True love

True Love .. is to fall in love with the only person who can make you miserable, weak and powerless.. But neglect kills love, oblivion bury it, yet burning us.. I dare not to say your love killed me for "Love" itself does not kill anybody but attaches us inbetween life and death.. 
Love is a queen of all humans senses, and therefore love is always above all the laws.

Mask full of tears

You lost your soul long ago, and what still remains can't grow another.
You lost the trust in word "together", and what you can gain watching them suffer.
You live in an illusion, you live under the cover.
You must stop searching for reasons, why he left you to bears and move on for you holding, a wound with no heal's.
You need to face your fears, you need to believe in other's, for under all your strength, there is a mask full of tears.

The Man I need to be..

The man i was
I was.. Reckless, selfish, arrogant, hasty, trivial, listener, amused, foolish, unprepared, unexpected, weak, young and half-hearted
The man i am now
I am.. Convinced, isolated, feeling lonely, wiser, sane, sensible, ugly, take responsibility, older, stronger and more determined to keep doing better.
The man i see
I need to be .. More wiser, more bolder, more self determined, more better and not to be the best but having a seat in-between.
The man i need to be
I hope to get wisdom for it's a bliss from only my god, to live a happy life, to feel confident, to spreads love every where, to let who around me feel safe, to see happiness in the eyes of my family, to be more responses and to be only me.

Love, break and heal.. Keeping promises.!

The heart will love..
When i dream that special woman, to hold me in the warm sunlight, to embrace me in the rising storm, to capture my feelings without a fight, to exchanging respect and delight...my heart will breathe... Our hearts will love.
The heart will grow
When that women holds my hand, to control my wild heart in its cage, to break the rocky mountains of my rage, to let our love guide us into distant lands... Our hearts will grow for each other's.
The heart will break
When that woman pushes me aside, even for an instant, to run away to the arms of fears, jealousy, doubt and the opinions of others, to caress the gentle touch of another hands, to leave me standing alone with no one by my side, to test my ability to endurance.. Our heartd will break.
The heart will heal
When we returns to each other's with crystal tears, when she know that I'm still near and lays out the burdens of her hidden fears, i will embrace her once more stronger than ever and reassure my love for her with a kiss and so much blessings, her reathing heart i'll feel.. For our  hearts will eternally heal.

I do not need peace at the cost of abasements..

Stop terrorism and promote peace, replace class discrimination with universal brotherhood, abolish slavery and injustice with equity and fairness. Above all breathe out hatred and breathe in love! Then the world would be as beautiful as it was above.

A letter from within

Dear self.
This is who I am.. This is all I've got.. These are my mistakes and everything I'm not.
I'm not asking for your love, I want you to accepct me as what mirror reflect me..  Let go of these chains and set me free
Yes I mess up everyday and I'm nowhere near perfect but are the brusises and scars really worth it
Maybe I'm just a man, Who grew up way too fast and I'm trying make a future while i'm stuck in the past and you look so skinny but You feel fat inside.. You eat to cure the emotions that have died .. And you're dying to be loved again, cause you don't even love you and you're sitting in pain.
Don't know what to do.. you look and smile in the mirrior but the smile looks fake.. And looking at yourself was another mistake.
You hate yourself and you wish you were more strong, accepted wiser or pretty.. And so you wallow in your self pity.
You're hoping to be accepcted, Cause you're so misunderstood
You'd change your life in a second O... If only you could do,
Feel less worthless and gain some self esteem for maybe things wouldn't be as bad as they seem.
So you're writing yourself this letter .. In hopes that you'll get better. Maybe one day you'll seem that you're a shooting star or even you'll see that you've come so very far.. And finally accepct yourself.. For who you are.

Your sincerely shadow.
Take care.!

What meant to be, always find the way

Since I haven't anybody to reveal what's languishing in my mind.. 
How I can face my fears, How I can move on with no tears.. O God.. Even when I accpeted my final destination, Sun stills deny me.. And refused from hadows to appears.

