Manmade money

Who are we if we are nothing...
If reason stands a chance against no chance
But opportunity still presents a face
And blithely we appreciate, such fate, and chance and grace...
The grace bestowed upon the powerless
One who humbly accepts without care
Then kneels to the ground and remains there
Is something else, but not a gift
Blindness dose not appreciate truth
And truth does not see blindly
What face, a face, of a million faces 
gives kindly,
The paper rolls deep, the coins shimmer
The shimmer catches the corner of the eye
And the eyes are made complacent 
As the ears and voice dissent 
From this...
A name can be whispered into a sea of pure water
But who will see the voice
And who will heed the call
While all the eyes are busy watching
The tempestuous affairs of emotion
And for every coin there is an agent
One wanting more, and getting none
One taking all and getting some
One giving all and getting one
And all come under the same rule of thumb
Blind, deaf and dumb
If we are nothing then who are we
But gifted by the donor
A pure pool of water
to a sightless image of love
Now you asking more, and getting pun
Now you pushing more, and getting thin
Now i don't know, Should i let go or hold on
Manmade money, money never made men

Another Happy day

Happy days are here again
Lets see what we can gain
And what shall we do in life
If we want to brightly survive
So first rule that we must adopt
Is to know bitter things we must drop
To purify our life from it
And fill with joy its every bit
And another thing that we must do
Is to look at things that are true
That contain in it nice things to show
Like the colors of the pretty rainbow
And all we have to do to try
Is to stop our tears and cease our cry
And then we'll see what we can gain
For happy days are here once again.

Beautiful is

How beautiful is the Belief, when we belief in the God
How beautiful are the Creatures, when we belief in the Creator
How beautiful is the Motherhood, when we belief in the Sacrifices
How beautiful is the Fatherhood, when we belief in the Battles
How beautiful is the Childhood, when we belief in the Innocence
How beautiful is the Dream, when we belief in the Ambition
How beautiful is the Contentment, when we belief in the Simplicity
How beautiful is the Life, when we belief in the dead
How beautiful is the Love, when we belief in the Care
How beautiful is the Happiness, when we belief in the Sadness
How beautiful is the Relationships, when we belief in the Tender
How beautiful is the Fruit, when we belief in the Farming
How beautiful is the Confidence, when we belief in Our self
How beautiful is the Beauty, when we belief in Our eyes
How beautiful is the World, when we belief in Peace
How beautiful is the Friendship, when we belief in Brotherhood
How beautiful is the Marriage, when we belief in Sharing
How beautiful is the World, when we belief in the Peace 

Nature

Nature is mighty
Nature is strong
Nature is usually always right
Nature is rarely ever wrong
Nature is beauty
Nature is moody
Nature is smart
Nature always has the greater part
Nature is blue
Nature is green
Nature is every color possibly seen
Nature is true
Nature is beaming
Nature is dreaming
Nature is in every place
Nature is always with grace
Nature is true
Nature is you
Nature is me
Nature will forever be free.

Forgiveness

Forgiveness, a heartfelt decision.
The clearing of one's heart without remission.
A voice from deep within, contemplates, removal of festered thoughts of sin.
Forgiveness, allowing positive energy to prevail.
Wiping out all negativity along the trail.
Forcing out emotions of  darkness deep.
Keeping straight, a good nights sleep

Last day in Hospital,

All dressed up and no where to go.
would love to see a picture show.
Who cares! 
Who wants me? 
I'm old, cracked and crusted you see.
I no longer have smooth beautiful skin
instead, I'm wrinkled saggy, with a sloppy chin.
now hang to my knees, flat as can be.
What say you, when you look at me, 
awkward question my dear, 
Hmmm afraid to tell me.
Don't be afraid, my body speaks for itself.
You can roll me up and place me on a shelf

Jealous Love

Covered in blood 
I trudged along, 
feet sopping wet
I'll never forget.
Weakened
Determined, 
kept a slow pace.
Wearily 
Struggling, 
hoping for God's grace.
I need you now, 
more than ever
before, 
please help me make it
to that hospital door.

A friend

A friend is someone who stands by you through life's ups and downs.
Someone who wears no false armour or hidden crowns.
A friend cries with you during your saddest of hours, and rejoices when you reach your highest towers.
A friend will never cross the line with the one you love, but will have a listening ear, when you shed those tears.
A friend reaches out to shake your hand but touches your heart wherever you stand.

