You are gone

you and me together

and I knew it wouldn't last forever

but now you're gone and I'm still here 

waiting for someone else to reappear

my life is so sad as you can see 

but only because I let it be

I never knew that you being gone would hurt so bad 

that my life just turned out so wrong

with all this anger just got me mad 

that there is no way and no how that it could be more sad

I never knew that it could be so bad 

I just hope you'll see that he will never be exactly like me.

Past the time

Past the time 

Sit and strain

Waiting for your return

Ignoring the pain

Open wounds 

Never to heal

I’m trying to explain

Just how I feel

But it's hard you know?

Living this life

Knowing your happy 

While I'm in strife

I give it my all 

To this very day

You ask me my feelings

What do I say?

I love you forever

It will never end

If you heart breaks, I’ll fix it 

For its still mine to mend

But I'm just waiting

Waiting on time

Until you return

And once again become mine

i never forgot you

I want to know how do you do, i want to forget my soul between your hand and keep running with you until i forgot my place.
i hope to grow up with you ... i want to live two life with you
i hope to forget my hold inside your hold .. i wish to breath the same air you breath
i never forgot you .. and i couldn't thought that i can live my life without you 
day and night i found myself thinking in you .. and it's out of my hand 
Tell me .. what is my life means .. if i didn't beside you !!
if i didn't live with you .. why i need to live !!
how fare you will be, i see you with my heart
how absent you will be, i'll feel with you
how far i'll be from you .. distance will make me closed more

i never forgot you .. and i couldn't thought that i can live my life without you 
day and night i found myself thinking in you .. and it's out of my hand 

You

If you where a blade of grass 

I would explore the earth for you.

If you where a tree 

I would seek out every leaf until I found you.

If you where a flame 

I would fly to the sun for you.

If you where a drop of water 

I would scour the sea for you.

But if you where a star 

I would never search for I would always see you, 

because you are the brightest star to me

i'm Sure that; my words not so good

but it's for you

Hidden feeling

Hiding the feelings that grow ever so stronger 

the time that we are apart feels even longer 

the clock ticks and the cold breeze flows 

as for me I know where my heart glows 

covering the smile you cause me to make 

it is this nervousness that I must break 

these hidden feelings I must hide no more 

as I walk up the path that leads to your door 

ringing the bell hearing the chime 

I'm not going to let you go this time 

building the courage admitting how I feel 

is this a dream or is this actually real 

my heart is pounding beating out of my chest 

because you my love is life's big test

Be Patient i didn't forgot you .... Yet

I sit and wait for a text or a call

The sound of your voice 

rush down my mind like a waterfall 

On my spare time I think of what to say or 

What voice I'm gonna put on 

Goodness...

Can't wait Can't wait 

SO inpatient

So excited but still nervous and scared 

What if I say something stupid?

That will be my best fear

Can't wait Can't wait 

SO inpatient

I think about the first time we met

It goes on and on then rewind than back to reset

I turn over and get your text

He replies to me 

Be patient I didn't forget you yet

What i Want .

All I want is to see you

There's something I want you to do

I want you to listen and now this is true

I think I love you

You make me feel like I'm flying on a cloud

And I want to scream out loud

I think I love you

There's nothing more I want to do

You make me want to lay in the grass

Just lay there while the time continues to pass

Lay there with the sun on my face

And know I'm in my place

When I hear your voice I close my eyes and smile

Cause I know that you’ll be with me for a while

I turn and look at you

And I know that you see me like I see you

There's something in the way you look at me

You see something that I can not see

I want to lay with your arms around me

Oh why can you be here with me

In class I want hold your hand

And know you won’t run before you can stand

Oh boy look at what you do to me

Why isn’t what I feel something I can see

Through The Mist

Stop me from falling

Into the same sickening slumber

That always comes

After the sun slips away

The nightmares of the past

Come back to haunt me

And wont let me rest

Till my soul is dry and bare

It burns me to my core

And my heart is left in shards

When will I come out of

The cloud of fear that hovers round me

My mind is growing numb

To the whole world I'm in

And all my senses drowned

By memories of what scares me most

trying to see your face

through the Mist

Not Alone

When you're feeling down and blue, 

And life is being cruel to you, 

Just remember you're not on your own, 

I'm always there you're never alone, 

You might not be able to see my face, 

As hard as you look around the place, 

But close your eye's and think of me, 

And before you know it there will be me, 

Keep me in the midst of your mind, 

And life will seem easier I think you'll find, 

So when life gets to dark to bare, 

Just close your eye's and I will be there.

