Forgive me,

I would do anything just to see you once even it was my last time, where I could hold you in my arms and look deep into your beautiful soul... And tell you how much I'm missing your presence in my life ,
One last time that I could see your beautiful smile,
One last time to feel your lips touch mine,
Its unacceptable for me to say goodbye before our combine, 
I wished this moment would come.. I prayed every night, hoping that my worst fear wouldn’t come true but as the day that we can't get closer... I know that my prayers have gone unanswered, Its hard to believe that we can't be closer soon.. you, you are,
A person that brought so much joy, intelligence and means to my life, A person that made everything seem so perfect, A person that four thousands away from my side.
I'd never thought I would fall so mad for anybody, you’re the angel that stole my heart and I hope you know that my heart will always be with you, no matter where you are for you’ll always have a place in my heart, I’ll carry you with me everywhere
and we'll never be apart.

I'm sorry

I'm sorry 
I failed to be in time as a man
I'm responsible for this situation
I can't live without you
and if i said you are free, then you are free only to love me more.

In a world where love has no doors opened

When will i ever wake up from this nightmare it is daytime i see the suns bright glare, i feel as it's all a bad dream but I'm awake, i want to run away, i want to escape my body can't take much more there's too much sadness soon my mind
will be driven to madness.
how much can one person handle, I'm in total despair i need time, time for my mind and body to repair... life is not perfect and easy nor do i expect it to be but it shouldn't be this hard... do you not see..!
Please help me wake up from this nightmare of mine... i doubt that I can take any more, no, not this time, I have no patient to wait another four months, I'm a human with a feelings vanish everyday in a world where love has no doors opened.

Good night, shooo

Let it Rain

I gave you myself, the mine, I and me but I'm not a toy for you to play, to use, then go on your way
I'm here for your amusement, but I don't have to accept the abuse you sent
I'm a person, if you can believe, I'm for your sadness to... relieve, I've feelings too, just like you, well your supposed to
I except to be for you something to wipe your feet on but I.. am.. not here for to beat on, 
You cant steal more feelings of me anymore, I left in shadows, but I closed that door.
Maybe I'm nothing, worthless, useless or even dead, but as you said " I'm nothing then Who you are..!!"
See, I'm a person, I've a name, I'm not a toy, in a game.

For a second, close your eyes and see.

If you think when the mind took over your actions, you will grew stronger. and then the heart wouldn't hurt any longer. O, so please answer me..!
why does the mind know deep inside, what the heart chooses blindly to hide..!
why does the head never agree, why can't the heart ever see..!
why is the mind so weak, when the heart starts to speak...!
why won't the mind take the lead, even if the heart starts to plead.

Depression

Being in love is something people say they can handle, but is it true ?
Some people say that to be in love is very confusing, ... is it really ?
Some people say that love is something that cannot be handled with care you have to be responsible enough to understand the meaning of the word.....
So what is next ?
You tell me... for depression is a feeling too, That you get inside of your heart, is a place that hurts... something self cannot get passed with any art.

restless soul in ....

It is like a puzzle... you have to find all of the right pieces.
It is a game ... it can be taken literally or it cannot be taken literally..
It is confusing sometimes....  Only if you have the hang of things and if not then you will be lost and never find your way back..!
Life..! 
Why i feels like losing self control.. O

Egyptian Nile

Long after sunset I saw seven doves fly in a line, low over the waters of the Egyptian Nile.
They followed a path laid down by the moon to bring them home safe to where Nbms laying in his final destination.
Alone out of time in my mind’s eye ... still they fly, as they always flew low, over the Nile
in single file homeward to Nbms, who dwells in a humble house at the further end of the silver path to the moon.

Our heavenly gate

If not for poverty, could I turn great.?
If not for miseries, could I change fate.?
If not for enemies, could I be sane.?
If not for evil minds, could I God gain.?
Some people complaining from poverty while poverty for me is best teacher;
Some people are so greedy when selflessness has been my best helper;
Some deal with life as misery while my miseries have been my best lover;
Some forgot about God, when my love of God has been my best Master.
I'm not planing to be great, or even change my fate.. Just a simple life in our heavenly gate.

In a deep sleep

You think life is neither an illusion or a field for battle..!
Yet in my world it’s a going on journey though different kinds of people which may not feel it like the way they do not know anything about what happens around them.... When they are in deep sleep.

special kind of home

If I count the heads under this weakness body, O.. They are many under my shed
All poor minds and weak personality, just to avoid torture my shadow they seek
They choose my shelter to taste justice and to get fresh air away from the greed, letting them deeds out, behind the wall.
With an open door where I lay like home for wretched and poor minds.

The clown

Sometimes while acting like a clown, I make you laugh, wondering how stupid I'm.
 Sometimes the bad man in me, craving my mind,  burning my blood in vain, hopping to makes you cry.
May be you are angry with this wards again, but one day I shall make you feel, I was something in your life, rare to find with different standards for what you have learned about humans.
When the original me... go missing and laid down somewhere between your world and shadows of my forbidden kingdom , never to come back again asking me, who was the fool and who...  Was the clown.

I want to die

Out of love... I can take tricks and schemes butt from the beautiful faces even the I... won't take lies..
When she says She loves life and I see her eyes said ‘' I want to die ‘'.. O dear know what..!  in this world this is a great lie.
My lady in heart every one likes to live honestly no matter in what conditions, this is the quirky charm of life... none can den, the beauties of life lie not only on possessions or in physical comforts,
beauties of life lie even in thoughts full of my being while brings a glimpse of your missing tenderness, in seeing hibernated in the hand of our destiny, in listening to the melody of my wounds waving over my flute of fears, in feeling words can't describe.
life produces a mysterious music out of whatever is the flute.. even if we are not in the right position yet, we are enjoying the mysterious music of life and still we can dance with the tune of clarity.
so please... stop tell a lie ‘' I want to die ‘' or "it's time to say goodbye"
keep dancing with tune of life.. lets the wind blow and the rain to come down and see in wonder how nice is the rainbow meeting the humble ground.