Only forty tears away

Whenever we loose someone through rejection, or as in death they depart, then we realize a heartache is only forty tears away. 
So, let me show you this,
Death is not the reason for the sorrow in my heart but each and every season the tears do impart. 
I carry with me, the pain of yesteryear, the pain that brings forth those forty tears.
Memories of you rest ..  heavy on my heart, not having you near me sweet ....... Name it, continues to tear me apart. 
You are a part of me, you are my genes, my blood. 
Without you in my life is like a blossom without a bud.
Let us not go to our graves with issues unspoken, and carry the pain of togetherness broken.
We must mend the seams and put together that precious mould. My God gave us each other in ... in trying times to hold.
I want to put all the pieces together and set the record straight, taking all negative forces and throw them out of the gate. Having you back in my life would return the missing link. Of that I'm certain ...... Oh here where are again .......... Name it, 
I also can think, on it to another forty years.
The time is here and now, please mend with me, forgive me if you really also can see. The bottom line is…..there is a woman in my thoughts, whose image is clear. This woman I miss tear after tear.
When the wind blows and the trees swish and even the hiss of a garden hose within the midst.I stand and ponder, oh yes, everybody knows. I do not keep a secret my friend, my love ...  still grows. 
People near and far away, people whom I treasure dear, I share my thoughts, my hopes, my fears, again here comes those forty tears. they all know of this precious sisterly love.
Today I'm sending this to you, I hope the meaning in my words clearly come through. I'm reaching out gently and calm, sweet, So, i think it's the time to throw all your fears.

Just like that

Once bird signed in grams white rose decided to admit her to love but rejected
I don't love you, she continued to admit her daily and finally
She has white rose when the color red will love you
One day, came flying off and publish his blood on the pterygoid rose it turned color to red, I realized how much I love it but rose jumper time was too late because the bird had died
Therefore, we must respect the feelings of the person who loves us and will remain an important days passed before loves us
To die

With All my Senses

Love is a precious and most beautiful emotion, which flows like a rivers stream, through endless tunnels of hopes and dreams. A picturesque view of a sunset new capturing our hearts once stained with blue. Love lives within our hearts and lingers within our soul, completing a body whole. Through valleys, hills and mountains high, love soars like an eagle as time goes by. Love holds the key that opens the door revealing a brilliant star, shining on forever more. True love builds a wall of protection, knocking down all barriers bearing revenge. It lacks animosity and holds on to an infinite positive glow, presenting sensations of warmth soothing to the soul. Love is for everyone to have and to hold. An intermingling of joy and happiness, a treasured new beginning, love plants the seed to end the pain of travesty's brought on by greed of materialistic gain. Love is a remarkable desire to want all that is good for mankind. An act of endless forgiveness and kindness, Love harbours no grudge, nor cast a spell, nor causes the heart to sour or swell. Like a giant tower, love is great and has much power, it provides a reason to live. Love encompasses all humankind, a oneness sought so divine. Love gives kindness to beauty and beasts and it's compassion for the earth will never cease. Love is like a quiet walk in the rain enjoying the scent of flowers in bloom. Love carries with it a stream of sensual passion, an intimate powerful connection and a strong desire to commit to work together as one. Love can be seen in the eyes of our children, it can be viewed by the beauty that surrounds us and felt by the power of God. Love is the king of emotions and soars high within the realm of eternity. Love bears no hate and sheds no fear, it is a constant reminder of what we hold dear, no more revenge, no more Vanity. Love more than any normality.

Never Regret

Love is something that doesnt always bring happiness, sometimes good times will come sometimes bad times will, but those in love are never left pining forever.
just take heart and live life to the full.
Life is changing in every direction every moment, life is a new shade, and life is a new sunshine. Every moment on earth live life to the fullest for tomorrow might never come.
Someone to love you with all his heart is difficult to come by, should their be someone like that? He or she is the one for you be sure.
His or her hand you most take, for all you know is tomorrow might never come. In the realm of your eyes, should someone get close to you? Try a million times to control the creasy heart but it shall continue to beat wildly. But think its over this is the moment, this legend might not exist tomorrow. 