Loves Never Forgotten

The true meaning of love do you truly know,

The love in my eyes does it still show 

I saw you, then wanted and finally had you

All so fast too good to be true

Everyday is the day to god that I pray that love is never forgotten

I ask myself, then ask once more,

Will it heal, or forever be sore

You opened my eyes to a lot of new things,

You took me high and gave me wings

Our love for each other never ends,

Maybe not lovers, but always friends

We argue, we fight and disagree,

But all it does is hurt you and me

No matter what you say or what you do,

Forever and always I''ll truely love you

Family

Family is, 
heaven sent from our father above, 
bonded by the power of love.
No matter what family has each others back,
when push comes to shove.
Family is, 
understanding, never demanding, 
all for one and one for all, 
I will never leave you alone standing.
Family is, 
one in itself, my love is your love, 
your pain is my pain, my wealth is your wealth, 
I promise to never leave you by yourself.
Family is, 
the strongest team, the strongest unit; 
if love could be visualized, 
family would be the blue print.
Family is, 
forgiveness and patience, 
it's sweeter than the sweetest fragrance, 
the power of family is a reflection of Gods compassion and magnificence.
Family is, 
never turning our back, and never shames, 
lend my helping hand and not a finger pointing the blame.
No matter what a family bond can never be broken, 
even through a nuclear explosion,
if one of us lives we all live. 
Forever to eternity, we are family

At night ..

Under the stars
Fingers crossed
As we look to the sky
We fly.
As we soar
Through the clouds
Hold my hand
And don't look down.
Wishing to stay here
Forever, with you
We glide higher
Full of opportunities.
Letting go of reality 
Just you and me
Forgetting the world
And everything else.
As we fly
High in the sky
I realize
It's all a lie.
And we come crashing down
Falling into nothingness
Our wish, shattered
Coming to a close.
Reality coming back
Keeping us stuck
Just wanting to fly again
But being trapped.

Be My Lady tonight

Tonight. They'll be no darkness tonight. 
Hold tight, let your love light shine bright.
Listen to my heart, and lay your body next to mine. 
Let me fill your soul, with all my dreams.

You're a woman. I'm a man. 
This is more than just a game. 
I can make you feel so right. 
Be my lady of the night.
You're a woman. I'm a man. 
You're my fortune. I'm your fame. 
These are things we can't disguise. 
Be my lady of the night.

Lay back. Back in my tenderness. 
And take. Take all of my sweet caress.
You've got all of me. It can't go wrong if you agree. 
Soon two hearts will beat in ecstasy.

You're a woman. I'm a man. 
This is more than just a game. 
I can make you feel so right. 
Be my lady of the night.
You're a woman. I'm a man. 
You're my fortune. I'm your fame. 
These are things we can't disguise. 
Be my lady of the night.

You're a woman. I'm a man. 
This is more than just a game. 
I can make you feel so right. 
Be my lady of the night.
You're a woman. I'm a man. 
You're my fortune. I'm your fame. 
These are things we can't disguise. 
Be my lady of the night.

Before

before the bullet it bit
before the candle is lit
before the last call
before the curtain falls
before the grave we pray
there is something I must say
before taps is played
before the jazz parade
before 21 guns sound
before the final round
before the fiddler we pay
this I must convey
before the sweet by and by
before the tears we cry
before the bells are rung
before the reaper come
before angles wing
I have to tell you 
everything....everything...everything

The Reality Of Life

A candle light burning inside of me 

shadows bowing upon the walls illuminating us all

the laughter the pain 

what do I gain?

the knowledge I seek 

this era of mystique 

the pink hues 

the pretty blues

the devils red 

I will not be misled

the angels white 

will set me aright 

knowing every second is a certainty 

to I will cease to shine 

and darkness will befall 

in a form different from all

makes me ponder

how do I live to the fullest?

how do I be the bravest?

understanding is the key!

living with no regrets is the door! 

open your mind 

Look! Don't merely see

the ocean is not just water 

a candle is not mere light

it's not limitless 

it's not endless 

for light is life and

life is certain to meet death 

on this sacred journey called 

LIFE

PEACE!