Into the darkness valley

O.. God .. As the dawn start to gives birth to all your creations I'm bowing to your will willingness with the rest of my determination to lead my soul through the darkness valley of fortune and power lure,
O.. God .. I'm asking you 
The richness of the soul, The peace of the heart and .. The beauty of the morals.. For you are the only one who know all my fears

Can love be given without being received.?

Can love be given without being received.?
Is it the giver or the taker who benefits more.?
So, 
Let us speak about those issues..
If the steam does finally find it's way through the mountains and valleys before becoming part of an ocean's roar, it must continue to flow, least it dry up, leaving it's brittle and fragile remains, in an empty gully. So it is with love that is given and not returned.
Then who is the taker or the giver.? 
The stream or the ocean.!!! 
Neither, for without the one, there is no other, for they are one to each other.. Then..
Love can not be given with the expectation of love in return. For, 'pure love' or true love must mutually be given. There is no 'taker'..  Because only those who 'give' can receive the gift of love.
So, 
Let us understand that to love is to give and give and forever give..

Surly.. She is my wife.

Every time she scatters my heart but, she does not cognizant of it at all, either I am too paranoid or she is callous, Let it be owing to any reason, any impulse or urge, but still it creates a suffering in my heart
Every time she confers, she is not oblivious to its effects, her words pierce in my heart like a spear, either she does it consciously or I am too conscious about what she speaks,
Let it be owing to any reason, Any impulse or urge,
Every time she insists on what I do not like or what I do like what she insists on, let it be owing to any reason,
May be there is difference in our thoughts, May be there is difference in our likes and dislikes,
But, when I think of giving up on her or living without her.!!!
My heart stops to beat,
My breath gets stuck in one way,
My brain ceases to work,
Yes, every time she creates pain in my heart, But..
She keeps me alive,
Without her, I am dead,
Without her, I am lifeless,
Without her, there is no hope in my life,
She is my life,
She is my wife.

Take off the hat.. Philosophy

These evil days require you to grit our teeth in misery to survive,  But we have to realize life is more than staying alive:
We have to create magical kindness in the heart, Follow that thin skyline into the unknown.
Living out our Divinity involves a philosophy of beauty and refusing to hurt anyone.. We try as possible as we can to be humble, and spread love all over the road, to become a good idea to exchange our thoughts even to take off our hats respective to the others philosophy .. That's how we should accept the difference, that's how we grow from nothing.. To everything.

Shooo.. Listen

Anger is evil

Control your anger and never let it get control over you, Anger is dangerous for we don't know when it comes or when it goes, it feels your mind, fills your heart and feeds your soul or even takes a mighty toll.
Anger will stay forever within to acting with might of all your sin, it's deadly to all the people around, brings sad, turns you mad at the thought of sound.. I'll whisper in your ears something about... all your fears..
In life we strive to be the best, to meet the best and to do the best surly for us but also for others.. So it's the right time to get control over your anger .. And let us do everything wisely, 

I.. and your ego

When everything falling apart.. it will be our only bridge.. between life and death.. Our ego is the only tree will growing in self dust, but whenever it blooming.. It blooms in our souls always its rust.. 

Love costs..

This time I will never shed a tear, I will remember how this heart was torn apart, I'm the symbol of a soul with a broken heart, I tried to love but it seems so never right.. Now my intuition will never get me wrong.
This time I’m strong to recover the debris of my broken heart, Sooner or later I will be whole again with passion to survive, for now my life runs so peculiar with no traces where I started, who could imagine that, good heart gone badly when I stumble so deep and now my vision has no point to fill my dreams.
No more time to feel the pain within, I’m struggling hard to surpass this unfair game.. I was the picture of every day’s rain..  so cold inside but I feel the sorrows in all my body burning, No one can help me out even if I'm yelling.
No sentiment I felt, O God.. Why.. why..  good heart gone badly when I fall apart.. 
This is me now different and changed to someone I don't know.!!
I’m no longer that fool but there are so many peaces lost.. Is that was my true love.. cost.!