Empty Life

When happiness is just a dream. In memory's distant past. And marriage just a fantasy, Which never seems to last.

When laughter is unheard of

And frowns replace a smile

When people live in silence

And friends go out of style

When love is an unknown word.

And hate the thriving passion

When peace is far behind us

And war the latest fashion

When all these things come to pass. And every word's a hidden knife. Then people are merely shadows, Just living an empty life

When being touched

Every day's one more chance

To enjoy life's lovely dance.

Sun beams are so far from bright.

While everything seems so right.

As I absorb the morning's view, 

No doubt it's all because of you.

At times when life turns awry, 

I want the world to pass me by.

Frustration tries to steal the day.

Suddenly appears a hopeful way.

My positives rejoice anew.

No doubt it's all because of you.

Money might bring more to life, 

Relieving momentary strive.

But treasure is already mine

Why the sun always will shine.

What more is there I could pursue? 

The world is mine because of you. 

Remember Me "Arabic P."

اذكريني كلما الفجر بدا ناشرا في الافق اعلام الضياء

يبعث الاطيار من اوكارها فتحييه بترديد الغناء 

قد سهرت الليل وحدي بين الامي وسهدي

وانجلى الصبح وهلا وانطوى الليل وولى

فتذكرت الذي كان رواحا حين افنيناه انساً ومراحا

وجرى دمعي من فرط حنيني فارحمني قلبي وحني واذكريني

اذكريني كلما الطير شدا مرسلا في الدوح الحان الصفاء

ينصت الزهر الى انغامه فيحيين ببشر وانحناء

قد ظللت اليوم أبكي من أذى دهري ومنك

وشدا الطير وغنى وتناجي وتهني

فتذكرت الذي طاف بسمعي إذمرجت الكأس في كفي بدمعي

وهفا قلبي من طول انيني 

فارحمي دمعي وحني واذكريني

اذكريني كلما الليل سجا 

باعثا في النفس ذكرى الأوفياء

يعرض الماضي ويجلو صفحة

أشرق الاخلاص فيها والولاء

قد سقيت الحب ودي ورعيت العمر عهدي

وبدا لي ما الاقي من تباريح الفراق

فتذكرت ليالينا المواضي بين شكوى وتجني وتراضي

واشتكت روحي من نار شجوني

فصليني بالتمني واذكريني

Days turned,

Days turned , days passed between separation and quarrel then I met her ,
I forgot , we were not speaking ,
I even forgot all nights I stayed awake
I forgot ,my hearts ,blame and perplexity
I don't know how I spoke to her ?
I don't know how I spoke to her
I cant be separated from my love..
Who else I have…. except her ,
I met her and her's eyes was longing
She said hello
,took my hand in her,
and whispered, she was mistaken ..
at once I forgot why we were separated ;
all the tears that I could not sleep from , for nights
were forgotten with one smile of her eyes
the most bitter torture
and the most beautiful torture
torture of love to lovers,
I can't be patient for one day when she is away ..
Patience needs patience itself ,
They described to me patience ,
I found it is nothing, but fantasy and words of love ;
words that are only said
where can I go from my heart
our beautiful nights are everywhere ..
We filled them with love
and filled the world with hope,
hope and love...
I pity all lovers
they are puzzled ,
they can't be patient ..
I can't be patient for one day ,
when she is far away ..
Dawn appeared after separation ,
with its rosy color
morning light woke up happiness
and said to love ,: come on , we will be happy ..
From happiness ……….
I was lost in happiness ,
From my happiness
I can't sleep or wake up!
and I found myself
living with you in a beautiful spring
between endless longing and longing that started.

Your Vanity

Be ye happy, if ye may, 
In the years that pass away.
Ye shall pass and be forgot, And your place that you got
Other generations rise,
With the same hope in their eyes
That in yours is kindled now, and the same light on their brow.
They shall see the selfsame sun
That your eyes now gaze upon,
They shall breathe the same sweet air,
And shall reck not who ye were.
Yet they too shall fade at last, In the twilight of the past
They and you alike shall be, lost from the world's memory.
Then, while yet ye breathe and live,  
Drink the cup that life can give.
Be ye happy, if ye may,
In the years that pass away,
Ere the golden bowl be broken,
Ere ye pass and leave no token,
Ere the silver cord be loosed,
Ere ye turn again to dust.
And shall this be all,' ye cry,
But to eat and drink and die?
If no more than this there be, Vanity of vanity!'
Yea, all things are vanity, And what else but vain are ye?
Ye who boast yourselves the kings, Over all created things.
Kings! whence came your right to reign?
Money, power, is that how you think
Yet for this, your one brief hour,
Wield your mockery of power.
Be ye happy, if ye may,
In the years that pass away. 