Deep breaths and pain inside,
Hard to tell the truth when there's so many lies!
Whispers of secrets in my ear,
Hoping that no one could hear.
And I'm crying actual tears.
I feel hurt, pressured and strained.
Everybody cant feel my type of pain.
And this might really sound lame.
But life isn't nothing but a game.
Do you feel what I feel NO!
I wish I could let it all go.
But it really isn't that easy.
Have you ever had to sit in the cold freezing.
Wanting to be awaken by a special healing.
Just let pain go freely.
Too bad nothing in this world is free.
Not even your freedom of speech.
So i'll do like Martin Luther King.
I'll let freedom ring.

She looks in the mirror

She looks in the mirror

And see's someone staring straight back at her

A lost little girl

With cold hard eyes

And no expression on her face

Trying to cover up the pain she feels

A lost little girl

With too much anger inside of her too control

So she takes it out on everyone around her

Because she can't stop herself

A tear falls from her eye

Realizing that this lost little girl

Who is staring back at her

Is in fact herself

Her reflection

So wiping her tears away

She steps closer to the mirror

Looks herself in the eyes

And whispers to herself

" Who have I become !! "

I'll keep it hidden

My world is falling, crumbling apart, life is meaningless and that's just the start
My hearts so sore, I can feel it breaking and I swear to god it leaves me shaking
Late at night till early in the morning, lying in bed eyes wide open. Didn't sleep last night, like all the others, instead I just lie crying in the covers
Quick, wipe away all the tears before they come near. must hide this depression & the feelings of fear
For all they know I'm happy and always smiling, but deep inside my soul is dying
I can feel it rotting, it wants to scream, but I won't let it... not for the time being
I can never tell them how I feel cause the happiness I wear to them is real
For them to hear that I wish I was dead... it would kill them, they'd be filled with dread
So I'll try my best no to be selfish, I'll keep my secret hidden and just let them rest
but god I can't take it much longer... I'll probably be dead before they even wonder.

24 Hours

Another 24 hours poured into the cement

Living through another's persons regrets..

Just one piece of a puzzle, too big to comprehend

Cant see the end, left the lights on again

In the past, the future looked too close to hold..

And now the present seems like it's too close and cold

Inside myself looking out; it all seems fake

Whatever motivates, the day puts it away

Used to be apathetic, loved the only one living

I'm speaking to the world, but I'm the only one in it

Your eyes couldn't watch the way the world spins

I'll sit there and watch on the day the world ends

If its burns then, and flows in the wind

I'll hold what I learned and start it over again

Because who knows if your steps are planned out..

I feel lost, and no body's there to stick a hand out;

A man now.. because I felt too strong

And I feel like I lived with my self too long

This isn't the right time or place for these words

We don't have the right kind of space for these birds

If we all could fly, If we all could cry

Everybody would laugh, and we all would die

The sky hangs over my head, I can feel the weight

Conceal my fate, and let me just deal with hate

I lost compassion, everything's cold when its near us

I spend to much time with my soul in this mirror.

Lost

What do you call it when all you feel is pain?
When your loved ones look at you and all you feel is shame?
When your tired of living and playing this game?
when you know your life is meaningless and your the only one to blame?

What do you call it when the hurt is in your soul?
When you smile and laugh but you know its all a show?
When you feel like you've hit your all time low?
When nothing makes you happy and the darkness around you grows?

What do you call it when you feel so alone?
When your in your house but it don't feel like home?
When you look back in your life and every choice you made now seems wrong?
When the wait to die seems too long.