Love is a flower.

Between admiration and the dawn of sincere emotion, true feelings shines like Spring breeze.
between the passion and the outbreak of fire of the desire, entity burns.
Between the desire and life responsibilities, the seeds of love always germinate.
Between love and exchanging respect, Garden of life blooms.
Between life and the volatility of the seasons, tolerance and tenderness should start.
Between tolerance and forgiveness, indifference and denial, flowers wither.
Between apathy and loss of respect.. sun sets, assume everyone wrong, but.. Only flowers, paying heavy price.
Love is a flower
If we'r deciding to inhale the aromas .. We'll need to take care of it, but for incubating it .. We should have to get ready to bear and take the thorns even if blood flowed.. Personally I'm ready to pay all the costs.

She and he..!!

She..
If you love me... Will you give me everything I ask of you.?
He..
If I love you.. I will give you only what is best for you.
She..
If you love me... You won't hurt me not the smallest hurt will do.?
He..
If I love you.. I must hurt you, When the hurt is best for you.

When finally we love making love

Fingers mesmerizing cool and soft against skin..Tongues softly seeking whipping tasting lingering
Arms clutching holding wrapping enfolding yearning
Bodies yours to mine moulding wanting.. Caressing touching electrifying, Silken subtle gentle.. Wild and wonderful feathered touch.. Crushed rose petals
Breaths heavy hot hard.. Molten Volcanic fiery delight
Essence of love.. Passion.. Unforgettable irrisistable unimaginable
Sweet sultry.. Amazingly beautiful
Fantasy Dream coming to ..Reality
When finally we .. Love making Love

Tattoo.!!

My World it’s my solitude and life.. 
I can be myself and let go
I can come alive and lead anybody to bow
My word is my savior and a place of heartache, Confusion, love, and fate at the same time but, What it make you feel is not only something.. That last a few seconds but can bring a lot of memories.. Am I wierd .. O no, I just started to engraved on the stones..
To share it is to be brave in your love
To gain it is to be greedy in your love
To concur it is to accept some idiocy.. And to hide it is to be naïve
Poetry isn’t something that comes and goes, It is like a tattoo that you will never get rid of .. Because it is embedded.. But the most important thing of all.. You need an empty place in your body to engraving it.. 
"love that will never go away"

Made of magic and grace

It matters not if they be short or tall, The wonder of their loyalty dwells within them all. They are fountains of love as they share our concerns, As they sit and listen to our worries and woes, When telling them secrets no other soul can ever knows.
They are gentle, beautuful, honesty made of what.!! Made of magic and grace, They are our companions, and our guardians of life, Will never desert us at time of trouble and strife, Will protect us, no matter the risk to them, For there is a trust and a bond that few can know, And they are full of blessings to bestow.
Together we are adventurers and pioneers, Our walks through life always will be dear, We conquered our fears and conquered our tears... Yet even, through age, we may not see them now,
I know they are still with me and are not from mind far away.
They are with us, throughout the whole of the day.

God..

I'm not asking for to much, I'm only gratefully to whatever you push me paths through.. Everyday typically seems like yesterday.. as if one's life stopped from routing so long ago.
I'm not asking for to much, I'm only so very tiredly bending infront of your will.. For I have nothing left in my strength to waiting patiently to morrow to come.
I'm not asking for to much, I'm only barely breathing kindly, softly in this evil atmosphere called life.. All morals became past, please ..
God .. Give me a cause, a reason to struggl for it.
God .. Be with me in calamity and grant me the good ones.

Wildness,

Abandoned buildings made to undress in the wilderness .. 
Build me home but not on the shifting sand, spread me into the wind but not into this mystery land, for my  wandering spirits roam and stutter around echoing voices left by souls .. Residing somewhere in structures time forgotten .. years and years ago.