Vanity

Don't afraid miss' Shirley, i don't feel the pain

your words about my vanity can hardly hurt me now

you are still here, that was all i need to know

and you will keep me save

and you will keep me closed 

and rain, makes the flower grows

i can heal my wounds, with words of love

Just hold me kindly, and let it be

Shelter me, comfort me

you washed all my past, and you kept me save, and you kept me closed

i slept in your mind at least what a wonderful place

i breath away from the place you are, Now sky start to be clean at last

So, don't afraid miss' i don't feel the pain .. you here,  you have the sixth sense, that was all i need to know,

So, i rise the clarity flag, no vanity anymore.

Bribing the Nurse, Angle of death

2/29/2012, 11:03AM
Now i'm grateful by name and actions
to all the stuff, starting from my Doctors and ending with all angels, hiding myself again under the bed blanket otherwise it's still rain
Be happy that i have another day, To enjoy all your treasures and say,
"Thank You" to an Almighty who loves me so
That despite my frailties. I must know, my salvation is His concern…
So thank God with my actions in return.
Only then will eternal life
Ensure my happiness from earthly strife.
O my God, all patients have them angels of mercy, why i have this angel of death,
now i'll pretend asleep, just to let her disappear ..
Everyday one more chance appears, to enjoy life flower
nectar's, Sun beams are so far from bright, 
While everything seems so right.
.. I really start to be angry, Why she's keeping shout on my face, i thought later i can complete

When Spring Come.!!