In the shell of your memories

Am I afraid of falling ... Am I now at the edge of the abyss .. The identity of loss and absence ... I am afraid to fall in it forced to run away from the past, so I attached myself to a dark unknown present .. I do not see anything ..For fear of tampering with the past and his wounds, for which my soul was bleeding because of it.I am afraid of a present absent from his identity is indifferent to what will happen to me to run away and only ..Damn to escape from things we remember and it is difficult for us to forget them, and even to exhaust ourselves with memory .. Why do not we dig and spend it ??We finish it and blow it out of our lives and never remember it.Why do we connect our present with the suffering of the past ??Why bury ourselves in the shell of memories and difficult to get out of it ??To this degree our souls are weak ?!Or are we tortured to torture ourselves and kill every feeling we may resort to in the case of despair within us who comes without warning ..I fear that this abyss is the only solution to get rid of those pains of ours ... But despite all this feeling, escape is not the solution ..The solution is to overcome them and do not give them bigger than their size, what I took in the past days and moments of happiness is enough !!!Suffice it to be tormented all the time by mistakes we have signed to the goodness of us ..It is enough to sacrifice an entire age ... We live once and the day that goes on and we do not live as we wanted, we may regret it a lot and it is too late ...I have been tired of thinking but I have finally made the decision ... I will review my calculations again and will not surrender to my grief .... I will face my father and get rid of them forever and I will live as I wish ..I will never fear ... even if I have already stood on the edge of the abyss.

In my waiting for you

In my waiting for you I get bored, feeling a fire in my ribs has which disappeared from people's eyes, So I put my hand on my cheek when the seconds I spent in separating seems a lifetime, I start to count the second one by one in your absence... but you did not come...  honesty, sometimes I wish I didn't fall in love with you.

Wanna know if you're upset or if someone else had your heart out of desperation I had to think that your absenteeism will last forever, thought I might have done to you something wrong and I found.... O I found none!

I really sometimes I wished then, I'd never fell in love.... side by side the fire's found a home in me and I get lost running after them thoughts, any breath I think might be yours, any whisper I guess it's your word beneath my mind, Been through all of this nights and days they'd seen me then, and thought I was nuts..

You promise with years and days ....And throw your alibis and nonsense...

And .. and Within a handshake, you're almost gone, or you'll swear your heart that you forgot about me and my love.

Before my eyes saw you

O, god her eyes returned me to the days that had gone by, they taught me to regret the past and its wounds, that which I experienced before my eyes saw you

What is the wasted life to me?

 You are my life whose morning began with your light... How much of my life before you has passed and gone by,

My darling, how much of my life has gone, My heart never experienced one bit of joy before you and had never tasted in this world anything but the flavor of injury

I've now just begun to love my life

I've now begun to fear for the passing of my lifetime.. every joy that I longed for before you was fantasy

My heart and mind meet find it in the light of your eyes, O.. life of my heart, o.. you who is more precious than my life... Why didn't I meet your love, my darling, sooner..!!!

The sweet nights and the desire and the love for so long my heart carried them for you to taste love with you, From the feeling of my heart whose desire extended to your feeling.... Give me your eyes, to reflect my eyes in your world, give me your hands to touch calms my hands, O... my darling come on forget about that which has passed us, just tell me where i can find you .. O,

O you who is more precious than my days

O you who is sweeter than my dreams

Take me to your longing take me, pull me away from the universe... Far, far away, just you and I,

From the love that awakens our days.. didn't you feel it..

From the desire than sleeps our nights.. didn't it touches our inner being.

I've reconciled time my days with you,I've reconciled time with you, I forgot my pains with you.... And I forgot with you my woes

Your eyes called me to the days that have passed, They taught me to regret the past and its wounds..That which I experienced before my eyes saw you

What is the wasted life to me..!!!

the obstinacy of your heart

We both aggrieved love with our hands, although we hurt it and injuried it, until it becomes in narrow and very thin road,
none of us wanted to be better than the other nor sacrifice for the other and so love was lost.. betweem the obstinacy of your heart and the obstinacy of my heart, 
then true love was vanishing, until it seems lost... and now neither i can forget your love nor did you.

until I meet you

All I want is to fall on you like rain upon a wildflower, I bend down and kiss your petals wetly falling all over you... Letting your pistil slip into my mouth, sucking off your honey,
Almost plucking you but not going so far.
Just pulling you so that you can feel your roots leaving the ground... To let you almost taste.. Our world in the sky, so afterwards you can go down... Believing... The words on my lips, When I fall on my knees for you... A flower in the rain with a man bow to love.

ask not a professional

Slowly, tenderly, sweetly...  Kiss me
Kiss me on the lips... Slowly down... Down to my finger tips
Kiss my body inch by inch, tenderly till it tickles and starts to flinch
Kiss me in the left and right ear, and please sweetly whisper your words of passionate care
Kiss me by the neck, with those little kisses called pecks
Kiss me hungrily in the mouth, let your soul hear my groaning delicious shouts
Kiss me below and yonder... O, till my juices begin to ponder, and turn on fire with our desires.
Kiss me once, twice, thrice...Oooo! These kisses are very nice, now i believe that kissing is an art, one most master and for sure slowly is better than faster. And ask not a professional for a kiss for it will be empty without bless. 

"dedicated to my wife in distance"