There always ego within oneself.

Loyalty is being honest to a person..
Honesty is being loyal to yourself.. 
Stay faithfully for only you satisfying my ego..

Rejection .. Channel.1

The worst pain you will ever feel is begin rejected
You can have all the friends in the world but you will still feel alone with your rejection
Nobody understand you or
You don't even understand yourself
You feel trapped in a box with no way out or nobody to help you out
You feel like a ghost walking around, wishing one day you will be found
You feel like an outcast..
Do you want to cry, but no tears come out
Do you want to scream, but no sound come out
Do you think everything that happen is always your fault even
Do you wish you can crawl into your grave and just die
Do you wish you can fast forward time to the moment you arrive to your final destination... You have nobody to talk to, rely on
to feel your pain
Sometimes life is fair
Sometimes life is cruel .. Are you live a life like a shadow
Do you feel unreal
Do you feel fake
Do you feel like a nobody
Do you feel the pain of being sad and alone
I feel your pain
Sometimes I feel the same way
Sometimes I wish somebody will end it all.. Or just open the box
My life is just like a shadow, stuck in a box
May be I go crawl in a hole and lay down and even die
Maybe when I'm gone
I will not feel the pain of being rejected.. But you know, I also hide my pain with a smile on my face for nobody understand that people go thru pain..
The worst is you forget that you designed to success, you designed to acclimate to any conditions.. No matter what..
I feel your pain but..
I never give up hope, for miracles do happen.. Go watch the darkness of the starsless night how it gives birth to the new dawn. 

Good morning..

May the rain in my heart great a rainbow in yours .. 
May the darkness in my night gives birth to your sunrise.. 
May the kisses good night full your morn delight 

You..Ask me not, for I ask you more.!

Why do children nowdays play with knifes ?
Why do we now built on ending lives ?
Why do we all hold on grudge ?
Are we sisters and brothers all one ?
Why can’t we continue living in peace ?
Why has the number of youth in mosques, and churches become
Decreased ?
Down like there is ongoing tomorrow.!! Like all are in power, like a gliding crow.
Why aren’t we seeing the light above ?
Why cant we all share love ?
Is the sky, so blue gathering clouds of sorry ?
Is the moon now starting to dim ?
Are the stars lowering in height ?
Why are these flowers always crying ?
In rivers, of greedy eyes.!!!!
Is there no truth behind these harsh flimsy lies ?
Is there any color between our now blurred sights ?
Why do we tear for wealth ?
Why do we tear for wealth ?
Why are we now harming our health with, Smoke, drugs, and loosing strength ?
The path we walk on now is surrounded in dust.
Why are we tearing out earths crust ?
Are we weak, or just cowardly ?
Are we now Somehow, trying to run from this worldly rout ?
Are we just ignoring facts.. Tampering with figures that don’t match.. Coldly, wading our way off struggled life.
Why are we piercing clean souls to fight ?
Night upon, night.. Believing that tomorrow maybe a new beginning..
Why are we reading life without thought ?
Our future that were sinking in so deep .. Skiing down mountains, and slopes so high wanting to reach infinite heights.
Why are we not dreaming of life after we die ?
Why are we crawling in skin so thin .. Empty, in a broken shell ?
Our pale, completion now turning blue... Clueless that we can’t seem to figure out exactly what to do... We are in our comfort zone set in a confused maze
“A, web so stiff .. The One we love to create” TV, media and videos games..  to whom we merely relate.. So little, time yet so many traits of madness.
Powerless minds hiding in the dark... Descending, further in the fire so spark.
Why are we not seeing pictures, that are beautiful ?
Nature so perfect... But.. Instead, we see untidy images:
We see a painful razor in our sleep
We lay in coma so steep in heat
We are too blind to see ripe fruits and his radiant seeds.
We don’t see colorful flowers and birds humming in praise of “god” nor do we see the heavenly gardens so neatly at ease slumbered in peace... Oh God.
Why don’t we vision the pure grains on land ?
We only see hell flames burn on each sin!.
Why are we fading our race ?
Brothers sister its time for a change.. It’s “love” we now need to embrace... Our aim is “Heaven in which with hope we lay sweetly in our state... Showered in purity and bathed in simplicity... We sit in shade... Glowing, now that we are chaste.
We chose right not wrong, For wrong was history.
We all know tomorrow is one mystery.. But I believe it's a new beginning if we share true love.
Why don’t we all now stand and pray.
Together let it be sunshine and ray.
We weep together for forgiveness
I preach with you in mind
“Brothers, Sisters forever remain safe... A rise blossomed humankind