Some people go looking for happiness. 
Some prefer power or beauty wealth and fame. 
Some crave intensity.
Some seek peace.
Some search for food and shelter. 
Some want to die with a good name. 
Everybody takes their lead from the way they came.
And everyone says they're looking for love though no one knows what it looks like.
They try to fit their thoughts to their words like skin they can touch that doesn't scar like the moon or shed like a petal too delicate for the senses but most just end up trying to mummify the mind stream .. by laying thousands of years of star maps down on troubled waters like autumn leaves, that don't know where they're going.
Eventually everything's swept away in the undertow of a dark ocean, that only smells sweet from a distance.
And longing shifts like infra-red into the blackness.
And bones on the moon are the only signs, nobody landed on Moon that life once perished here.
Orphic skulls whose jaws dropped like gates before their own gaping prophecies.
Time flows like a non-existent future into us and it fills us with a hunger
for everything we've lost or feel somehow was always missing.
One of the cardinal features of the emptiness we are conceived again and again out of is there's nothing behind its face you can fix like an identity to space.
For fourteen billion years the universe has been nothing but one long beginning must have an end, making everything up as it goes along out of nothing
like a man whistling down a long road .. far from home, late at night .. to let anything that might be listening in the darkness. know he's there so nothing can take him by surprise.
And every step he takes. he steps across a threshold like a star
just coming into being, whose light goes off in all directions looking for blind water it can turn into eyes.
Bosons hadrons leptons neutrinos wimps and quarks the deeper you look into the matter; the more you realize out to the furthest galaxy and beyond .. seeing is being and being is all fireflies.
And every one of them is true north of nowhere.
Some people follow their own beginnings like laws into the future, hoping to become someone else that doesn't recognize them anymore for who they were.
The peduncle's lost in the ensuing phylum.
Not because their future's rich but their past is always poor.
The planet doesn't spin on its axis for them.
It's hinged like a door that only opens one way though God face, that begins them like last year.
But the leaves of autumn aren't the laundered money of spring, because if our fulfilment weren't already behind us, we wouldn't be here trying to true the last to the first, of an unfinished multiverse like the best to the worst as if red were the past of blue.
Stop thinking birth is the past of death or spring is the future of winter as if they weren't the same breath and one breath of life weren't enough to keep the fireflies glowing in your ashes for eternity and everywhere you look you will flower like a vine; that divines its way to the wine by ripening the grapes of gratitude.
You will understand, for all that you have grasped and brought to fruition
I most exalted aspiration, is a heap of dead branches in the spring
burning like leaves of fire. still reaching out for the sun and you will hear the mind-mirror whisper to itself.
like the wind on far off waters
Narcissus is drowning in his own reflection like the flashback of a life he left unlived but everything is immersed in me .. like a mind
like a sea in a fish that ran aground on the uncharted land falls of its own teaching.
And the wine will flower in your mouth like a grail that's given up preaching
and finally found its own voice like a bird returning to a tree at nightfall to call out in its solitude, to the stars as they appear
we are here we are here we are here, where we belong at peace with everything we're missing
everything we long for
everything we are and are becoming
that overtakes us like music from within transforming ..
the silence into song
the water into wine
small beings into a big space
looking into the passing face of everything's that's mortal about us
with our eyes fixed upon the divine not to see it in any one place but with the presence of mind. to be wholly and impurely not that not this, without anywhere a trace of ultimacy in this world that we take for a sign, we are here we are here we are here and things are as they are not as they must be.
Nothing got here legally.
What's the expanding universe if not a refugee in its own country, somehow exiled from itself for reasons only it can express?
Citizen Universe
She should show me,
show me her true papers, her paintings
show me how we should dance on our own first Symphony
show me how i put our children to sleep
show me what her weep for, what her delight in, what her esteem, what her despise, what her ignore, what darkness of her, feeds that inferno of stars above her, burning its constellations like passports, that aren't going anywhere, show me the black mirror, that says you don't belong here, like some misplaced night of the full moon, not marked on any calendar
show me the law of being human in her life, that says this little poor thing, has one and this little poor thing, has none
show me where it's written; the guest shall turn strangers away from his host's generosity like a dog at the door that bares its teeth at the table
show me the home-made honey of her wisdom
show me the dead lamps, of the apocalyptic fireflies, that designed your chaotic cosmology by plagiarizing the light to prove the stars don't reserve a space in the universe, for any insight of her. Nothing got here legally.
No one followed a coyote or a law to cross the border into this insurgency of being. No one checked the colour of your eyes or profiled the light to see if they were fit for seeing.
You don't need a constitution to verify your liberty.
Well before you were born you were free and ever shall be to belong here as we all do.. to pursue what makes us
sad mad bad or happy
the way we all got here
the way we all get through
the way we're all alone here together with one another as we are with you,
as we are with her and him and me,
as we are with everything,
as we are with ourselves
when we don't know who we're becoming
when we don't know the stranger on the bridge watching the water flow that's waiting to greet us on the other side in the only way the unblighted heart of reality
we're all looking for like blood on a grail-quest for our humanity, accepts the darkness that seeks us out like a miraculous elixir of insight
so the kingdom won't fail
so the garden doesn't ask us for a green card to know and grow
in the only way we truly belong here
in the only way we know how to be
so the lifeboat we're all in .. like the same boundless mind, is always as full
as it is empty, so no one gets left out at sea
like a wave that couldn't be saved and no one gets in who doesn't know how to swim, the way we all got here .. and continue to be
all these thresholds of the sea that steps across us even as we move like waves
breaking discipline with our own continuum creatively.
Just to be there,
Just to crawl up on the shore of a new medium, like a refugee planting flowers
we brought from home hoping we'll still be there to watch them bloom.
i also accept the challange, but not to win or lose, in love both of the gamer will win, finally but not the End, i even do not know if the spring bloom attention was mine.
i'll never give up, even i can try until the last breath in my chest.




Hosp.. 3:00AM, under the bed blanket 

Bribing the nurse .. little pain

New Note 22
date, 2/28/2012 ... time, 20:58
After bribing the nurse with a box of chocolates, Just to bring my pc To the intensive care room where I'm lay down
A white bed, half dead and half wishing to heal from what i feel,
No one knew where I'm but my closed friends,
hiding the tears from me, while i saw them fall
encourage me to fight, my disappointed soul
That made my mind slide in a big hole
If everything happened to a reason, which one was that for.
Patients howling through the night,
Holding the bed pillow too tight,
I'm not afraid from death, it's just the chaos
here she is coming again, to tell me What i'll gain
in fact, outside it's rain, but inside .. too much pain
now i'm a case number 247, what's a ridiculous
Anyway i need to pray, i need to find determination way
Each one thought, money can bought anything
but, let me note,
Money can buying everything, but extra time to live, it's not.
i'm just grateful to whom, let me knew that;
the most three precious words in any language is,
"things always Changes"
Oh God, as much as you feel my pain, i really miss her deeply more.

