly cemented into my ears .. I would not humour her mania for that would be like encouraging a bad comedian.. oh.. It was only when she would ask me how
my day was would..?
I sit beside her, stroke her hair and allow myself to be her son. 

Love, hate, oblivion and Contentment ...

Love...  the disharmony of the senses, the destroyer of our emotional defences.
Hate ... the unrelenting warrior of distraction, the perfect camoflauge for true passion.
Oblivion ... The ultimate partner of short lived bliss .. The friendly devil with the seductive kiss.
Contentment ... the executioner of all tommorows, which is the bringer of the greatest sorrows..? 

Silent Language

All Silent Language is without any sound, The smile, raised eye brows maybe a frown, 
In utter disgust, turning your head around, Disagree side to side, concur up and down.
Action will truly speak louder than words, Even when the language is clearly heard, I love you is said many times but of course, Almost 60% of marriages end up in divorce. OH..
A firm handshake is more than words convey, 
And a comforting hug sends your fear away, 
Kissing shows more affection you might say, 
While holding hands is an invitation to stay
.
To be continue..

Shades of fairness

Ever in shades; 
Life is a lot lighter than we see it.
Though the shades may darken here, 
It is always brighter on the other side.
And if we wait a little while longer, 
It will brighten over here too; 
And we'll see things in shades of fairness.. will be a story to tell.. stay happy my love.. even in shades .. light always near.

You..are not alone..!

You are not alone dear
You have a lot of everyone, far and near
But you know..! That makes you a prisoner to your fear
A lot has gone amiss since last we met; 
A lot I can't recall in detail yet.
Am sure it's all about how true we are
To us in spite of where indeed we are.
But one day in the life of each of us, 
We'll come to know the harm we've done to us. 

It kills me..

It kills me that you feel that way
It kills me that I have nothing to say
It kills me that you have to cry
It kills me that I have to ask why
It kills me that you're hurting inside
It kills me that all i can do is stand beside
It kills me you have to carry that burden
It kills me you can't make it through the night
It kills me that I can't make it right

Maybe.!

When you feel weak while you're strong.
When you stare at blank listening to a song.
when you're going in circles you feel like a stranger in Hong-Kong.
Maybe there's something wrong.
You should just smile, life is good.
Take things easy you did the best you could.
Wake up from your long nap. Release yourself to the world don't be in a trap.
Wake up from you're long nap. Step by step to your life map. 
Maybe there's something wrong.

In your hand..

Your mind could be your best friend or your biggest enemy.. It can make you feel down or make you feel good and worthy.. Happiness is in your hand and depends what you want from your life. If your expectations are behind your limits, you will have a miserable life... Remember there is no another copy of you in this world, it shows how unique you are. Learn to enjoy every success no matter how small they are. Healthy Competition is good, but don’t just look at successful people above you
If you feel behind and unlucky, don’t forget there are a lots of people worse than you, below you
Depression and anger and anxiety is the fruit of negative thinking. So, I strongly recommend to all of you the power of positive thinking. You can’t help yourself or people around you. 
If you have a mind who constantly works against you
Don’t forget you just live once, so try to make best of it
Don’t wait for special day or conditions, enjoy it now, otherwise you will lose it.

Color of your love fades away

Living under one roof together but your mind so far from each other. You feel you have nothing to share together anymore. If that's case your relationship is dying for sure.
Not long ago you used to sit next to each other while holding each other hands ... Now barely talking together but a plenty of time to talk to the friends. Something happened that made the color of your love fades away
Now is just a matter of time to say each other, my way or hit the highway. Remember at this stage your love is like that dying tree that still has little root in the ground
If you want you can fix the problem and turn things around.. Go back to things that brought you together
Start slow by simple words such as hey I miss you, can we watch a movie together.. Remember love means giving up some of our favorite things. It is sad people destroy their relationship on silly things
It is so easy to walk away from the problems and feel good. But if this is your way, your next relationship will put you in a bad mood 

Walking in shadows, walking in clouds, dreams cover the valley intertwined with each other.
Dreams of another world, 
Fallen wishs 
Fallen fantasies
A place to get away, 
A peaceful ending to it all.
Fallen dreams .... show it all. 

Eyes see evil ..

Let's pretend 
That I am a warrior and not a prisoner of so many fears.
That I do not care about you
Let's pretend I have never feared the error and it is going to be okay
That I know the right direction to take
That I have the right words to say
And there are trophies on my shelf
Let's pretend 
That not everything is lost and the wounds are healed
There are still choices to make and I will not have to die alone.. because you will be always here with me... 

Never.. lie

Never give up on life live for as long as you can, That goes for every woman as well as every man
We only live once at life no second chance, So why not be happy and laugh, sing and dance.
Never give up on life though you are aged and gray and live for the moment and enjoy every day
Our time is too short for worry and woe. the sad sacks of the town few do wish for to know.
May your last day be your hardest as some are known to say for the weeks hurry by and time keeps ticking away
We are only mortals like the sheep or the cow.. And we only can live in the here and the now.
The great gift of life is a marvellous thing
And it's praises we ought to feel happy to sing
Your crosses may be hard to bear but why wish to die
Since none know of a hereafter and the facts never lie.