Manhood

Put these words in your mind and feel them with your heart. femininity isn't to show men much attractions or the beauty of your body or even how smart you are... For If this was the criterion for evaluation, then bars and brothels would be the first targets of men to search for what they need, femininity standard in my life dictionary is to be chastity, inhibition, abashment
From the other hand, real men not whom Stringy, Fanatic opinion, Moody. And not of course the drinkers. Manhood is literature in treatment others.

Say goodbye... (F.Y.I)

Right now I just want to come to terms, search for hope, and pray for pleases you through words.
Dreamland is for lost souls, and not for tending, I am still here hoping and your attitude still need to amending.
No brash word or song will say goodbye... It is my fight for hope it is not about your lie.
Please don't close your eyes tonight.. I see you are wishing to reverse that fight.
One doesn't know the way life turns out and It is good that life goes so round about.
I feel no regrets to be part of these five years... because tomorrow ... may have more fears
I might have only one moment left in this earth to stay, But my force will never leave... today.

Deception,

No one can be ever be completely good or bad, Live makes us flit between happy or sad.
No one is just clever we can all be fools, Whatever happens we are all life’s tools.
Some our words they manipulate and us vexed, Repeat our words completely out of context.
False images are formed masquerading as truth, This deception has been practiced by most since youth
But the truth will always win as it reveals itself gently,, The falsehoods appear and shrivel away sometimes slowly, So try stay true adapt as life’s makes us ebb and flow, Throughout our real true soul will truly show
However elaborate the lies, while the plain truth they refuse to accept, One day they have to face it and finally their lies will be met,

Someday

Somewhere on this earth there's a place waiting for us willingly.
Someday we may discover our real destiny
Somewhere beneath the hill, a hope hidden carefully
Someday you may find your heart soul lie in paradise peacefully
Somewhere we will find that offers total tranquility
Someday we will uncover true love for eternity

In your fake perfect world, i was the tool

You think I'm a fool, just like any unwanted tool, Residing at the bottom of the tool box, decaying rusting unwanted to all.
I cling to false hope of love and help them to things mend
I try all possibilities to give my best but they just fling me back beneath the rest
I gave my all to help again but to try to speak I'm the lowest of men
It proves I'm the least important tool of all,
So into the bottom of the tool box again I fall. 

You, are a member of my family.

These few weeks I reverted back to the old me, The pain I hide away so no one will again see, except in what i ink I’m fine happy I will say, I detest lying but others prefer it that way.
I try to be there just listen whatever happens to you, even I’m crashing badly somehow this I still can do, I feel weak, sick, tired, exhausted in reality, No one realizes how bad it is as they don’t care about me.
I guess I now know just badness bad luck to others I bring, So I ought to just die so I don’t hurt others with this evil thing, I hate me for spoiling things and bringing others down, So I have to self-destruct in silence and never show a frown.
I guess when I see someone is happy I should not stay, Because I will chase their happiness good fortune away, For others have more value purpose that is sadly true, They deserve to be happy and I mustn’t make them blue.
So pain, hurt, frustrations I will just file away and hide, as silently crying as I just die more and more inside,I survive only to serve my family to try let them live, to repay them for all that they have to others give.
When this is over at last I can at last go permanently away, I’m too tired now and have no other reason to on this earth stay.

Equilibrium is beautiful

Out of love, a person need to maintains a balance of feeling, for some are destructive and others giving healing... Some gave us great joy.. whereas others are sad, Can you see, they can be good or painful and bad.
As we rise joyfully high then to depths we fall, A balance of life is there for us all.
We have these two huge extremes... To appreciate the opposite to "me" it seems.
When the darkness falls we'd not fight, If we were never filled with good light
Opposites are always there and always inside we kept, for we've all experienced joy then to have wept.
So darling, when next time it seems again all is sadly tossed... And life meaning and purpose has been lost, just remember though bad, the opposites still near.. We keep trying, we must have faith.... and good sooner or later will .... appear.

Along our way

And for your morning I'm sending a gentle touch of love for kindness bears the sweetest fruit, that makes our dreams come true. 
Touch my heart and I'll touch yours, guide me when I'm blind, for a good heart, good love and good friends are hard to find. 
Touch my heart and I'll touch yours, a little more each day, may we both find happiness, somewhere along our way. 

Love is something from above

In the darkness as the flame flickers up high above... you make my heart melt from your candle of love. 
You give me light, when I can't see...  you take my sadness, and set it free. 
Promise me to be always there, day or night... you guide me in, with your shimmering light. 
You will be there to warm my feelings when I am cold, always around for me to hold. 
You have understanding, and show me concern, forever in my heart, your candle will burn. When the power is out, you're always there, to give me comfort, and show me care.
This may be a poem or maybe not, but the feelings are real, from your candle of love, you made me feel. How proud I am, to be at your side, now I have light, I don't have to hide.  For you my dear, you make me live, in return, I'd like my all to give.

tell me how to explain the meaning of colors to a blind human

The most true meanings of love we hear it without the accent of words.... The most beautiful vision of life we see not with eyes but through our feelings... The magic of charming music is felt in our heart with the soul ... not our ears,
We all have the same senses yet not all of us knew how to use it.
You see, you want me to run towards success because it does not have legs ... but I prefer to crawl towards the house where my love is waiting for me.
You see the poet beneath my words, when I prefer the child who drives my emotions towards you.
How beautiful it is when we write words remain by some as beautiful and seen by some as expressive and influential, and seen by others as meaningless... while there are few who know what is hiding behind its queues.