Nobody cares

Nobody cares..!
if I die, or You die
if i cry, or your cry
if you move out or i stay
if your hurt or I'm hurt
If i fail, win or gain any form of victory
if your job-less and i be skint, and out of pocket
if your being abused, I'm being abused behind closed doors
if there is justice for me and injustice for you
if my child is known or be unknown
if there are wars in my country, wars in your country
nobody cares.! no..body dare to put a 'STOP' or keep the 'DOTE' 

A God locked from outside.. Channel..1

Behind every closed door of every human conscience .. silent whispers ... whispers..  silently, prompting the good over evil.
There is behind every closed door whispers of tolerance heard in silence.
There is behind every closed door.. 
A man make decisions unknown;
people sit around the round tables discussing events of the worldly tales.
A devil wait in patience to pounce the meek, 
A lust gripping the soul in tight clutch.
A fear for war and fear for humanity lies darkened with soot hanging.
There is an opportunity to unravel the bliss.
A shadow play going on, move on and a body hold on.
A streams of blood flowing.
An evil pushing it to reveal and a god locked from outside.

Closed doors

Do you know what happens behind closed doors ? 
I do...!!
A lot of shit happens to the innocent, guilty, young and old behind the doors that have been closed. I don't think you really comprehend what happens behind closed doors.
Behind closed doors you get molested, attacked and abused. Molested by your own family, the people you are supposed to trust. Attacked by people you thought cared about you. Abused by the people who you thought would never hurt you, people who you thought loved you and would do anything for you.
Behind closed doors you get hurt, used and mistreated. Secrets are kept and lies are told to hide what really takes place behind closed doors.
Behind closed doors you plan to commit suicide, to end the pain right now. Behind closed doors you cry, laugh, morn, suffer, rejoice, pray, sing, dance and wished to be saved.
Behind closed doors...you silently die.

Cowardice kiss

Kiss me and you will see how important I am... Kiss the edge of fantasy, lick your lips and dwell in the shine. Enter the room of pink filled fabric. Drape yourself in loves comforting magic. 
Dip those eager fingers into the pool of velvet blush and taste the erotica of loves fruit crush... Take your extended minds and plunge into a passion filled ocean. Listen to the sighs of loves rising tide. Feel the waves that tingle inside. Release your bottled pleasures, that electricity you're feeling. Splash into the flavour of new passion and scream.. 

Channel ..1 needs

To give your heart away is never easy to do.
You sometimes hold it close. Never knowing if another heart is the right one for you. Sometimes, our hearts run away and become lost with the words others say.
When we look into our own hearts, and I mean by us looking deep.
It holds all the answers and a key to which we keep. To understand what a heart feels. It's the way others treat it that tell us if it was ever real. Sometimes our hearts get broken.
Only because love can be so cruel sometimes.
But, it's then
that the heart comes to realise
that it wasn't love it had all that time.
Maybe.... Just maybe.
We'll find a heart that's true, one that will never try to hurt you but how will we ever know in what direction our hearts will go?
If we never use the key to set it free .. To find the love it so desperately .. needs.