Expanding universe

Out of so much experience 
so little to signify it
in a language 
extraterrestrial life could understand
about our relationship with gravity 
and what's crudely human about being a human
we don't even have in common with ourselves. 
Out of so much sorrow 
so many tears shed 
like oceans of wounded salt 
like bruised orchids of blood 
like the light years between windows 
living next door to each other 
there is so much vastness between us 
in an expanding universe 
in the way we reach out to each other 
like the stars in wavelengths of farewell
toward the red end of the spectrum. 
Out of so much radiance 
so much shining 
not even the ash of anything 
to show for it 
when the last ghost has left town
with leaving so much 
as a love letter of smoke 
propped up against the mirror.
Out of so much that was seen once only for good 
and for a moment understood 
until we started thinking about it 
my eyes taste of what they've seen 
like iron apples ripening in the rain 
no one can take a bite out of 
to improve their education
by learning how to bury the dead 
because most of what I've seen 
is pain without insight 
pain without eyes 
like impact craters in the skull of the moon.
A war of windows in a world without vision
without stars 
without dawn and moonrise.
Viral eyes that abhor stained-glass 
as much as they do the godless clarity
of the most advanced telescopes
playing Egyptian roulette with the stars
to prove the Big Bang was cosmic suicide
and we're here like living proof of the afterlife 
of its bad karma
like a hunting religion in an agrarian society. 
Out of so much mystic specificity 
so little sense of earthly union 
in the fractious sameness 
that tries to blame everyone else 
for why things are falling apart 
as fast as they're coming together. 
Five petals open. 
And no flower blooms.
The sun rides a victory chariot through desert.
The moon a death cart through a slum. 
But the stars know
how much the night keeps to itself.
How much it can't say
when the silence clears the sky of birds. 
How much there is to express 
that leaves even the dead speechless. 
Out of so much verbiage 
so many words
so many opinions
stuck like bats in burrs 
just beyond the porch light.
Out of so much hatred of life 
out of so much hatred 
of light and water 
air earth and fire
compressed like a fist of coal 
around the blood diamonds of the ideologues
who write political suicide notes 
for whole nations by proxy 
who don't know how to bleed for themselves
or convince the dead 
they died for someone else. 
Out of so many words 
so many civilizations 
from the Tower of Babel 
to the New York Metropolitan 
with your narrow thinking that I am ignorant Egyptian
with its polyglot fire alarms 
warning Alexander 
about the approach of Caesar
and his love to have you as his own queen
Out of so many voices 
that spoke like trees in the wind 
or out of burning bushes
and the light of the stars
or the thunder that follows the revelation
that it's raining on a lifeless Mars.
Out of so much clamour and noise of insight. 
Out of so many whispers of stars 
and rumours of waves 
held up to both our shell-shocked ears 
that found us washed up on a beach somewhere 
after some serious weather.
Out of so many poems and paintings and heartfelt polygraphs.
Out of so much confessing. 
Out of so many speeches.
So many prayers and blessings
So many dead languages that carried their mother-tongue 
like mitochondria in the DNA of their mouths
down through the generations 
so that every living word 
contains the corpse of a metaphor
like a mummy under a pyramid 
or Nbms king catching his breath
to be interviewed
about a life after death 
that looked exactly like his
when he woke up to this all over again
with nothing much to say about anything. 
Out of so many with so much to say 
how few are listening 
as if their lies depended on it.