Vanity never meet dignity

Do you ever before knew that life isn't only the pleasure of vanity, for there is still this special kinds of human whom never regret for a second about them honest intention, And even for them greed-less deeds in this life , even if they found not anyone who he appreciates them as it should.
They will stay proud that them were and still remains humans carrying a heart of gold.
Yeah. It is painful for anyone to promise you to stay forever in your life, for he will not go away, but he will make you leave by his vanity actions toward you.. and then,
Only then you will discover the end of your validity in them hearts and finally you will not waste your time in inquiries when there is no place to express ... you will carry away with you the dignity still remains in your vain, got the lesson and just wake away knowing that life was only the pleasure of vanity to some people.

If forever was a lie and drain

You are a cloud came down heavily as a drizzling rain in my life, which has been suffering from a Long drastic drought, Flooded me with flashed happiness and joy.
You are the moon came down suddenly in my life, which has been covered with damn darkness, you showered me with your sluttish light and rrepelled my every stoic lethargy.
You are wind but rushed down as a seditious storm overturn my road in the psychic deep sea .. Yet guided me to the unknown ... exciting, surprising and wonderful
You come in again and again in my life as a light as a wind, as a rain
I wish you to remain in my life forever even if forever was a lie and drain

intercourse, auctioneer, satisfaction and adversity

My darling when she promises me I see the world is laughing at me, And when her soul arrived, it delighted me leaving me thinking about what could happen to my life without her,
I forget all existence around. It does not occur to me as if my world had no sound
And when the mold changes... And my heart becomes in turmoil, O.. With thoughts coming into my mind the fire and puzzled by ... my soul start to weeping,
My darling ... after night comes the light, and after the clouds there are spring and flowers.
Love is like this, intercourse, auctioneer, satisfaction and adversity. and from this and that no doubt love is you.

Forgive me,

I would do anything just to see you once even it was my last time, where I could hold you in my arms and look deep into your beautiful soul... And tell you how much I'm missing your presence in my life ,
One last time that I could see your beautiful smile,
One last time to feel your lips touch mine,
Its unacceptable for me to say goodbye before our combine, 
I wished this moment would come.. I prayed every night, hoping that my worst fear wouldn’t come true but as the day that we can't get closer... I know that my prayers have gone unanswered, Its hard to believe that we can't be closer soon.. you, you are,
A person that brought so much joy, intelligence and means to my life, A person that made everything seem so perfect, A person that four thousands away from my side.
I'd never thought I would fall so mad for anybody, you’re the angel that stole my heart and I hope you know that my heart will always be with you, no matter where you are for you’ll always have a place in my heart, I’ll carry you with me everywhere
and we'll never be apart.

I'm sorry

I'm sorry 
I failed to be in time as a man
I'm responsible for this situation
I can't live without you
and if i said you are free, then you are free only to love me more.

In a world where love has no doors opened

When will i ever wake up from this nightmare it is daytime i see the suns bright glare, i feel as it's all a bad dream but I'm awake, i want to run away, i want to escape my body can't take much more there's too much sadness soon my mind
will be driven to madness.
how much can one person handle, I'm in total despair i need time, time for my mind and body to repair... life is not perfect and easy nor do i expect it to be but it shouldn't be this hard... do you not see..!
Please help me wake up from this nightmare of mine... i doubt that I can take any more, no, not this time, I have no patient to wait another four months, I'm a human with a feelings vanish everyday in a world where love has no doors opened.

Good night, shooo

Let it Rain

I gave you myself, the mine, I and me but I'm not a toy for you to play, to use, then go on your way
I'm here for your amusement, but I don't have to accept the abuse you sent
I'm a person, if you can believe, I'm for your sadness to... relieve, I've feelings too, just like you, well your supposed to
I except to be for you something to wipe your feet on but I.. am.. not here for to beat on, 
You cant steal more feelings of me anymore, I left in shadows, but I closed that door.
Maybe I'm nothing, worthless, useless or even dead, but as you said " I'm nothing then Who you are..!!"
See, I'm a person, I've a name, I'm not a toy, in a game.

For a second, close your eyes and see.

If you think when the mind took over your actions, you will grew stronger. and then the heart wouldn't hurt any longer. O, so please answer me..!
why does the mind know deep inside, what the heart chooses blindly to hide..!
why does the head never agree, why can't the heart ever see..!
why is the mind so weak, when the heart starts to speak...!
why won't the mind take the lead, even if the heart starts to plead.

Depression

Being in love is something people say they can handle, but is it true ?
Some people say that to be in love is very confusing, ... is it really ?
Some people say that love is something that cannot be handled with care you have to be responsible enough to understand the meaning of the word.....
So what is next ?
You tell me... for depression is a feeling too, That you get inside of your heart, is a place that hurts... something self cannot get passed with any art.