Letting go..!!!

And sooner or later there comes a timewhen we must let go.
And Let our mind takes control, let our heart speak even let the tears flow.
It's never easy for anybody to do but sometimes it's the only way of healing you.
We will doubt completely dout .. whether it's right or wrong but it's the first step that we've taken in so long.
How things will turn out, we'll know in the end but, if it's happiness what we seek... So, It's better to find it rather than just pretend that everything is going to be alright 

Happy mother's day

How a man spread his love into four woman, while he can't satisfy only one..

Heart breaker

Let it pain till the end
Through the memories beneath the wind
Sad truth, happy lies or the heart was blind,
Feelings flow, hearts blow and the truth we can't find,
Let it pain till the end
What i did to suffer.!
When it will be better.!
Why all I got was heart breaker.!
I'm sad here from ego.. Seeking pride, no one bow
I'm done here, let's go.. Take this soul with the flow

Melody of death

Hearts beat into one melody, like music...
A song that blends sweetly with one's soul;
Honesty feed it .. Much more when shared to one, you adore..
Cheating is a choice.. Through everything sorrow hunting us, our minds devour.
I seek meaning to the maze of this life because aging adds wrinkles to all that body.. Maybe not sooner to the soul that always smile.. The Melody, the harmony, the honestly no more. O, I hate this soul and where it come but as others you knew.. It's the only one... Take it, I no longer need it.. For that weakness body start to .. You know.. You are the only one know.
Please be merciful to your slave.. For I listen to that endless melody of a desperate act, of a dispirited man.. to end pain in death.

East Sunrise

And.. As the sun rises in the east, rays glitter with light of hopless hope..  Sun's beam dances in color unison through the glooming sky while it stands regal shows beauty and magic into humans blind eyes.
Suffer out from the shame, cry out all the pains that linger, darkness will soon die as the sun will shine to brighten every wandring souls, soothes the ached heart in life, just only when the Sun .. rises .. bright

Sleepless..!

As I restraint myself to sleep today, I found myself so worry about you, I don't know why you insisted to hide your thoughts from me.
As in restraint myself to sleep today I felt insecurities lining up at my old door, digging deep about you into my core.. Putting the monster of worry inside my head, not letting me go peacefully to bed..
Sleepless pain hunt me like a hopless dove brought from life to died... 
As I restraint myself to sleep today, I kept wonders.!!from 
Why I see a dove, if I can't fly..!
Why I see a shore, if I haven't a boat..!
Why I see a train .. Oh I'm going to be insaine 
 ..!!

Dear God ..

Dear God..
I've been sent her out of my will, you craeted  me in the most shape I hate, take of all my power and left me suffer from human weaknesses, in a ground empty from your bounties and graces, with no prove to be what you designed me to be.. And I accept all what done, obey all what happened with bowing to your will, I have only a wish.. And I know you are the only one can make it come true..
Dear God.. For your sake.. Calm her life, and make her happy for she is the Apple of my heart in this madness world.
Please God.. Spread your calmness, forgiveness upon her life from now and until she will be yours..

Never wake up the reality.. "Water fall".

When love start to writing our stories, it will start from nowhere ending with satisfying our souls desires not our minds or our bodies, because he who search for perfection will always end disappointed with the lake between what he need, what he got and what he deserves.. 
When love start to writing our stories, it will start from nowhere carrying us into the land of forgiveness, the land of reality where responsibility and commitment are the reasons behind building homes.
When love start to writing our stories, it will start from nowhere, reminds us when one of us lost his dignity in the door of love temple, just to pray.. Forgetting self needs, self can do, longing to what God arrangements could be.
Being human with that dark skin or unrecognized shape wasn't ever my choice, but dealing with people with an open heart and mind full of humanity was, is and will always be my choice.
So, when love start to writing our stories.. Never walk up the reality.. For it's beyond what our mind can understand.