"In the recovery room, 6 hour's before making my third lung surgery"
I said "true story" but you used to hear the lies, 

Things ... lost in water

No distance ever separates dreams and desires
No mirror ever dissolves reflection of water In one's eye
What graph would you make of lines of thought?
The triangle of pain Is without any angle
Countless races .. Have dreams alike
But sleep and night watch, Are never the same!
Names are forgotten, Codes alone come to mind
In nuclear setups
A moment of brightness, In a light year
Breaking into smithereens
In a million eons
An accident .. yes, But not an event
History is continuity .. Broken once
Telescopic eyes, tired out, My regret telling me to give up at once , Their distance watching .. watching the lost planets
Bygone epochs, Have no interposition.
Who will look for a desert flowers, In spring fresh hands
Who will see dreams, In eyes ... yours and mine
In centuries to be?
No one is sure of things ... lost in water or raindrops !!

How far we all are

And I love it out here this far into my solitude
where the stars are as high and holy and out of reach
as they always were
and everything that is finished irrelevant or gone to waste
discovers a secret peace in its exile and desolation
that doesn't distinguish one light in the night from another
and there isn't a road you can take that was meant for someone else.
Even when the wind blows the leaves around
like things I should have said to myself years ago
like things I should have known
that don't come with a Buddha or a book
heavy with bells and the blissful fruit of wiser autumns
everything takes its place
in the spaciousness of an infinite center
the dislocated cannot exit
and even those who have found themselves
to be nothing real
cannot enter.
It's as if all things were wounded so deeply and expansively
by the wary act of their existence
the dagger of circumstance and chance
can't find a place to strike
and so there's nothing to heal
nothing to fear
nothing to watch out for
that could hurt you any worse
than everything already is.
The wind on the water that trembles like skin
and the scales and feathers of the tangerine moon rise
shedding its wings on the serpentine mind stream
that flows off into the distance like a dragon
someone forgot to believe in
because they thought they grew up.
And time doesn't ask itself what night it is
or the fish the depth of the water
and the flight plan of the hunting hawk
if it has one
is merely what catches its eye.
Parsifal the mottled fool
leaves home with the grail in his saddlebag
and it makes no difference to the kingdom
whether he finds it or not.
The first shall be last and the last shall be first
and then the grass eats the grazer who ate the grass.
There's nothing to change
that hasn't already been brought to pass
by the leftover leaves in the birch trees
that abandon their bones like old shamans
down by the banks of the river in spring
for the fish and the birds to pick clean.
The silence is moss on the skull of a rock
sprouting elegant chandeliers of columbine
that hang their heads like streetlights
over a long road with no one in sight.
So what could it possibly mean to be a stranger
among your own feelings and thoughts
when there are no gates you can stand outside of
and the enlightened beginning of the waterlily
as five petals open
and one flower blooms advaitistically
is rooted like a deep insight into a mirror that rots?
Is the coming any less endless than the going?
Or an ignorant life any less life than knowing
you can't know what you're seeking
until it finds you like someone it overlooked?
The empty heronsnests high
in the dead trees of the swamp
are full of moonlight
and everywhere I walk
frogs punctuate the sloppy grammar of the water
that unspools like one long periodic sentence that's never complete
as if the world hasn't finished saying me yet
like something it means.
My delusions rise like waterbirds from a moonlit lake
to go witching for water among the stars
and I let them knowing they're
the indirections by which we find directions out.
First you go down a lot of rivers
and then you take the road.
There's a scaffolding of dark matter
we wore on the outside like an exoskeleton
and dark energies
that exhausted themselves like slaves
so we could walk erect in our watchtowers of flesh
like the ego of a candle with a spine for a wick.
Black bones buried somewhere
that once were us.
Churches that wandered off the beaten path like gravestones.
Dark sanctities of a dead lawgiver
that entrusted the truth to a liar
as if the night had a sense of humor.
And everything is as it is without discrimination
in the eyes of the light that falls upon us
as if we didn't exist
though as far back as I can remember
my spirit has always cast its shadow upon the earth
like Venus on a moonless night
and my body laboured
like a prophet with a whale in his belly
to spread the word.
And subtlety of subtleties
wonder of wonders
my mind got a good look at what it isn't
and spontaneously learned
to be playfully creative
with the absurdity of being here
whispering into my own ear
like a wind that talks toflowers
descended from the stars
about how far we all are from home.

Run Away

It would be amazing to run away, 

To not have to worry about one more day, 

To feel the wind pushing against my skin

To feel the tears fall down my cheek, 

Not having to worry about anyone but me, 

The same old people I wouldn't have to see, 

It would be amazing to run away, 

To never come back, 

Day after day,